Hey @dozensofus, what's your dill? [Discussion Closed]

pieceofme · October 2014

dozensofus said:
I'm not coming back to this thread to answer any questions. I'm sorry it has to be that way, but this is the best I can do.
You were a great group of people to hang out with, and I wish everyone the best of luck in the future.
Also, I apologize for the horrific font. I had to use Word to be able to type everything all out.

Seriously? After all of that you're not going to even let them ask you any questions or anything? A lot of women got hurt and you just come in here and throw some excuse at them then say "Okay! I'm out bitches! Sorry for causing you so much pain but I don't want to talk about it so I'll be ignoring you from now on and playing on a different board."

It's not like you were just some random member, Nelly. A lot of woman on here believed that they could trust you and genuinely liked you. It's 100% unfair to them that you just handled it that way.

Jags8 · October 2014

dozensofus said:

I
have been unable to post since Friday, so that is why no one except Big Pickle
has heard from me. I think maybe XO knew that there was going to be fuckery
this weekend and suspended all of the newer accounts. There is one other newb I
have noticed that has been in bump jail for four days, so it isn't just me.

Anyway, an explanation is in order. I am going to try and hit all of the points
asked for in this thread, because once I post this, I'm not coming back to this
board or thread. I understand that people are going to have questions, but I am
moving the fuck on.

To cut right to the chase, I admit that I used an AE to bump the old
confessional thread and share the link to the new one. When I would go to look
at the old one, I didn't have it bookmarked, but I would type in "ttgp
confessional tumblr" and click on it when it popped up. With the recent
board discussion about the confessional, I had been searching it out to see if
it had been revived or not. TTGPconfessional2.tumblr popped up in my results.
There was like, one post, but it was recent. I watched it for a day to see if
it would be shared or if anyone was posting to it. When it looked like nothing
was being said on the board about it, I made the really stupid decision to use
an AE to share it. I admit that the drama of the old one intrigued me and I was
curious to see what this one would be like.

At first, it was funny. There were jokes and posts about lake facts and then
someone said some really nice things about a lot of people. And then people started
saying meaner and meaner things. Then someone backtracked a picture I posted
and found my photobucket account that had pictures of my kid in it. They posted
about it and basically told anyone who read it how to find my pictures. I
freaked. It was a an invasion of my privacy, but to be fair, one I had brought
on myself by posting the stupid pictures in the first place.

After that, I stopped reading it. I felt a lot of guilt about being the one to
share it, and I thought if I just ignored it, it would go away or at the very
least, I wouldn't have to know what was being said on it.

I didn't look at the thing again until the thread was posted about someone
trying to post a picture of a Bumpie that had her mils email address on
it. I started discussing the mod thing
with some people that I had become close with in a social group and a fb group.
When the mod said she would be in chat that night, I agreed with another person
who has since deactivated that we would take screenshots of the chat and that
she would check the mods IP address. I spoke to the mod in chat, and yes I do
have the screen shots. The IP from chat came from Brooklyn, and was very
similar or identical to that of known troll IrisPetals/UdderlyFab. Also
suspected to be Excited2SeeAgain.

But then I fucked myself in the ass by being discovered as the person who
shared the link. The IP of the AE was checked against my regular IP and they
were the same. When confronted with this information, I very shamefully lied my
ass off about it. It was a shitty thing to do on top of an already shitty thing
I had done. Only when backed into a corner did I admit the truth, which I know
felt like a slap in the face to the people who had trusted me.

But let me make this clear: I did not mod that fucking confessional. The things
that were said on there were things that would have cut me to my core if they
were said about me. I have never condoned people taking cheap shots at mental
illness (I suffer from depression myself) or infertility (which I also have and
currently am experiencing). I don't even think those things about people I
really don't like. Anyone who has gotten to know me in the year I have been on
this board should know that I am not the type of person who would ever just sit
back and let that hateful shit be said about people I cared for. Have I ever
shown myself to be that person?

So once I was confronted and admitted what I did to the fb group, I left after
apologizing to everyone in it. Some people chose to remain friends with me and
gave me their support, but they are very wisely staying away from this thread.
I don't blame them or anyone else who knew about it for staying out of this.

I tried to deactivate my account here that night, convinced I was never coming
back to the bump. I had taken a short bump break earlier because of some problems
I was having in my marriage, but this time I wanted to be totally gone. I know
that probably pisses you off that I wanted to just leave without explaining
anything to anyone here, but please understand that that night was awful for
me. I experienced two major losses in my life in the span of 36 hours, with one
really fucking horrible phone call that came right in the middle of my being
confronted. Truly, the bump and ttgp were the last things I was worried about
in those moments. I know that's not fair to any of you, but my personal
tragedies were more important to deal with, and I was already getting flack
from the people in the fb and social group. Feeling like a shitty person on top
of what happened in my personal life had me in a true state of despair.

All that came from asking for deactivation was getting my account locked for
several days before it was finally deleted last Monday. But the truth is, by
that time I felt like I had moved on and wanted to talk and laugh again with my
friends. When I decided to come back, I told a lot of people who I was. I
didn't try to hide who I was and I knew that my callout was coming. I could
have just posted here right away and not put everyone through this weekend, but
I felt like I was damned if I did and damned if I didn't. I'm sorry to those
who felt like I thought they were stupid and wouldn't notice me. I don’t think
any of you are stupid. If I was really trying to hide, would I have admitted
who I was in an extremely widely read thread on Parenting? I knew people were
going to see it, but I just said fuck it and hit post. Again, I'm sorry that it
felt like a slap in the face to do that.

I read the whole thread, so I know that the mod or someone claiming to be the mod
showed up in chat Saturday night. It is true that anyone can log into chat
under any name they want, so while I would like to believe that it really was
the mod/excited2see as she claimed, it doesn't really prove anything. I do
think it was her. IrisPetals was a known troll who admitted to enjoying
stirring shit and the things she said to me in chat were very similar to the
things she said here before she was banned.

Now, some might think that perhaps I am the same person as excited2see and all
of her troll accounts. I am on the bump a lot, but even I don't have the time
to troll under several accounts, mod a confessional and still be a PW on two
boards under my own screen name. I think the IP addresses will speak for
themselves, if anyone checks. I proxied my IP the night I was in chat, partly
because I was curious about what it did and because I was desperate to not be
discovered as the AE. For some reason I thought if I logged into the AE account
under a proxied ip, that one would show if anyone checked it. I'm not sure why
I thought that, but it was yet another really dumb and shady mistake. The IP I
am under now is the same one I have always used.

Listen, I wasn't fucking talking to myself in chat that night. That's a
seriously BSC move and while I have shown myself to be a liar, BSC I am not.
Plus, I don't think you get to choose your IP when you use a proxy, so I would
not have been able to proxy the same IP address every time those accounts
appeared on the boards or in chat. And from what I was told by the person who
deactivated her account, it was the same or extremely close to the same IP for
all three of those accounts and the mod in chat.

Finally, I am sorry for what I did and for lying about what I did. The hate
that was spewed on the confessional was vile and I am so sorry for having any
involvement in bringing it here. There were things that I would not say to or
about my worst enemies. I don't think those kinds of hateful things ever, even
in my angriest state. I tried to justify the sharing to myself by saying that
the confessional was going to come out anyway, but I still keep coming back to
the fact that I don't know that any more than anyone else does. It was a fucked
up thing to do, and I am so sorry for doing it.

I have put everything I know here. I am done discussing it, because I have been
living it for close to two weeks. It isn't fair to those of you who are just
finding all this out, and you deserve to have your say. But I just cannot and
will not go on week three of being told what an evil piece of shit I am and calling
everything about my character into question. For those who are concerned about
their personal information, come on. I shared my stuff with you, too. I shared
a very painful thing with you all. Don’t you think maybe I’m also a little
afraid that someone might use that against me? Luckily, I refuse to believe
that any of you would be that vindictive.
I'm not coming back to this thread to answer any
questions. I'm sorry it has to be that way, but this is the best I can do.

You were a great group of people to hang out with, and I wish everyone the best
of luck in the future.
Also, I apologize for the horrific font. I had to use Word to be able to type everything all out.

pieceofme · October 2014

CALEO said:

Cliff notes: I made really bad decisions. Then I made worse decisions on top of bad decisions. Then I deleted my account. Then I missed the bump and giggling with my girlfriends. So I came back. But, I'm not coming back to this board, because I so will not deal with your questions or telling me what a bad person I am. I already wasted two weeks on that shit and frankly I'm not interested in more. Clearly I'm not as good of a friend as you all thought, because ME! (Did I read that right?)

You did an amazing job, @CALEO!

pieceofme · October 2014

fuzzylogic said:

I'm not sure any questions were answered?

This. Everything she just stated was already known....

pieceofme · October 2014

cruelsound said:

Well, that was one giant ass waste of time.

Holy fucking shit....@Cruelsound! Hiii

pieceofme · October 2014

cruelsound said:

pieceofme said:

cruelsound said:

Well, that was one giant ass waste of time.
Holy fucking shit....@Cruelsound! Hiii

I only show up for these kinds of threads.

And holyshit, that baby of yours is going to be here soon!

Haha! Never change, Cruel...never change.

And yes. She will likely be here Dec. 8th by c section

Itsbritneybiitch · October 2014

So even though this was all serious enough that you felt the need to have your account deleted, you're already back to posting and having funsies on another board like nothing happened?

That's nice. It's nice to see how you treat a community you were a part of for so long.

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

Well, things I've learned

1. Shit we all already knew

2. Don't fucking lie, you become a lying liar who lies and people won't believe you anything you say

3. Confessionals are a bad motherfucking idea

SCSmith2011 · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

I just want to know if these are assumptions or facts. If they are facts, where did you get them?
Fact, she bumped an old thread under an AE to post the link. Without that link no one would have looked and started the shit show. She told me.
Why the need to post under an AE? I was in that FB convo too, remember? After all the talk of AE's being spineless, yet here you are, pretending to be a pickle.

Yeah we're way beyond that now.

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LuluRM · October 2014

MeatandBandP said:

DaisyCat11 said:

Itsbritneybiitch said:

So even though this was all serious enough that you felt the need to have your account deleted, you're already back to posting and having funsies on another board like nothing happened?

That's nice. It's nice to see how you treat a community you were a part of for so long.

"peace out bitches, I have new friends on Parenting now".

It makes me really sad that Parenting has said they don't care whether she modded the confessional or not.

Regarding everything else, I don't know what to think.

Yeah, she's over on parenting right now, posting about "moon pasta" with her gal pals like nothing ever happened... no worries parenting, she'll screw you guys over eventually.

SCSmith2011 · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

mrsfinni said:

I just want to know if these are assumptions or facts. If they are facts, where did you get them?
Fact, she bumped an old thread under an AE to post the link. Without that link no one would have looked and started the shit show. She told me.
Why the need to post under an AE? I was in that FB convo too, remember? After all the talk of AE's being spineless, yet here you are, pretending to be a pickle.

Yeah we're way beyond that now.
----------------------------------------------------------------------- And yet I'm not. I can call you out on TL too if you'd like?

LOLZ call me out for what?

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

SCSmith2011 said:

mrsfinni said:

BigPICKLE said:

14whitney said:
I just want to know if these are assumptions or facts. If they are facts, where did you get them?
Fact, she bumped an old thread under an AE to post the link. Without that link no one would have looked and started the shit show. She told me.
Why the need to post under an AE? I was in that FB convo too, remember? After all the talk of AE's being spineless, yet here you are, pretending to be a pickle.

Yeah we're way beyond that now.

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And yet I'm not.

I can call you out on TL too if you'd like?

And who the fuck are you exactly? I've been around for awhile, a lot of older regs *know* who I am. If I didn't want anyone to know I would have created a completely unrecognizable AE like monsterkiki or some other shady shit.

I've also been around long enough to know this entire thread will likely be deleted and this account will be banned. Sorry for not using my regular but not really.

pieceofme · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

mrsfinni said:

I just want to know if these are assumptions or facts. If they are facts, where did you get them?
Fact, she bumped an old thread under an AE to post the link. Without that link no one would have looked and started the shit show. She told me.
Why the need to post under an AE? I was in that FB convo too, remember? After all the talk of AE's being spineless, yet here you are, pretending to be a pickle.

Yeah we're way beyond that now.
----------------------------------------------------------------------- And yet I'm not. I can call you out on TL too if you'd like?

BigPICKLE · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

MeatandBandP said:

mrsfinni said:

SCSmith2011 said:

mrsfinni said:

BigPICKLE said:

14whitney said:
I just want to know if these are assumptions or facts. If they are facts, where did you get them?
Fact, she bumped an old thread under an AE to post the link. Without that link no one would have looked and started the shit show. She told me.
Why the need to post under an AE? I was in that FB convo too, remember? After all the talk of AE's being spineless, yet here you are, pretending to be a pickle.

Yeah we're way beyond that now.
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And yet I'm not.

I can call you out on TL too if you'd like?

What are you talking about?

Pickle, who is choosing to ignore me for reasons unknown.

I'm werking bitch, I can't respond within seconds of you tagging me. Jesus fucking Christ

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

You're lame. Smells like someone else is posting under an AE to me.

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SCSmith2011 · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

You're lame. Smells like someone else is posting under an AE to me.
Wow, you are taking this the wrong way. I was under the impression that most of us said our piece (peace?) under our SN and that was that. Not questioning your callout, questioning your method.

Callouts are still against the TOU. If this callout had been done under a real SN then that person would potentially be banned when the BGs decided to give a shit again. Hence the AE.

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

BigPICKLE said:
You're lame. Smells like someone else is posting under an AE to me.
That would be you.

::pats head:: you have no idea what you are talking about. A lot of my friends were hurt by this confessional, I wanted to address it. Back in the day we could have posted this very thread with no problem but TB and its TOU suck now so you can't. I was not willing to get banned over Nelly.

I feel like this is all pretty obvious stuff.

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yurmom · October 2014

FTR...the lake facts on the confessional were never funny

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Itsbritneybiitch · October 2014

@mrsfinni‌ you have no idea who you're talking to, do you?

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

::looks around:: holy shit, what is going on? I think you haz confuseds @mrsfinni‌

I never mentioned FB. I wasn't in your group, Nelly's group or anyone who is newish. You don't know me dear.

pmcd886 · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

mrsfinni said:

mrsfinni said:

You're lame. Smells like someone else is posting under an AE to me.
Wow, you are taking this the wrong way. I was under the impression that most of us said our piece (peace?) under our SN and that was that. Not questioning your callout, questioning your method.

Callouts are still against the TOU. If this callout had been done under a real SN then that person would potentially be banned when the BGs decided to give a shit again. Hence the AE.
I am questioning Pickle because they gave the impression of being in the FB group, that is all. If not, then I am in the wrong and I accept that. But I do still want an answer.

Pickle never said she was in your facebook group. Nelly discussed a facebook group. I think you are getting yourself confused. Maybe re-read the thread before starting to say random shit no one is understanding. Also, this post being started by an AE is really the least of anyone's concerns.
---------------------------------------------------------------------- As I said before, that was what I wanted to know. I know a lot more about this than a lot of you do, and if Pickle wasn't there when it went down, then fine that is all I wanted to know.

Then enlighten everyone instead of posting cryptic messages.

BigPICKLE · October 2014

My guess is she thinks I'm Kat, sorry to disappoint, I'm not.

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BigPICKLE · October 2014

Pickle outed Erin's AE FFS, that shit was classic. Poor Donna

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SCSmith2011 · October 2014

Oh JFC.

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DawnLilly · October 2014

@ally1986 nice butt.

ETA: Kat should not be concerning herself with anything on the Bump right now but if you are lurking with a different account I hope you are taking good care of yourself.

BigPICKLE · October 2014

mrsfinni said:

DarcyHermione said:

mrsfinni said:

MeatandBandP said:
Of course this isn't Kat. Big Pickle has been here longer than I, which is a long fucking time.

@mrsfinni from the way it is posting it sounds like you know nothing, so please stop embarrassing yourself.
If that's what you think.

Instead of dancing around the issue and being cryptic why don't you just say what you want to say?

How is that cryptic? I've already made it clear I was part of the FB group that this happened in. Just wondering if there is yet more BS to deal with.

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