Starting a new thread for those of us transferring in January!
Just had my baseline scan today and everything looks good to start taking estrodiol tomorrow working towards transfer on 1/8. This is our third FET (2nd with a PGS normal embryo). Doing the same protocol as last time as RE just thinks we were "unlucky" with the last one. I am hoping there will be some better mojo in the air once the calendar turns. FX for all of us January!
Re: Jan 2021 IVF/FET
@mouse39 looks like we literally might be on the same schedule day-by-day. I started BC 3 days ago and have a follow-up with my RE on 1/4, though not a baseline yet. Are you just taking BC for suppression? Or something else too? Wishing you luck!!!
TW; child
Happy Holidays/Seasons Greetings/Merry Christmas to everyone! Hopefully 2021 will be a better year than 2020 lol
Summer 2015 - no BFP yet, labs normal, referred to RE
Fall 2015 - Summer 2016 - Further testing all normal. 3 IUI's -- BFN. Recommended move to IVF. Planned cycle for fall 2016.
September 2016 - Surprise natural BFP. MMC @ 8 weeks. RE expressed confidence that we just needed the 'right' embryo.
Fall 2016 - Spring 2017 -- Break from TTC
June 2017 - Started IVF; egg retrieval for freeze all cycle. 9 mature eggs retrieved, 5 fertilized. 2 4BB embies on ice.
August 2017 - FET transfer both embies. BFP. Twin pregnancy confirmed by ultrasound. EDD 4/28/18
September 2017 - Twin B stopped developing; Twin A doing perfectly! Graduated from RE @ 10 weeks
March 2018 - Baby Girl born via C/S due to pre-eclampsia -- strong and healthy!
TTC #2
January/Feb 2021 - Freeze-all IVF cycle
March 2021 - FET of 1 PGS normal female embryo. BFP! Beta #1 156, #2 472, #3 1241, #4 5268 EDD 12/5/21 - Christmas baby!
"When all is lost then all is found."
This morning she apologized for the meltdown and wished me a nice holiday break...and I still find myself unable to answer.
@thezaltyberger during my journey battling IF for years (turned out to be male IF, plus with age I got ovarian disfunction) I realized - I don’t care any more about what other people think, and I don’t have to appease to them to make them happy if it hurts me. Trust me, it was so much easier....because I started to think what is important for my emotional well-being. Some people said that I didn’t have any empathy or I’m rude, but I didn’t give a crap any more (sorry for my language). I remember when at a family gathering my mother in law was holding my sister in laws baby and told me “oh look how cute he is, want to hold him?” - I said NO and walked away. I didn’t care what they thought of me, because obviously they didn’t. What is important is how you feel right now. What also helped me was just telling people upfront, but again it put me in the “rude” category. I told once that I don’t like other people’s kids, it hurts just to look at them, let alone hold. I don’t tell you to take my approach, as it is kind of harsh.Do what works for you and what is good for your emotions well-being. **TW Child**
Being on this forum helped me, I wasn’t bitter any more, and I didn’t experience the same feelings towards people who got pregnant here. Probably because they understood me and my pain. We were upset together for other girls’ losses and were happy together for other people’s successes. After I got my son it all changed, now I’m not that porcupine that can’t look at other kids, my heart melted. *End TW* IVF works, some times not from the first try, but it is very effective and has high success rates. Concentrate on positives💕 We are all here if you have a bad day and want to share.
She apologized this morning about her meltdown and wished me a happy holiday break. I didn’t acknowledge the apology and just wished her the same. If she reaches out again, I think I have to tell her that I need to take a break from talking. It seems impossible because we talk almost every day, but my therapist said that either she’ll be there when I’m ready again, or this was a one-sided friendship in the first place.
Thanks again, @du@dukie001 - I feel stronger today thanks to you.
The mixed feelings you get, especially with close friends and family, can be so difficult to navigate. My sister had two babies (my two perfect little nieces) while we were trying to just get pregnant and stay pregnant; the first one she announced at a family dinner at a nice restaurant by surprising my parents with a book about being grandparents -- I had to basically bite through my lip to keep from crying in front of everyone. The wine at the dinner helped. She's a smart girl but I don't think, in her excitement, she really thought how such a public and surprise announcement might impact those around her. She did much better the second time and privately told me over a phone call before she announced so I had time to process everything. Her second pregnancy, however, was significantly more difficult for me since my m/c pregnancy would have been due just a month after my second niece. She and my mom worked very hard to make sure I had space during that time, even while they were excited and celebrating.
One thing that really helped me, strangely enough, was really focusing on being an awesome aunt and enjoying my nieces, even spoiling them a little bit. I don't know how that would work with you and your friend, but perhaps, once the baby does arrive, you can take some enjoyment in this new chapter.
I might suggesting asking for a little space from your friend so you have time to process everything and then maybe once you are in a better place, you can involve yourself at whatever level you want. Your therapist is absolutely right -- if she's a true friend, she'll be there when you're ready and be happy to respect whatever needs you may have regarding her pregnancy or baby (not being the main outlet for baby/pregnancy talk, etc).
Summer 2015 - no BFP yet, labs normal, referred to RE
Fall 2015 - Summer 2016 - Further testing all normal. 3 IUI's -- BFN. Recommended move to IVF. Planned cycle for fall 2016.
September 2016 - Surprise natural BFP. MMC @ 8 weeks. RE expressed confidence that we just needed the 'right' embryo.
Fall 2016 - Spring 2017 -- Break from TTC
June 2017 - Started IVF; egg retrieval for freeze all cycle. 9 mature eggs retrieved, 5 fertilized. 2 4BB embies on ice.
August 2017 - FET transfer both embies. BFP. Twin pregnancy confirmed by ultrasound. EDD 4/28/18
September 2017 - Twin B stopped developing; Twin A doing perfectly! Graduated from RE @ 10 weeks
March 2018 - Baby Girl born via C/S due to pre-eclampsia -- strong and healthy!
TTC #2
January/Feb 2021 - Freeze-all IVF cycle
March 2021 - FET of 1 PGS normal female embryo. BFP! Beta #1 156, #2 472, #3 1241, #4 5268 EDD 12/5/21 - Christmas baby!
"When all is lost then all is found."
A few hours later and she’s sending me pictures of her Christmas dinner. I find myself unable to respond. I know how much it hurts her when I ghost because I’m upset. I’m not doing it on purpose. I just have to look out for me right now before I can look out for her.
Together since 2007, married since 2010
Baby girl born: 7/12
Baby boy born: 10/15
IUD removed 3/2018, TTC naturally until Summer 2019. Seeing RE since 8/2019.
Current DX: blocked fallopian tube.
IUI #1 (9/19): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel --> BFN
IUI #2 (10/19): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel --> BFP
Missed miscarriage and D&C: 12/19
IVF #1 + PGS: March 2020 [5R, 4M, 3F, 2B, 0 PGS normal]
IUI #3 (6/20): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel —> BFN
IVF #2 (8/20): changed clinics to try new protocol [7R, 6M, 4F, 1 biopsied so far, waiting on PGS results]
Ugh, that can be annoying when people share more than you ask them to. I have the opposite issue -- I would be happy to share our journey with family, but my parents have asked us to be quiet about it since we have some people who are very religious and it might upset them (to see doctors 'playing god' or something like that). So basically everyone remains quiet about everything. After my daughter was born, my grandmother said to me, "But we thought you didn't want any kids! We just assumed..." And I burst into tears because obviously that was soooo far from the truth, but that seems to be the default of what people assume if you've been married awhile and don't have kids.
Welcome @minnesotalove ! My first transfer was two untested embies and resulted in my daughter, so fx for you! We can only do one embryo moving forward because I got pre-E with my daughter at 35 weeks.
Summer 2015 - no BFP yet, labs normal, referred to RE
Fall 2015 - Summer 2016 - Further testing all normal. 3 IUI's -- BFN. Recommended move to IVF. Planned cycle for fall 2016.
September 2016 - Surprise natural BFP. MMC @ 8 weeks. RE expressed confidence that we just needed the 'right' embryo.
Fall 2016 - Spring 2017 -- Break from TTC
June 2017 - Started IVF; egg retrieval for freeze all cycle. 9 mature eggs retrieved, 5 fertilized. 2 4BB embies on ice.
August 2017 - FET transfer both embies. BFP. Twin pregnancy confirmed by ultrasound. EDD 4/28/18
September 2017 - Twin B stopped developing; Twin A doing perfectly! Graduated from RE @ 10 weeks
March 2018 - Baby Girl born via C/S due to pre-eclampsia -- strong and healthy!
TTC #2
January/Feb 2021 - Freeze-all IVF cycle
March 2021 - FET of 1 PGS normal female embryo. BFP! Beta #1 156, #2 472, #3 1241, #4 5268 EDD 12/5/21 - Christmas baby!
"When all is lost then all is found."
Also- to the good friend who wrote above regarding having very mixed emotions when asked to support their friend's pregnancy reveal- I _totally_ get it. One Xmas, 6 of my 8 younger female cousins and 2 of my 4 sisters, were all between ~3-7 mo pregnant; for all but two it was a first pregnancy. I sat around that very happiness and excitement filled Xmas table dying inside. Over the years I made peace with my situation, and although it was easier to deal with all the kids everywhere (and they just kept coming), it never was fun. Since I was more private regarding my desires, many folks just concluded that I didn't want kids.... and those that knew had no idea how hard it was on me to be present and engaged in their children's lives sometimes. Everyone on this board gets it and sends you a huge hug of support. Sometimes, hopefully, having your pain acknowledged helps (or so it did for me). Thankfully it sounds like you and your good friend have strong relationship and hopefully open communication will help. Maybe just learning how you feel will help you both navigate the changing situation going forward.
Moving here to you from Dec FET, I’m having chemical. I still have to do another blood test to ensure that numbers drop tomorrow, also will stop my meds and wait for AF. Agh...yet another chemical. Hopefully I’ll have better luck next year!
@betterlatethannever7 @emilynoel810 thank you ladies so much for your support ❤️ A few days have passed and my friend has been texting me like everything is completely normal, but I have not been able to let go the shock and hurt from her insensitivity. We set boundaries a few weeks after she told me she was pregnant and subsequently said some really insensitive things. The boundaries were: 1) She wouldn’t ask me about my infertility - I’d share with her if I felt that was right for me 2) She wouldn’t seek support from me about pregnancy-related things. She has a number of happy mama friends who had smooth pregnancies and happy, healthy kids, so I wouldn’t be leaving her with no support system and 3) That if I was upset, I wouldn’t ghost her, I would be upfront. So obviously she crossed a boundary in a really egregious way. At the time I told her that I couldn’t support her and she said thanks for telling me, I understand. What she doesn’t know is that I spiraled and spent a few hours crying uncontrollably, those big hot tears and sobs that haven’t come out of me in years. On one hand she didn’t intend to do that, it wasn’t on purpose. On the other hand...use your brain? Stick to our agreement? Are my standards too high?
I drafted an email to her, wanting to reinforce that she crossed a boundary in a way that ended up being really detrimental to me. I haven’t sent it yet. She’s been sending me memes, cake recipes, and photos of her new house as if everything is completely okay. Because she IS okay. What do you think I should do? Just try to let it go alone?
Together since 2007, married since 2010
Baby girl born: 7/12
Baby boy born: 10/15
IUD removed 3/2018, TTC naturally until Summer 2019. Seeing RE since 8/2019.
Current DX: blocked fallopian tube.
IUI #1 (9/19): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel --> BFN
IUI #2 (10/19): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel --> BFP
Missed miscarriage and D&C: 12/19
IVF #1 + PGS: March 2020 [5R, 4M, 3F, 2B, 0 PGS normal]
IUI #3 (6/20): 50 mg clomid + Ovidrel —> BFN
IVF #2 (8/20): changed clinics to try new protocol [7R, 6M, 4F, 1 biopsied so far, waiting on PGS results]
Hi everyone,
I've been off the boards for a little while so just getting caught up. We are TTC #2 and in August after our 3rd FET I was pregnant, but the baby had abnormalities and down syndrome. I was having complications with the pregnancy as well and we made the tough decision to terminate the pregnancy. So, I am back now and hoping to do our next FET either end of January or February, depending how long the clinic makes me wait.
I had my first cycle come back December 21st and we also had our remaining 9 embryos PGS tested. We have a follow up appointment on January 12th to go over the results.
Hoping 2021 is a better year for all of us!
test (sorry)
I am okay. Grateful for the holiday break. I told that friend I was writing about earlier that I didn't want to talk for a while. She said it felt unfair. We technically made up because she explained that in her head, she was complaining about her brother's behavior rather than the baby reveal, but she now sees what I saw and she's sorry. I can't really ask for anything more than that. She said she couldn't text her other friends because they celebrate Xmas (I don't) and afterward I couldn't help but wonder...why did folks quietly exchanging gifts at home get more consideration than my mental health? I am not making any big decisions now, but I'm not sure how I'll actually get past this with her. Even if IVF works, a little one won't erase her lack of consideration, this time and previous ones.
I saw two friends last weekend and they shared that they're expecting #3. That really gave me some perspective. I found myself completely able to be thrilled for them, separately from my situation. I shared some of my journey with them, and they just draped me in mountains of love. Their joy and my struggle are not mutually exclusive. It confirmed that I don't actually have a problem with parents or pregnant women. My "friend" above is just genuinely being a jerk.
No news from my insurance company, though the clinic says that getting approval by next week is realistic. I'm starting my third week of birth control and the clinic basically told me to just keep taking it (only the active pills) until we get approval, which just feels so weird. It's definitely messing with my moods and poor DH is bearing the brunt of my irritability.
Please keep me posted on how you're doing @dukie001 and I'll do the same. Your support has meant so much to me these last few weeks.
I just found out about my new position. It’s a teaching job (a class of brand new lieutenants...God help me), not exactly what I was hoping for, but we’ll see.
By the way, thumbs up for you dealing with your friend(s). You are strong, be proud of yourself!
@sfield21 Sorry you had to come back here. I was sobbing reading your story, I’m so sorry you had to go through it. Hopefully this time around the outcome would be healthy and happy baby
We’ve been bickering in a way that’s completely not normal for us. I feel extremely alone, which also isn’t normal. I’m worried this does not bode well for all the hormones that are still waiting for me down the line. Today was a low day