I have super vivid dreams all the time, but they get so wacko during pregnancy.
I had one last week that my best guy friend and I went in to get bikini waxes together on our way to a Brewer's game. IDK where any of this shit comes from.
We went to look at houses this weekend since we are moving.
Kate cried in the first one and clung to my leg when we put her down, in the third one she was happy and all smiles. I think she has an instinct for real estate and will totally read her signals as we shop around
I'm sitting in DH's hospital room, lurking here and trying to work but mostly distracted. I am also freezing cold, but don't want to bother anyone.
I'm having a really hard time will all of this. I hate thinking of my DH as so fragile. Then when your mind starts wondering you think of what that means and yeah. So not doing well this time around.
I've begun to wonder if governments use toddler whining tactics as torture training. I mean I've heard (and maybe in the movies, idk) that they use a crying baby cranked up really loud in torture scenarios, but this scream-whining that I've been dealing with for most waking moments the last week or so has me ready to give away all my financial info and admit to things I've never done just for some peace.
The tiny terrorist also doesn't do this for anyone but me. We have a contentious relationship at the moment.
They do. DH has been through SERE school for training - naked in a small box with the sound of babies crying in the background for hours.
We're really all just in a never ending POW training exercise. Toddler whining can break a man.
Though I will tell you that somedays the whining from my toddler is easier to handle than the sassiness from my 4 yo. The fact that my 4 yo deliberately knows right from wrong but does it anyway, gets under my skin more than the toddler throwing a temper tantrum over something silly.
I'm letting Nola eat her lunch at her table in the living room. We're going on 30 minutes here and all she's eaten is her crackers and maybe a bite or two of cheese and turkey. I think she's purposely putting off naptime.
I try not to think that it's just people I went to high school with that are big losers, but the evidence on FB suggests otherwise.
I can't find 1 person I went to HS with that still lives in the same city and isn't a loser. Most people go off to college, or move away, or whatever. It seems like my class and the year before me have an incredible amount of people who reproduced with losers and continue to live there and make really shitty choices. It's really weird.
I've also had 14 people out of my graduating class pass away already. We've only been out of HS for 12 years. That to me is crazy. And sad.
Take care @willy_gert. I know that must be so hard.
I'm completely stressing out about this week.
I have a dentist appointment on Wednesday for a cleaning and I have still never gotten the root canal I was supposed to get back in January, so I'm going to get in trouble.
On Thursday we have to enroll Maya in pre-school in our school district for the fall which is a change, which makes me nervous on it's own, plus I have to see if there is before and aftercare available and how it works.
I somehow enrolled the kids in dance and swim classes that start in this super busy week, so I have to have them at the Y Friday after work and Saturday morning.
We have an Open House on Sunday that the house has to be immaculate for and SD and her boyfriend arrive Sunday night to stay for a few days so I have to get the guest room and her room all set.
I try not to think that it's just people I went to high school with that are big losers, but the evidence on FB suggests otherwise.
I can't find 1 person I went to HS with that still lives in the same city and isn't a loser. Most people go off to college, or move away, or whatever. It seems like my class and the year before me have an incredible amount of people who reproduced with losers and continue to live there and make really shitty choices. It's really weird.
I've also had 14 people out of my graduating class pass away already. We've only been out of HS for 12 years. That to me is crazy. And sad.
Now I'm wondering where you went to HS. That does sound a little crazy. Majority of the people I know that live back in our area have left and come back. And they've done something with their lives. We will be one of those people with this new house. I thought I'd never go back, but got over that when I realized what a good school district it is for my kids.
And we've only lost 3 people in the last 13 years.
We have an Open House on Sunday that the house has to be immaculate for and SD and her boyfriend arrive Sunday night to stay for a few days so I have to get the guest room and her room all set.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Good luck with the open house and everything else! How old is your SD?!
Thanks! Last time a realtor and a neighbor came. That's it. It's so frustrating to do all of that cleaning for that.
I have two, one will be 17 next week and the older one, the one that's coming to visit, is 19.
That's because everyone who works at the post office is a complete asshole. At least at my post office.
But our mailman? Greg? Seriously one of the nicest people I've ever met. I love him. He reminds me so much of my Grandpa. He even brought his wife to my rummage sale last year and they bought my $100 giant mirrors. :-)
I have a student who is driving me crazy. In 7 years of higher ed, I've never once had a student this high maintenance. She's dangerously close to her aggregate limit on financial aid and she won't have enough money to finish the program, so do I tell her that, or do I just expect that she knows that since she's probably been getting letters about it for as long as I've been alive? I'm not kidding, I heard from her 17 times last week and she popped in to see me twice. I have over 400 students. I literally do not have time to devote to someone that needy.
If you know she's dangerously close to her limit, I'd tell her. I worked in a financial aid office at a college and have student loans, NO ONE tells students that there is a limit (which in retrospect is obvious) or what the limit is.
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
I didn't really exercise last week because the kids were all on April vacation. I took an aerobics class this morning and am already sore. Damn. I can't get Colby to sleep past 5:30 am and we are all really frighten tired.
We can't decide what color to paint our house. I thought I had it figured out. A safe set of colors: tan with black and white trim, and a bright colored door. DH brought up doing a blue house with white trim, and red doors/shutters. I think our tiny house would look cute and cheerful with the blue and red. I'm not sure if people would hate it if we ever get to a point of trying to sell.
I wanted to do a nice FB announcement for the baby now that I can, but instead took a picture of my planner which has a day marked "16 weeks" and posted that because I'm too lazy to do anything nicer.
I almost screamed this morning when I turned around a realized there was a guy in the tree outside my office window clipping the branches. I wasn't expecting there'd be a person hanging outside my window.
My uterus hurts.
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
I feel like we're never going to come up with a name for this baby. DH doesn't like anything I suggest, but hasn't had 1 single suggestion other than Odin, which I said no to.
Neither of us like trendy names, but all of our guy friends have "classic" names, so it feels weird to entertain those ideas when we know people with so many of them...
We both like Daniel, I still like Walter, but nothing seems to actually stand out. I feel like it was a lot easier to name a girl...before my Dad died, we had a really solid list of girl names that we liked equally. After he died and we wanted to use James, Nancy just seemed to fit perfectly with that MN. I don't know why this is so difficult.
I don't know if this will have any bearing on the situation, but my BFF's husband's name is Ryan and we are naming this boy Ryan...not after him or anything, just because we like it. No one involved has a problem with it.
We both have friends named James. It is a classic name, it's not like we were naming him after them. They just happen to have that name too.
I found a screw in my tire last week. I tried ignoring it for a few days, and then the low tire pressure censor started going off. I called the place I got my tires from and they said they will patch it for free! I feel like such a dope for not calling right away. I have an appointment for tomorrow morning.
I'm in this BF support group on FB. Some of the women who run the group are so awful but I don't want to leave because I get so much good info there. This week they closed a thread because the mom was asking how to dry up her milk because her kid stopped nursing at 10 months. The mods were upset because they don't support weaning or formula before age 1. Really?? That is just ridiculous. Obviously I support extended nursing but that is just harsh.
We went camping this weekend (sorry for blowing up IG). DH woke W up when he checked on her @4am, so we pulled her up in bed with us. She's never been in bed with us. She was so wound up, poking us in the eyes and chattering. We pretended to be asleep.
After an hour of that shiz, she leaned over was petting my hair out of my face like I do to her. She kissed me several times while I was 'sleeping,' saying "mommy night night" and "I lub you." It was the best thing that's ever happened in my life. I'm not even kidding.
I'm so sorry. You're a strong woman, but it must be incredibly hard. Thinking about you guys.
My randoms:
I have a ton to do today, but I can't find the desire to start things. I'll likely be up all night instead.
I had a great meal plan made up and I haven't followed it at all. Now I'm left with half the ingredients for the remaining recipes. I hate it when I do that. No clue what I'm making for dinner now.
I do that all the time. So annoying, yet somehow I keep derailing my well-thought-out plans.
I'm annoyed at my scale. I've had a super good week and worked out the last 5 days in a row and it didn't budge at all. Tonight I have a work dinner so won't be eating that well (or really well, depending on how you feel about it). I've decided to hide my scale for the next week. I've been focusing on it too much. I just want to get rid of these last 4 pregnancy pounds, dammit!
Aren't you still nursing? Give yourself a break, woman.
Yes, I am. I know I'm being ridiculous. I'm actually happy with how I look for the most part, but it's the damn number that is bugging me. I just want to get back to that number to say that I did it. I don't even care if I gain back a pound the next day. I just want to get to that number.
I'm also still on a low dose of domperidone which I don't think is helping.
Same. I fully admit it might be ridiculous, but I want to see that number.
I know if necessary we could live with my Mom, and even though we're really close and we talk everyday, I like having my own space. I would find it hard to live with my Mom, DH, Nancy, and 3 cats in her condo. Even though our houses are the same size, my Mom's is immaculate. I'm a complete failure when it comes to her standards of cleaning, and I'm totally ok with that. :-)
There was an author on the morning show I listen to this morning talking about the erotic novel he wrote...I was laughing so hard that I came to work and downloaded it right away. Only it's about people over 50 and now I feel weird about reading it. Had I listened more carefully I would probably have realized that. Sigh. I'll probably still read it.
I am going to whine before I read the whole thread, because I need to get my whine in.
Following my travel thread, DH and I booked flights to Pittsburgh for my cousin's wedding, despite the fact that we will find out tonight if we need to replace our SUV or not. Then on Sunday DH realized that the water heater was leaking. So now we are also replacing our water heater. Add to that that we just had to pay taxes, and things are looking pretty tight right now. If we found out about the water heater before we booked the wedding, we might not have gone to the wedding. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, Pittsburgh destination wedding?
We had to book a suite, so more expensive. Now we're trying to find a babysitter. And I don't know if we'll need a rental car. Whine.
And all of this water heater nonsense happened on the same day I am working from home, had Penny's 18 month appointment at lunchtime (one month late) and her mid-year EI evaluation at 4. Awesome. And DH won't be home until late because he has to pick up the car keys from the mechanic. So I am totally expecting a trifecta of water heater replacement men, and Penny's EI lady and evaluator showing up at the same time.
Yeah, I spent an hour on the phone with my mom last week counseling her about her agoraphobia. I was exhausted by the end. It is these things that help me know we could not live under the same roof for any amount of time and that our relationship is best served with hundreds of miles between us.
I had the most stressful, emotional weekend ever.
The plan has been to move in with my mom. It's a long time. 7 months. @MommaP12 You are scaring me with your post. We can't find a 6 month lease anywhere that is a location we need. So my mom calls me this weekend and tells me she doesn't think we should move in with her. Oh thanks for the 15 day notice mom. F you too.
Cue mental breakdown. 15 days to find a place to live when I've already spoke to every apartment and property manager in each possible town. I cried all day. And woke the house up at 4 am crying. I did beg one apartment complex to do a 6 month, but they are going to charge out the ass and being in a 700 sq ft apartment all summer with absolutely nothing but a concrete parking lot for DD to play in sounds miserable.
Finally mom called during one of my breakdowns and heard how upset I was and changed her mind once again. I'm still pissed and feel unwanted, but we are going to try to make it work.
oh no @BobKat22 I am so so sorry! This living in limbo really stinks no matter the situation.
My parents willingly took us in thankfully, but my mom and I aren't the best friends type, so I still need my space and it's definitely gotten a little tense at times. My one sister still lives at home too. I love my parents but I lead a completely different lifestyle than them, they have undermined me when disciplining the kids (mostly DS), it's awkward at night as in - do I need to sit in the family room with them and watch TV? Am I rude if I go up to our room and we hang out there?
Dinner is weird because I don't eat the same things they do, etc. I try to buy my own groceries, but there's really no room in the fridge/cabinets and we get home so late on M/W/F we end up just muddling through those days. It's just awkward and chaotic. We still have the kids in daycare downtown and I work downtown, so driving in on MWF (they don't go to DC on T/Th thankfully) is a nightmare and it took us 1.5 hours this morning in the rain. It's just awkward and difficult all around. We were really planning on it being no more than 2-3 weeks and it will have been just under 5 when all is said and done. I really feel bad for the kids having to adjust to living like this for 5 weeks, then having to adjust to a new house too. I know people say kids are fine, blah blah blah, but they're lives have been turned upside down too and will be again in May.
I'm in this BF support group on FB. Some of the women who run the group are so awful but I don't want to leave because I get so much good info there. This week they closed a thread because the mom was asking how to dry up her milk because her kid stopped nursing at 10 months. The mods were upset because they don't support weaning or formula before age 1. Really?? That is just ridiculous. Obviously I support extended nursing but that is just harsh.
Way to make that mom feel like shit. I ended up leaving/being kicked out of one or two groups for that reason. Supporting FF or weaning for any reason was frowned upon. Ridiculous.
Ugh, I hate when groups get all sanctimommy like that. I felt so much pressure/like I was screwing up DS when I weaned him bc of the responses I got from BF supporters.
We went camping this weekend (sorry for blowing up IG). DH woke W up when he checked on her @4am, so we pulled her up in bed with us. She's never been in bed with us. She was so wound up, poking us in the eyes and chattering. We pretended to be asleep.
After an hour of that shiz, she leaned over was petting my hair out of my face like I do to her. She kissed me several times while I was 'sleeping,' saying "mommy night night" and "I lub you." It was the best thing that's ever happened in my life. I'm not even kidding.
Re: Monday Randoms?
Nancy James 9.1.12
Calvin Donald 8.27.14
Nancy James 9.1.12
Calvin Donald 8.27.14
This could be fun!
We went to look at houses this weekend since we are moving.
Kate cried in the first one and clung to my leg when we put her down, in the third one she was happy and all smiles. I think she has an instinct for real estate and will totally read her signals as we shop around
Katherine Quinn | 9.16.2012 | 38w4d
Ryan Lanman | 9.12.2014 | 40w
2 Losses | 10/2010 @ 5w | 9/2013 @ 10w4d
Little Sprout Blog
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Big Kid Jan 2010
Littlest Man Sept 2012
Nancy James 9.1.12
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And we've only lost 3 people in the last 13 years.
Big Kid Jan 2010
Littlest Man Sept 2012
Big Kid Jan 2010
Littlest Man Sept 2012
Can I go home now?
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
I wanted to do a nice FB announcement for the baby now that I can, but instead took a picture of my planner which has a day marked "16 weeks" and posted that because I'm too lazy to do anything nicer.
I almost screamed this morning when I turned around a realized there was a guy in the tree outside my office window clipping the branches. I wasn't expecting there'd be a person hanging outside my window.
My uterus hurts.
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
@jenndub you just made me spit my coffee on my laptop. I'll send you a bill.
that would make me mad too. Way to be supportive!
After an hour of that shiz, she leaned over was petting my hair out of my face like I do to her. She kissed me several times while I was 'sleeping,' saying "mommy night night" and "I lub you." It was the best thing that's ever happened in my life. I'm not even kidding.
Nancy James 9.1.12
Calvin Donald 8.27.14
Following my travel thread, DH and I booked flights to Pittsburgh for my cousin's wedding, despite the fact that we will find out tonight if we need to replace our SUV or not. Then on Sunday DH realized that the water heater was leaking. So now we are also replacing our water heater. Add to that that we just had to pay taxes, and things are looking pretty tight right now. If we found out about the water heater before we booked the wedding, we might not have gone to the wedding. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, Pittsburgh destination wedding?
We had to book a suite, so more expensive. Now we're trying to find a babysitter. And I don't know if we'll need a rental car. Whine.
And all of this water heater nonsense happened on the same day I am working from home, had Penny's 18 month appointment at lunchtime (one month late) and her mid-year EI evaluation at 4. Awesome. And DH won't be home until late because he has to pick up the car keys from the mechanic. So I am totally expecting a trifecta of water heater replacement men, and Penny's EI lady and evaluator showing up at the same time.
Also, I'm out of wine.