@31magnolia , woooo!!! congrats! those numbers sound great!
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Me: 37 DH: 45 I don't produce FSH, so no natural menstrual cycle. DH has reduced morphology. Summer 2014 IUI (with first husband): cancelled after almost a month of stims due to too many follicles Time off to divorce, get back on my feet, find a new hubby and get married again 💑 March 2017 IVF#1: ~70 follicles, 13R, 10M, 7F, 3B = 2 PGS Normal (both XY) - no transfer due to ohss Sept 2017 FET#1: BFP, Beta#1 (10dpt) - 253, Beta#2 (12dpt) - 528, DS born 05/31/2018 👨👩👦 Dec 2019 FET#2: BFN Changed clinic, planning March 2020 IVF#2 - postponed due to the pandemic April 2020 IVF #2: ~30 follicles, 24R, 12M, 8F, 4B = 2XY & 2XX, all normal Sept 2020 FET#3: one XX embryo, BFP, Beta#1 (9dpt) - 161, Beta#2 (11dpt) - 519, Beta#3 (19dpt) - 7174, Due date 05/30/2021 DD born 05/23/2021 👨👩👧👦 - My family is now complete
@31magnolia. OMG! Congrats!! How amazing! Praying for this beta and that baby is nice and sticky!
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego Me: ****TW loss mentioned*** MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016) hypothyroid 8/2018 Off birth control 11/29/2018 CP 2/10/2019. CP 3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn 3/14/2019 Pregnant 4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C 5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve 1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July 6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol 7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality. 8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere. 11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs. 12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone 2/2020 CP 3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo. 4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own! 06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21. 8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't. 9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls 10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP 1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol. 2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21 7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time 2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
Next appointment is Jan 23rd. That's when they think I'll be 6w3d. But I know I'll be 7w2d. They are off by a week because they are going by my LMP and not my ovulation date, which is annoying. I want to get my ultrasound ASAP. The nurse said that the OPK tests can be inaccurate. I'm like there's no way I ovulated a week later unless it was immaculate conception! Sperm doesn't hang around that long! And also, my cycles aren't normally 28 days. They are 23-24 days. So now I'm just waiting for 2 weeks, trying not to go crazy. And I saw yesterday that my thyroid levels are out of range again (TSH > 4.5). So I had them increase my med.
Ahhhhhh!!! @31magnolia amazing news!!!! In my years following low AMH ladies I’ve seen this happen a number of times! When it happened with me it didn’t turn out well in the end because it was genetically abnormal but I have seen pictures of the beautiful babies where it was their miracle baby so I’m hoping that’s you! Come on miracle baby, grow grow grow! Can’t wait for your next update!!!
Me: Hashimoto Autoimune Disease Homozygous MTHFR Cr677 DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high) 2 iui's to start - BFN IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5 IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol Chemical pregnancy FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos 1st transfer - chemical pregnancy 2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@31magnolia how are you hanging in during this long wait?? I can’t believe they are making you wait this long, I hope the days are passing quickly! @lucyb1954 how are you doing??? Hope 2020 is treating you well, thinking of you often.
@hopeful_mom hi lady! Bump is growing! Baby girl never stops moving for scans which is entertaining and explains why I feel her so often too. Passed my fetal echo which I was nervous about, and @emmasemm I’m finally working on my bump to baby book. I have 22 weeks to make up for! Lol. Luckily I have notes and things I can pull from along the way, and no bump pictures until the last couple weeks but loads of scan pictures that will do as a substitute:). I can’t believe how soon your little one will be here!!!!! This all feels very surreal after ALL these years together here.
Me: Hashimoto Autoimune Disease Homozygous MTHFR Cr677 DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high) 2 iui's to start - BFN IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5 IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol Chemical pregnancy FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos 1st transfer - chemical pregnancy 2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@hopeful_mom hope you and your girl are doing well I know @JamieH2000 recently celebrated the first birthday of her son - time really flies
@hopefuljj so pleased to hear you passed the fetal echo!!! And mine is also a mix of ultrasound and bump pictures - but they all tell the story! It is definitely surreal to think we’re here, though I’m still very cautious about counting my chickens before they hatched!
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We hit 32 weeks on Saturday and with our planned c section the clock is counting down fast. This weekend we did 16 hours at a birth preparation course. Useful but definitely too long to be sitting around on yoga mats! Good thing I could just sleep this morning. Ferrari is super active these days which is the perfect reassurance. Next OB appointment is end of this week, but I’m not expecting any nice pictures at this stage as she’s been hiding for so many months now! In other news we have bought the stroller, car seat, baby carrier and lots of other stuff. Just need DH to build the rest of the furniture - so I can put away all the teeny tiny clothes I’ve washed! I did get emotional washing them. The main word to describe how we feel at the moment is surreal!
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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@hopefuljj - The wait is hard! I think I need to start reading a new book or something to help occupy my thoughts. I called this morning, but they are not budging on the date. I started a journal too. My goal is write something everyday.
Hi everyone. Sorry I’ve been MIA, just had a really tough week. At baseline I had a cyst on my left ovary so I thought I’d be delayed but my bloodwork indicated that it wasn’t producing estrogen so I started stims. I had some hope as I started bleeding which in the past has happened when my estrogen is increasing. However my bloodwork today showed estrogen less than 20. My one successful cycle started slow as well so I’m trying not to jump to conclusions but I’m still shedding some tears.
I’ve been pretty down these past few days and finally figured out that it’s not so much grief at the loss of my genetics but grief that I don’t get to have this easy like other people do. We have an appointment with the DEIVF coordinator on Friday.
@lucyb1954 it totally sucks. It sucks that we can’t have it easy, it sucks that it can’t just happen the way we imagined and it’s sucks that we have to give up our genetics and have this important big detail of their conception and genetic makeup that we then have to navigate with any potential children forever....but the one thing that always made me see past all of that and keep going is looking at the women who have come before us and gone through all this BS and now have their kids and all unanimously say the same thing which is that this was the exact child they were meant to have and everything in the end was worth it, they wouldn’t change a thing. Thank god for Instagram and #DEIVF and all the other hashtags and for the women who have bravely shared their stories. I think Defining Mum did last weeks episode of 3 makes baby on Jana Rupnows podcast. I bet it’s an amazing listen and would also help loft your spirits a little. Sending love lady, it is really reall my hard. Be kind to yourself and know it’s ok to cry and feel like it’s all unfair because it is.
Me: Hashimoto Autoimune Disease Homozygous MTHFR Cr677 DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high) 2 iui's to start - BFN IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5 IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol Chemical pregnancy FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos 1st transfer - chemical pregnancy 2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@lucyb1954 - I've been thinking about you, A LOT (big hug). I echo what @hopefuljj said, be kind to yourself and know it's OK to cry and be sad. I'm praying that this cycle does the same as your successful cycle.
@lucyb1954 big hugs from me too - and would second following definingmum on Instagram if you don’t already
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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Thanks ladies ❤️❤️❤️ Couldn’t get through this process without your support. I’ve been mostly hiding from social media lately. I bought Jana Rupnow’s book and been reading it on and off and it’s been helpful in some respects but I think my little brain is just on overload lately and it’s been hard to process. I’ve got an ultrasound and more bloodwork tomorrow so just gonna try and soldier through the next 24 hours till I get a bit more info.
I haven’t been on for a while but I love seeing some good news for most of you! And for those still waiting- I totally feel you still. I remember those months and years. @hopefuljj- I have been reading three makes baby too!! I liked it, but wish it was even longer and more in-depth! I need all the advice... while I’m so in love in my son and wouldn’t want any other baby, I just wish I could claim credit for his genetics! He is so awesome and I wish I could just forget about the donor forever. But I know it’s important we talk about the donor to him with complete comfortableness. @emmasemm- wow! Baby girl will be here so soon!! I can’t wait to see a pic!! And learn her name
as for me, I’m pack on the wagon for number two! Starting an ERA cycle this month to confirm my crazy early timing and then will plan to transfer in May/June hopefully! we did pGs in December on 4/8 embryos and they all came back normal! Feeling so blessed we can hopefully have as many children as we desire. That’s a true blessing of donor eggs...
History in Spoiler
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
@JamieH2000 omggggg baby number 2!!!!!! How exciting!!!!! Yeah it’s hard with the donor but again so so grateful! I still haven’t finished 3 makes baby but i follow her on insta and listen to her podcast:).we’ve got this! Glad we have each other too because I think when they are older it’s gonna be even more important to have people who understand the challenges that arise. Omg I still can’t believe baby number 2 is in the works!!!!!
Me: Hashimoto Autoimune Disease Homozygous MTHFR Cr677 DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high) 2 iui's to start - BFN IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5 IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol Chemical pregnancy FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos 1st transfer - chemical pregnancy 2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@JamieH2000 So nice to hear from you and excited about baby number 2.
@lucyb1954 I know exactly how you feel, I have really been struggling here and really don't know if I should end this chapter and move forward or try the DE - I still have not wrapped my head around the idea as it is not as easy in Canada.
Has anyone in the group heard of travelling overseas to Prague for DE? And if so, any advice would be great.
@hopefuljj Thank you for your words, it helped me feel better.
@Imajin99 I’m with you girl. There are several folks on the DEIVF board here who are traveling overseas for treatment. However do know that international DE is generally anonymous. I know there are several folks I have met online who are traveling to my clinic from out of state for treatment. They have a good donor database and reasonable prices. (Utah fertility center)
i was watching the Today Show yesterday and it’s so cheesy but they highlighted this kid who got diagnosed with epilepsy and couldn’t do all the sports he loved anymore. He started a baking business and just said he was focusing on what he could do, not what he couldn’t. I’m trying to get to that perspective. It only works intermittently but it helps. I’m sending you lots of hugs ❤️❤️❤️ This really sucks.
@hopefuljj- it is so nice to have others who understand!! Bc of your suggestion I am checking out definingmum on IG and that podcast too! I’m just so happy for you that hour miracle is on the way. I have lost track of how many years we have been on here together! @lmajin99- thanks chica! I think overseas could be a good option, and more affordable too! Didn’t look into since I had some coverage here in the US still... not sure where you are in Canada but my clinic is in Chicago and that may not be as far away for you...
History in Spoiler
Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015 Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive) March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary. August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze ), BFN May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e Back for # 2!
Thanks for the information @lucyb1954, I will look into your clinic. At this time when I looked into one that a family member recommended in Prague it looked really good and the cost was 1/3 what it would be here in Canada. Here I am looking at about 25,000 US for frozen DE.
@31magnolia woohoo how exciting huge congrats!!! Tomorrow is a big day good luck!!
sorry some of you other ladies aren’t having great cycles and delays, hang in there, it’s hard yes but these moments will pass and once ur bean is cooking that will take over! @Imajin99@lucyb1954 I know things seem so hopeless at times! It sucks having to go through so many different steps but try to look at it as one step closer to your miracle!
@hopefuljj@emmasemm what r these books u got going? I’m so behind I still have my sono pics all together in a safe keep box. Hope ur enjoying all those kicks, love seeing ur updates!! We’re gret over here, this child lives to climb and get into everything she’s just not the best sleeper and she still needs my boobs to sleep so that’s the toughest part right now, go figure!
@JamieH2000 yay!!! Wish I was already knocked up myself!! I’m sure using DE isn’t easy but I just feel like someway your dna is apart of him just by carrying him and I’m sure as he grows he’ll pick up things u do that will be just like you too! He’s perfect and all u!
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Hi everyone ❤️ Follicles showed almost zero growth so my cycle got cancelled. We’re moving onto DE. I’m sad/upset/relieved all at the same time. I guess I’m not totally giving up hope on my ovaries, still going to go to acupuncture because it seems my egg quality is okay but it’s a matter of getting them to grow. Thanks for all your kind thoughts and words ❤️❤️❤️
@lucyb1954 Sorry, such a frustrating process. I feel like I am carrying this extra weight on my shoulders everyday. Happy to connect as we take on this DE journey together.
@Imajin99 absolutely!!! I have been an absolute total weird mess the last few days. A seesaw of hope and crushing sadness. I confided in a friend and she asked if people donate eggs because they don’t feel competent to raise their own child...at which point I was like hold up sister, this would be my child 🤦♀️🙄🙄
I did venture into the donor database today. I expected to feel overwhelmed and awful. But I actually felt hopeful. I was drawn to the older donors (late 20s) who had happy baby pictures.
Btw I think a DE cycle at my clinic is under 20K, I have to check the quote they gave me. Cheaper if you do a shared cycle. They have a DE IVF coordinator especially for international patients because they get so many.
I’m here for you and I’m grateful to have the folks who have gone before us @hopefuljj and @c-town18. Feel free to DM me if You need a virtual hug ❤️❤️❤️
lucyb1954 - Ah, yes I'm sure your mind and emotions are all over the place right now. I remember feeling relief, regret, excitement, sadness, etc. etc. etc. Um, that was an absurd thing for your friend to say (eye roll). Let me know if you have any questions, I know once you make this decision to move ahead it can be overwhelming.
Also, general comment to the group but I was just thinking what a great board this is. I like how everyone is welcome, not just OE ladies or just DE ladies. Everyone's path is different but we have all struggled and all can relate to and support one another. It's nice to have this group, that's all.
Thank you @c-town18. I will send you a PM @lucyb1954 to find out about your clinic. Anyone familiar with New York and New Jersey area and any good clinics there as my in law family is based there and would be a good choice if we decide to puruse this in the US vs. Canada.
@c-town18 I totally agree. I know I say it all the time, but I truly could not have gotten this far without a total and complete mental breakdown if I didn't have you all. At times I feel so alone and so totally cursed -- both with the low AMH and the Fragile X diagnosis. So having you all on my side has been my saving grace. On the way home from the clinic after my cycle was cancelled I was just sobbing and telling my boyfriend that I do still feel so alone sometimes and he was like...really? There's 5 third party IVF coordinators at the clinic and clearly this would not exist if there wasn't a need. He tends to think genetics is all a crapshoot anyway (which is true). He's not at all close with his family because they're nuts so obvi genetics doesn't determine family.
It is hard when people say things that are naive and I'm also just vulnerable right now. I was talking to my mom about DE and she was saying it's a bit sad that my genetics isn't getting passed on. And I had to leave her house -- I have enough on my hands dealing with my own sadness without someone else's sadness on top of it.
@Imajin99 Feel free to DM me. Sending hugs, this journey is a total and complete rollercoaster
lucyb1954 Sorry to see the response from your mom and your friend earlier this week regarding DE. We decided at this time not to talk to too many people about this process, my counsellor said others should not know about DE until you decide to tell your child which makes sense in my head first person that should be told about how they were beautifully created because we wanted that child so much would be the child. We are not disclosing this process to anyone until our baby grows and we can tell them how they were created. I do talk to one friend only as she is going through the same process with me at this time and having you ladies and her is helping me move forward on this journey.
Hi ladies, I know you guys have all been communicating for a long time, so I feel bad jumping in on your thread, but felt like I needed to vent. We are pursing donor eggs next month in Prague and I found out I would never have my own babies back in November. I got incredibly depressed and took about 5 weeks of disability to try and get through this....im a nurse so I cant be giving to my patients from an empty cup.
So last night, my husband and I had our first couples counseling session. We went more so because of some problems we are having right now in terms of being codependent with each other and navigating his anxiety with my depression...but also so we can check in before starting this process.
He opened up that some of the time he feels like why cant I just get over it and stop moping around. I have had ebbs and flows of sadness. There are times I am ok, and times where im crying. And in the past few weeks I have really started to turn a corner and find happiness and joy and laugh again. Im doing all the self care things I can think of such as acupuncture, Healing touch and reiki, EFT, yoni steam, going to yoga, journaling, meditation, seeing a therapist and talking often with friends. I was so hurt to hear him say that he thinks I should just get over it. He is typically a very empathetic man and it blows me away that he actually thought that at times. This is earth shattering, crushing, devastating, and its not suppose to be this way....so of course there is a grieving period. And Im a very very resilient woman and have been through my fair share of chaotic life events and trauma and I always pull through in a healthy manner. Im know I should hear how he feels and not react because at least he is being honest, but this is just hurtful. Anyone else have a partner that has made comments like this or feel like they don't understand the magnitude of what this means for us women experiencing it?
Also, I feel so disconnected from him and have zero desire to be intimate. I almost feel like Ive been traumatized and violated so much during this process that I don't want anything going into my vagina right now. Ive had probably 30 vaginal ultrasounds, a D&C, 2 retrievals where needles pierce my vaginal wall, a uterine biopsy (ERA), and a PAP. Its all too much. And when I told him this the other day that I feel traumatized and kinda violated, he scoffed at that statement and was like, how were you violated?? I was like, do you think all my ultrasounds are what you see in the movie with a probe over a belly?? No, its a big ass wand going up my vagina every single time. How would he feel if he had a probe going up his penis 30 times in a year. I do energy work so I understand that the sacral chakra (an energy center located in lower abdomen that governs the ovaries and reproductive organs and is our emotional center is why im likely having this response because it needs to be healed. But it still is so overwhelming with everything. Has anyone felt this way??
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego Me: ****TW loss mentioned*** MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016) hypothyroid 8/2018 Off birth control 11/29/2018 CP 2/10/2019. CP 3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn 3/14/2019 Pregnant 4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C 5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve 1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July 6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol 7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality. 8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere. 11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs. 12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone 2/2020 CP 3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo. 4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own! 06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21. 8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't. 9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls 10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP 1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol. 2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21 7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time 2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
@andreamm31 - hey. First I'm so sorry that you're going through this. It hurts when you think you're on the same team/side and then something is said that makes you take a step back and do a double take. I haven't gone through what you're specifically going through but I have had the double take several times. I have a SO who doesn't always say what's on his mind. With that being said, sometimes I think men just don't process emotion or grieve the same way we do. And so even though my boyfriend holds me when I cry because this fertility deal is just shitty a lot of times and even though he may get a little teary about it sometimes. I don't think he really gets all the feelings I'm having, because there's a lot going on in my body and mind throughout this entire process. And even though he's been there through it all, there were still times when I felt really alone, just because I know he didn't fully get it. And honestly I didn't think anybody fully got it except the other girls on this board who experienced the same thing. I know that doesn't help you any...at all. But just wanted you to know I get what you're saying.
andreamm31 - Yup, on that note, my DH acted like he didn't think moving to DE was a big deal at all. That was helpful in a way because it helped me get to the point of accepting that path more easily but on the other hand I wanted to be like, easy for you to say, it's not YOUR genetics that we're giving up by going this route! He was just way too casual about what was a life changing and very difficult decision for me. So I definitely felt like there was an emotional disconnect between us in that way. Also OMG yes I have not been in the mood for sex since this whole fertility mess started. TTC totally took the fun out of it, and then once I started the treatments my body felt like a science experiment and no that did not put me in the mood. So yes to all of this.
@andreamm31 Yes hear you on so many points and glad to hear you are doing all these self care activities, I think it definitely helps. The medications, exams, procedures reek havoc on our bodies and minds. Really interested if you are up to it to discuss your process with DE at Unica as I have been in touch with the clinic as well but not sure if we will choose to go with an overseas route.
@andreamm31 First, don't feel bad about crashing this thread! Everyone is welcome I hear you about all of this -- it's so hard to communicate the kind of emotional devastation this causes. Having run into some really insensitive friends I have found that most people just have no idea. Literally, NO IDEA how hard this is.
My relationship with my SO is interesting -- he was on the fence about having kids and then I went in for some fertility testing. I had a feeling something was off, I had had a couple of irregular cycles but my nurse midwife had reassured me that I was fine. I wish I hadn't listened to her for as long as I did. In any case, when I went for testing and we got my results, he finally got on the bandwagon. That said, he doesn't understand what I'm going through. In some ways it's easier for me that he's not super pushing for kids -- at least then I don't feel like my body is failing me AND him. But it is hard when he doesn't understand the sadness. However I've been trying to just teach him what I need -- lots of hugs. He tends to be of the mind that genetics is all a crapshoot anyway so he's fine with DE (his family kind of sucks, we only see them 3x a year). By and large, I don't know if men really feel that same drive to have children as women do - I know that's a stereotype, but I have mostly found that to be true.
I'm really glad you and your partner are going for counseling. I have to say that couples counseling saved my relationship. All the way. When you first start counseling, it can be very difficult, as all the negative feelings and thoughts make their way to the light of day. But it does get better, and you start to learn how to communicate with each other, so I hope you continue with it. That said, it's vital that you have a counselor that you feel safe with and that you feel like doesn't "take sides." One reason that couples counseling helped us was that my SO really felt like our counselor was neutral -- she'd equally call me out for stuff (so to speak) as she did him.
You have company on the DE front -- @c-town18 and all the ladies who went before us, and me and @Imajin99 are currently starting the process. So just know that you're in good company and that we're all here for you.
WOW! Thank you all so much for the love and support and guidance. Im so blown away. Thank you for taking the time to write so much and share your experiences. @31magnolia. I totally agree, men just don't process the same way that women do. Hearing so many other women who are going through similar experiences is definetly helpful to not feel so alone. I just found out one of my friends used donor eggs so we met on Thursday to talk. She still got emotional and cried a little bit while holding her 5 month old son and telling me her journey. I knew most of it, except the part where the eggs were to hers. It was helpful to not feel so alone and also to see how much she loves her son.
@c-town18. Yes! My DH was the same way. Like, ok, time to move on to donor eggs. And honestly, I was the same way until it sunk in. Glad to hear Im not the only one who feels zero desire for intimacy. Totally feel Im a science experiment....you hit that one right on the head. Thank you for sharing!
@Imajin99. Im more than happy to chat with you anytime you have questions! It has been a pretty smooth journey with them so far and from afar. Im sure that will continue when we go. Im highly impressed with their communication.
@lucyb1954. Yes, people are pretty clueless and have no idea what this devastation feels like. Im really happy we are going to therapy as well. Our Therapist was my therapist for the past 10 years and my husband started seeing her when we met. So we both have our own relationship with her and she definetly has no trouble saying what is on her mind to me and had to check me a time or two during the session. Like when he said he had felt like I should just move on and stop moping around....I obviously was like, excuse me, Im grieving the worst thing that has ever happened to me....and she cut me off and said This is how he feels and he tries to tell you that. As a woman, I thought she would have been like, that is pretty insensitive....but of course she is professional and neutral and didn't say things to take one side or the other. And of course, I do appreciate that.
Im so glad to have you ladies to connect with. I think the IVF forums have helped me stay sane! I really appreciate it so much!
We are going based on our next period which could be sometime next week. Things are getting so real. We also feel anxiety over the lack of control over booking our trip, the chance the cycle gets canceled or something goes wrong and trying to just breathe and stay in the moment is really hard. I have to believe the universe has a plan for us and we will all get our babies.
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego Me: ****TW loss mentioned*** MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016) hypothyroid 8/2018 Off birth control 11/29/2018 CP 2/10/2019. CP 3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn 3/14/2019 Pregnant 4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C 5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve 1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July 6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol 7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality. 8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere. 11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs. 12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone 2/2020 CP 3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo. 4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own! 06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21. 8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't. 9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls 10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP 1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol. 2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21 7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time 2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
@andreamm31 welcome to the group! Just chiming I’m to say my DH was not at all easy to handle during all of this. I had to really keep a lot of my feelings inside because if I got really upset or frustrated he would tell me that I didn’t have to do it and it was my choice....which is like one of the top IVF triggers! It’s not a choice, because I’m infertile! And he is too making it even harder! He gave me a hard time about us having to put our life on hold for so long but it’s like, ok this sucks but the alternative sucks too. When moving to donor egg he of course did the same down playing its significance but I have since been able to at least get him to understand that for the child it will possibly be very significant and we need to validate those feelings. I tried to never say anything or make a big deal about how it is actually a big deal for me to move onto donor egg because 1. I really worked through things, researched like crazy, followed DEIVF moms on insta, read blogs and listened to podcasts and was very prepared to move onto donor eggs And 2. Know women who can’t move onto donor eggs cuz their partners draw the line there so I was so grateful that he got fully onboard after I had a miscariage, even suggested it himself, so I felt like I’d rather be happy with that than needing him to validate what a big deal/loss this actually is for me. It’s crazy right? Totally unfair. So yeah what I’m saying is “men!!” I’m sorry you are having to get through this difficult time with him but I’m glad you guys are getting counseling together:) and now you have us! So we can chat out all the bits that are hard and unfair;)
Me: Hashimoto Autoimune Disease Homozygous MTHFR Cr677 DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high) 2 iui's to start - BFN IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5 IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol Chemical pregnancy FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos 1st transfer - chemical pregnancy 2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@hopefuljj. Thank you so much for your thoughtful response. I think you summed it up pretty good, Men! I know my husband is a really good man and has truly been very supportive through all of this. But he will never grasp it and I need to just accept that and lean on you guys and other friends if Im looking for someone to better understand. I think you are right, its also important to be grateful he is so willing and excited to move on with donor eggs because he could have dragged his feet or refused. So I need to take my wins where I can!
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego Me: ****TW loss mentioned*** MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016) hypothyroid 8/2018 Off birth control 11/29/2018 CP 2/10/2019. CP 3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn 3/14/2019 Pregnant 4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C 5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve 1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July 6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol 7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality. 8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere. 11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs. 12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone 2/2020 CP 3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo. 4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own! 06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21. 8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't. 9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls 10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP 1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol. 2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21 7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time 2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
Totally agree with @hopefuljj and that’s a good way to think about it...take your wins when you can! When I was sobbing after my last cycle failed my SO said well, we always knew your eggs were a long shot and we’re lucky we have the resources to go to DE. that could be seen as insensitive but it actually did make me feel better and I have met women whose husbands are firmly against DE so I will take those wins! Hugs @andreamm31
@lucyb1954. Very true. Thank you for reminding me of that. My girlfriend told me it took her significant other about 6 months to come around to donor eggs and she also reiterated how lucky I am that he is on board with moving on to DE. I need to take these positives where I can get them!
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego Me: ****TW loss mentioned*** MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016) hypothyroid 8/2018 Off birth control 11/29/2018 CP 2/10/2019. CP 3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn 3/14/2019 Pregnant 4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C 5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve 1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July 6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol 7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality. 8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere. 11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs. 12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone 2/2020 CP 3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo. 4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own! 06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21. 8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't. 9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls 10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP 1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol. 2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21 7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time 2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
Re: Low AMH Level
My story in signature spoiler. Children mentioned.
I don't produce FSH, so no natural menstrual cycle. DH has reduced morphology.
Summer 2014 IUI (with first husband): cancelled after almost a month of stims due to too many follicles
Time off to divorce, get back on my feet, find a new hubby and get married again 💑
March 2017 IVF#1: ~70 follicles, 13R, 10M, 7F, 3B = 2 PGS Normal (both XY) - no transfer due to ohss
Sept 2017 FET#1: BFP, Beta#1 (10dpt) - 253, Beta#2 (12dpt) - 528, DS born 05/31/2018 👨👩👦
Dec 2019 FET#2: BFN
Changed clinic, planning March 2020 IVF#2 - postponed due to the pandemic
April 2020 IVF #2: ~30 follicles, 24R, 12M, 8F, 4B = 2XY & 2XX, all normal
Sept 2020 FET#3: one XX embryo, BFP, Beta#1 (9dpt) - 161, Beta#2 (11dpt) - 519, Beta#3 (19dpt) - 7174, Due date 05/30/2021
DD born 05/23/2021 👨👩👧👦 - My family is now complete
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego
Me: ****TW loss mentioned***
MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016)
hypothyroid
8/2018 Off birth control
11/29/2018 CP
2/10/2019. CP
3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn
3/14/2019 Pregnant
4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C
5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve
1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July
6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol
7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality.
8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere.
11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs.
12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone
2/2020 CP
3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo.
4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own!
06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21.
8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't.
9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls
10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP
1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol.
2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21
7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time
2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
And I saw yesterday that my thyroid levels are out of range again (TSH > 4.5). So I had them increase my med.
Homozygous MTHFR Cr677
DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high)
2 iui's to start - BFN
IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal
IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5
IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval
IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol
Chemical pregnancy
FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN
Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos
1st transfer - chemical pregnancy
2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@lucyb1954 how are you doing??? Hope 2020 is treating you well, thinking of you often.
Homozygous MTHFR Cr677
DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high)
2 iui's to start - BFN
IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal
IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5
IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval
IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol
Chemical pregnancy
FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN
Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos
1st transfer - chemical pregnancy
2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
@lucyb1954 @imajin99 thinking of you both
@hopeful_mom hope you and your girl are doing well
I know @JamieH2000 recently celebrated the first birthday of her son - time really flies
@hopefuljj so pleased to hear you passed the fetal echo!!! And mine is also a mix of ultrasound and bump pictures - but they all tell the story! It is definitely surreal to think we’re here, though I’m still very cautious about counting my chickens before they hatched!
Ferrari is super active these days which is the perfect reassurance. Next OB appointment is end of this week, but I’m not expecting any nice pictures at this stage as she’s been hiding for so many months now! In other news we have bought the stroller, car seat, baby carrier and lots of other stuff. Just need DH to build the rest of the furniture - so I can put away all the teeny tiny clothes I’ve washed! I did get emotional washing them. The main word to describe how we feel at the moment is surreal!
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
I started a journal too. My goal is write something everyday.
Thank god for Instagram and #DEIVF and all the other hashtags and for the women who have bravely shared their stories. I think Defining Mum did last weeks episode of 3 makes baby on Jana Rupnows podcast. I bet it’s an amazing listen and would also help loft your spirits a little. Sending love lady, it is really reall my hard. Be kind to yourself and know it’s ok to cry and feel like it’s all unfair because it is.
Homozygous MTHFR Cr677
DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high)
2 iui's to start - BFN
IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal
IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5
IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval
IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol
Chemical pregnancy
FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN
Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos
1st transfer - chemical pregnancy
2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@hopefuljj- I have been reading three makes baby too!! I liked it, but wish it was even longer and more in-depth! I need all the advice... while I’m so in love in my son and wouldn’t want any other baby, I just wish I could claim credit for his genetics! He is so awesome and I wish I could just forget about the donor forever. But I know it’s important we talk about the donor to him with complete comfortableness.
@emmasemm- wow! Baby girl will be here so soon!! I can’t wait to see a pic!! And learn her name
as for me, I’m pack on the wagon for number two! Starting an ERA cycle this month to confirm my crazy early timing and then will plan to transfer in May/June hopefully!
we did pGs in December on 4/8 embryos and they all came back normal! Feeling so blessed we can hopefully have as many children as we desire. That’s a true blessing of donor eggs...
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!
Homozygous MTHFR Cr677
DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high)
2 iui's to start - BFN
IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal
IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5
IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval
IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol
Chemical pregnancy
FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN
Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos
1st transfer - chemical pregnancy
2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
i was watching the Today Show yesterday and it’s so cheesy but they highlighted this kid who got diagnosed with epilepsy and couldn’t do all the sports he loved anymore. He started a baking business and just said he was focusing on what he could do, not what he couldn’t. I’m trying to get to that perspective. It only works intermittently but it helps. I’m sending you lots of hugs ❤️❤️❤️ This really sucks.
@lmajin99- thanks chica! I think overseas could be a good option, and more affordable too! Didn’t look into since I had some coverage here in the US still... not sure where you are in Canada but my clinic is in Chicago and that may not be as far away for you...
Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN
June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze
May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline
Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid
Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues
Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
Back for # 2!
sorry some of you other ladies aren’t having great cycles and delays, hang in there, it’s hard yes but these moments will pass and once ur bean is cooking that will take over! @Imajin99 @lucyb1954 I know things seem so hopeless at times! It sucks having to go
through so many different steps but try to look at it as one step closer to your miracle!
@hopefuljj @emmasemm what r these books u got going? I’m so behind I still have my sono pics all together in a safe keep box.
Hope ur enjoying all those kicks, love seeing ur updates!! We’re gret over here, this child lives to climb and get into everything she’s just not the best sleeper and she still needs my boobs to sleep so that’s the toughest part right now, go figure!
@JamieH2000 yay!!! Wish I was already knocked up myself!! I’m sure using DE isn’t easy but I just feel like someway your dna is apart of him just by carrying him and I’m sure as he grows he’ll pick up things u do that will be just like you too! He’s perfect and all u!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
I did venture into the donor database today. I expected to feel overwhelmed and awful. But I actually felt hopeful. I was drawn to the older donors (late 20s) who had happy baby pictures.
Also, general comment to the group but I was just thinking what a great board this is. I like how everyone is welcome, not just OE ladies or just DE ladies. Everyone's path is different but we have all struggled and all can relate to and support one another. It's nice to have this group, that's all.
It is hard when people say things that are naive and I'm also just vulnerable right now. I was talking to my mom about DE and she was saying it's a bit sad that my genetics isn't getting passed on. And I had to leave her house -- I have enough on my hands dealing with my own sadness without someone else's sadness on top of it.
@Imajin99 Feel free to DM me. Sending hugs, this journey is a total and complete rollercoaster
So last night, my husband and I had our first couples counseling session. We went more so because of some problems we are having right now in terms of being codependent with each other and navigating his anxiety with my depression...but also so we can check in before starting this process.
He opened up that some of the time he feels like why cant I just get over it and stop moping around. I have had ebbs and flows of sadness. There are times I am ok, and times where im crying. And in the past few weeks I have really started to turn a corner and find happiness and joy and laugh again. Im doing all the self care things I can think of such as acupuncture, Healing touch and reiki, EFT, yoni steam, going to yoga, journaling, meditation, seeing a therapist and talking often with friends. I was so hurt to hear him say that he thinks I should just get over it. He is typically a very empathetic man and it blows me away that he actually thought that at times. This is earth shattering, crushing, devastating, and its not suppose to be this way....so of course there is a grieving period. And Im a very very resilient woman and have been through my fair share of chaotic life events and trauma and I always pull through in a healthy manner. Im know I should hear how he feels and not react because at least he is being honest, but this is just hurtful. Anyone else have a partner that has made comments like this or feel like they don't understand the magnitude of what this means for us women experiencing it?
Also, I feel so disconnected from him and have zero desire to be intimate. I almost feel like Ive been traumatized and violated so much during this process that I don't want anything going into my vagina right now. Ive had probably 30 vaginal ultrasounds, a D&C, 2 retrievals where needles pierce my vaginal wall, a uterine biopsy (ERA), and a PAP. Its all too much. And when I told him this the other day that I feel traumatized and kinda violated, he scoffed at that statement and was like, how were you violated?? I was like, do you think all my ultrasounds are what you see in the movie with a probe over a belly?? No, its a big ass wand going up my vagina every single time. How would he feel if he had a probe going up his penis 30 times in a year. I do energy work so I understand that the sacral chakra (an energy center located in lower abdomen that governs the ovaries and reproductive organs and is our emotional center is why im likely having this response because it needs to be healed. But it still is so overwhelming with everything. Has anyone felt this way??
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego
Me: ****TW loss mentioned***
MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016)
hypothyroid
8/2018 Off birth control
11/29/2018 CP
2/10/2019. CP
3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn
3/14/2019 Pregnant
4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C
5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve
1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July
6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol
7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality.
8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere.
11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs.
12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone
2/2020 CP
3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo.
4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own!
06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21.
8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't.
9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls
10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP
1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol.
2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21
7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time
2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
My relationship with my SO is interesting -- he was on the fence about having kids and then I went in for some fertility testing. I had a feeling something was off, I had had a couple of irregular cycles but my nurse midwife had reassured me that I was fine. I wish I hadn't listened to her for as long as I did. In any case, when I went for testing and we got my results, he finally got on the bandwagon. That said, he doesn't understand what I'm going through. In some ways it's easier for me that he's not super pushing for kids -- at least then I don't feel like my body is failing me AND him. But it is hard when he doesn't understand the sadness. However I've been trying to just teach him what I need -- lots of hugs. He tends to be of the mind that genetics is all a crapshoot anyway so he's fine with DE (his family kind of sucks, we only see them 3x a year). By and large, I don't know if men really feel that same drive to have children as women do - I know that's a stereotype, but I have mostly found that to be true.
I'm really glad you and your partner are going for counseling. I have to say that couples counseling saved my relationship. All the way. When you first start counseling, it can be very difficult, as all the negative feelings and thoughts make their way to the light of day. But it does get better, and you start to learn how to communicate with each other, so I hope you continue with it. That said, it's vital that you have a counselor that you feel safe with and that you feel like doesn't "take sides." One reason that couples counseling helped us was that my SO really felt like our counselor was neutral -- she'd equally call me out for stuff (so to speak) as she did him.
You have company on the DE front -- @c-town18 and all the ladies who went before us, and me and @Imajin99
are currently starting the process. So just know that you're in good company and that we're all here for you.
@31magnolia. I totally agree, men just don't process the same way that women do. Hearing so many other women who are going through similar experiences is definetly helpful to not feel so alone. I just found out one of my friends used donor eggs so we met on Thursday to talk. She still got emotional and cried a little bit while holding her 5 month old son and telling me her journey. I knew most of it, except the part where the eggs were to hers. It was helpful to not feel so alone and also to see how much she loves her son.
@c-town18. Yes! My DH was the same way. Like, ok, time to move on to donor eggs. And honestly, I was the same way until it sunk in. Glad to hear Im not the only one who feels zero desire for intimacy. Totally feel Im a science experiment....you hit that one right on the head. Thank you for sharing!
@Imajin99. Im more than happy to chat with you anytime you have questions! It has been a pretty smooth journey with them so far and from afar. Im sure that will continue when we go. Im highly impressed with their communication.
@lucyb1954. Yes, people are pretty clueless and have no idea what this devastation feels like. Im really happy we are going to therapy as well. Our Therapist was my therapist for the past 10 years and my husband started seeing her when we met. So we both have our own relationship with her and she definetly has no trouble saying what is on her mind to me and had to check me a time or two during the session. Like when he said he had felt like I should just move on and stop moping around....I obviously was like, excuse me, Im grieving the worst thing that has ever happened to me....and she cut me off and said This is how he feels and he tries to tell you that. As a woman, I thought she would have been like, that is pretty insensitive....but of course she is professional and neutral and didn't say things to take one side or the other. And of course, I do appreciate that.
Im so glad to have you ladies to connect with. I think the IVF forums have helped me stay sane! I really appreciate it so much!
We are going based on our next period which could be sometime next week. Things are getting so real. We also feel anxiety over the lack of control over booking our trip, the chance the cycle gets canceled or something goes wrong and trying to just breathe and stay in the moment is really hard. I have to believe the universe has a plan for us and we will all get our babies.
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego
Me: ****TW loss mentioned***
MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016)
hypothyroid
8/2018 Off birth control
11/29/2018 CP
2/10/2019. CP
3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn
3/14/2019 Pregnant
4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C
5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve
1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July
6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol
7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality.
8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere.
11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs.
12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone
2/2020 CP
3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo.
4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own!
06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21.
8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't.
9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls
10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP
1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol.
2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21
7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time
2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
Homozygous MTHFR Cr677
DOR - AMH .27 High FSH (don't even know how high)
2 iui's to start - BFN
IVF 1 -3 made it do day 5! 2 5AA 1 6BB PGS results = all abnormal
IVF 2 - stimmed for 19 days. insanity. Had 5 follicles that looked mature but only 2 contained mature eggs the others were empty. Nothing made it to day 5
IVF 3 - added in HGH - 4 mature follicles (had some empties again) 3 made it to day 5/6 for PGS (held for testing with next retrieval
IVF 4 - Upped my dosage for the first time - Canceled 11 days into sims - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 5 - Canceled - looked like 1 follicle and we were afraid it was empty
IVF 6 - 3 mature, 2 fertalized 1 made it to day 5 and sent for PGS
Sent in IVF round 3 and 6 (4 embryos) for PGS testing and got 2 normal embryos!!! 1Boy and 1Girl. Took a little over a year to get those two embryos so demanded all sorts of test prior to attempting transfer. Did EFT, ERA and NK Cells testing.
FET#1 - Intralipid drips, Prednisone, and did a depot lupron shot before starting the FET protocol
Chemical pregnancy
FET#2 - PGS normal boy - BFN
Natural pregnancy - cycle following the FET2???? Miscarriage at 8 weeks. viability scan had shown an enlarged yolk sac so I had been warned that it was likely not chromosonally normal
DEIVF cycle - picked a donor who is willing to be open! Her cycle resulted in in 4 PGS Normal embryos
1st transfer - chemical pregnancy
2nd transfer - success, May 17 2020 due date!
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego
Me: ****TW loss mentioned***
MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016)
hypothyroid
8/2018 Off birth control
11/29/2018 CP
2/10/2019. CP
3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn
3/14/2019 Pregnant
4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C
5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve
1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July
6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol
7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality.
8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere.
11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs.
12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone
2/2020 CP
3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo.
4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own!
06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21.
8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't.
9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls
10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP
1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol.
2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21
7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time
2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.
39 years old DH 41. Sperm looks great. We live in San Diego
Me: ****TW loss mentioned***
MTHFR Homozygous 677TT (dx 2016)
hypothyroid
8/2018 Off birth control
11/29/2018 CP
2/10/2019. CP
3/8/2019 Saw fertility doctor, AFC 5, labs drawn
3/14/2019 Pregnant
4/18/2019 9 week ultrasound MM , stopped growing at 6 weeks, no HB. D&C
5/2/2019 Return to fertility doctor, labs show AMH 0.27. Diminished Ovarian Reserve
1st of 3 Egg retrievals planned tentatively for July
6/29/2019 started Antagonist Protocol
7/12/2019 First egg retrieval, only retrieved one egg and fell apart immediately, poor quality.
8/7/2019. Second cycle (follicular antagonist) canceled on day 5 of stims when a very large lead follicle grew out of nowhere.
11/8/2019. Second Egg retrieval with Lupron Flare Protocol. 2 eggs retrieved, fertilized with ICSI but no reaction occurred at all. Told I will never have my own babies with my eggs.
12/20/2019 ERA - pre-receptive. Needed 24 hours more of progesterone
2/2020 CP
3/2/2020 Egg donor cycle in Prague at Unica Clinic, 2 AA embryos, 1 transfer, 1 on ice. BFN. Due to pandemic, we could not return to Prague and will abandon our remaining embryo.
4/20/2020. BFP trying on our own!
06/04/2020 After HBs at 7 and 9 weeks, MM at 10 weeks 3 days. D&C, Hemorrhaged out 1 liter of blood from uterine artery rupture during procedure. Spent 1 night in the hospital with a balloon tamponade in my uterus. Baby was mosaic Trisomy 21.
8/2020. Moving forward with Donor Egg cycle at Utah Fertility Center and sharing a cycle with ladypOtter (Gina) I met on the Bump who was also supposed to go to Prague but couldn't.
9/26/2020 Donor retrieval of 26 eggs, 24 mature. Split cycle so I have 12 eggs with all 12 fertilizing. 6 PGS normal 3 boys, 3 girls
10/29/2020 Transfer day of girl donor egg embryo. BFP! First HCG 92.9. Then inappropriate rise, plateau and falling. Possibly ectopic pregnancy. ER visit with diagnosis of "pregnancy location unknown". CP
1/19/2021 Embryos shipped from Utah to my local clinic, starting prednisone for anti-histamine protocol.
2/26/2021 FET girl embryo BFP. Betas 62, 139, 386! HB at 6 weeks, then baby stopped growing at 8 week check up with weak HB measuring 6 weeks 4 days. MM at 9 weeks. D&C 4/15/21
7/13/2021 FET boy and girl embryos. First beta 10dp5dt 177, 14dp5dt 1631, 16dp5dt 6809. Pregnant with Identical triplets. At 9 weeks, Baby C no longer had a heart beat. Identical Twin Girls. Pregnancy complicated by TRAP Sequence with baby C an Acardiac fetus still receiving blood flow being pumped to it by other girls. Referred to UCSF at 18 weeks for consultation. No intervention needed at this time
2/18/22 After a failed NST, at 34 weeks 1 day, Charlotte born 4lb 4oz and Lily born 4lbs 10 oz. Our hearts are complete. Baby girls in NICU to grow and learn to eat.