I just need to feel sorry for myself for a minute. I feel like a crappy mother. A has been awake for the past 5 hours, crying if she is not held. Won't go in the wrap, won't sit in the swing, rock and play or bouncer. Nothing but holding, and even then she has been crying for the last 45 minutes because she is so tired. Plus my 3.5 year old is screaming that she hates the baby because she hogs mommy. So I'm sitting here crying because my one daughter is screaming that she hates me and the baby and the other crying because she refuses to sleep. Nothing physically wrong with her. My DH travels a lot for work and is currently gone, so I am all by myself. I just feel like a failure as a mother tonight.
I know it sounds like I have PPD, I actually have bi-polar disorder, and take medications and see a therapist. I'm just having a really bad night.
Thanks for listening
If I could, I would give you my cheesecake! You are not a bad mother!
Hey RTT I just need to share this article. My Dad is one of the 93 patients in this study! He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 3 years ago and until 6 months ago was cancer free on this vaccine. He's currently undergoing chemo for a small liver tumor. Fingers crossed he can return to this program when he gets a clean scan!
That's exciting to hear of a promising treatment for pancreatic cancer. It's tough watching a loved one battle cancer. I hope your dad responds well to the chemo so he can get back in the trial.
MC #1 January 2013 DS born 4/06/14 MC #2 August 2015 CP November 2015 MC#3 January 2016 BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
I just need to feel sorry for myself for a minute. I feel like a crappy mother. A has been awake for the past 5 hours, crying if she is not held. Won't go in the wrap, won't sit in the swing, rock and play or bouncer. Nothing but holding, and even then she has been crying for the last 45 minutes because she is so tired. Plus my 3.5 year old is screaming that she hates the baby because she hogs mommy. So I'm sitting here crying because my one daughter is screaming that she hates me and the baby and the other crying because she refuses to sleep. Nothing physically wrong with her. My DH travels a lot for work and is currently gone, so I am all by myself. I just feel like a failure as a mother tonight.
I know it sounds like I have PPD, I actually have bi-polar disorder, and take medications and see a therapist. I'm just having a really bad night.
Thanks for listening
You are not a horrible mother! Everyone is pushed to their limits sometimes-- hopefully everyone can get a good night sleep!
DS normally sleeps in a rock n play. We are traveling this week and only have access to a pack n play.. Sleep has been horrible hubby just ran off to buy a rock n play
It appears A has fallen asleep while fish-hooking himself. He hasn't figured out his thumb yet.
I'm jealous that your baby can sleep without a swaddle or pacifier!
It's been a rough transition out of the swaddle. This is the first time he's fallen asleep without it on his own! He has never taken a paci. I just decided to take the band-aid ripping approach and ditch the swaddle and move to the crib at the same time.
Yesterday me would be sure jealous of me now, too.
We're taking the rip the bandaid approach tonight too, well DH is. I'm hiding downstairs since it doesn't seem to be going well.
Welp...doc put me on Valium for two weeks to reduce the anxiety and panic attacks until the Prozac kicks in. I hate that I went nine months without drugs and a med free labor only to have it come to this.
In other less depressing news: I just realized that Catlin Stark is Hermione's mom in Harry Potter. That is all. Gonna post siggy challenge tomorrow and lurk for the rest of the eve.
Hugs to all you mamas out there having a tough time! This mommyhood stuff is harrrrd.
I'm so excited to have that lactation cookie recipe @swerbtastic3351 !! Also the smoothie one sounded awesome, too! My Vitamix and I are BFF, so I'll have to try it.
First time tonight attempting to initiate a bedtime "routine". He has been falling asleep in my arms in the living room, and that really wasn't the greatest plan. So far I've successfully put him down once only to have him wake up 20 mins later. Now we are rocking and fighting sleep. C'mon boo...mama is sleepy.
One week until back to work. I love being a nurse, but I'm jealous of you ladies who have your own office for pumping! Hoping my shifts are easy enough I can slip away...
I love reading this and having all our LOs at similar stages. Chase is all about eating his hands these days and has fallen asleep or soothed himself back to sleep a few times now. Makes me sad he's getting so big! Besides the fact that the 2 year age gap with kids is hell I wish I was pregnant only not really since we absolutely can't afford 2 in diapers and 3 kids 3& under.
Urgh!!! First night in a long time that LO is in bed asleep early, we are about to sit down to dinner and DH looks out the window. The neighbor's effing cows are out on our drive and headed to the hay meadows to trash them. So DH is now outside trying to round them up and I can't help because of obvious reasons. There goes our evening. Sorry. I know this pales in comparison to others' real problems, but it is still frustrating.
Poppy I know it feels like a let down to need a little help but I'm so glad you are getting help to get through this rough patch. I hope hubster is getting help too, it sounds like when it gets anxious for one of y'all it gets anxious for both. Hopefully when things get easier y'all feed off of each other that way too!
@PoppySeedWindsor Fellow anxious mama on meds here! I'm sure it'll be worth it once everything kicks in and you are feeling better. Way to reach out and get help when you need it! I've been on one antidepressant or another since the age of 13 minus one year med-free a while back. Hate taking them, but I know without them I'd be a wreck. Hoping you get to feeling like yourself soon!
Urgh!!! First night in a long time that LO is in bed asleep early, we are about to sit down to dinner and DH looks out the window. The neighbor's effing cows are out on our drive and headed to the hay meadows to trash them. So DH is now outside trying to round them up and I can't help because of obvious reasons. There goes our evening. Sorry. I know this pales in comparison to others' real problems, but it is still frustrating.
Sorry your evening was ruined. That sucks!
~Missed MC at 8 weeks. D&C at 12 weeks on 4/17/13~
Urgh!!! First night in a long time that LO is in bed asleep early, we are about to sit down to dinner and DH looks out the window. The neighbor's effing cows are out on our drive and headed to the hay meadows to trash them. So DH is now outside trying to round them up and I can't help because of obvious reasons. There goes our evening. Sorry. I know this pales in comparison to others' real problems, but it is still frustrating.
This is a real problem. And cow patties are nasty. Ain't nobody got time for that.
Anyone else's boobs seem to be producing less milk all of a sudden? DS seems to be aggravated at the boob lately and I pumped two different sessions today to only produce 2 measily ounces. So frustrating.
Thanks everyone for the kind words! Having 2 is very hard! Both kids are asleep, I'm going to eat ice cream for dinner. Hopefully they both stay asleep for a couple of hours.
Anyone else's boobs seem to be producing less milk all of a sudden? DS seems to be aggravated at the boob lately and I pumped two different sessions today to only produce 2 measily ounces. So frustrating.
Yes! Hence my sudden urge to make lactation cookies. Downing oatmeal stout too...
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
@sakm I've had to do that before because some cows showed up on out street. We had to drive them off the road before they for hit by a car. Country living problems?
Thanks everyone for the kind words! Having 2 is very hard! Both kids are asleep, I'm going to eat ice cream for dinner. Hopefully they both stay asleep for a couple of hours.
Enjoy your ice cream, you deserve it!
MC #1 January 2013 DS born 4/06/14 MC #2 August 2015 CP November 2015 MC#3 January 2016 BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
Apparently it is not a good week for hiking. Apparently we are missing a second hiker this week. Except this one is 75 and on Mt. Whitney with no supplies!
Anyone else's boobs seem to be producing less milk all of a sudden? DS seems to be aggravated at the boob lately and I pumped two different sessions today to only produce 2 measily ounces. So frustrating.
Yep. Reluctantly setting the alarm on my phone for extra night pumping. :-w
Funny you say that because I thought about doing the same thing.
Jumping in here. @jodibolivar and what a crazy, wonderful, year it's been!
All is quiet at my house for the moment, even the dog is still sleeping! This momma is happily sipping her coffee in peace. Even if it lasts 5 minutes, I'll take it!
Eta- being a mom is hard. It's even harder when DH isn't around or doesn't help out. Can I just quit for the day? Or have a few hours off? DH said no because he can't do his job and my job. Sigh....I'm just asking for a nap.
I try not to complain about baby sleep because I know there's always somebody who has it worse, but, man....I'm wiped out. Little guy's been getting up 3x/night for the last few nights. That combined with my working 10 hour days and getting up at 430, and I feel like a zombie. I know it's only a phase. I know it will get better. It's still annoying though. Lets just call this the 4 month sleep regression!
BFP: 7/5/10 EDD: 3/13/11 Miscarriage 8/1/10 at 8 weeks
BFP: 10/30/10 EDD: 7/7/11 Born 7/11//11 7lb12oz, 20 in.
BFP: 7/30/13 EDD: 4/9/14 Born right on time on his due date! 8lb10oz, 21.5 in.
Awesome prophetic fortune cookie: Love is a present that can be given every single day you live
I started my first day of being 28 off with the wrong coffee from dunkins... don't be a sign of the year ahead
Happy belated birthday, lady!!!! Dunks is the ultimate abusive relationship- you love them, but they continuously treat you badly. Buuuttt you love themmmm.
@mamrotu73 thank you for your service! Will you still get to fly every now and then?
DH is a farmer and last night was his first long night until harvesting is done. I kept DD out of her crib (but asleep) until he got home at 10. He was so thankful that I hadn't put her down yet so he could see/hold her for a few minutes. Melts my heart. :x
@jellysparkles they started harvesting pickles yesterday, they also grow dry beans (reds, light reds, and blacks) and corn.
Does harvesting pickles = harvesting small cucumbers?
This is an argument I've given up on in my house, lol. But yes, they are pickling cucumbers. Although one of my SILs suggested yesterday that her Botany professor said there was a genetic difference between the two. I'm not convinced.
Today is not going to be a good day. I'm on day two of abdominal pain and don't know what to do about it. I'm getting fed up with living with other people. Baby won't sleep and rocking/bouncing/sitting with him makes my pain worse. Can it be Aug 25 yet? I would love to move back to NY and live in my OWN house with my DH. This stinks.
Re: Longest Thread EVER! (aka Random Thoughts Thread )
DS born 4/06/14
MC #2 August 2015
CP November 2015
MC#3 January 2016
BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
DS born 4/06/14
MC #2 August 2015
CP November 2015
MC#3 January 2016
BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Can't breast feed for three weeks. Balls.
I'm so excited to have that lactation cookie recipe @swerbtastic3351 !! Also the smoothie one sounded awesome, too! My Vitamix and I are BFF, so I'll have to try it.
First time tonight attempting to initiate a bedtime "routine". He has been falling asleep in my arms in the living room, and that really wasn't the greatest plan. So far I've successfully put him down once only to have him wake up 20 mins later. Now we are rocking and fighting sleep. C'mon boo...mama is sleepy.
One week until back to work. I love being a nurse, but I'm jealous of you ladies who have your own office for pumping! Hoping my shifts are easy enough I can slip away...
I love reading this and having all our LOs at similar stages. Chase is all about eating his hands these days and has fallen asleep or soothed himself back to sleep a few times now. Makes me sad he's getting so big! Besides the fact that the 2 year age gap with kids is hell I wish I was pregnant only not really since we absolutely can't afford 2 in diapers and 3 kids 3& under.
Fellow anxious mama on meds here! I'm sure it'll be worth it once everything kicks in and you are feeling better. Way to reach out and get help when you need it! I've been on one antidepressant or another since the age of 13 minus one year med-free a while back. Hate taking them, but I know without them I'd be a wreck. Hoping you get to feeling like yourself soon!
Sorry your evening was ruined. That sucks!
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
DS born 4/06/14
MC #2 August 2015
CP November 2015
MC#3 January 2016
BFP 5/11/16 EDD 1/19/17
@jodibolivar and what a crazy, wonderful, year it's been!
All is quiet at my house for the moment, even the dog is still sleeping! This momma is happily sipping her coffee in peace. Even if it lasts 5 minutes, I'll take it!
Eta- being a mom is hard. It's even harder when DH isn't around or doesn't help out. Can I just quit for the day? Or have a few hours off? DH said no because he can't do his job and my job. Sigh....I'm just asking for a nap.
I know it's only a phase. I know it will get better. It's still annoying though. Lets just call this the 4 month sleep regression!
BFP: 7/5/10 EDD: 3/13/11 Miscarriage 8/1/10 at 8 weeks
BFP: 10/30/10 EDD: 7/7/11 Born 7/11//11 7lb12oz, 20 in.
BFP: 7/30/13 EDD: 4/9/14 Born right on time on his due date! 8lb10oz, 21.5 in.
Awesome prophetic fortune cookie: Love is a present that can be given every single day you live
@mamrotu73 thank you for your service! Will you still get to fly every now and then?
DH is a farmer and last night was his first long night until harvesting is done. I kept DD out of her crib (but asleep) until he got home at 10. He was so thankful that I hadn't put her down yet so he could see/hold her for a few minutes. Melts my heart. :x
This is an argument I've given up on in my house, lol. But yes, they are pickling cucumbers. Although one of my SILs suggested yesterday that her Botany professor said there was a genetic difference between the two. I'm not convinced.