@christycalifornia oh hey twin. I literally just got home from the ER. I had some light spotting earlier this week and then some bright red blood this evening that scared the hell out of me. I say you should go. It’s so hard to not know. I couldn’t deal with it.
The good news: Baby has a strong heartbeat, is in the right place, and the bleeding has stopped for now. Also, the OB resident spent some time looking at my uterus (its tilted) and thinks she maybe identified why I had this bleeding with my son and maybe this baby.
The bad news: According to my LMP, baby is measuring about 8 days behind. I’m guessing It’s possible that I ovulated late....i didn’t get a positive HPT until about 5 days after when i thought my period should be due. So confusing.
So now I get to worry all weekend. Luckily my first appointment with my OB was already scheduled for Monday afternoon, so I should know more then.
Meagan Married 6.12.10 DS 11.8.12 Baby GIRL! due 7.4.18
@christycalifornia Oh jeez, I'm so sorry for the stress you're going through. That was me yesterday. I don't have much advice I can give on this one, but just wanted to wish you luck and health, and peace of mind. Hoping for a happy update from you soon!
I don’t think I’ve posted here yet as i was afraid of so many triggers but finally got the guts. So sorry to all you with losses, you are all so strong!
I got diagnosed with endo at 23 yrs old (now 29) and was in no stage in my life to have children. My doctor kept telling me sooner than later. For about 5 years i underwent Lupron (6 months of menopause), surgery and endless birth control. I finally met my husband and married Jan 2015. Since i had been having ongoing bleeding issues for over a year we decided to let it happen. After 3 months of nothing my doc recommended another surgery plus flushing my tubes (early April). Surgery was successful and a tube was unblocked. I started to test around mother’s day since we were going camping for my husbands bday. I continued my bleeding issues so figured we were not successful. Upon returning from our trip i randomly tested as i showered. My husband got to see the positive. My doctor immediately got me in the next day since i was bleeding and did blood work. We were over the moon! We told everyone! When i went back for my second blood work the doc said it was no use. My levels were too low and i was going through MC judging by the amount of bleeding. That was the end of it. I felt like i was drowning. Like my body failed me once again at something a woman should be able to do. I had my days of silence at the beach and prayed. I think my husband told the bad news to others as i just couldn’t stand seeing people at the moment.
We started trying with a month and got pregnant with my son son after the second cycle. I had to be on progesterone and bedrest all first tri. Intermediate bedrest during second tri and full disability during third tri. No baby shower took place and i was a nervous reck the whole time. I developed ppd after delivery.
I an trying to remain positive this time around but It’s been hard after all this. And I continue to mourn for my first.
@christycalifornia keep us posted! I woke up with bright red bleeding when I wiped on Wednesday night/early Thursday am. I was convinced this was it. When I finally got up on Thursday there was barely anything, just a little bit of brown. I've not done anything either to irritate, so super weird.
@christycalifornia hope the spotting goes away soon and all is ok! I started spotting yesterday morning with cramping that started Thurs night. So far it has only been brown and on call RN said to rest and see how I felt. I haven't gone to the ER yet but hoping it goes away or stays minimal till Monday when I can call my doc. I did have a small SCH in my ultrasound on Wed so I hope its that and nothing horrible comes from it.
Hi everyone, I've been lurking the board a bit and decided to share on the PGAL thread. I had a miscarriage this summer, I was nine and a half weeks. The US was devastating, I was alone with my 9 month that old and immediately saw that there was no heartbeat. I was recording it to show my husband and turned off my phone and started talking to my son. I burst into tears, those body shaking sobs. When I got back to the exam room I started nursing my son to comfort us both. The entire experience devestated me. I had to plan a D&C, I hemorraged afterwards and had to go back to the hospital. Afterwards I continued nursing my son. I had planned on nursing through the pregnancy but started weaning at 12 months because of the MC. It was a sore reminder every nursing session of what I lost, rather than what I already had. I wish I had hoped better. It took us five months that to conceive again. I'm barely four weeks today. I've had the pregnancy confirmed by blood, but knowing it is so early, and knowing that seeing a heartbeat on an US isn't a guarantee that the pregnancy will thrive is taking all of the joy from these first days.
I am so sorry reading all of your stories. I'm sorry that any of us have to go through this. It gives me anxiety to scroll through and read that some ladies are leaving the board and they are further along than me too (
No more spotting after that initial bout, so I think I'm fine. I appreciate everyone's kindness. I was going to go to the ER as several of you urged, but I found out last night after I posted that my grandma finally passed and I didn't want to be alone at a hospital. She was a few days shy of 97, and like a mother to me. She's the only grandparent I've ever had. We were very close. I'm so grateful she's not suffering anymore; she's been hanging on through pretty much everything a body can go through in the last few years. I'm grateful, but this is a hard morning for me. At least I'm not bleeding. Praying everything's okay, and for no more stress for us all. Sorry to all the other momma's going through bleeding, I'm praying for you.
@artemis618 sorry for the late tag but I am catching up this morning and am so, so sorry. I was so hopeful for you and will continue holding on to that hope for your next retrieval.
@christycalifornia I am so sorry for the loss of your grandmother. Sounds like you have a pretty awesome angel in your corner now, if you believe in that stuff.
So just a little update: I went in for an U/S yesterday, no sac seen and uterus and ovaries looked normal. I have continued to bleed quite a bit and pass what looks like clots and tissue. My OB was still concerned for an EP so I had another beta drawn after my appointment with her and it dropped down to 308. So I will have another beta on Monday and hopefully it will keep dropping. If it has not decreased or has increased I will most likely be admitted to the maternity floor for methotrexate (fingers crossed that does not happen!).
@MelissaMay82 that's good (bittersweet) that they dropped. Literally crossing everything for you.. I hope your levels fall quickly and you can get some closure! Sorry you've got to go through all that.
I wish I could scream at my uterus to be normal and let me see my baby's heart beat. It's all I need right now. We've never gone through an early loss, our two losses were in the 2nd and 3rd trimester. I'm feeling bitter today, my friend had a scare this weekend and got to see her baby and the healthy heart beat (happy for her truly I am as anyone knows you never wish a miscarriage on anyone) but still bitter because I didn't get the same thing today after everything we've gone through. It's all I wanted, was an easy ultrasound... hey here is baby and here is baby's heartbeat. Thankfully on my pregnancy after infertility group on fb someone else shared that they too have a tilted uterus and made me feel slightly better. I'm measuring over a week behind. How does this even happen? Is it concerning?
We have two sleeping beauties in heaven. Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016. Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015. They will be forever missed.
@bdesterhouse I also have a tilted uterus and I had to hold my breath and let the tech dig the US wand up and to the left to get a glimpse of my LOs hb at my first ultrasound (6ish weeks). It's super hard for them to measure stuff with a tilted uterus so measuring a bit behind isn't overly concerning at this point usually.
@bdesterhouse I have a tilted uterus also and when I was in the ER on friday they had the baby measuring 6 weeks 6 days. Yesterday at my OBs office they measured it at 8 weeks. I think being this early it’s really tough to get good measurements. I know how you feel because I was really worried also, but there are lots of stories where this situation turns out positive. Hoping for a good outcome for you!
Meagan Married 6.12.10 DS 11.8.12 Baby GIRL! due 7.4.18
Re: Rainbow Babies... post may trigger some.
The good news: Baby has a strong heartbeat, is in the right place, and the bleeding has stopped for now. Also, the OB resident spent some time looking at my uterus (its tilted) and thinks she maybe identified why I had this bleeding with my son and maybe this baby.
The bad news: According to my LMP, baby is measuring about 8 days behind. I’m guessing It’s possible that I ovulated late....i didn’t get a positive HPT until about 5 days after when i thought my period should be due. So confusing.
So now I get to worry all weekend. Luckily my first appointment with my OB was already scheduled for Monday afternoon, so I should know more then.
DS 11.8.12
Baby GIRL! due 7.4.18
I got diagnosed with endo at 23 yrs old (now 29) and was in no stage in my life to have children. My doctor kept telling me sooner than later. For about 5 years i underwent Lupron (6 months of menopause), surgery and endless birth control. I finally met my husband and married Jan 2015. Since i had been having ongoing bleeding issues for over a year we decided to let it happen. After 3 months of nothing my doc recommended another surgery plus flushing my tubes (early April). Surgery was successful and a tube was unblocked. I started to test around mother’s day since we were going camping for my husbands bday. I continued my bleeding issues so figured we were not successful. Upon returning from our trip i randomly tested as i showered. My husband got to see the positive. My doctor immediately got me in the next day since i was bleeding and did blood work. We were over the moon! We told everyone! When i went back for my second blood work the doc said it was no use. My levels were too low and i was going through MC judging by the amount of bleeding. That was the end of it. I felt like i was drowning. Like my body failed me once again at something a woman should be able to do. I had my days of silence at the beach and prayed. I think my husband told the bad news to others as i just couldn’t stand seeing people at the moment.
We started trying with a month and got pregnant with my son son after the second cycle. I had to be on progesterone and bedrest all first tri. Intermediate bedrest during second tri and full disability during third tri. No baby shower took place and i was a nervous reck the whole time. I developed ppd after delivery.
I an trying to remain positive this time around but It’s been hard after all this. And I continue to mourn for my first.
fx it is nothing!!!
Married: 6/27/2008
DS: 3/14/2010 Planned, PG first try
M/C 6/2012
DD: 4/22/2013 Planned, UnDx Infertility, PG on our own
BFP: 10/28/2016 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE!
M/C 12/12/2016
BFP: 10/27/2017 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE
EDD: 7/2/2018
Keep us posted! Keeping you in my thoughts!
I am so sorry reading all of your stories. I'm sorry that any of us have to go through this. It gives me anxiety to scroll through and read that some ladies are leaving the board and they are further along than me too
I hope we're all here until the end.
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@wildtot thank you for sharing your story. I hope you find some good support here!!
DS 11.8.12
Baby GIRL! due 7.4.18
@christycalifornia so sorry for your loss, your grandmother sounds like she was a great person. I'm glad she's no longer struggling.
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
@christycalifornia, so sorry to hear about your grandmother.
@MelissaMay82 I’m sorry that it’s ended up this way, hope that you don’t have to go through with MTX.
@wildtot glad you’re here, too, but sorry to read your story (and for all of our past losses). At least we can be a source of support for each other.
@artemis618 so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself.
@MelissaMay82 I was hoping for a better outcome for you. I hope it’s not an EP and you can take it easy the next few weeks.
@artemis618 Very sorry for your loss. Thinking of you.
@MelissaMay82 That's tough. I'm so sorry.
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
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Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
DS 11.8.12
Baby GIRL! due 7.4.18