Two aunts aren't attending my shower because my cousin decided she's not driving "in the 'hood." And someone told me last night not to gain anymore weight (not sure how that's even possible while my baby TRIPLES his weight over the next 11 weeks).
I'm sorry about your family and I seriously can't believe someone said that to you that's just horrendous.
Today I cried because DH and I were talking about New Years and how we always cheer to the new year and say the best is yet to come...but now the best is coming. Super lame but it's getting pretty real.
ALSO there's a new commercial I think for insurance but the slogan is "one look can change your life" and it's people holding their new babies for the first time. I can't handle all of the emotions.
It seems that a lot of people don't think before speaking.
And seriously all of the feels! I think third tri must be the most emotional (in my experience so far).
Today I cried because I'm mentally and physically exhausted. I work in a small office (3 people) My secretary quit out if the blue on Tuesday, the same day my other coworker and very dear friend found out her husband has cancer. I'm trying to be a trooper and push myself to do the work of all three people but I barely have the energy to move. I don't even have time to rest at home. By the time I finish my 10+ hour work days I get to entertain my DH very wonderful but overwhelming family who is in town until next week. I just wanted to nap all day
Last night I cried because we got a flat tire while driving back to our house in Chicago from St. Louis. We usually try and leave by 2ish so we can get in at a decent hour and have some daylight while driving, but we didn't get on the road until 4 and it was pouring the WHOLE way. And of course the temperature finally dropped to seasonal winter temps. So needless to say when we got a flat it was pouring and freezing. We pulled off of the highway as far as we could be I was having a minor panic attack because hardly any cars were getting over into the left lane of traffic and I kept freaking out that baby was going to be fatherless and I was going to be a widow. Poor DH.
Not to mention this was apparently the first time my car has had a flat because it turns out after he was outside and got everything all into position and ready to go my car has some after-market rims that our standard wrench won't fit in to to get the lug nuts out. So after all that we had to call someone and pay them $100 bucks basically to get the lug nuts off of the car since DH already did all of the rest of the work.
The 3rd tri boards, the thread about the lady getting induced at 33 weeks. I'm literally sobbing. I was so scared that baby was so still yesterday (it's wiggling around today) and then I read that thread earlier today. I can't even get it together to say something comforting or offer condolences to her.
I cried yesterday because I finally got to see Star Wars in theater!! I was so happy when I heard the main theme song! I also cried from laughing so hard at the trailer for Zootopia.
I'm crying right now because I'm at work and my coworker called out and so it's just me. It's busy and I just had to deal with the world's most annoying customer. My back is killing me and my stomach is upset and I've thrown up in the garbage can twice now. I just want to go home but I have 3 hours left on my shift.
I cried today because I logged into my patient portal and read the notes the doctor wrote down after my miscarriage. I cried because one of the notes was patient presented with supportive husband. And I though about how freaking amazing my husband is and has been.
BFP 2/11/15 (EDD 10/13/15). MMC 3/30/15 D&C 4/3/15 "We will always love you"
DD1 - BFP 7/23/15 (EDD 3/31/16). "We believe in you rainbow" DOB 4/2/16
DD2 - BFP 2/9/18 (EDD 10/19/18). "Grow baby grow!" DOB 10/24/18
BFP 11/16/20 (EDD 7/31/21). "Round 3 FIGHT!"
I had a pretty dramatic mood swing today. Was really focused on getting some organizing done. Sitting in the middle of all my daughters baby clothes....I started to feel strange (almost kind of sick). I was crying within minutes. Not expecting that at all!
Lately I feel upset when I see someone (on TV shows or movies! Not RL, lol) being shot or tortured. Not even just sad movies, the other day DH was watching Django Unchained when I got home and one character was torturing another by shooting his knees and I walked out of the room so I wouldn't start crying for some reason. Things like that haven't bothered me before unless it truly is a sad movie/show/moment.
Lately I feel upset when I see someone (on TV shows or movies! Not RL, lol) being shot or tortured. Not even just sad movies, the other day DH was watching Django Unchained when I got home and one character was torturing another by shooting his knees and I walked out of the room so I wouldn't start crying for some reason. Things like that haven't bothered me before unless it truly is a sad movie/show/moment.
I had a hard time explaining this to my husband. I didn't want him to watch making of a murderer while I was in the room. I can't get those images out of my head. I couldn't watch CNN during my first pregnancy.
Lately I feel upset when I see someone (on TV shows or movies! Not RL, lol) being shot or tortured. Not even just sad movies, the other day DH was watching Django Unchained when I got home and one character was torturing another by shooting his knees and I walked out of the room so I wouldn't start crying for some reason. Things like that haven't bothered me before unless it truly is a sad movie/show/moment.
I had a hard time explaining this to my husband. I didn't want him to watch making of a murderer while I was in the room. I can't get those images out of my head. I couldn't watch CNN during my first pregnancy.
And I just watched Making a Murderer this past week and was perfectly fine...lol. That one was okay for me because I didn't have to see any actual shooting or torture of anyone, and DH and I both get way too into looking at the evidence (or lack thereof) and trying to essentially investigate ourselves for shows like that. Now if they had shown some sort of footage of something happening, I'm not sure how I would have reacted.
Side note: I totally think both Avery and Dassey are innocent. Too much of the evidence didn't make sense and there was way too much lacking in my opinion. My biggest thing is, there was never an actual murder site found and/or confirmed. They say that she was shot (whether once or 11times idk) but there was no blood of hers anywhere. And some evidence was too perfect to be real (like the key? Only had Avery's DNA, someone else's DNA should have been on that for me to believe it wasn't wiped clean and planted).
And I just watched Making a Murderer this past week and was perfectly fine...lol. That one was okay for me because I didn't have to see any actual shooting or torture of anyone, and DH and I both get way too into looking at the evidence (or lack thereof) and trying to essentially investigate ourselves for shows like that. Now if they had shown some sort of footage of something happening, I'm not sure how I would have reacted.
Side note: I totally think both Avery and Dassey are innocent. Too much of the evidence didn't make sense and there was way too much lacking in my opinion. My biggest thing is, there was never an actual murder site found and/or confirmed. They say that she was shot (whether once or 11times idk) but there was no blood of hers anywhere. And some evidence was too perfect to be real (like the key? Only had Avery's DNA, someone else's DNA should have been on that for me to believe it wasn't wiped clean and planted).
I am about halfway through the series, so addicting!
March 2016 Moms: January Siggy Challenge "Pregnancy Problems"
Lately I feel upset when I see someone (on TV shows or movies! Not RL, lol) being shot or tortured. Not even just sad movies, the other day DH was watching Django Unchained when I got home and one character was torturing another by shooting his knees and I walked out of the room so I wouldn't start crying for some reason. Things like that haven't bothered me before unless it truly is a sad movie/show/moment.
I had a hard time explaining this to my husband. I didn't want him to watch making of a murderer while I was in the room. I can't get those images out of my head. I couldn't watch CNN during my first pregnancy.
And I just watched Making a Murderer this past week and was perfectly fine...lol. That one was okay for me because I didn't have to see any actual shooting or torture of anyone, and DH and I both get way too into looking at the evidence (or lack thereof) and trying to essentially investigate ourselves for shows like that. Now if they had shown some sort of footage of something happening, I'm not sure how I would have reacted.
Side note: I totally think both Avery and Dassey are innocent. Too much of the evidence didn't make sense and there was way too much lacking in my opinion. My biggest thing is, there was never an actual murder site found and/or confirmed. They say that she was shot (whether once or 11times idk) but there was no blood of hers anywhere. And some evidence was too perfect to be real (like the key? Only had Avery's DNA, someone else's DNA should have been on that for me to believe it wasn't wiped clean and planted).
I just have to chime in here because my dad was one of the prosecutors in this case and I've been following it since the crime occurred. This documentary is so horrendously biased and only included the evidence that the defense team could dispute. There are at least a dozen pieces of evidence against Avery that were not included because the defense had no response to it. If this is your first and only exposure to the case, please please please read some other articles or even the actual trial transcripts. You will probably change your mind!
@ejverre oh it's for sure very one sided. I just told DH there's two sides to every story. The director obviously has his opinion and that is what he's portraying in the series. It's still a very interesting documentary and I'm invested.
March 2016 Moms: January Siggy Challenge "Pregnancy Problems"
@JessKo08 oh I agree it's very interesting, but most people assume it's providing all the facts when it's not. Buts it's definitely an intriguing, binge-worthy watch!
@annawestt, she's doing very good! She's officially put on 1 pound, and we're starting to make headway with feeds. I finally got to hold her for the first time last week! Never thought Id be so scared to hold something so tiny!
I can't believe I cried about this but stupid hormones got the best of me. Yesterday I was changing in the women's locker room at the club and two high school girls were changing next to me that were very fit. I balled afterwards to my husband because of how much my body has changed and how much larger I was than them..my husband was very sweet and reminded me that I'm 33 weeks pregnant and helped put everything in perspective- ugh hormones
I can't believe I cried about this but stupid hormones got the best of me. Yesterday I was changing in the women's locker room at the club and two high school girls were changing next to me that were very fit. I balled afterwards to my husband because of how much my body has changed and how much larger I was than them..my husband was very sweet and reminded me that I'm 33 weeks pregnant and helped put everything in perspective- ugh hormones
I cried yesterday because I saw my thighs in a mirror. I've also been feeling very down about some of the changes in my body lately. Seems to be fairly common.
I can't believe I cried about this but stupid hormones got the best of me. Yesterday I was changing in the women's locker room at the club and two high school girls were changing next to me that were very fit. I balled afterwards to my husband because of how much my body has changed and how much larger I was than them..my husband was very sweet and reminded me that I'm 33 weeks pregnant and helped put everything in perspective- ugh hormones
I cried yesterday because I saw my thighs in a mirror. I've also been feeling very down about some of the changes in my body lately. Seems to be fairly common.
My husband and I were eating dinner and I finished my entire plate but I was still sooo hungry even after drinking a lot of water that I cried because I would go over my carb count if I got seconds. I am so over having gestational diabetes!!!
DS tested his Terrible 2's boundaries today, and as a result, I've cried 2.5 times. He hid in a box from me, sat in his dresser drawer (breaking it), and wanted to run in circles instead of eating supper. Thankfully, he didn't get hurt, ate a little supper, and is sleeping now. I love DS so much, but today was rough. Here's to a better day tomorrow.
I can not control my thoughts this morning and they have made me tear up several times. Warning they are morbid.
My father is going on a ski trip to Austria and leaves on Friday, we are supposed to go to a show with my parents tonight, but it is supposed to be bad out and we may not be able to make it. I started crying because I thought if something happened to him and I didn't go to my last dinner with him I would regret it forever.
Then I thought about if my child is born on the 1 year anniversary of the worst day of my life when my MMC was discovered and I made up a speech in my head about how happy we are to have our rainbow here but I never want to forget about the little one we didn't take home.
My husband is flying down to DC for business and he was thinking of switching his flight to today and may not be home when I get home and saying goodbye to him made me start crying this morning.
I need to simmer down.
BFP 2/11/15 (EDD 10/13/15). MMC 3/30/15 D&C 4/3/15 "We will always love you"
DD1 - BFP 7/23/15 (EDD 3/31/16). "We believe in you rainbow" DOB 4/2/16
DD2 - BFP 2/9/18 (EDD 10/19/18). "Grow baby grow!" DOB 10/24/18
BFP 11/16/20 (EDD 7/31/21). "Round 3 FIGHT!"
Cried yesterday because I dreamt that a little troll man came into my house and unorganized all the baby's things, took apart the changing table and crib, and caused all around mischief. I woke up and cried.... I spent all weekend folding, putting together, organizing boxes of baby stuff I was so sad that a troll man would do that!
Cried today because my 3 lb baby boy felt like a 50 lb bowling ball all day and I'm a 1st grade teacher and 16 little kids need me all day long and I could hardly walk. I swear it felt like he was going to just fall out and I actually was feeling glad I had leggings on to catch him if he did!
What an emotional day I had yesterday (Sunday)... and lack of sleep didnt help much either. We celebrated my daughters first birthday!!! Born 3 1/2 months early at 26 weeks, we had no idea what this first year would bring. The typical NICU roller coaster ride of good days and bad, finally lead to us bringing her home at 5 months old on May 14th. She's continued to thrive, grow and hit milestones well ahead of where she should be. At 1 years old, she weighes in just a little over 13 pounds. Tonight (rather last night), while I was going to lay her down to sleep, I held her a little longer and a little tighter. This time last year, I had only been allowed to touch her hand for less than 5 minutes cause she was so fragile. One of the meanings of her name really shined through that long tough stay.. Warrior! Happy Birthday my sweet Kelly!
Re: Today I cried because...
And seriously all of the feels! I think third tri must be the most emotional (in my experience so far).
Last night I cried because we got a flat tire while driving back to our house in Chicago from St. Louis. We usually try and leave by 2ish so we can get in at a decent hour and have some daylight while driving, but we didn't get on the road until 4 and it was pouring the WHOLE way. And of course the temperature finally dropped to seasonal winter temps. So needless to say when we got a flat it was pouring and freezing. We pulled off of the highway as far as we could be I was having a minor panic attack because hardly any cars were getting over into the left lane of traffic and I kept freaking out that baby was going to be fatherless and I was going to be a widow. Poor DH.
Not to mention this was apparently the first time my car has had a flat because it turns out after he was outside and got everything all into position and ready to go my car has some after-market rims that our standard wrench won't fit in to to get the lug nuts out. So after all that we had to call someone and pay them $100 bucks basically to get the lug nuts off of the car since DH already did all of the rest of the work.
Me: 29 DH: 31
Married 10/13/12
TTC Since 8/2016
DD1 - BFP 7/23/15 (EDD 3/31/16). "We believe in you rainbow" DOB 4/2/16
DD2 - BFP 2/9/18 (EDD 10/19/18). "Grow baby grow!" DOB 10/24/18
BFP 11/16/20 (EDD 7/31/21). "Round 3 FIGHT!"
https://www.buzzfeed.com/ryanhatesthis/no-one-showed-up-to-a-little-boy-with-autisms-birthday-so-hi#.ynb4WG6GYk
DS2 due 12/12/18
Side note: I totally think both Avery and Dassey are innocent. Too much of the evidence didn't make sense and there was way too much lacking in my opinion. My biggest thing is, there was never an actual murder site found and/or confirmed. They say that she was shot (whether once or 11times idk) but there was no blood of hers anywhere. And some evidence was too perfect to be real (like the key? Only had Avery's DNA, someone else's DNA should have been on that for me to believe it wasn't wiped clean and planted).
DS2 due 12/12/18
I am about halfway through the series, so addicting!
March 2016 Moms: January Siggy Challenge "Pregnancy Problems"
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March 2016 Moms: January Siggy Challenge "Pregnancy Problems"
My father is going on a ski trip to Austria and leaves on Friday, we are supposed to go to a show with my parents tonight, but it is supposed to be bad out and we may not be able to make it. I started crying because I thought if something happened to him and I didn't go to my last dinner with him I would regret it forever.
Then I thought about if my child is born on the 1 year anniversary of the worst day of my life when my MMC was discovered and I made up a speech in my head about how happy we are to have our rainbow here but I never want to forget about the little one we didn't take home.
My husband is flying down to DC for business and he was thinking of switching his flight to today and may not be home when I get home and saying goodbye to him made me start crying this morning.
I need to simmer down.
DD1 - BFP 7/23/15 (EDD 3/31/16). "We believe in you rainbow" DOB 4/2/16
DD2 - BFP 2/9/18 (EDD 10/19/18). "Grow baby grow!" DOB 10/24/18
BFP 11/16/20 (EDD 7/31/21). "Round 3 FIGHT!"
Cried today because my 3 lb baby boy felt like a 50 lb bowling ball all day and I'm a 1st grade teacher and 16 little kids need me all day long and I could hardly walk. I swear it felt like he was going to just fall out and I actually was feeling glad I had leggings on to catch him if he did!