@adirat- YAY!!! so glad you can get started I am just one day behind you!! Its so interesting how some do estrogen pills orally, vaginally or estrogen patches. We start with patches and add in the pills if needed.
@irisheyes81- lots of prayers for your thyroid to get it together asap! Can they up your dose of thyroid meds if needed?
AFM- Finally- a good update! Donor had a great baseline and has an AFC of 21!! let's do this!! Patches start tomorrow for me and stims for her on Sunday. Praying this will FINALLY be it!
History in Spoiler
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
@JamieH2000 Woohoo That was my first gif. I hope it works. That's a great baseline!!
@adirat That's such a relief there were no delays and it was no big deal. My thyroid was always higher than they wanted but never hypothyroid or anything. I started synthroid four months ago but nobody I couldn't take vitamins with it and I took a little break after retrieval. Bad idea.
Me: 36 DH: 33
TTC since June 2016
Me: PCOS DH: Morphology 1%
3 TI with Famera and trigger shots-BFN
3 IUI's with Famera and trigger shots- BFN
IVF August 2017 25 eggs retrieved, 19 mature, 13 fertilized (ICSI), 5 frozen, 3 PGS normal
FET November 2017 Transferred one 6 day blast (a little GIRL) BFP EDD 8/4/18
Medical delays definitely suck. I'm always amazed by what the doctors feel is important and what they leave out. I had a preconception consult per RE referral and the MFM wanted me to do a EKG and 24 hr urine, LAST YEAR, but no one mentioned it to me. 2 IVF's and a FET later a new RE at the clinic reviewed my records and is refusing to move forward until everything is done to his standard. Oh well, it's done now and all tests are up to date and normal.
@dragonette505 I had a polyp removal done in Feb and full IVF in March. It didn't delay my cycle at all. It was so minor, aside from the GA I could have gone right back to work with no issues. I don't know how I'd feel about waiting until ER, especially if it's going to cancel the fresh transfer you wanted to do. Could they do the polypectomy (if it is a polyp) now or would it still affect the transfer?
AFM: I have blood work on Friday to confirm ovulation then I start Lupron. We're looking at a transfer around 11/13. I'll be doing vaginal estrace and PIO to get ready. I'm trying to sneak in minor foot surgery before the transfer. That's scheduled for 10/24. I'll have a temporary pin for 3 weeks but should get it out around transfer time.
Melissa 39 - DH 45 TTC # 1 - 4 years, 7 IUIs, 3 IVF, 1 FET, 2 M/C, DD 2015 TTC # 2 - IVF # 4 March 2017 Long Lupron, 150 Gonal F, 150 Menopur 21R, 12M, 7F, Transferred 2 Froze 1 - BFN FET # 2 May 2017 - BFN IVF # 5 Sep 2017 - Antagonist, no BCP. 200 iu Follistim, 150 iu Menopur, Cetrotide started day 5, Lupron trigger 19R, 13M, 12F, No Transfer - 2 "beautiful" blasts frozen FET # 3 Nov 2017
Yaaay @JamieH2000!! So happy your donor is ready to go! And AFC of 21!? Bravo to her ovaries!
Also the difference in protocols between clinics is really interesting. I had estrogen tabs and crinone already from when I was planning for a fresh transfer. When we had to switch to a frozen transfer they wanted me to do estrogen patches and PIO instead. Well crinone isn't cheap so when I complained they said I could use that but for sure I couldn't use the estrogen tabs so I had to buy the patches.
@adirat I'm glad that cyst was nbd. I should also be transfer buddies with you and @artemis618. I'm scheduled for 11/4. I haven't been updating much because I feel like I'm just twiddling my thumbs so far but I am on Lupron and I have baseline Monday. If all is well I will start estrogen patches Monday as well.
My response I mean it's hard to decide without all the info. I dunno. Maybe if she tells me 3 months I might just roll the dice and transfer.... ps @funkykey that gif gave me life!! Lol made me stop pouting long enough to laugh!!
OK, I know we're splitting hairs here and it's time to move forward. But in light of your communication today, I REALLY CANNOT BELIEVE no one mentioned it yesterday, and you had to follow-up!
I mean, this isn't my first rodeo - I know that the more you speak up and the more questions you have, the more your clinic will pay attention. But still - things like that are why you have to speak up, and such a good example of how you have to manager your own healthcare!
Anyway, moving on... Good luck these next few days while you figure out what's going to happen next. I hate all the delays! IF sucks!
@dragonette505 “I believe I mentioned this to you.” What!!!! While you were anestesia? Come on! You always respond in such a kind way. I would have lost it.
Me: 36 DH: 33
TTC since June 2016
Me: PCOS DH: Morphology 1%
3 TI with Famera and trigger shots-BFN
3 IUI's with Famera and trigger shots- BFN
IVF August 2017 25 eggs retrieved, 19 mature, 13 fertilized (ICSI), 5 frozen, 3 PGS normal
FET November 2017 Transferred one 6 day blast (a little GIRL) BFP EDD 8/4/18
@adirat I had 3 "residual follicles" after stims. I did 2 weeks of bcp and it resolved itself. And here I am on lupron and patches prepping for my transfer on 10/26
@dragonette girl! Always something!! Just make sure you get all the info from the doc.
@tinjp78 any word on AF? @Irisheyes81 youre almost at the prep phase! You wanted to try the lupron protocol right??
@sunnyrain2 even though this was discussed a couple days ago, I feel ya on being disconnected. I just go through these motions, some days I feel like an ass because I'm not emotionally involved. It's obviously a way to protect myself from getting hurt, but I also feel guilty for not being more excited.
Afm: I started the patches and they can kiss my butt. The headaches are so strong and the crying is out of hand. I cried when I saw an old man walking his old dog, not like I shed a tear, I full on bawled! I just need to stop feeling like this, I'm over it. Also, I think I've been a little down lately, as my FET date gets closer I feel less and less physically prepared. I'm scared, that's what's driving my uncertainty. Anyone else freaking out and kicking themselves for things like "I haven't lost enough weight"
@coco305 I'm with you on the freak out. Since I missed my 1st day of AF 6days ago, I never really reacted so much since I'm tied up with my grad school papers, but now it's getting to me. I'm worried, sad and confused. My dr said on the phone the other day that I might not have ovulated that's why af didn't come and my FET would probably be cancelled for this cycle (tentative sched was 10/11), but why didn't she stop my GnRH agonist nasal spray which suppresses ovulation so that I can ovulate next cycle? I don't want to waste more time. I POAS this am and bfn still. DH also is so determined to change from our hospital now to a new clinic, he thinks they're still inexperienced in that hospital.
@dragonette505 it bothers me why anyone would discuss something crucial to someone who still has anaesthesia and fresh from a procedure. They probably haven't been through it and doesn't not know it in fact.
@JamieH2000 I'm excited that your status is progressing. Pls keep us posted.
I can't imagine it would be that long @dragonette505. My only hangup now is they didn't have availability to do mine last wednesday, so now it's this wednesday, and then as far as actually transfer, it's more of a scheduling issue than a body issue. Retrieval, AF, polypectomy CD6-10 (or BCPs like me and then whenever), then four days to heal, then start estrogen ~12 days, lining check, 5-6 days PIO prior to transfer. Not sure in my case if I'll be hanging out on estrogen longer or what, bc I "should" be able to transfer on the 10th, but due to my manager's vacation that week, we're doing it the following Friday. So I mean I'm sure it deoends, but that seems to me like the long end being Oct 18-Nov 17, fx your scheduling would work out smoother, but no reason it has to be 3 months or anything exorbitant. ;)
@dragonette505 Yeah "I told you after anesthesia" is not compelling
@coco305 I'm sorry the patches are such a drag I hope you feel better soon. I'm also more freaked out about the FET than about IVF...since we were always freeze-all it feels a lot more real now? Or something?
Why freaked out? @adirat. I had some definite excitement after we got our second freeze report. Now I'm just tired and over it and wish we were transferring already! So beyond ready to get this show on the road.... what are you nervous about FET?
Also my FET may be literally on my due date for the baby girl I lost (edd Nov 3, fet will be Nov 1-3) which is dredging up a lot of bad and guilty feelings.
@coco305 - I'm freaking out and excited at the same time. I'm scared that it won't work, and that something will happen to delay this more. I'm so hoping it works, and I want to move forward.
But at the same time, no part of me wants to start on the hormones again. I'm at least 10 pounds heavier than I was when I started clomid, and all of the weight is stubbornly sitting on my hips and ass. (Interestingly, I've read that this is about where estrogen will slow your ability to release fat - on the lower body). Since finishing IVF, and without doing much, I've lost about 5lbs, but I'm still not at my pre-clomid weight. Ugh. I miss my nice clothes. When I think about adding a pregnancy on top of this?
And besides the weight gain, I find I'm more anxious when I'm on the drugs. Like on BCP or the IVF drugs, I was more anxious - I don't want to feel like that again. And it's been really nice not having to pay OOP for anything this past couple of months - my bank account, mental health, and ass are all like: "Really? An FET? Already?"
Of course, I'm not going to listen to them and I'm going to press forward. But yeah, as excited as I am, it's not like I love the fertility treatments, you know?
I have a friend here who did IVF for her daughter, and since she had the baby, she's lost so much weight - she's now 30lbs lighter than her pre-pregnancy weight, or something. And she only gained like 20/30lbs while she was pregnant. She's like: "100% my pre-pregnancy weight was high because of infertility and the associated stress and pain. " So that gives me a lot of hope!
@adirat - yeah, getting to the FET is like entering a whole new phase! And that, for me at least, is super scary... I've seen people discover whole new aspects of IF once they get to FET - like failed transfer after failed transfer, or issues with uterine lining, etc. I'm terrified.
@adirat I'm completely freaked out too. I wanted time to pass so fast leading up to retrieval and now I'm scared all the time. I wish I could be as excited and hopeful as others. I bet your loss is making it so hard. I really feel for you.
Me: 36 DH: 33
TTC since June 2016
Me: PCOS DH: Morphology 1%
3 TI with Famera and trigger shots-BFN
3 IUI's with Famera and trigger shots- BFN
IVF August 2017 25 eggs retrieved, 19 mature, 13 fertilized (ICSI), 5 frozen, 3 PGS normal
FET November 2017 Transferred one 6 day blast (a little GIRL) BFP EDD 8/4/18
@funkykey Its always something (as @coco305 put it perfectly) I guess it all comes down to my body is a jerk and wont just make me a baby so I have to go through all this BS and it still might not work. Lol, yeah, that's my biggest issue. And we have to put ourselves into the hands of these docs. I think THEY felt like they had it all in order and had a plan and I just needed to show up for it. That's not how it works for me, so shes going to have to get with my program.
@irisheyes81 I felt like my response was a bit terse (well, not very wordy anyway so open to interpretation) But as my momma says: never piss off someone whose doing a service for you... she meant the hair salon or at a restaurant, but I think the lady going into my vagina to help me make a baby is on my list I'm trying to let her know the level of communication I require without pissing her off...yet.
@coco305 I get it... as you get closer the stakes are higher... All of our hopes ride on those microscopic embies they are putting back into us. If it fails, where do we go from there? These results are life changing. It is all the pressure in the world, and sometimes we cant carry it all without some of it leaking out. YOu are totally justified in your feelings. I would just say.... there is EVERY possibility that this works for you. There is EVERY reason to be hopeful. We are all here for the hope. You are doing this because you do have hope. Lets not count out your body just yet! So sorry the patches suck! Hopefully it gets better!
@Businesswife That's the great thing about the BCP's.... you can time things exactly! I cant really tolerate them so its all winging it and seeing how my body acts on its own (and let me tell you... its been quite the jerk from time to time)! lol
@adirat sending hugs... Its so hard to stay upbeat and hopeful... that's why we are all here! To remind each other we can do it! I'm so hoping that having your FET on your Due date will turn it into a miracle day instead of being totally sad.
AFM So, as @BusinessWife says, my doc says she'll snatch that polyp out during my ER and then I could transfer with my next cycle. I told her I'd roll with that plan so that's whats up! No transfer this cycle, but I'll probably still be around here anyway since yall rock and I want to keep up with the November FETcrew
Thanks friends. I'm so grateful to have this wonderful and supportive group of ladies doing FETs with me
@funkykey I know what you mean. I knew almost zero about that until I started reading about ERAs...It really does blow my mind that anyone ever gets pregnant with the myriad things that can go wrong! Here's hoping none of us have to worry about that though!
@adirat I’m right there with you (and @irisheyes81) as far as being freaked out. At first I was quite happy (thrilled, actually) with our PGS results from this cycle, but now I’m anxious realizing that we’re actually going to do this (our first transfer) and am also terrified it won’t work/stick. I’m trying to figure out how to calm down, and it doesn’t help that my acupuncturist told me yesterday that she’ll be out of town next week through the day before transfer.
I’m also sorry about your upcoming EDD. Ours was back in April on DH’s b-day (and weirdly, his mom and I have the same b-day - was kind of too storybook, right?). We took the day off and hiked up to where DH buried our little girl in our local mountains (I hadn’t brought myself to go there yet), and later that afternoon we learned that we’d finally gotten one PGS normal (after a first cycle with no blasts). Lots of emotions, but you have so many reasons to be optimistic about this!
I definitely wanted an ERA before when we only had one normal embryo, but I guess we’re kind of gambling now that we have a few more. Hopefully it will pay off...
@dragonette505. How attached/loyal are you to this new RE? I’m glad you have a plan (and know what it is now), but I don’t know how you do it.
@tinjp78 Have you typically ovulated “on time” after IVF cycles? After each of my first two, I ovulated between my normal days 14-16, but after my third one, I didn’t ovulate till day 21, then day 18 (after taking vitex) the following month. All these drugs do a number on our bodies and it’s frustrating when our bodies don’t cooperate.
@funkykey Thanks for sharing your friend’s experience - I’m really over hormones too (and all the free birthday sugar everywhere and my zero will power are not helping my diet/weight - I’ve given myself to the end of this week to consume it all then I’m off of sugar ). I had actually hoped to do a natural cycle FET (my old RE said I could), but then if it didn’t work, I’d have wondered if medicated could have made a difference. I just keep telling myself it’s only temporary and we do what we have to do.
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@dragonette505 I completely agree with your mom regarding being nice to people who are serving you in some way. It wouldn't help you to yell. However, you would be justified. I still can't believe the Dr. tried to talk to you while you were under anesthetic and also, it isn't clear from the e mail that conversation ever took place. 4 is a lot of clinics! You could write a book.
artemis618 What a nice tribute to your little girl! How do you like acupuncture? I've been going for about a year and sometimes I feel like it's life changing and other times I feel like I'm spending so much money. I'm going to start back up again for FET but was curious about your experiences.
@funkykey You're hilarious. The weight gain struggle is real. It started getting cold and I'm like, oh man I needed hoodie weather. I gained so much, especially right after retrieval. Will our bodies ever be the same?! I hope we all have similar experiences to your friend.
Me: 36 DH: 33
TTC since June 2016
Me: PCOS DH: Morphology 1%
3 TI with Famera and trigger shots-BFN
3 IUI's with Famera and trigger shots- BFN
IVF August 2017 25 eggs retrieved, 19 mature, 13 fertilized (ICSI), 5 frozen, 3 PGS normal
FET November 2017 Transferred one 6 day blast (a little GIRL) BFP EDD 8/4/18
@Irisheyes81 I generally find acupuncture pretty relaxing - I almost always fall asleep (unless i’m really anxious - like two days before my wedding I didn’t fall asleep). I’m lucky that I’ve had some insurance coverage for it (though not for infertility per se) in both of my last two jobs (so covering the last five years or so). My transfer will be about 40 miles from home, so I’ve just inquired about using someone local (my clinic has a list of providers, apparently) for on-site transfer day acu treatment (that will be totally OOP - but worth it if it calms me down some - my nurse is asking my RE for me if I can do Ativan along with the Valium or if it’ll be too much!). And I’ve made appointments with another local acupuncturist while my usual one will be out of town over the next couple of weeks, so I must feel like it does something for me!
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@artemis618 acupuncture calms me too! I took off going last cycle because ahead of time I thought it would just feel like one more thing to do... big mistake. I get 18 visits a year through insurance, but I'm all out... paying oop right now, but so happy I'm back going.
I am not here for Tila... <img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/qz/sd0jdurrun7q.gif" alt="" title="Image: https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/qz/sd0jdurrun7q.gif"> I'm here for Flav. <img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/l0/y1t4wpo6ark7.gif" alt="">
@dragonette505- Glad you have a plan! Hopefully transfer will be here ASAP! but please so stick around with us
You ladies are the GIF QUEENS! omg so funny! And also you ladies are soo strong. While I have been through alot, I have not been through a loss. I can't imagine. I really hope this board breaks allll records and we all get our BFP!
I second all of you on the weight gain.. I am trying so hard to be good! But this is already so stressful that its hard to add another thing to worry about!
History in Spoiler
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
@JamieH2000 - I second @Irisheyes81. That story is whack. I think about how awful that would be sometimes, just when I'm going about my day. Kudos to you if you didn't freak out at baseline, like: "WHAT THE F*CK!"... but maybe you didn't because you were in shock?
@irisheyes81 and @funkykey- well.. I did kind of freak out. Here is what happened. I went in early for my baseline and then into work like normal. I was in a meeting and saw the clinic calling so I stepped out bc I knew the clinic was going to call with instructions for me. The nurse said something like... well the Donor had her baseline and it turns out she is pregnant. I was just like what? And then she repeated it. And I started crying. I work in an open concept building so I was taking this call in a hallway and then ran to a stairwell and started crying more. I called my husband and he was just pissed. Then I had to text my coworker to take my stuff from the meeting back to my desk. And she came and brought me tissues. I then told my male boss what happened while crying bc I just couldn’t hold it all in. I then went home and worked from home for next 2.5 days until the weekend. It was definitely the closest I have ever come to a full breakdown, especially at work. It was not pretty and I literally just screamed on my drive home. So I did freak out... but no one really knows how much I except for two coworkers and a few friend and family. It was a dark week and why I have so much anxiety now about the whole process. Wouldn’t wish it on anyone...
History in Spoiler
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
1. Open concept buildings are the worst. I'm in a regular office now, but a few months ago, I had to take all my clinic calls in the parking lot out back, next to the alley with the (no joke) drug addicts. When they called with my day 5 results, I freaked out and cried while random homeless people/other regular people going about their days walked past me. Not a personal best.
2. Thank God for your co-worker.
3. Yeah, no sh*t you have anxiety!!! That is HORRIBLE!!! Like, it's hard enough avoiding pregnant women as it is. And then one comes and pops up out of no where, a woman who is actively telling other people "there's no way she could be pregnant" - who is actually in a contract to help someone who cannot get pregnant - and BOOM!: "wait a second, @JamieH2000 - F*CK YOU." Right at baseline, right when you've lined everything up, and gone through all the grief (so much grief!), and are just trying to get your life together and move forward and want to start a family like everyone else... Brutal!
I hope I'm not rubbing salt in the wound here. I just keep thinking what I'd do if that happened to me, and I think: "Wow, you really held it together. You're going to be an awesome mom."
Anyway, really keeping fingers crossed for you this cycle!!!
@funkykey and @adirat- aww ladies you are so sweet and your comments mean so much to me.. because most days, i don't feel strong at all or justified in being so anxious or weak because its hard to be around my friends babies/pregnant people. But looking back, I guess this has made me stronger than i ever thought i could be. Some days I do get the "why me", but then its amazing how so many others have still been through so much more than me! I just really hope my happy ending is near. Sometimes I do really wonder how much more I can take until I break. I don't want to keep testing that
I saw these in an online group and I must say these Ted Talks are definitely worth a watch if you want to see some strong women overcoming this journey:
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
Re: November FET
@dragonette505- any update from your RE?!
@irisheyes81- lots of prayers for your thyroid to get it together asap! Can they up your dose of thyroid meds if needed?
AFM- Finally- a good update! Donor had a great baseline and has an AFC of 21!! let's do this!! Patches start tomorrow for me and stims for her on Sunday. Praying this will FINALLY be it!
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!
@JamieH2000 Yes! SUCH better baseline news than before! AFC of 21 sounds great. So excited for you!
@adirat That's such a relief there were no delays and it was no big deal. My thyroid was always higher than they wanted but never hypothyroid or anything. I started synthroid four months ago but nobody I couldn't take vitamins with it and I took a little break after retrieval. Bad idea.
@dragonette505 I had a polyp removal done in Feb and full IVF in March. It didn't delay my cycle at all. It was so minor, aside from the GA I could have gone right back to work with no issues. I don't know how I'd feel about waiting until ER, especially if it's going to cancel the fresh transfer you wanted to do. Could they do the polypectomy (if it is a polyp) now or would it still affect the transfer?
AFM: I have blood work on Friday to confirm ovulation then I start Lupron. We're looking at a transfer around 11/13. I'll be doing vaginal estrace and PIO to get ready. I'm trying to sneak in minor foot surgery before the transfer. That's scheduled for 10/24. I'll have a temporary pin for 3 weeks but should get it out around transfer time.
TTC # 1 - 4 years, 7 IUIs, 3 IVF, 1 FET, 2 M/C, DD 2015
TTC # 2 - IVF # 4 March 2017 Long Lupron, 150 Gonal F, 150 Menopur
21R, 12M, 7F, Transferred 2 Froze 1 - BFN
FET # 2 May 2017 - BFN
IVF # 5 Sep 2017 - Antagonist, no BCP. 200 iu Follistim, 150 iu Menopur, Cetrotide started day 5, Lupron trigger
19R, 13M, 12F, No Transfer - 2 "beautiful" blasts frozen
FET # 3 Nov 2017
Also the difference in protocols between clinics is really interesting. I had estrogen tabs and crinone already from when I was planning for a fresh transfer. When we had to switch to a frozen transfer they wanted me to do estrogen patches and PIO instead. Well crinone isn't cheap so when I complained they said I could use that but for sure I couldn't use the estrogen tabs so I had to buy the patches.
@adirat I'm glad that cyst was nbd. I should also be transfer buddies with you and @artemis618. I'm scheduled for 11/4. I haven't been updating much because I feel like I'm just twiddling my thumbs so far but I am on Lupron and I have baseline Monday. If all is well I will start estrogen patches Monday as well.
i love you people
ive spent the day pouting and communicating a bit with my doc.
Heres the last comms
My response
I mean it's hard to decide without all the info. I dunno. Maybe if she tells me 3 months I might just roll the dice and transfer....
ps @funkykey that gif gave me life!! Lol made me stop pouting long enough to laugh!!
OK, I know we're splitting hairs here and it's time to move forward. But in light of your communication today, I REALLY CANNOT BELIEVE no one mentioned it yesterday, and you had to follow-up!
I mean, this isn't my first rodeo - I know that the more you speak up and the more questions you have, the more your clinic will pay attention. But still - things like that are why you have to speak up, and such a good example of how you have to manager your own healthcare!
Anyway, moving on... Good luck these next few days while you figure out what's going to happen next. I hate all the delays! IF sucks!
@dragonette girl! Always something!! Just make sure you get all the info from the doc.
@JamieH2000 yay for the donor being cleared!!
@tinjp78 any word on AF?
@Irisheyes81 youre almost at the prep phase! You wanted to try the lupron protocol right??
@sunnyrain2 even though this was discussed a couple days ago, I feel ya on being disconnected. I just go through these motions, some days I feel like an ass because I'm not emotionally involved. It's obviously a way to protect myself from getting hurt, but I also feel guilty for not being more excited.
Afm: I started the patches and they can kiss my butt. The headaches are so strong and the crying is out of hand. I cried when I saw an old man walking his old dog, not like I shed a tear, I full on bawled! I just need to stop feeling like this, I'm over it. Also, I think I've been a little down lately, as my FET date gets closer I feel less and less physically prepared. I'm scared, that's what's driving my uncertainty. Anyone else freaking out and kicking themselves for things like "I haven't lost enough weight"
DH also is so determined to change from our hospital now to a new clinic, he thinks they're still inexperienced in that hospital.
@dragonette505 it bothers me why anyone would discuss something crucial to someone who still has anaesthesia and fresh from a procedure. They probably haven't been through it and doesn't not know it in fact.
@JamieH2000 I'm excited that your status is progressing. Pls keep us posted.
@coco305 I'm sorry the patches are such a drag
Also my FET may be literally on my due date for the baby girl I lost (edd Nov 3, fet will be Nov 1-3) which is dredging up a lot of bad and guilty feelings.
But at the same time, no part of me wants to start on the hormones again. I'm at least 10 pounds heavier than I was when I started clomid, and all of the weight is stubbornly sitting on my hips and ass. (Interestingly, I've read that this is about where estrogen will slow your ability to release fat - on the lower body). Since finishing IVF, and without doing much, I've lost about 5lbs, but I'm still not at my pre-clomid weight. Ugh. I miss my nice clothes. When I think about adding a pregnancy on top of this?
And besides the weight gain, I find I'm more anxious when I'm on the drugs. Like on BCP or the IVF drugs, I was more anxious - I don't want to feel like that again. And it's been really nice not having to pay OOP for anything this past couple of months - my bank account, mental health, and ass are all like: "Really? An FET? Already?"
Of course, I'm not going to listen to them and I'm going to press forward. But yeah, as excited as I am, it's not like I love the fertility treatments, you know?
I have a friend here who did IVF for her daughter, and since she had the baby, she's lost so much weight - she's now 30lbs lighter than her pre-pregnancy weight, or something. And she only gained like 20/30lbs while she was pregnant. She's like: "100% my pre-pregnancy weight was high because of infertility and the associated stress and pain. " So that gives me a lot of hope!
@JamieH2000 - so excited for you!!
@adirat - yeah, getting to the FET is like entering a whole new phase! And that, for me at least, is super scary... I've seen people discover whole new aspects of IF once they get to FET - like failed transfer after failed transfer, or issues with uterine lining, etc. I'm terrified.
I'm so sorry about your MC. This shit sucks.
@irisheyes81 I felt like my response was a bit terse (well, not very wordy anyway so open to interpretation) But as my momma says: never piss off someone whose doing a service for you... she meant the hair salon or at a restaurant, but I think the lady going into my vagina to help me make a baby is on my list
@coco305 I get it... as you get closer the stakes are higher... All of our hopes ride on those microscopic embies they are putting back into us. If it fails, where do we go from there? These results are life changing. It is all the pressure in the world, and sometimes we cant carry it all without some of it leaking out. YOu are totally justified in your feelings. I would just say.... there is EVERY possibility that this works for you. There is EVERY reason to be hopeful. We are all here for the hope. You are doing this because you do have hope. Lets not count out your body just yet! So sorry the patches suck! Hopefully it gets better!
@Businesswife That's the great thing about the BCP's.... you can time things exactly! I cant really tolerate them so its all winging it and seeing how my body acts on its own (and let me tell you... its been quite the jerk from time to time)! lol
@adirat sending hugs... Its so hard to stay upbeat and hopeful... that's why we are all here! To remind each other we can do it! I'm so hoping that having your FET on your Due date will turn it into a miracle day instead of being totally sad.
AFM So, as @BusinessWife says, my doc says she'll snatch that polyp out during my ER and then I could transfer with my next cycle. I told her I'd roll with that plan so that's whats up! No transfer this cycle, but I'll probably still be around here anyway since yall rock and I want to keep up with the November FETcrew
@funkykey I know what you mean. I knew almost zero about that until I started reading about ERAs...It really does blow my mind that anyone ever gets pregnant with the myriad things that can go wrong! Here's hoping none of us have to worry about that though!
I’m also sorry about your upcoming EDD. Ours was back in April on DH’s b-day (and weirdly, his mom and I have the same b-day - was kind of too storybook, right?). We took the day off and hiked up to where DH buried our little girl in our local mountains (I hadn’t brought myself to go there yet), and later that afternoon we learned that we’d finally gotten one PGS normal (after a first cycle with no blasts). Lots of emotions, but you have so many reasons to be optimistic about this!
I definitely wanted an ERA before when we only had one normal embryo, but I guess we’re kind of gambling now that we have a few more. Hopefully it will pay off...
@dragonette505. How attached/loyal are you to this new RE? I’m glad you have a plan (and know what it is now), but I don’t know how you do it.
@tinjp78 Have you typically ovulated “on time” after IVF cycles? After each of my first two, I ovulated between my normal days 14-16, but after my third one, I didn’t ovulate till day 21, then day 18 (after taking vitex) the following month. All these drugs do a number on our bodies and it’s frustrating when our bodies don’t cooperate.
@funkykey Thanks for sharing your friend’s experience - I’m really over hormones too (and all the free birthday sugar everywhere and my zero will power are not helping my diet/weight - I’ve given myself to the end of this week to consume it all then I’m off of sugar
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
artemis618 What a nice tribute to your little girl! How do you like acupuncture? I've been going for about a year and sometimes I feel like it's life changing and other times I feel like I'm spending so much money. I'm going to start back up again for FET but was curious about your experiences.
@funkykey You're hilarious. The weight gain struggle is real. It started getting cold and I'm like, oh man I needed hoodie weather. I gained so much, especially right after retrieval. Will our bodies ever be the same?! I hope we all have similar experiences to your friend.
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
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You ladies are the GIF QUEENS! omg so funny! And also you ladies are soo strong. While I have been through alot, I have not been through a loss. I can't imagine. I really hope this board breaks allll records and we all get our BFP!
I second all of you on the weight gain.. I am trying so hard to be good! But this is already so stressful that its hard to add another thing to worry about!
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!
few friend and family. It was a dark week and why I have so much anxiety now about the whole process. Wouldn’t wish it on anyone...
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!
1. Open concept buildings are the worst. I'm in a regular office now, but a few months ago, I had to take all my clinic calls in the parking lot out back, next to the alley with the (no joke) drug addicts. When they called with my day 5 results, I freaked out and cried while random homeless people/other regular people going about their days walked past me. Not a personal best.
2. Thank God for your co-worker.
3. Yeah, no sh*t you have anxiety!!! That is HORRIBLE!!! Like, it's hard enough avoiding pregnant women as it is. And then one comes and pops up out of no where, a woman who is actively telling other people "there's no way she could be pregnant" - who is actually in a contract to help someone who cannot get pregnant - and BOOM!: "wait a second, @JamieH2000 - F*CK YOU." Right at baseline, right when you've lined everything up, and gone through all the grief (so much grief!), and are just trying to get your life together and move forward and want to start a family like everyone else... Brutal!
I hope I'm not rubbing salt in the wound here. I just keep thinking what I'd do if that happened to me, and I think: "Wow, you really held it together. You're going to be an awesome mom."
Anyway, really keeping fingers crossed for you this cycle!!!
And +1 to hating open concept offices! People need to talk on the phone!
I saw these in an online group and I must say these Ted Talks are definitely worth a watch if you want to see some strong women overcoming this journey:
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!