IF Testing & Treatment w/o 3/23

mvt2003

This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility, and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another. Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say. Treat this as an ongoing conversation. 

Diagnosis (if you've been): 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): 

How are things going?: 

Any questions?:

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  

feather_heather

Diagnosis (if you've been): Endometriosis, Borderline PCOS, Unexplained IF

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): IVF - FET

How are things going?: My lining was at 5.19mm on Friday morning and my transfer is scheduled for Wednesday. My lining only got to 5mm for the biopsy, so that was my goal again this cycle. Hoping the PIO keeps pumping it up before Wednesday. Wondering what sort of checkpoints the hospital will have set up (big city hospital that is treating COVID patients and has had numerous health care workers get it as well). My anxiety is pretty high right now, but I'm trying to remain grateful and hopeful. 

Any questions?:

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!   EDIT - Forgot to answer this one - I'm hooked on Siesta Key right now lol - DH and I also really like 90 Day Fiance

inthewoods23

Diagnosis (if you've been): unexplained, low morph

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Giving natural a go for a few months

How are things going?: Ehhh good and bad. Seeing how things have gotten way out of hand over the weekend I'm sorta glad I can't have that stress while also doing a transfer. I'm a little more at peace but I'm also like omfg what are we doing trying naturally again 😳

Any questions?: No

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes! 
I streamed Glow Up and Next in Fashion this weekend. Glow Up is a makeup competition while the other is obviously clothing. Similar to Project Runway. I love the competition shows. I heard if you like sci-fi then you'll like Altered Carbon on Netflix.

mvt2003

Diagnosis (if you've been): MFI

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): I think we're pretty firmly on the NTNP train at the moment.

How are things going?: MH has had to take a 1 week break from Clomid due to appt timing, but we have a follow-up with his RU today via phone, hoping they'll call in a new Clomid rx. He's definitely noticed a difference since he had to stop taking it (which is part of our NTNP thing atm). 

Any questions?: Nope

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  We're finishing up The Outsider on HBO - creepy Stephen King show but probably needs a TW for content lol. I'm also watching the Ken Burns Country Music documentary on PBS - it's super long and great to have on in the background as I work or knit. A solid 16 hours of entertainment! 

inthewoods23

@feather_heather go lining! Get nice and plump 

Also possibly on our list for streaming is The Witcher. I heard that's good as well.

I wonder if it's possible to stream episodes of Too Cute from Animal Planet. That show is nice just to have on in the background and is also very wholesome.

mvt2003

@inthewoods23 We loved The Witcher! Also we liked the AppleTv show Mythic Quest. 

shoogapoff

Diagnosis (if you've been): blocked tube,  AMA

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): just trying on our own,  since cycle was cancelled 

How are things going?: alright, all things considered. I'm still working currently (I work in a hospital), so that's...interesting...MH lost his job as a result of Covid, so you could say my stress levels have been elevated. 

Any questions?: nope

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes! 

I just binge- watched "Cheer" on Netflix. Maybe it's because I'm aTexas girl, but I loved it!

kpearse99

Diagnosis (if you've been): Secondary Unexplained IF

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): I think I've entered the TWW now, but I don't really know since I'm not tracking anything.

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): NTNP

How are things going?: Things are mostly going well. Just really trying to chug along with this "it is what it is" attitude for the time being, since there really is nothing any of us can do with all that's going on in the world right now. I did get hit in the face with an emotional reminder yesterday though. We decided to re-do the back bedroom to be more accommodating for an at home office, since we are both WFH for the foreseeable future. DH hung some stuff up on the wall too to just make it a little more cozy, which I was totally okay with, but when I walked back there to see if he needed any help he asked "how's it look?" and while I was staring at the room I suddenly burst into tears. It looked great, it wasn't that, it was just the realization that I had always thought the next time we redid that room would have been to turn it into the nursery. And it felt like that dream was slipping away a bit. It brought up so many emotions. He hugged me tight and reminded me this was just a temporary set up and that we'll be turning it into our dream nursery soon enough. 

Any questions?: Nope

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!   We started watching season 2 of All American on Netflix! We watched the first season a little bit ago, but the 2nd season just came out and I'm happy about it! 

I'll be back soon with tags

kpearse99

@feather_heather soooo happy your met your lining goal, and exceeded it a bit too!! FX it keeps growing for Wednesday I don't think I said it last week but I'm super happy you are able to move forward with this cycle

@inthewoods23 I'm sorry your weekend brought up some challenges but I am happy to hear you're at peace with everything moving forward, as of today. Just get in lots of good ole' fashion HIO sessions!! I agree that the show Too Cute is a super sweet thing to have on in the background! Those animals are so adorable!

@mvt2003 we loved The Outsider!!! Oh it was so good!!!

@shoogapoff ugh I am so sorry to hear that YH was let go and is now out of work because of all of this. This madness is so crazy and I hope it ends soon PS - I loved Cheer!!!

inthewoods23

@kpearse99 we have that too... the one back bedroom that we called "the office" that would eventually be turned into a nursery. It's littered with a lot of random paper and things, the "to be donated" pile, and extra stuff that I didn't want in my closet. Your feelings are the same that DH has for why he's never spent the time to clean up in there. It's that painful reminder that he's not cleaning it to make it a nursery. Hoping someday, you know?

shoogapoff

@kpearse99 I'm so sorry about the emotions that brought up for you. It's hard to feel like this is temporary, when everything is changing so quickly. Our "nursery" is completely empty right now, so I am able to mostly avoid it. But if i have to go in there, it definitely makes me sad. 

@mvt2003 We got rid of our HBO Go subscription a while back, but I might have to get it again!

@feather_heather FX for you! I know its hard to be relaxed, but I'm hoping for a smooth and stress-free process for you.

@inthewoods23 I feel the same way! Like, who am I with all this manual tracking?! 

inthewoods23

@shoogapoff yesss lol I was so diligent for those months long ago and now it's like, do I really have to lay here for a minute for my thermometer to beep? I'm too cool to do all this old fashioned stuff lol

pom9207

Gonna come back for tags...

Diagnosis (if you've been): unexplained, polyps (removed), elevated prolactin (resolved)

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): trying on our own but I am not sure where I am in the cycle; got off BCP for 8 days right now

How are things going?: meh, my cycle got cancelled and I am still disappointed. But it feels good to not pump man made hormones in my body

Any questions?: natm

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  I love watching “the world’s most extraordinary homes” with DH. It’s a documentary series. Also love Queer Eye. 

misshelen86

I’ll be back for tags!

Diagnosis: MFI... DH is now 1 month post-op from his varicocelectomy

Status: WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): We discussed it and decided we will continue NTNP for now. We are hoping DH will be able to get an appointment for a follow-up SA in May. 

How are things going? Things are going okay. Feeling a lot of different emotions- anger, frustration, sadness, fear. But I also have hope. I’m so grateful that DH was able to get his surgery before all this craziness happened. We are choosing to use this time to focus on our relationship and health. Having something to focus on makes me feel less out of control. 

Any questions? Not right now

GTKY: Love is blind is good mindless entertainment. I also have lock & key on my list to check out but haven’t started watching it yet.. I’ve heard it’s good.

misshelen86

So sorry to all those who have had cycles cancelled. The waiting really is one of the hardest things about all this. My heart goes out to all of you who are dealing with feelings of uncertainty, fear, worry, anger, etc. Just remember you are not alone  We will get through this together

@feather_heather So glad to hear you are able to go ahead with your FET! Sending positive vibes your way. 

@inthewoods23 I’m glad you have alleviated some of the stress for now and are at peace with trying naturally. 

@mvt2003 Right there with you on the NTNP train! Hope YH is able to get the new prescription over the phone. 

@shoogapoff Sorry your cycle was cancelled and that YH lost his job. That’s all so incredibly stressful. Sending lots of hugs your way 

@kpearse99 Ugh so sorry that you got triggered by re-doing the bedroom. Those feelings are totally valid. I’m keeping everything crossed you will get your dream nursery very soon. Hugs friend 

@pom9207 Sorry about the cancelled cycle. While I’m sure it’s nice to have that break from the meds, it makes sense that you are also sad and disappointed. Hugs to you!

thankfullyamama

Diagnosis (if you've been):  PCOS

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO 

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?):  Provera 25mgX 6 days, Clomid 50mg CD 3-7. (self monitored due to COVID but I got my LH surge just waiting for my crosshairs to move into the TWW) 

How are things going?: Im hoping to get my crosshairs. I will be astonished and very excited if the low dose clomid actually worked for me! I have this feeling that this is going to work for some reason tho. Perhaps because I always said I didn’t want a December baby. Or because of this COVID. But this cycle just wasn’t planned. It just kind of happened. We weren’t going to start clomid until June but DH ended up coming home from his job out of town due to this COVID so we just thought why the heck not! 

Any questions?: anyone else’s temps be wonky on Clomid? Mine are slightly elevated than the norm. 

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  

- GOT 
- Vikings 
- the marvellous mrs. maisle
- this is us
- greys anatomy 

thankfullyamama

@feather_heather the algorithm is changing each day in hospitals. So who knows by the time you go in! Just make sure not to touch anything or your face and use hand sanitizer!

@inthewoods23 enjoy your time off tracking! It can do wonders for the mental health. And your sex life lol

@shoogapoff I’m with ya there still working in a hospital and a husband with a break from his job right now. Very stressful too. However I’m a grateful to have him home at the same time!

@kpearse99 hugs to you 🤗 that must have been difficult. I actually just re-did our upstairs office and put it downstairs and made it a blank slate because I thought maybe it wasn’t happening because the room wasn’t ready lol 

@pom9207 way to try and stay positive though this difficult situation! 

@misshelen86 what a great way to use this weird time in the world. Focusing on your relationship health. This is so important during anyone’s TTC journey but especially those of us experiencing IF! I also am obsessed with love is blind even though it is a terrible show at the same time hha

kpearse99

@pom9207 maybe try and not stress about where you are in your cycle and just HIO like every other day or every other two days? Keep it low key and stress free??

@misshelen86 I have that show on my list to watch too! I understand all of the emotions you are having but I am happy to hear you are using this time to focus on one another! It's so important

emeraldduchess

@feather_heather I am crossing absolutely everything for your transfer on Wednesday!! C'mon, lining! DO YOUR JOB!
@inthewoods23 I have such a love-hate relationship with temping. I was super diligent, now I'm over it. That and OPKs. At least I'm WFH so I can use the bathroom whenever I want and I don't have to sneak into the work bathroom with my pee strips!
@mvt2003 I hope your DH's appointment went well and that they can refill his Rx!
@shoogapoff I am so, so sorry your DH lost his job because of this. It's such an awful position to be in. Lots of hugs to you. 
@kpearse99 so many hugs to you too, friend. I think we all have one of those rooms that it hurts our hearts knowing we're not getting to use it as a nursery...yet. 
@pom9207 I get what you mean about the hormones. I'm not missing the letrozole and that "full ovaries" feeling. I don't know how else to describe that. 
@misshelen86 I hope your DH is continuing to heal well!
@tryingktogku fx that you get crosshairs soon!

Diagnosis (if you've been): unexplained IF, unexplained RPL

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): trying on our own with BBT, OPKs, monitoring CM and HIO

How are things going?: OK. I've accepted that the situation is what it is and there's nothing I can do to change it. I wish I could bring some cookies or something to the staff at my RE's office. When they called to check in they seem so frazzled. I'm sure they're spending a lot of time on the phone breaking tough news to patients and/or trying to calm them down. In other news, I am getting so anxious trying to teach from home. Some states have decided to close the schools for the rest of the school year and I am praying that doesn't happen to us. I have no idea how I am going give tests and quizzes.

Any questions?: Nah. 

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes! I don't think I am much help because DH and I just started watching "Parks and Rec".  I may have to re-watch Great British Bake Off because I need to see polite British people baking beautiful pastries in the quiet English countryside. 

thankfullyamama

@emeraldduchess that is so kind of you to be empathetic towards your RE! I hope for your sake and the world that school isn’t done for the year because that will mean this pandemic is still in full effect in a few weeeks! 

kpearse99

@emeraldduchess I love that you are thinking of your RE's office like that. I can't imagine all the stress they are under to contact all of their patients, especially with the tough news of cancelling things. You have such a great heart! I am really really hoping our schools don't close for the rest of the year either. I just got word that our school is closed until 4/6 for the teachers and 4/8 for the students... BUT their spring break is 4/8-4/13 so they won't be back until 4/14, so of now. They just made plans for parents to pick up chrome books so we can begin virtual learning starting Monday until they are back in school. I am so grateful for all of you AMAZING teachers bending over backwards to make sure your students are able to still learn.

bluetickgal

Diagnosis (if you've been): PCOS & Unexplained RPL 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): NTNPish...already took Letrozole (we have no shot without it).

How are things going?: We talked last night and decided we would take a break from tracking/trying and just let it be. I already took Letrozole, so I should ovulate. The thing that was holding me back from NTNP instead of all out trying, was not knowing what to do about Progesterone. I feel like I would never forgive myself if this happened to be the cycle and I hadn’t started the progesterone...so I think I’m going to start it around CD21-22 just to be safe. 

Any questions?: None right now.

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  

We started Brooklyn Nine-Nine on Hulu recently...it is hilarious and it’s been on forever & is still going on! 

@feather_heather I’m so glad your lining has already passed your goal! Absolutely everything possible crossed for you tomorrow!! Hope all goes smoothly, and you feel good about the hospital protocols!!
@inthewoods23 everything is so crazy right now! I’m glad you feel good about not having the extra stress of a transfer! Hope the ole natural route is a success with your new diet!! Also, we enjoyed The Witcher! 

@mvt2003 that stinks YH had to be off Clomid for a week, hopefully he was able to get a new prescription yesterday! There are so many of us on the NTNP train now...I hope some more relaxed cycles will do us all some good! 

@shoogapoff I’m so sorry to hear YH lost his job! Hopefully it’s just temporary and he will get hired back as soon as all this craziness is over!! 

@kpearse99 sending all the hugs your way, dear friend! 💜 Just have to remember it’s temporary...I feel like you will be redoing that room again soon and for the reason we are all hoping for! 

@pom9207 sorry you don’t really know where you are in your cycle! I’m glad you can look on the bright side of not being on meds for a bit! 

@misshelen86 I’m so glad YH had his surgery before all this started! I think that’s a wonderful way to look at this time...it’s a great time to focus on each other!! 

@tryingktogku glad you were able to make this medicated cycle work! 

@emeraldduchess that is so sweet that you are thinking of your RE staff right now...I’m sure it’s very hard having to hand out bad news of cancelled treatments! I hope your school doesn’t end up closing for the rest of the year! We’ve only watched a season of Great British Baking Show so far, but we love it!! Need to start another season...it’s such a relaxing show!

kpearse99

@bluetickgal I think you're making the right decision by following your gut on taking the progesterone still.

emeraldduchess

@kpearse99 thank you! It's already been a crazy and difficult school year, so this current crisis is putting us all over the edge. It means a lot to know that we are so appreciated.  I know my anxiety will calm down as time goes on and I establish the new normal, but for now it's a constant worry about whether or not I am doing enough. 

keikilove

This is just a Random. Encompassing many feelings this week. *TW for language*

keikilove

@feather_heather So much positive energy being sent your way for Wednesday’s transfer!🤞🏽♥️🤞🏽Deep breaths of calm in, breathe out all that anxiety & let it disappear. Stay healthy & hopeful! 

@inthewoods23 Great point about the gift of not having this added stress while undergoing treatment. This definitely feels like a catch-22 kind of moment in time. 

@mvt2003 Interesting that YH could notice a difference so quickly after jot taking Clomid. How that prescription can be called in easily! 

@shoogapoff Sorry about YH’s job! That is so stressful. Hopefully some support will be available ASAP via unemployment or this stimulus package that’s about to get approved. And how could you NOT love Cheer, being from TX?😊

@kpearse99 Hugs to you!!! YH is so right: this is just a temporary setback. You WILL get your nursery one day soon!💕

@pom9207 Sorry the cancelled cycle is still such a disappointment. It’s like a different time we’re living in for sure. Hope you’re able to figure out soon where you are in this cycle. PS: we also love home & decorating shows!

@misshelen86 YES! So wonderful that YH got that surgery before the world went crazy! Love how you guys are refocusing on some other important things that really matter too.❤️

@tryingktogku Hope your hunch is right & that this is your cycle! 

@emeraldduchess I hope they don’t close schools completely! The kids would have nothing to do, that would be nuts. They’re probably just so happy to see you online, try not to stress about how it’s going. Hang in there! 

@bluetickgal I hope that NTNP is the magic bullet for you (and so many in this group)! Will you be confirming ovulation, or not tracking that either? If you do confirm it you can start the progesterone 2 days later. 

Diagnosis (if you've been): RPL, elevated NK cells & activity, I’m honestly forgetting what else after being benched recently & not checking in so much. 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): HIO, good ol’ fashioned tracking w OPKs & BBT & CM & CP—this question I s starting to look like the regular Dailies😄

How are things going?: Fine. I’m being purposely grateful everyday for all this time at home, to be able to live at a slower pace, making sure I exercise every single day even if it’s just a home workout in the living room. 

Any questions?:

GTKY: What is the best show you've streamed lately? Outlander, PBS’s Sanditon (Victorian era, Jane Austen’s unfinished book), House Hunters International lets us live vicariously through others around the world & helps us dream of the places we will go when we all can travel safely again. Plus it has TONS of episodes.👍🏽

bluetickgal

@kpearse99 thanks, dear friend!! 💜 

@keikilove thanks, friend! I’m so hoping NTNP does wonders for all of us going this route right now!! No, decided to not track anything the rest of this cycle. I’ve been confirming with temping/OPK’s and have ovulated on CD17 the last several cycles and started progesterone 3 days later on CD20. So I figured maybe give it a couple extra days, because I have ovulated as late as CD19 on this dose of Letrozole before. I know this is probably not the preferred way to do it...but I’m hoping it’ll be ok so we can get the relaxed vibe of NTNP, but still hopefully cover our bases with the progesterone. I’m so sorry you went through all that last week in making such an emotional/difficult decision and then they cancelled your cycle anyways!! I’m happy to hear that you are focusing on the positive and being grateful though...I feel like that’s the best thing we can do right now with so much out of our control!! Sending extra positive vibes your way!! 💜 Oh, that show about Jane Austen’s unfinished book sounds like something we would like!! 

@feather_heather sending you all the love and positive vibes this morning for your transfer!! 💜💜💜 Hoping all goes wonderfully smooth and that this is it for you!

emeraldduchess

@bluetickgal crossing everything for you! I had another refill of Letrozole left but I decided to give my body a break. I didn't want to take it without monitoring. I'm glad you are still able to take yours and your body has been so consistent with it!
@keikilove thanks, friend. My heart hurts for all the kids in "graduating" years (eighth graders, high school seniors, etc.). There are so many rights of passage that they may miss out on, especially graduation. 

Good luck today, @feather_heather!! 

keikilove

@bluetickgal Aaaah, makes sense. I so hope this whole “taking it easy” approach works for all of us!

@emeraldduchess I completely agree with you on the rights of passage that kids may miss out on. That’s beyond disappointing! 

@feather_heather Best of luck today!!!

feather_heather

Thanks everyone! Heading into the hospital now! DH isn’t allowed to come in with me, so it’ll be a much different experience than my past transfers 

mercury94

*lurking*

@inthewoods23 It appears that At least some episodes of Too Cute are on my Hulu app. 

kpearse99

@keikilove The slower pace of living while being at home is really freaking nice! It's nice to be able to appreciate everything more. I too have been doing some form of exercising everyday, but I still feel like I should/could be doing more. ugh!

inthewoods23

@mercury94 I don't have a Hulu subscription 

shoogapoff

@feather_heather Thinking about you!! Sorry YH can't come with you.  

charmedlifex3

Diagnosis (if you've been):  Blocked tubes

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW. 

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?):  I am feeling so conflicted this cycle. I don't know what the future looks like if this cycle didn't work - we should be starting medicated cycles, but we won't - So should we keep trying on our own? Given the situation in the world... TW loss mentioned

My recent loss would be in May, and a IRL friend is due at the same time - Honestly some of the new policies in place are horrific. I mean, I THINK that would be resolved by Jan... but we don't know. 

How are things going?:  Okay. Tired, frustrated, overwhelmed. 

Any questions?: Temp dip this morning at 9DPO, so I think I am just WFAF

GTKY: Since I think we're all looking for recommendations, what is the best show you've streamed lately? Bonus points if the series has a lot of episodes!  
Love is blind! Not a lot of episodes, but so bad you can't look away. Meme in spoiler. Back for Tags!

feather_heather

Things went well this morning and I’m home relaxing now! My DH dropped me off and I had to answer a bunch of questions at the doors and put on a mask to enter the hospital. I had to FaceTime with DH so that nurse could get his verbal consent and show his ID. After a hiccup (they only thawed one embryo and I had to wait for them to thaw a second), and having to let out a little pee twice while I waited, the transfer went smoothly! Thank you for all of the positive thoughts!

kpearse99

@feather_heather oooo I don't think I knew you were transferring 2!! FX so hard, my love! Come on embabies... stick, stick, please oh please stick!!!!

@the_road_to_oz I say to keep trying on your own while you wait to start those medicated cycles. But take a more relaxed approached. Like, try not to go crazy temping and tracking and all of that - just NTNP, given the world we are in right now, and just try to get back to one another during this time. 

charmedlifex3

@feather_heather Good LUCK! I hope it went / will go well, I'm sorry your DH can't go. "

@inthewoods23 I had the same thoughts. Some studies have shown how stress on the mother impacts the child life long - Apparently it triggers the inflammatory response - We don't totally know the impacts, just that there probably ARE some... so a silver lining I guess.

@mvt2003 I think we are about to board that train too

@shoogapoff That is so stressful. I am hearing that from so many places right now. Stay safe lady. 

@kpearse99 Hugs! That's so hard when the vision just isn't here yet. We are kinda in the opposite camp. I LIKE my office, I like working from home, and DH sleeps in the guest room. I am kinda toying with the idea of buying a bigger house within the next few years if we do manage to get pregnant... 

@pom9207 I *get it* why they are cancelling us. #canceleverything but... ouch. 

@misshelen86 I keep thinking "Oh I am glad this happened before the world exploded..." We are in NY, so it's SO real here right now. *BOOM* 
TW - death 

My grandpa had a stroke, and rapidly declined about a month ago. I keep thinking - If that was now, that would be SO much harder. As it was, I spent the whole 24 hours with him immediately after it happened, and was able to visit right up to the end. So grateful we got those last few times together. 

All the emotions over here too.  

@tryingktogku Ahhh Fingers crossed. I hope it's your cycle too!

@emeraldduchess I am sure parents get it. They are all trying to figure this chaos out too. 

@bluetickgal I am hoping this works for us all. We're being forced into that age old terrible advice "Just reeeeeelllllaaaaax." If one more person says that to me... 

@mercury24 My grandpa loved that show. I'd go over and he'd be sitting in his chair, binge watching puppies and kittens.  

@keikilove I love outlander but DH makes fun. So I have to secret watch it. LOL. 

pom9207

@kpearse99 good idea! I used opk yesterday and it was super faint. I guess I have a couple more days until we will start HIO EOD

@feather_heather ahhhh awesome the transfer went well! Stick little embryos!

@the_road_to_oz sorry you feel tired and overwhelmed... same here! Just praying everything will be okay...

@keikilove exercise everyday sounds awesome! I haven’t really picked up my exercise routine since the egg retrieval cycle. I didn’t really gain wait but definitely feel a redistribute of my body fat I.e. I get some muffin top...

@bluetickgal hoping the NTNP strategy works for us! Sounds reasonable that you will still use progesterone.

@emeraldduchess I know, we need to accept the reality... hope teaching at home goes smoothly!

@tryingktogku hope you get the crosshairs soon!

@misshelen86 it’s so great that your DH got his surgery before the whole crazy situation of COVID-19.

@shoogapoff sorry about the unexpected change. Hugs to you.

@mvt2003 NTNP team!

@inthewoods23 glad you are feeling better about trying naturally. I also try to talk to myself that cancelling the cycle might be better for my stress level.

On top of the stress of cancelled cycle, I just learned that my employer screwed up my immigration process. I am not too surprised as the company’s legal team had demonstrated their incompetency over the past years. With the current situation I decided to prepare for interviews; I plan to start interview in the next month or so. If everything lines up, I am targeting at a June FET transfer, a vacation after that, and then start a new job in July.

keikilove

@kiki047 & @nitnat007 Thinking of you both & hoping all is well! Sending so much love & positivity😘😘😘

shoogapoff

@pom9207 That's stressful to have to worry about immigration right now too! It sounds like you will have an eventful summer!