@justharrison I know how you feel about being good at spotting lines. I have actually decided to wait til Saturday to test again. That way I feel like it will be more definitive and less of "do I see what I think I see or not".
Good luck Sunday, mine is wed and boy it feels like months away. But we can get through this waiting period. @mo777 you are so strong to resist testing especially having a stack of them, probably feeling like they are staring you down.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I used my last frer this morning. I waited almost 4 hrs between bathroom trips. And it is still super super faint. I couldn't really get a good picture that you could see the almost not there line. 10 dpt having this faint of a line does make me nervous, I can't deny it. I know a line is a line, but a barely there line is scary. I thought at this point it would be significantly darker. Now I have to try and not stress about it until I can convince my hubby to buy one more box.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mo777 I hope it's a real line too. Hope it gets darker. I feel like Wed is so far away LOL. My patience is practically gone.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz i know what you mean about having to convince the husband to get more. Mine said there isnt a point in buying more as the beta is tomorrow and we will know then if it is a viable pregnancy or not. I just feel better being able to see a line pop up everyday no matter how light
@justharrison good luck with your beta. I can't wait to hear what it is.
I think what keeps me worried is almost all (if not all) of my symptoms can be explained by the meds. Although this is the first out of all 3 times that I have a headache this early on. It's almost continuous for 3 days now. Not sure if that is a good thing or not. I am not crampy anymore, boobs still tender, tired, and have raging heartburn.
How are the rest of you feeling?
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@justharrison I know it's pretty low but when is your next one? I will still hold out hope that it doubles appropriately.
@mo777 you are lucky to have it tomorrow I still have to wait til Wednesday. Good luck for good numbers. My clinic literally makes us wait 14 days before doing a blood test.
So I broke down a got a digital clear blue. I am terrified to take it though. The frer has been so light I am scared there isn't enough to have it say pregnant. And if it does say not pregnant I will probably cry and it will be awful. I know a line is a line, but at this point it should be a clear line and it is but it's not. I told hubby that I needed the digital one so I can stop guessing. I know that they have a higher threshold so if it says not pregnant I need to start preparing for the worst (while still trying to hold out hope). I absolutely cannot go into the beta without having some clue of what the response will be.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
So what I feared was right. It had NOT in front of pregnant. My hopes are pretty dashed at this point. I know there still is a tiny chance of my levels being low with the faint positives on the frer. But they haven't gotten darker. I only have 2 days before my blood draw and if my levels aren't at least 50 then my dr will say I am not pregnant. Of course they will do repeat blood work 2 days later to see if it is going up but I have pretty much lost all hope.
At this point I can't do any other cycles. This was it for us. I want to just go get a bottle of wine and just forget about it for a while but unfortunately I will wait til after the blood test.
After everything we have been through I was really thinking this would work for us without trouble, but it seems like the universe just wants us to go through loss after loss after loss. I am very grateful for the son I do have, but now he will grow up alone and that makes me terribly sad for him.
I guess I should have expected this. The last 3 days something has felt off, not like the other two transfers that worked. I am super sorry for the long gloomy post but I am just done at this point. I will update on my blood work but I think I am gonna take a 2 day break from here.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz ((hugs)) I wish there was something I could say to make things better. Praying your numbers double and you are pleasantly surprised at your beta test
TTC #1 since April 2015 June 2016 - CP 2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's IVF w/ PGS - January 2018 FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN ERA Cycle May / June 2018 ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change) FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP Beta #1 - 137 Beta #2 - 410 U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166 Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19 EDD March 28, 2019 Baby Girl born 3/26/19
@mandurz I also wish I could say something to make things better. Disappointing of course, but I’m hoping for you that the chance that things could still work out, will work out. As you know, it’s not over until your doc confirms. )))positive vibes(((
AFM, I’m nervous and excited to get results this afternoon on my first beta... just hoping it’s between 11 and 1115 (lol, low/high on betabase for my age).
TTC #1 since April 2015 June 2016 - CP 2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's IVF w/ PGS - January 2018 FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN ERA Cycle May / June 2018 ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change) FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP Beta #1 - 137 Beta #2 - 410 U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166 Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19 EDD March 28, 2019 Baby Girl born 3/26/19
@mandurz i go back tomorrow morning for another test, however my doctor made it anpoint to call and leave a voicemail saying that even if the hcg doubles (or near doubles) there is less than a 10percent chance that this would be a viable pregnancy because it was so low. wishing you luck with your test on wednesday!!
AFM, I’m nervous and excited to get results this afternoon on my first beta... just hoping it’s between 11 and 1115 (lol, low/high on betabase for my age).
Update: my beta this morning, 10dp5dt, was 86. *deep breath*
One more hurdle cleared, several to go... next one will be my beta on Thursday. Keeping my fingers crossed that the number doubles by then.
So I have declared something about tomorrow....and it better happen one of two ways. Option 1: (which I personally think is more likely) if it's not going to work out in the end anyway then let my HCG is simply 0 so I don't have to wait in this ambiguous limbo. Option 2: if it is going to work out then my HCG is 50 or higher (knowing it won't be much higher because of the tests I have taken so far). There should be NO option 3. Cuz that would mean it is between 0-50 and that would leave me in a crazy limbo. If it's at 0 then it's done and I can stop shots. If it's 50+ then I still worry but know that it was a better outcome than I expected.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz my numbers came back at a 12 so i am stopping all meds and trying again next month i agree with you- the limbo is the worst. I wish they would let you come in for a beta as soon as you get a positive hpt that way if they dont double appropriatly you can stop the shots a week sooner good luck tomorrow! I am rooting for you!
@justharrison I am sorry. I know you didn't have much hope after your first beta, but it still sucks. Good luck with you next cycle.
AFM Blood drawn for quant beta HCG, now the agonizing wait for the call with the actual numbers.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
HCG was at 1 so obviously done. This was it for us so now to just accept it and move on. Thanks ladies for the support and good luck to all of you.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
TTC #1 since April 2015 June 2016 - CP 2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's IVF w/ PGS - January 2018 FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN ERA Cycle May / June 2018 ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change) FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP Beta #1 - 137 Beta #2 - 410 U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166 Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19 EDD March 28, 2019 Baby Girl born 3/26/19
Hey ladies, just checked back in and I'm so sad to see all the crappy news! June was not very nice to many of us. Hugs all around and hopefully better news soon to come.
@mo777 Great news!! Good to see things are on track for you
TTC #1 since April 2015 June 2016 - CP 2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's IVF w/ PGS - January 2018 FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN ERA Cycle May / June 2018 ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change) FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP Beta #1 - 137 Beta #2 - 410 U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166 Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19 EDD March 28, 2019 Baby Girl born 3/26/19
Re: June 2018 FET
Good luck Sunday, mine is wed and boy it feels like months away. But we can get through this waiting period. @mo777 you are so strong to resist testing especially having a stack of them, probably feeling like they are staring you down.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I used my last frer this morning. I waited almost 4 hrs between bathroom trips. And it is still super super faint. I couldn't really get a good picture that you could see the almost not there line. 10 dpt having this faint of a line does make me nervous, I can't deny it. I know a line is a line, but a barely there line is scary. I thought at this point it would be significantly darker. Now I have to try and not stress about it until I can convince my hubby to buy one more box.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I got a very, very faint line. Fingers crossed it’s a real line and not just leftover from my last pregnyl booster last Tuesday.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I think what keeps me worried is almost all (if not all) of my symptoms can be explained by the meds. Although this is the first out of all 3 times that I have a headache this early on. It's almost continuous for 3 days now. Not sure if that is a good thing or not. I am not crampy anymore, boobs still tender, tired, and have raging heartburn.
How are the rest of you feeling?
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mo777 you are lucky to have it tomorrow I still have to wait til Wednesday. Good luck for good numbers. My clinic literally makes us wait 14 days before doing a blood test.
So I broke down a got a digital clear blue. I am terrified to take it though. The frer has been so light I am scared there isn't enough to have it say pregnant. And if it does say not pregnant I will probably cry and it will be awful. I know a line is a line, but at this point it should be a clear line and it is but it's not. I told hubby that I needed the digital one so I can stop guessing. I know that they have a higher threshold so if it says not pregnant I need to start preparing for the worst (while still trying to hold out hope). I absolutely cannot go into the beta without having some clue of what the response will be.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
So what I feared was right. It had NOT in front of pregnant. My hopes are pretty dashed at this point. I know there still is a tiny chance of my levels being low with the faint positives on the frer. But they haven't gotten darker. I only have 2 days before my blood draw and if my levels aren't at least 50 then my dr will say I am not pregnant. Of course they will do repeat blood work 2 days later to see if it is going up but I have pretty much lost all hope.
At this point I can't do any other cycles. This was it for us. I want to just go get a bottle of wine and just forget about it for a while but unfortunately I will wait til after the blood test.
After everything we have been through I was really thinking this would work for us without trouble, but it seems like the universe just wants us to go through loss after loss after loss. I am very grateful for the son I do have, but now he will grow up alone and that makes me terribly sad for him.
I guess I should have expected this. The last 3 days something has felt off, not like the other two transfers that worked. I am super sorry for the long gloomy post but I am just done at this point. I will update on my blood work but I think I am gonna take a 2 day break from here.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
June 2016 - CP
2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's
IVF w/ PGS - January 2018
FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN
ERA Cycle May / June 2018
ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change)
FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP
U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166
Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19
EDD March 28, 2019
Baby Girl born 3/26/19
AFM, I’m nervous and excited to get results this afternoon on my first beta... just hoping it’s between 11 and 1115 (lol, low/high on betabase for my age).
June 2016 - CP
2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's
IVF w/ PGS - January 2018
FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN
ERA Cycle May / June 2018
ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change)
FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP
U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166
Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19
EDD March 28, 2019
Baby Girl born 3/26/19
wishing you luck with your test on wednesday!!
One more hurdle cleared, several to go... next one will be my beta on Thursday. Keeping my fingers crossed that the number doubles by then.
@justharrison how are your numbers today?
So I have declared something about tomorrow....and it better happen one of two ways. Option 1: (which I personally think is more likely) if it's not going to work out in the end anyway then let my HCG is simply 0 so I don't have to wait in this ambiguous limbo. Option 2: if it is going to work out then my HCG is 50 or higher (knowing it won't be much higher because of the tests I have taken so far). There should be NO option 3. Cuz that would mean it is between 0-50 and that would leave me in a crazy limbo. If it's at 0 then it's done and I can stop shots. If it's 50+ then I still worry but know that it was a better outcome than I expected.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
i agree with you- the limbo is the worst. I wish they would let you come in for a beta as soon as you get a positive hpt that way if they dont double appropriatly you can stop the shots a week sooner
good luck tomorrow! I am rooting for you!
AFM
Blood drawn for quant beta HCG, now the agonizing wait for the call with the actual numbers.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
June 2016 - CP
2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's
IVF w/ PGS - January 2018
FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN
ERA Cycle May / June 2018
ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change)
FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP
U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166
Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19
EDD March 28, 2019
Baby Girl born 3/26/19
My second beta today was appropriately higher than my first. So excited!!!!
June 2016 - CP
2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's
IVF w/ PGS - January 2018
FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN
ERA Cycle May / June 2018
ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change)
FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP
U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166
Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19
EDD March 28, 2019
Baby Girl born 3/26/19