@AlohaKumu. Yay!!!! So so happy to hear your good news!!!
@Kristokekerooni oh dear. I'm so sorry. Deep breaths. Honestly, how fricking ridiculous. If it's any consolation, I feel like all our IF trials are going to make us <i>so</i> much better parents when the time comes, than the folks who stumble into ku-edness like stubbing a toe. Lol ((((Hugs))) fx your time may be sooner than you know... And maybe you'll both get to be ku at the same time!??!? Who knows. I'm sorry tho, in the moment that is hard to hear. ❤❤❤
@BusinessWife 18 days to go until FET! (But who's counting, right? ;-))
@kiwi2628 1 1/2 - 2 months sounds like forever when you're going through IF treatment, and I totally understand why you would be upset that IVF might get pushed out. You've done SO MUCH to get to this point! I hope that they are somehow able to work some magic and get you in before the cutoff in December. I think along the same lines as you sometimes with that it might have been easier to just go straight to IVF emotionally and financially. I've spent almost as much as IVF would have cost OOP, and I've ridden this emotional rollercoaster for far too long. All the luck to you that things will work out!
@safire3 FX for your FET! I'm jealous of your Michonne costume! She's one of my favorite characters from TWD.
@laurad75 I hope the acupuncture helps. Let us all know how the IF conference goes!
@Hollyyyyy BIG hugs. I'm so sorry you are back here. Have fun with your friend at the casino tomorrow night.
@emmasemm Ha - I love that the pharmacist said "man flu"! For ways to cope - honestly I distract myself with work during the TWW, but I bet there are more fun/healthy ways to cope than that... Traveling helps too. Little weekend trips make the time go by quick.
@RVAmom315 When are you going to test? And, I agree, 9 episodes for ST2 is way too little!
@KristoKekerooni I hurt for you. That just plain sucks. I'm sorry life can be so unfair.
Diagnosis (If you've been): NIR PCOS
Cycle/CD: month 21/CD ??
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): treatment break
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) nothing
How are things going? Insurance is going to cover IVF! (Well, at least 80% of it.) I am ecstatic. I really was not expecting this change in events. I'm not sure if they'll cover any more ovulation induction/IUI though, so DH and I have to talk about a new plan. We might still do one more IUI, but now we might go straight to IVF. I feel like things are finally going in our favor.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Nope. Halloween is our least celebrated holiday, and we are pretty lame. I usually have plans to dress up, but never make it that far.
Me: 31 Husby: 36 Married May 2014 TTC # 2 Since December 2021 Baby girl W born 2/2021 Our journey so far... (tw loss & infertility)
Diagnosis: Poor Egg Quality Working with an RE since March 2016 2 failed TI cycles 3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017 23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17 BFP 4.21.17 MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey: 12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted! 5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house! 1.1.20 Homestudy process started 3.14.20 First social worker visit 5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test! Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) IUI w donor
How are things going? I am just really excited for my appointment Wednesday to see how things are progressing. Stressed though that the IUI is going to fall over the weekend and it is a weekend I have school, so it really stinks, but I suppose none of it will matter when I am KTFU. We also have tons of house work that is happening this week, I am working overtime, and we have a wedding Saturday night.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? We will sit at the end of our driveways with the neighbors and have a little fire and pass out candy as a group. I have a super long driveway and the kids usually don't bother coming up to it. So of course I bought three bags of candy (we get a max of 12 kids).
@kiwi2628 ugh insurance is the worst. I have kept all of my receipts from medical stuff this year because anything over 10% of your total household income is tax deductible. We certainly hit that with our IVF cycle.
@laurad75@emmasemm I also read to destress. When I am really stressed out, I find myself
going up to bed to read by 8:00.
@mrsmiller8588 MH has basically zero sperm every SA we do,
and he is still not convinced he's shooting blanks… and we are onto donor
sperm, and I think he would still do like another 88 SAs to get a proper sample
size for him to make a conclusion. It's
really amazing.
@alohakumu I am currently reading the Handmaid's Tale and I
am struggling with all of the punctuation! Sooo much of it! I really like the
story but for some reason it isn't an easy read for me. I read like four chapters and fall asleep. I
typically read like 100 pages per night in other books.
@KristoKekerooni Shit, man.
That sucks. Especially after our
convo about being angry at the people it is easier for. Well know that you are justified in your
feelings. We are here for you to vent
to.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@laurad75 I'd love to hear what Nancy kerrigan is going to talk about.
AFM I'm just here. Benched until April and angry at the world. I'm medicating with coffee and booze and everything I've done to help try to get pregnant I'm basically undoing.
Formally Leekat Me: 36 DH 38 Married Sept 2014 TTC Since Nov 2015 IVF Cycle 1 - 0 eggs IVF Cycle 2 - 3 embryos FET 1 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN FET 2 (transferred 2 embryos- BFN IVF Cycle 3 - 1 embryo FET 3 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN Donor Egg Retrieval 2/19/18 -4 embryos that didn't make it to freeze Donor Egg Retrieval 4/30/2018 - 6 eggs - 5 embryos frozen Day 3 FET 4 (with donor eggs) (transferred 1 embryo) -BETA 7/10 - BFN Hysteroscopy & Endo Scratch FET 5 (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos)-BETA 9/10 - BFN Final FET (#6) (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos) BETA 10/15 BFP!! EDD: June 24, 2019 Baby O born June 26, 2019
@AlohaKumu yay that is awesome! @KristoKekerooni so sorry friend. That is tough. I hope she at least told you in a way that was sensitive to what you’re going through.
Im still struggling a bit I know I need to snap out of it but low motivation and I’m on mobile so it’s hard to comment but love tits to all.
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained
Cycle/CD: 28? Who knows. Cd 2
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): wto
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?)
Nothing. Ugh.
How are things going?
I’m struggling today still. Got a call from my nurse and my doctor is now requiring medical clearance before I return for another hysteroscopy or for an ER. Honestly I’m just annoyed right now. Like it was my fault that my HR was high after the anesthesia. The same thing happened to the girl in the bay next to me so maybe the anesthesiologist gave too much meds. I’ve never had a reaction for anesthesia before. I just feel like I’m getting blamed for this. Thankfully I got a cardiologist appointment for Wednesday but I’m just emotional now. I work in the medical field and telling someone they need clearance is another way of saying you don’t want to work with them because of liability. I feel like now he’s concerned and doesn’t want to work with me. I’m all for making sure everything is okay which I know everything is but of course will follow up and get my clearance anyway. I’m glad he’s cautious and concerned but I think this is bigger than what it needs to be. I’m just annoyed all around. Also annoyed that I paid all this money for a procedure that never even happened. I do like my doctor and he has been very supportive but he is the only doctor out of all that I’ve seen in the two clinics I’ve went to (6 total) that could not get the catheter in. Both times he couldn’t get it in at all, all the other docs struggled but got it in. He couldn’t for the saline sono or for the hysteroscopy. I had other docs for my IUIs and my hsg. I have a feeling if it was another doctor Friday everything would’ve been fine and I wouldn’t be in this situation right now which is even more frustrating. I’m sorry guys, I’m praying for peace about all of this and I really am working on it the rest of the week but I guess today I needed one more day to rant my feelings
Any questions?
Any suggestions? I’m not sure what to do here. When I get clearance another doc will do my hysteroscopy but honestly as much as I like my doctor I don’t know if I trust him for the FET since the catheter has always been an issue. I know we will do a mock transfer first so if it was still an issue then we could talk about it then I’m just concerned.
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year?
@KristoKekerooni, I am so sorry Not my sister, but my best friend is pregnant at the same time as another one of our friends... I just know they are bonding and growing closer over their pregnancies together and it is really hard. You are not alone for wanting to cry. I am so happy to have found this group
Me: 28 & DH: 29 Married May 31, 2014 TTC 1 year Currently testing
@rallykat14. I wish I could just give you the biggest hug. I hope you know how much I believe in you. You know how much time we had to spend on the bench, too. And I feel like I went through every stage of grief over and over again throughout the process... it is a lot. But you are going to get through this and maybe even find a way to dance in the shitstorm. ;)
@BusinessWife Sorry for all the frustration at home, but eeek you're getting so close! I agree with the others regarding testing. If it has the potential to upset your day I would just hold off.
@safire3 Sorry the side effects are kicking your butt, but I hope it will all be worth it after Saturday. Good luck!!
@KristoKekerooni So sorry for the rough news my friend. It is such a tough pill to swallow at this point. That journal is gorgeous though. I know you mentioned that you would feel weird about taking money from others who are getting ready for IVF, but I know that I personally feel that if I was already planning on spending the money on a journal I would rather it be going to someone in a similar position.
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Letrozole+Ovidrel+IUI If this cycle is a busy we will be moving onto IVF
How are things going? Meh. I allowed myself to get hopeful for about a day, but that ended quickly. One of my earliest usual PMS symptoms is that the side of my boobs start to hurt around 9 or 10 dpo. Woke up this morning and if course they start to hurt right on schedule. Even though I went into this cycle with low expectations it still stings.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Eh, nothing. Like many of the others we have been binging Stranger Things (only have one episode left!) but that is about it. Our one friend usually has a Halloween party each year, but she is getting ready to move so had to pass this year. There isn't really any trick or treating in my area so won't even get to hand out any candy either.
Holy crap, I'm a day late and already so far behind!!!
@BusinessWife I'm so excited that you have a date!!!! Ahhhhhh it's so close!!! @kiwi2628 I'm so friggin annoyed for you!!! Also, I want to live in your neighborhood for Halloween! @safire3 ah, I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy!!! Hopefully after Saturday this is all just a thing of the past. @laurad75 I don't blame you for getting anxious. You now finally have an end in sight!! @Hollyyyyy Hopefully you're off that bench soon and can get ready to rock and roll! I hope next cycle is it for you! @emmasemm I laughed at the pharmacist even calling it the man flu! My husband has had a slight cold for weeks now and I'll be damned if I haven't heard him complaining daily about it @RVAmom315 fingers still crossed so hard for you this cycle! I hope you have a fun night on Friday! @zwink1 The crazy could be good or bad! I hope it's good and time moves quickly for you @MrsMiller8588 sorry to see you here. I hope you do get that miracle! I think we're all absolutely hoping for that and it definitely does happen! Fingers crossed for you @KristoKekerooni girl, totally throw those books on Etsy!!! Also, good luck at your appt! @darkstar42 I'm sorry you didn't like the RE, I hope you can find someone you like and trust! Also, I totally wish I was your neighbor to come and hang out! @shortstack930 I hope this is it for you!!!! I have everything crossed!
I'll have to come back later for more, gotta actually do some work today
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI - Low count
Cycle/CD: Ugh about cycle 17 maybe?
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW!
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Had IUI #4 yesterday morning. It went smoothly!
How are things going? Ok. Kind of at the point where if it works I'll be fucking amazed, but also mentally prepping for the fact that we might need to do IVF come January. I just signed up for my work's insurance yesterday during our open enrollment period. They cover a majority of IVF and the meds so thank god for that! I realize how fucking lucky I am to have that as an option!
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Lots of fall activities the past few weekends. Tonight we'll do trick or treating - we get NO ONE in our neighborhood so we have to head over to the next neighborhood but it's amazing. SO many people out! that's the kind of street I want to live on if we ever sell our house and move. I LOVE Halloween!!! I've been watching as many movies as I can the past few weeks.
@alohakumu Yes! That’s
so exciting. When will the transfer be?
@kristokekerooni WTF.
Why did she call you at work? I’m
really sorry.
PSA - Coincidentally, after our discussion of how I find reading fiction so relaxing the novel I am really enjoying right now, Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng, has a pretty intense baby story line that I didn't see coming. I am too close to finishing it to stop reading plus the book is really good but its not quite doing its job of distracting me from IF. So in conclusion, Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng... big fat TW.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@kiwi2628 WTF??? I hope you get their records corrected quickly, then kick some butt... Would suing them for emotional trauma be a thing???
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@MrsMiller8588@ndz2018 and @twodreamscollide So sorry you ladies find yourselves here. Hope your stay is short. These girls are the best foxhole mates you could ask for in this unholy war. Welcome.
@50Wife FX on your IUI #4. I'm right there, just a few steps ahead of you...
AFM:
Diagnosis: DOR, AMA
Cycle/CD: 26 (20AL)/19
Status: TWW - 10DPO
What are you doing: On IUI #4 with OH's frozen sperm
How is it going: Fine. I still wonder if we timed it well since my temp rise was on the day we did my IUI. Also, my chart has been, for lack of a better term, a total mindfuck. It started off just being very stable with lower than usual temps. Maybe I have less swings because I'm finally getting real rest using the CPAP for my apnea, but I was doing that last cycle, too. Then I got a pretty big rise and have stayed up there, making my chart triphasic, which has never happened to me before. I don't really care much about pretty charts because at the end of the day what matters is a second line. Also, I'm sure supplementing progesterone makes my chart less than informative. But damned if it doesn't put ideas into my head. Don't ask me how I've managed to not test yet...the only thing stopping me, I imagine, is IF cynicism...
Any questions: Nope.
GTKY: There was a fun block party on our street on Saturday night. They had a great live band and my stepson was adorable dancing to the music. Tonight his mom has him, so we'll just hang out at home and hand out candy. We had quite a few trick or treaters last year, so we bought plenty of candy.
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Any questions? Yeah, anyone know any trick to get AF?!?
@ndz2018 Plan on having sex tonight Wear a good light colored thong Wear white pants
The first two usually do the trick for me....I don't own white pants but I'm assuming it would work!
@ndz2018@50Wife Sex and/or acupuncture can usually jump start my period. GL!
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@50Wife and @laurad75 I’ve been having sex the last two nights Bc it usually does it! LOL on the light colored pants and thong! I’m gonna call and see if I can get in for accu today! Thanks ladies! And maybe give it one more pounding tonight!
@wishiwaspreggo Boo! Huge seasonal shifts are really frustrating, especially when you miss out on the mildness of spring and fall. @safire3 I'm thinking of you today!!! I hope all goes well! @madspunk Dude, that is bossome coverage! If they are going to cover that much of it, I would go straight to IVF. (But that's just me because I am impatient.) @JuneRoseRuby I hope all goes well at your appointment tomorrow. @rallykat14 I know that there's nothing I can say that makes your situation any better, but we all love you and hate to see that you are benched until the spring. You don't deserve this at all. @beachbunnyxo123 I don't blame you for wanting another doctor, even if the bedside manner for this one is good. Not every doctor is as good at every technique, and in this case, you REALLY want to have someone who doesn't just give up. I hope your clearance comes soon and you can move forward with a doctor who can work with your cervix. @Pinky917 Ah, that darn boob pain. If you do end up having to move onto IVF, I hope that all goes well with your preparation for it. You know we are all here if you have any questions about it. @kiwi2628 Aw helllllll no. I would give the insurer pure hellfire. @aurora1973 I hope the chart situation means some good news. @50Wife That's great that your insurance coverage will be awesome for the IVF meds, but I know you didn't want to find yourself in that place. I also love your advice to @ndz2018. I would add to make sure you have no sanitary products with you and go into a really public place.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
@BusinessWife you’re so close! I’m getting very excited for you! I’m not sure what to suggest regarding the testing that’s such a tough one but I’m crossing my fingers so hard for you that this thanksgiving is a great one!!
@kiwi2628 WTAF with your insurance! They need to get it together!!! Sorry you’re dealing with all that. I hope it all works out for you!
@safire FET possibly Saturday ahh!! So excited for you!
@laurad75 I just started acupuncture about two weeks ago and am trying to get into it haven’t noticed any changes yet but I feel hopeful hearing you say you know it helps!
@emmasemm I’ve also been trying acupuncture for stress and IF
@zwink1 glad that the work project will be done so hopefully you can have the time and less stress to focus on IVF
@Hollyyyyy hoping that this benched cycle flies by for you.
@KristoKekerooni good luck today can’t wait to hear how it goes! So sorry about the news you received, I can only imagine how that felt, hugs friend
@AlohaKumu yay that’s great news! So excited for you!
@JuneRoseRuby hoping everything works out well with the timing for everything!!!
@madspunk that’s great to hear about your insurance!!!
@rallykat14 I’m so sorry friend. You have every right to be angry at the world. I wish there was something I could say to provide some support. I’m hoping the time goes by quickly. You are such a strong person but I’m sorry that you have to be, hugs.
@50Wife fx that the IUI works but if not we have a lot of ladies doing IVF soon!
@Pinky917 fx for you!!!! when would you be starting IVF around if the IUI were not successful?
@aurora1973 You know I am IN LOVE with that gif! Always apropos for IF.
@beachbunnyxo123 So are you able to see a different RE? Because while I understand that your cervix is being a jerk, it seems like this RE has the most trouble of everyone and maybe that's not right for you at the very least for the procedures themselves? Ugh, I am so sorry for what you are going through.
AFM: Lining check tomorrow and hoping to find a way to feel OK about this stuff. I'm having a really hard time this week with Halloween and my loss EDD. Just really thought this period of my life would be different. Sigh. I hope you ladies have something more fun planned for tonight than I do (wine and feeling sorry for myself).
@adirat. Hey! Snap out of it woman! Wine is nice, but it will also make you feel more bummed out and harder to shake the sads. You are just DAYS away from transfer! That is so promising, and as sad as your loss is, remember that her sweet little life is going to be helping make possible for her brother and sister to be born healthy and live long normal lives, with a little luck ;) THAT is a beautiful gift, and her memory and her spirit will live on in the hearts of your whole family as it grows, whether your future LOs realise it or not. Her life mattered. So, so much. And Hopefully it may come to feel all the more bittersweet and beautiful when you are holding her first sibling in your arms. ❤ you know this. I know our hearts don't always want to hear it. But you're going to get through this time you never saw coming, and I believe you can't really even see or <i>imagine</i> right now, the goodness, beauty and JOY! Life has in store for you... Hang in there. (((Hugs)))
ETA I really don't mean to be too hard on you - I hope you know I say everything with so much love. We definitely need to give ourselves permission to feel our pain, and release it, cry our tears till there's none left... I just hate to think of you being upset or wallowing when maybe even colouring or journaling or I don't know what else, might be a little more positive or constructive direction to turn your feelings tho, instead of just feeling totally miserable or hopeless. I actually broke down in my boss's office the other day. Lol. That's story for another time. But she was saying to me, whatever's going on, I've got to release it. I've got to get those tears and get it OUT, so it doesn't keep weighing me down. I was like fock, I think she's right. :/ but anyway, I love you. If you need me, I'll be eating potato chips and stalking Amazon, pretty much so yeah, frans??? ;)
EATA wow, dunno if this will help you, but I just remembered something. ********TW******** death of a parent When my dad was near his last, I remember him telling me and my mother (who has a real tendency towards depression) he said to us, we mustn't be <i>TOO</i> sad. Of course any loss is sad and we grieve that loss, but I remember feeling that was his wish for us, that we wouldn't be too sad, moping around so much that we miss out on the good things that will eventually come, if we are open to them. Maybe even a visualization like that could help to process it all in another way? I just feel like, if she could speak to you now, and saw her mommy crying, I think she might say the same thing. ❤
Hugs @adirat. I think @BusinessWife is right in what she beautifully said that her life mattered, and finding out about the genetic mutation has made all of this possible. But I also totally get that no matter what happens going forward, she left a hole in your heart that will never quite be filled, and that's OK. I hope you find some peace with everything so that moving forward feels good and right. Be kind to yourself.
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@JuneRoseRuby GL tomorrow! @rallykat14 Treat yo' self to all the booze and coffee. Throw in some massages and pedicures, good books and cuddle time, and all the things to make you smile. @beachbunnyxo123 That's so frustrating! I'm sorry you have to go through all that. I would definitely be annoyed if I were you too. As if IF weren't complicated enough, it sucks that you have to deal with bad anesthesia side effects and catheter issues. I'll pray for peace for you too. @50Wife If this IUI doesn't work... yay for good health insurance coverage! @ndz2018 Welcome. When do you get your results from testing? @adirat Sorry this week is hard. It's not an easy road you've had. @BusinessWife and @Aurora1973 so beautifully already said the things I would say to you. Don't feel bad grieving what you've lost, but be kind to yourself. GL at your lining check tomorrow. @BusinessWife I love that from your dad - "we musn't be TOO sad".
@adirat I cannot even imagine how scary and sad this process has been for you, and you certainly have every right in the world to grieve this loss and be concerned about the future. I love @BusinessWife's beautiful words of encouragement. It's definitely true that we NEED those moments to let it all out, but we shouldn't wallow in that and let it consume us. (Oh believe me, I know that's easier said than done.) I've definitely had my share of wine and tears when I needed it, but our journey is not over. None of us ever expected this to happen to us, but we will press on!
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
Re: IF Testing & Treatment - Week of 10/30
@Kristokekerooni oh dear. I'm so sorry. Deep breaths. Honestly, how fricking ridiculous. If it's any consolation, I feel like all our IF trials are going to make us <i>so</i> much better parents when the time comes, than the folks who stumble into ku-edness like stubbing a toe. Lol ((((Hugs))) fx your time may be sooner than you know... And maybe you'll both get to be ku at the same time!??!? Who knows. I'm sorry tho, in the moment that is hard to hear. ❤❤❤
@BusinessWife 18 days to go until FET! (But who's counting, right? ;-))
@kiwi2628 1 1/2 - 2 months sounds like forever when you're going through IF treatment, and I totally understand why you would be upset that IVF might get pushed out. You've done SO MUCH to get to this point! I hope that they are somehow able to work some magic and get you in before the cutoff in December. I think along the same lines as you sometimes with that it might have been easier to just go straight to IVF emotionally and financially. I've spent almost as much as IVF would have cost OOP, and I've ridden this emotional rollercoaster for far too long. All the luck to you that things will work out!
@safire3 FX for your FET! I'm jealous of your Michonne costume! She's one of my favorite characters from TWD.
@laurad75 I hope the acupuncture helps. Let us all know how the IF conference goes!
@Hollyyyyy BIG hugs. I'm so sorry you are back here. Have fun with your friend at the casino tomorrow night.
@emmasemm Ha - I love that the pharmacist said "man flu"! For ways to cope - honestly I distract myself with work during the TWW, but I bet there are more fun/healthy ways to cope than that... Traveling helps too. Little weekend trips make the time go by quick.
@RVAmom315 When are you going to test? And, I agree, 9 episodes for ST2 is way too little!
@zwink1 GL Thursday!
@MrsMiller8588 Sorry you have to wait so long for the repeat SA. I'll have my FX that the SA comes back better and you don't need to go the IVF route.
@shortstack930 FX for Wednesday!
@AlohaKumu Yay for two normal embryos!!
@KristoKekerooni I hurt for you. That just plain sucks. I'm sorry life can be so unfair.
Diagnosis (If you've been): NIR PCOS
Cycle/CD: month 21/CD ??
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): treatment break
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) nothing
How are things going? Insurance is going to cover IVF! (Well, at least 80% of it.) I am ecstatic. I really was not expecting this change in events. I'm not sure if they'll cover any more ovulation induction/IUI though, so DH and I have to talk about a new plan. We might still do one more IUI, but now we might go straight to IVF. I feel like things are finally going in our favor.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Nope. Halloween is our least celebrated holiday, and we are pretty lame. I usually have plans to dress up, but never make it that far.
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@KristoKekerooni I forgot to add how much I like your IVF journal! You should definitely think about selling them if you want to. They're great.
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
Diagnosis (If you've been): virtual azoo, robertsonian translocaton
Cycle/CD: 20 something, CD13
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) IUI w donor
How are things going? I am just really excited for my appointment Wednesday to see how things are progressing. Stressed though that the IUI is going to fall over the weekend and it is a weekend I have school, so it really stinks, but I suppose none of it will matter when I am KTFU. We also have tons of house work that is happening this week, I am working overtime, and we have a wedding Saturday night.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? We will sit at the end of our driveways with the neighbors and have a little fire and pass out candy as a group. I have a super long driveway and the kids usually don't bother coming up to it. So of course I bought three bags of candy (we get a max of 12 kids).
@kiwi2628 ugh insurance is the worst. I have kept all of my receipts from medical stuff this year because anything over 10% of your total household income is tax deductible. We certainly hit that with our IVF cycle.
@safire3 @businesswife – FET is so close for the both of you!!
@laurad75 @emmasemm I also read to destress. When I am really stressed out, I find myself going up to bed to read by 8:00.
@mrsmiller8588 MH has basically zero sperm every SA we do, and he is still not convinced he's shooting blanks… and we are onto donor sperm, and I think he would still do like another 88 SAs to get a proper sample size for him to make a conclusion. It's really amazing.
@alohakumu I am currently reading the Handmaid's Tale and I am struggling with all of the punctuation! Sooo much of it! I really like the story but for some reason it isn't an easy read for me. I read like four chapters and fall asleep. I typically read like 100 pages per night in other books.
@KristoKekerooni Shit, man. That sucks. Especially after our convo about being angry at the people it is easier for. Well know that you are justified in your feelings. We are here for you to vent to.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Me: 36 DH 38
Married Sept 2014
TTC Since Nov 2015
IVF Cycle 1 - 0 eggs
IVF Cycle 2 - 3 embryos
FET 1 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
FET 2 (transferred 2 embryos- BFN
IVF Cycle 3 - 1 embryo
FET 3 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
Donor Egg Retrieval 2/19/18 -4 embryos that didn't make it to freeze
Donor Egg Retrieval 4/30/2018 - 6 eggs - 5 embryos frozen Day 3
FET 4 (with donor eggs) (transferred 1 embryo) -BETA 7/10 - BFN
Hysteroscopy & Endo Scratch
FET 5 (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos)-BETA 9/10 - BFN
Final FET (#6) (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos) BETA 10/15 BFP!!
EDD: June 24, 2019 Baby O born June 26, 2019
AFM
I'm just here. Benched until April and angry at the world. I'm medicating with coffee and booze and everything I've done to help try to get pregnant I'm basically undoing.
Me: 36 DH 38
Married Sept 2014
TTC Since Nov 2015
IVF Cycle 1 - 0 eggs
IVF Cycle 2 - 3 embryos
FET 1 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
FET 2 (transferred 2 embryos- BFN
IVF Cycle 3 - 1 embryo
FET 3 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
Donor Egg Retrieval 2/19/18 -4 embryos that didn't make it to freeze
Donor Egg Retrieval 4/30/2018 - 6 eggs - 5 embryos frozen Day 3
FET 4 (with donor eggs) (transferred 1 embryo) -BETA 7/10 - BFN
Hysteroscopy & Endo Scratch
FET 5 (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos)-BETA 9/10 - BFN
Final FET (#6) (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos) BETA 10/15 BFP!!
EDD: June 24, 2019 Baby O born June 26, 2019
@KristoKekerooni so sorry friend. That is tough. I hope she at least told you in a way that was sensitive to what you’re going through.
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained
Cycle/CD: 28? Who knows. Cd 2
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): wto
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?)
Nothing. Ugh.
How are things going?
I’m struggling today still. Got a call from my nurse and my doctor is now requiring medical clearance before I return for another hysteroscopy or for an ER. Honestly I’m just annoyed right now. Like it was my fault that my HR was high after the anesthesia. The same thing happened to the girl in the bay next to me so maybe the anesthesiologist gave too much meds. I’ve never had a reaction for anesthesia before. I just feel like I’m getting blamed for this. Thankfully I got a cardiologist appointment for Wednesday but I’m just emotional now. I work in the medical field and telling someone they need clearance is another way of saying you don’t want to work with them because of liability. I feel like now he’s concerned and doesn’t want to work with me. I’m all for making sure everything is okay which I know everything is but of course will follow up and get my clearance anyway. I’m glad he’s cautious and concerned but I think this is bigger than what it needs to be. I’m just annoyed all around. Also annoyed that I paid all this money for a procedure that never even happened. I do like my doctor and he has been very supportive but he is the only doctor out of all that I’ve seen in the two clinics I’ve went to (6 total) that could not get the catheter in. Both times he couldn’t get it in at all, all the other docs struggled but got it in. He couldn’t for the saline sono or for the hysteroscopy. I had other docs for my IUIs and my hsg. I have a feeling if it was another doctor Friday everything would’ve been fine and I wouldn’t be in this situation right now which is even more frustrating. I’m sorry guys, I’m praying for peace about all of this and I really am working on it the rest of the week but I guess today I needed one more day to rant my feelings
Any questions?
Any suggestions? I’m not sure what to do here. When I get clearance another doc will do my hysteroscopy but honestly as much as I like my doctor I don’t know if I trust him for the FET since the catheter has always been an issue. I know we will do a mock transfer first so if it was still an issue then we could talk about it then I’m just concerned.
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year?
Bringing my nieces around my neighborhood
Married May 31, 2014
TTC 1 year
Currently testing
*typo
@BusinessWife Sorry for all the frustration at home, but eeek you're getting so close! I agree with the others regarding testing. If it has the potential to upset your day I would just hold off.
@safire3 Sorry the side effects are kicking your butt, but I hope it will all be worth it after Saturday. Good luck!!
Sending lots of love your way @Hollyyyyy and @rallykat14
Hoping all goes well on Thursday @zwink1
Yay for some great results @AlohaKumu!!
@KristoKekerooni So sorry for the rough news my friend. It is such a tough pill to swallow at this point. That journal is gorgeous though. I know you mentioned that you would feel weird about taking money from others who are getting ready for IVF, but I know that I personally feel that if I was already planning on spending the money on a journal I would rather it be going to someone in a similar position.
That is great news about the coverage @madspunk!
Diagnosis (If you've been): Unexplained
Cycle/CD: cycle 19/ CD 22
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW (9dpiui)
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Letrozole+Ovidrel+IUI If this cycle is a busy we will be moving onto IVF
How are things going? Meh. I allowed myself to get hopeful for about a day, but that ended quickly. One of my earliest usual PMS symptoms is that the side of my boobs start to hurt around 9 or 10 dpo. Woke up this morning and if course they start to hurt right on schedule. Even though I went into this cycle with low expectations it still stings.
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Eh, nothing. Like many of the others we have been binging Stranger Things (only have one episode left!) but that is about it. Our one friend usually has a Halloween party each year, but she is getting ready to move so had to pass this year. There isn't really any trick or treating in my area so won't even get to hand out any candy either.
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
@BusinessWife I'm so excited that you have a date!!!! Ahhhhhh it's so close!!!
@kiwi2628 I'm so friggin annoyed for you!!!
Also, I want to live in your neighborhood for Halloween!
@safire3 ah, I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy!!! Hopefully after Saturday this is all just a thing of the past.
@laurad75 I don't blame you for getting anxious. You now finally have an end in sight!!
@Hollyyyyy Hopefully you're off that bench soon and can get ready to rock and roll! I hope next cycle is it for you!
@emmasemm I laughed at the pharmacist even calling it the man flu! My husband has had a slight cold for weeks now and I'll be damned if I haven't heard him complaining daily about it
@RVAmom315 fingers still crossed so hard for you this cycle! I hope you have a fun night on Friday!
@zwink1 The crazy could be good or bad! I hope it's good and time moves quickly for you
@MrsMiller8588 sorry to see you here. I hope you do get that miracle! I think we're all absolutely hoping for that and it definitely does happen! Fingers crossed for you
@KristoKekerooni girl, totally throw those books on Etsy!!! Also, good luck at your appt!
@darkstar42 I'm sorry you didn't like the RE, I hope you can find someone you like and trust! Also, I totally wish I was your neighbor to come and hang out!
@shortstack930 I hope this is it for you!!!! I have everything crossed!
I'll have to come back later for more, gotta actually do some work today
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI - Low count
Cycle/CD: Ugh about cycle 17 maybe?
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW!
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Had IUI #4 yesterday morning. It went smoothly!
How are things going? Ok. Kind of at the point where if it works I'll be fucking amazed, but also mentally prepping for the fact that we might need to do IVF come January. I just signed up for my work's insurance yesterday during our open enrollment period. They cover a majority of IVF and the meds so thank god for that! I realize how fucking lucky I am to have that as an option!
Any questions?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? Lots of fall activities the past few weekends. Tonight we'll do trick or treating - we get NO ONE in our neighborhood so we have to head over to the next neighborhood but it's amazing. SO many people out! that's the kind of street I want to live on if we ever sell our house and move. I LOVE Halloween!!! I've been watching as many movies as I can the past few weeks.
@alohakumu Yes! That’s so exciting. When will the transfer be?
@kristokekerooni WTF. Why did she call you at work? I’m really sorry.
PSA - Coincidentally, after our discussion of how I find reading fiction so relaxing the novel I am really enjoying right now, Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng, has a pretty intense baby story line that I didn't see coming. I am too close to finishing it to stop reading plus the book is really good but its not quite doing its job of distracting me from IF. So in conclusion, Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng... big fat TW.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
EXCUSE ME???
EXCUSE ME???????
Hold please while I verbally stab people.
Would suing them for emotional trauma be a thing???
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@pinky917 I love what you said to @KristoKekerooni and I agree, people would be happier giving money to a fellow IF warrior.
So many hugs to you, @KristoKekerooni and @rallykat14
Still pretty new to this board so hey all!!
Diagnosis (If you've been): Haven’t been diagnosed yet had first RE app last Friday and waiting for AF to move forward with testing
Cycle/CD: ? / CD 31
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) bbt, opk, checking CM
How are things going? This is the first time in my life I waiting AF to come on time and of course she’s late I’m a little frustrated!
Any questions? Yeah, anyone know any trick to get AF?!?
GTKY: Did/are you doing anything to celebrate Halloween this year? May be going to the city ( NYC) tonight to see one of my SOs favorite groups!
@MrsMiller8588 @ndz2018 and @twodreamscollide So sorry you ladies find yourselves here. Hope your stay is short. These girls are the best foxhole mates you could ask for in this unholy war. Welcome.
@50Wife FX on your IUI #4. I'm right there, just a few steps ahead of you...
AFM:
Diagnosis: DOR, AMA
Cycle/CD: 26 (20AL)/19
Status: TWW - 10DPO
What are you doing: On IUI #4 with OH's frozen sperm
How is it going: Fine. I still wonder if we timed it well since my temp rise was on the day we did my IUI. Also, my chart has been, for lack of a better term, a total mindfuck. It started off just being very stable with lower than usual temps. Maybe I have less swings because I'm finally getting real rest using the CPAP for my apnea, but I was doing that last cycle, too. Then I got a pretty big rise and have stayed up there, making my chart triphasic, which has never happened to me before. I don't really care much about pretty charts because at the end of the day what matters is a second line. Also, I'm sure supplementing progesterone makes my chart less than informative. But damned if it doesn't put ideas into my head. Don't ask me how I've managed to not test yet...the only thing stopping me, I imagine, is IF cynicism...
Any questions: Nope.
GTKY: There was a fun block party on our street on Saturday night. They had a great live band and my stepson was adorable dancing to the music. Tonight his mom has him, so we'll just hang out at home and hand out candy. We had quite a few trick or treaters last year, so we bought plenty of candy.
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@ndz2018
Plan on having sex tonight
Wear a good light colored thong
Wear white pants
The first two usually do the trick for me....I don't own white pants but I'm assuming it would work!
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
I’m gonna call and see if I can get in for accu today! Thanks ladies! And maybe give it one more pounding tonight!
@kiwi2628, hopefully your RE's office can sort that out, how frustrating.
@safire3 I'm thinking of you today!!! I hope all goes well!
@madspunk Dude, that is bossome coverage! If they are going to cover that much of it, I would go straight to IVF. (But that's just me because I am impatient.)
@JuneRoseRuby I hope all goes well at your appointment tomorrow.
@rallykat14 I know that there's nothing I can say that makes your situation any better, but we all love you and hate to see that you are benched until the spring. You don't deserve this at all.
@beachbunnyxo123 I don't blame you for wanting another doctor, even if the bedside manner for this one is good. Not every doctor is as good at every technique, and in this case, you REALLY want to have someone who doesn't just give up. I hope your clearance comes soon and you can move forward with a doctor who can work with your cervix.
@Pinky917 Ah, that darn boob pain. If you do end up having to move onto IVF, I hope that all goes well with your preparation for it. You know we are all here if you have any questions about it.
@kiwi2628 Aw helllllll no. I would give the insurer pure hellfire.
@aurora1973 I hope the chart situation means some good news.
@50Wife That's great that your insurance coverage will be awesome for the IVF meds, but I know you didn't want to find yourself in that place. I also love your advice to @ndz2018. I would add to make sure you have no sanitary products with you and go into a really public place.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
@kiwi2628 WTAF with your insurance! They need to get it together!!! Sorry you’re dealing with all that. I hope it all works out for you!
@safire FET possibly Saturday ahh!! So excited for you!
@laurad75 I just started acupuncture about two weeks ago and am trying to get into it haven’t noticed any changes yet but I feel hopeful hearing you say you know it helps!
@emmasemm I’ve also been trying acupuncture for stress and IF
@RVAmom315 fx for you!
@zwink1 glad that the work project will be done so hopefully you can have the time and less stress to focus on IVF
@Hollyyyyy hoping that this benched cycle flies by for you.
@KristoKekerooni good luck today can’t wait to hear how it goes! So sorry about the news you received, I can only imagine how that felt, hugs friend
@AlohaKumu yay that’s great news! So excited for you!
@JuneRoseRuby hoping everything works out well with the timing for everything!!!
@madspunk that’s great to hear about your insurance!!!
@rallykat14 I’m so sorry friend. You have every right to be angry at the world. I wish there was something I could say to provide some support. I’m hoping the time goes by quickly. You are such a strong person but I’m sorry that you have to be, hugs.
@50Wife fx that the IUI works but if not we have a lot of ladies doing IVF soon!
@Pinky917 fx for you!!!! when would you be starting IVF around if the IUI were not successful?
@beachbunnyxo123 So are you able to see a different RE? Because while I understand that your cervix is being a jerk, it seems like this RE has the most trouble of everyone and maybe that's not right for you at the very least for the procedures themselves? Ugh, I am so sorry for what you are going through.
AFM: Lining check tomorrow and hoping to find a way to feel OK about this stuff. I'm having a really hard time this week with Halloween and my loss EDD. Just really thought this period of my life would be different. Sigh. I hope you ladies have something more fun planned for tonight than I do (wine and feeling sorry for myself).
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ETA I really don't mean to be too hard on you - I hope you know I say everything with so much love. We definitely need to give ourselves permission to feel our pain, and release it, cry our tears till there's none left... I just hate to think of you being upset or wallowing when maybe even colouring or journaling or I don't know what else, might be a little more positive or constructive direction to turn your feelings tho, instead of just feeling totally miserable or hopeless. I actually broke down in my boss's office the other day. Lol. That's story for another time. But she was saying to me, whatever's going on, I've got to release it. I've got to get those tears and get it OUT, so it doesn't keep weighing me down. I was like fock, I think she's right. :/ but anyway, I love you. If you need me, I'll be eating potato chips and stalking Amazon, pretty much so yeah, frans??? ;)
EATA wow, dunno if this will help you, but I just remembered something. ********TW******** death of a parent
When my dad was near his last, I remember him telling me and my mother (who has a real tendency towards depression) he said to us, we mustn't be <i>TOO</i> sad. Of course any loss is sad and we grieve that loss, but I remember feeling that was his wish for us, that we wouldn't be too sad, moping around so much that we miss out on the good things that will eventually come, if we are open to them. Maybe even a visualization like that could help to process it all in another way? I just feel like, if she could speak to you now, and saw her mommy crying, I think she might say the same thing. ❤
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@rallykat14 Treat yo' self to all the booze and coffee. Throw in some massages and pedicures, good books and cuddle time, and all the things to make you smile.
@beachbunnyxo123 That's so frustrating! I'm sorry you have to go through all that. I would definitely be annoyed if I were you too. As if IF weren't complicated enough, it sucks that you have to deal with bad anesthesia side effects and catheter issues. I'll pray for peace for you too.
@50Wife If this IUI doesn't work... yay for good health insurance coverage!
@ndz2018 Welcome. When do you get your results from testing?
@adirat Sorry this week is hard. It's not an easy road you've had. @BusinessWife and @Aurora1973 so beautifully already said the things I would say to you. Don't feel bad grieving what you've lost, but be kind to yourself. GL at your lining check tomorrow.
@BusinessWife I love that from your dad - "we musn't be TOO sad".
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.