@emily041285 Thanks for asking. I'm doing well. Physical recovery has gone really well, taking care of 3 kiddos has gotten off to a good start and Logan is thriving. I am struggling with my anexity though and I'm trying to figure out if this is just temporary or something that may stick around or get worse. I really appreciate the thought and hope you are well and BF gets easier for you.
~Missed MC at 8 weeks. D&C at 12 weeks on 4/17/13~
Ok little pinecone- today was a fun day for me and your grandmother, but let's make tomorrow about YOU gracing us with your presence. Better yet, start your magic tonight so momma doesn't have to have her ute poked again in the morning mmmmk???
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
This umbilical stump needs to fall off STAT. I didn't think it'd weird me out as much as it does, but everytime I change his clothes, I'm afraid of the fabric rubbing up against it.
Raine pulled her own stump off on saturday, now it bleeds a bit every day and makes me feel bad...but it does look better every day
Logan pulled his off last week. I've never had a kid that lost one that early.
~Missed MC at 8 weeks. D&C at 12 weeks on 4/17/13~
Aiden just does not want to sleep... Little man has been crying and fussing for the past two hours. I feel terrible that I can't get him to calm down, especially since he only gets this way at night when we try and put him to bed.
Told hubster that if the amazing shower sex we had tonight turns out to be eviction sex, he's earned himself BJs once a week until we can have sex again. Been contracting for about two hours now...
The Zantac and liquid mylanta combo that has been my heartburn cure for the last two months has decided to just stop working. I want to cry. So much acid- so much pain.
April 2014 May Siggy Challenge: Funny Animals- Kangaroo Mating Ritual
Soooo I'm not usually one to sound all like "it's devil worship!" but I swear that white noise app that's supposed to mimic the womb sounds like some devil music you'd hear in a movie. I mean it soothed Dylan to sleep instantly but it still sounds like devil music
The Zantac and liquid mylanta combo that has been my heartburn cure for the last two months has decided to just stop working. I want to cry. So much acid- so much pain.
I feel your pain. Quite literally.
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Having a really rough few days Penny has decided to not latch AT ALL. She just has no interest whatsoever and it's killing me. She screams and screams when I try to get her on. I was able to get like 4 oz from pumping this morning but I can't get anything flowing and had to give her formula yesterday and today. I've been looking forward to breast feeding this whole pregnancy and now I don't think it's going to happen. This freaking sucks
Having a really rough few days Penny has decided to not latch AT ALL. She just has no interest whatsoever and it's killing me. She screams and screams when I try to get her on. I was able to get like 4 oz from pumping this morning but I can't get anything flowing and had to give her formula yesterday and today. I've been looking forward to breast feeding this whole pregnancy and now I don't think it's going to happen. This freaking sucks
Have you looked into a local LLL or LC?
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
I'm so tired of acid reflux! Aside from that, this cabooser is happy to be full term tomorrow! 39 weeks! On another note, DH has been super sick since Friday, and now I have sinus pressure and am really hoping it doesn't evolve into more because being sick right now would be horrid
I am emotionally and mentally drained. DS was on formula all day because we've pretty much been exclusively BF. He ate way more formula than I was able to pump and I feel like I've fucked everything up.
Also, even with a particularly zombified day after a early morning visit to L&D I still managed to knock 10 errands off my to do list. My goal is to have all the things done by Wednesday so I can enjoy my remaining child-free days doing only stuff I WANT to do, rather than feel the need to do. Keep me motivated, RTT!
Fell in Love: January 2003
Married: May 2006
Baby Girl Born: April 2014 If you ask me what I came to do in this world, I, an artist, I will answer you:
I am emotionally and mentally drained. DS was on formula all day because we've pretty much been exclusively BF. He ate way more formula than I was able to pump and I feel like I've fucked everything up.
You've got a lot going on right now- one step at a time.
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Having a really rough few days Penny has decided to not latch AT ALL. She just has no interest whatsoever and it's killing me. She screams and screams when I try to get her on. I was able to get like 4 oz from pumping this morning but I can't get anything flowing and had to give her formula yesterday and today. I've been looking forward to breast feeding this whole pregnancy and now I don't think it's going to happen. This freaking sucks
Have you looked into a local LLL or LC?
Yea I've been in contact via phone calls. Had a community nurse come over on Saturday to check on us because of a few complications during the birth and she was able to give some advice. We have an early beginnings program here and I can have someone come over again. Planning on calling tomorrow. There's only 1 LC that is available and it's by referral only so not sure if that will happen.
Tonight was so stressful. We were getting ready to go to my birthday dinner when G started projectile vomiting again. We packed him up and went to the childrens hospital. The first ultrasound showed some muscle between the stomach and intestines being too thick and causing a block, so it looked like he was going to need surgery. A few hours later, the more intense ultrasound showed that he was ok!
Too scared to move. Baby girl has continued her streak of partying like a rock star and not only wanted to eat every 30 minutes but screamed in between. I thought last night was brutal when I had to hold er the whole night to sleep. I'm trying to get her to stay awake during the daytime and it looks like its backfiring.
I am going to visit my friend's new baby today & plan to bring something. I've already given the registry gift - what should I bring for mom & dad? A premade dinner to heat up later from Whole Foods? Bottle of wine? Basket of healthy-ish snacks to nosh on while nursing? Thoughts? WWRTTD?
Hi all. Just checking in, didn't get to catch up though. Jack was born at 7:32 am on 4/21. He's 7 lbs 9 oz, 21.5 in long, with a full head of hair. He's beautiful and I love him so. Not the best phone reception in my recovery room. I'm here for 2 more days. Pics and birth story when I get home. Hope all are well!
So last night we got home from the ER around midnight. On the drive home, I got chills really bad, but that happens when I get overly tired so I thought nothing of it. Except, I had chills all night and was burning up. I still have chills and burning up, plus now I feel like a truck ran over me and I have a headache. Waiting for the clinic to open so I can go in. I've been feeling like I need to pee all the time on top of my hurt back. I went to the clinic on Sunday thinking I had an infection, but they said they ran my urine and it was fine.
@rockstarlaw I second the freezable meal thing. We've gotten tons of meals from neighbors and can't eat them all. Also, cut up fruit/veggies for easy snacking is key! Or something sweet- I've been craving sugar like crazy.
@honeyzoo I wish! I totally jinxed myself last night! I fell asleep to the contractions and woke up for my typical 2 am potty break only to realize that my contractions had stopped. DARN IT! I'm not entirely sure who's more disappointed...me or the hubster. At least I got some good sex out of it all.
NST today to make sure baby's okay. I'm hoping I pull an @AshleyPixie and am actually in labor when I go in.
I didn't realize the little darling and I had a routine down until I disturbed it in the middle of the night to go downstairs with her and make DH investigate natural gas smell upstairs that turned out to be a gas line that somehow got accidentally partially opened. Now she's been awake for over four hours and has eaten five times and is quite unhappy. I'm glad at least DH found the problem right away so we didn't have to leave the house in the middle of the night and call the gas company.
I've been pretty calm and chill about being late the last 10 days but I'm starting to feel my anxiety creep up more and more with each morning that comes without me being in labor. I'm facing an induction on Sunday and I keep reading the A14 stories of our friends who have been induced and then get C-Sections and I'm having a hard time stopping my irrational fears from taking over my mind. I fear that baby and I will wind up dead and that hubster will be all by himself. And you know, that I'll be dead (I know that's morbid and way far on the scale of crazy anxiety, but that's where my mind is going in the early mornings when I wake up to pee and can't fall back asleep).
I'm trying to educate myself on the drugs used during inductions so that I'm not as afraid of them. I'll be talking to my OB on Thursday about Sunday's plan. I'm also contacting friends who are nurses and midwives for their recommendations and suggestions.
Everything will be okay, right? I know I have no control over how labor goes anyway -- I've never done this before and I don't know what to expect at all. I'm just wavering between being okay and being totally wrought with anxiety over facing an induction (which my logical mind knows isn't the end of the world; I just didn't imagine it'd come to one). The anxiety then cascades as I continue to freak out about being stressed out instead of calm and relaxed so that my body has an easier time doing it's thing naturally.
Just needed to vent/expunge these worries and anxious thoughts. I appreciate the support!
@PoppySeedWindsor while I did go into labor naturally it did not go as I had "planned". I wanted to go natural and ended up with an epi. Wanted skin to skin right away but dd had complications and that wasn't possible.
My point? No you can't prepare for how this will happen, but you are doing the best you can by educating yourself with your options. And educate DH too. Having him know what our choices are helped me immensely. He was the calm one who could really look at the situation.
For me fear meant more pain and brought those feelings of not being able to handle birth.
This is exactly what's getting at me the most. I feel ready and at peace to take on the pain of labor but I've done the same thing you did and have 1 million percent demonized induction drugs, making me fear them. That fear is coupled with more fear that I won't be able to handle the pain...yada yada yada.
Thank you for the support. Sometimes I just need rational minds to tell my irrational self to STFU and I can't always do that myself.
@lla619 Totes. Lack of control is a hard issue for me in the first place and has been very difficult with pregnancy since, well, that's all pregnancy is! I really trust my OB and the three of us (hubster included) mesh really well and have the same philosophies. My birth plan is my attempt at control but I know I have to be adaptable and flexible because, as mentioned before, I've never EVER done this so who knows what to expect anyway?
Seriously, thank you so much. I can feel my anxiety reducing a bit already.
Thanks everyone. My sister had the kids until my dad can take over this afternoon. I was supposed to see my psych today for PPA, but I can't. I called my MW and am waiting for s call back. I hate crying in front of my kids and when dh sees me cry- he's been crying. He's in a hospital an hour away from home so driving back and forth to stay the night with the kids and nurse the baby and being back here by 6am I'm just exhausted. I feel awful for complaining and guilty because he's just so beside himself and in so much misery.
Re: Longest Thread EVER! (aka Random Thoughts Thread )
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Told hubster that if the amazing shower sex we had tonight turns out to be eviction sex, he's earned himself BJs once a week until we can have sex again. Been contracting for about two hours now...
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Penny has decided to not latch AT ALL. She just has no interest whatsoever and it's killing me. She screams and screams when I try to get her on. I was able to get like 4 oz from pumping this morning but I can't get anything flowing and had to give her formula yesterday and today.
I've been looking forward to breast feeding this whole pregnancy and now I don't think it's going to happen. This freaking sucks
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
On another note, DH has been super sick since Friday, and now I have sinus pressure and am really hoping it doesn't evolve into more because being sick right now would be horrid
Baby Girl Born: April 2014
If you ask me what I came to do in this world, I, an artist, I will answer you:
Baby Girl Born: April 2014
If you ask me what I came to do in this world, I, an artist, I will answer you:
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
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My point? No you can't prepare for how this will happen, but you are doing the best you can by educating yourself with your options. And educate DH too. Having him know what our choices are helped me immensely. He was the calm one who could really look at the situation.