I am right there with @windwithfingers about wanting LO to be old enough she can at least interact. For now I will continue my pretend conversations with her. I do look back and see she is growing but I am glad for it. Most of my crying spells the first week were about how tiny/skinny she was and how my placenta had failed her.
The same thing happened to me w my first and is now happening again... My first reaction was to post about how you can't blame yourself, but it's hypocritical when I can't help but feel my body failed my child. Good news is your little one will catch up and grow and yes interacting more too!
Hugs to y'all ladies. Wish there was something anyone could say to make y'all feel better!
In a span of 20 minutes my 18 month old ran his dumpster truck into DH's foot and did a flip in the air, (He was fine and laughed), walked into the fridge because he wasn't paying attention and then later walked into the box holding our recycled plastic bottles and fell inside....
Safe to say that after bouts of laughter it was time to put LO to bed.
How much pumped milk should I be feeding a 4 day old? She can run through 2 oz easy, but I'm scared I might be over feeding her. She's getting spitty...
@crawford411 I took a cue from the FFFC thread yesterday and took a poop while nursing today. It was an emergency. ---------------------------------------------- Random: I leak a lot from my right boob when I poop. So weird!
Is anyone else here a step mom??? Wondering how others are handling breast feeding with the step child around. I use a cover to avoid drama with his mom, but it's so much more work to use it.
Have you asked his mom how she feels? IMO, you should feed your baby however you're comfortable. And also IMO, it's good for children to see the beautiful, natural and normal way our babies eat. To cover it implies that there is some shame in it.
Been around here and there but I really have nothing to say. Thanks for the love and support on Thursday! It was really touching through the day. I mean it.
I'll probably not post my birth story because there are a lot of things going on that I just can't rehash in my head. We're still in the jailspitol now. I wish I could be here and be supportive. I just can't. I honestly thought about just never posting again and moving on. That's selfish because it's solely because I'll probably never have another baby because I'm so traumatized by what happened and what continues to happen, and there are so many wonderful stories and brave women on this board, it just makes me sad to not have the same experience or strength. I think right now, it only digs in harder that this was not right and I things I'm feeling aren't right either.
I will absolutely still be here, just quieter for a bit, and I'll absolutely still be the awesome LB @kfitzguerra deserves. I just need to hibernate.
@SPurp13 ((hugs)) Take all the time you need. We love you and are here to support you in whatever way you need.
You are SUCH a strong woman, so so brave, and such a wonderful mother, to have endured a difficult and traumatic birth experience. It's really not possible to compare births or strength or any of that...every birth and every mother-baby pair is so different and unique! Don't sell yourself short. You've done an amazing thing and given a new tiny human life!
Please know that you're welcome to PM me anytime if you would like to chat or just need some encouragement. Thinking of you and praying for you for a fast recovery!
DH issues are back. He got pissed that we are out of eggs..um...yesterday was the first day I was allowed to drive in 2 weeks...sorry for not restocking the fridge. Apparently I do nothing here. Because feeding the baby all night is nothing. Smh.
Wtf? I'd be like you know where the store is, asshole.
Aww @SPurp13 I hope you don't leave us. I'm sorry your experience wasn't a good one. Hugs to you, lady.
No, no. Not leaving. I just need some time. I want to pop in to wait for babies from some of you still waiting and stuff but I won't be all post whorey again in random threads. I'll probably (hopefully) be in the breastfeeding thread because I need help and am trying really hard to make that work, so I need to read through it again.
A girlfriend of mine accompanied me to the nursery today so I could change LO's diaper. LO projectile pooped into the air narrowly missing my friend but making a lovely poop painting on the wall. Gotta love those seedy breast milk sharts.
@knittymeggy - you're having a rough week. I'm sorry about the loss of your cat.
@SPurp13 - Ugh, I'm so sorry you've had such a tough L&D experience. Sending you lots of positive thoughts for a fast recovery and lots of restorative baby snuggles with APurp.
@pnwlover12 - No advice, just hoping your situation ends up working out. And ditto others regarding readily available TV shows and some delivery restaurants on speed dial.
@theresat858 - Obviously post-c/s, you should be caring for your toddler, being a zombie from getting no more than a couple of hours of sleep at a time, breastfeeding your newborn, AND laying eggs so your husband can make an omelet or something. GOSH! It's like, if only there was a place that was open after normal working hours (or even 24 hours) that, in exchange for money, would give you eggs already packaged and ready to be taken home...and even better if that place would be located on any major road that your H could possibly take home from work. I know, crazy talk right?
@Saragoeswest Did they ever figure out you facial swelling? Is it better?
Yep. Bell's palsy. I think I may see a little improvement. But it's still basically frozen. It's frustrating but I just have to be patient and wait for it to pass. Can't wait to really smile at my daughter for the first time. Thanks for asking!
@SPurp13 so many hugs. You've been so supportive of me since I came back, and I would hate to lose your presence here, but you can absolutely take all the time you need to process your experience. I'm sorry it wasn't a good one.
Me: 30 | DH: 4/12/85 - 6/16/14 | Quinn Patrick born 9/28/14
And it just got worse. We are not going home tomorrow as planned because she's lost 11% of her body weight. I have no milk. I can't fix this and I can't stay at this hospital for another day for my sanity.
And the nurse said I'm starving my baby. I told my husband to take the baby to the nursery and give her a bottle before cps is called. I can't even look at either the baby or him right now.
Oh no! Breastfeeding is HARD. And sometimes it takes a while for breast milk to come in and for some people, not much comes in at all. If you want to breastfeed, you can still work on that goal when you get home and into a less stressful environment than the jailspitol, which will probably be much better for any milk production (if not just for your mental health, which is important too).
Has your hospital mentioned giving you a supplemental nursing system so you can feed formula, but also still work on APurp nursing and hopefully stimulating your milk?
@SPurp13 just got caught up with your situation. First, I am sorry that things didn't go well with L & D. I hope things start to look up for you soon. Also, you're not starving your baby. That nurse is a dick. It takes up to 5 days for your milk to come in. If you're not already doing this, see if you can start pumping to get your milk in. If you do supplement with formula for a short time that is OK. You do what you have to do. I'm sorry for whatever else is going on there and I hope you get to go home soon.
Now they are saying it doesn't matter if I give her formula, they won't guarantee her release, because even if she gained a pound overnight, they look at the midnight weigh in and it was 11% down. So. I'm screwed either way.
@SPurp13 I know I don't know you personally but from the short time I've been on this board I've noticed what a strong and supportive individual you have been w other OP's. I can only pray this situation gets better ASAP and you are NOT a terrible mother. Babies have to learn to feed the same as we have to learn to feed them. It's fucking hard but once you find that perfect combination things will fall into place.
Obviously this nurse has never had kids, I'm so sorry you have to deal w her castor oil behavior on top of everything else.
Now they are saying it doesn't matter if I give her formula, they won't guarantee her release, because even if she gained a pound overnight, they look at the midnight weigh in and it was 11% down. So. I'm screwed either way.
I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time. It sounds like the nurses are giving you a hard time. Would it be worth calling the family member that you mentioned is one of the lead nurses? Sounds like you could use an advocate or an ally right now.
It was 1 am when this happened. We had to make a decision, and I told my husband to do it, and pretend my boobs weren't even attached. Just decide. We breastfed her, supplemented with formula in a syringe, ams I'm pumping. So, in other words, I have had 6 hours of sleep since Thursday at 130 am. I won't be sleeping until I'm discharged tomorrow and if we have to stay with her, I won't sleep then either but at least I can dispense my own meds, people won't be knocking at my door, etc.
Re: Saturday Randoms
Safe to say that after bouts of laughter it was time to put LO to bed.
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Random: I leak a lot from my right boob when I poop. So weird!
Good luck with baby and getting home! FX for good news!
I say let all the kids see babies nursing! UO?
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I'll probably not post my birth story because there are a lot of things going on that I just can't rehash in my head. We're still in the jailspitol now. I wish I could be here and be supportive. I just can't. I honestly thought about just never posting again and moving on. That's selfish because it's solely because I'll probably never have another baby because I'm so traumatized by what happened and what continues to happen, and there are so many wonderful stories and brave women on this board, it just makes me sad to not have the same experience or strength. I think right now, it only digs in harder that this was not right and I things I'm feeling aren't right either.
I will absolutely still be here, just quieter for a bit, and I'll absolutely still be the awesome LB @kfitzguerra deserves. I just need to hibernate.
You are SUCH a strong woman, so so brave, and such a wonderful mother, to have endured a difficult and traumatic birth experience. It's really not possible to compare births or strength or any of that...every birth and every mother-baby pair is so different and unique! Don't sell yourself short. You've done an amazing thing and given a new tiny human life!
Please know that you're welcome to PM me anytime if you would like to chat or just need some encouragement. Thinking of you and praying for you for a fast recovery!
My Ovulation Chart Simple Link: My Ovulation Chart
And I have a 4 day old cutie just staring at me through the dimmly lit house...
@Saragoeswest Did they ever figure out you facial swelling? Is it better?
My Ovulation Chart Simple Link: My Ovulation Chart
Has your hospital mentioned giving you a supplemental nursing system so you can feed formula, but also still work on APurp nursing and hopefully stimulating your milk?
Obviously this nurse has never had kids, I'm so sorry you have to deal w her castor oil behavior on top of everything else.