PGAL 10/17

prpl11butterfly

@bakerstreetboys I know! I was really thrown by that. Just trying to stir up drama. I figured if we didn't give it attention it would go away (because after the comments on the organization thread, I figured it was all an AW moment)

srscott3

Almost every BMB I’ve seen does separate loss posts per person. I like the idea of a loss thread though instead of separate posts or having them in the spotting thread. I think I just realized that it’s the loss posts that are triggering me in that thread, not the posts about spotting. 

meatballs37

Yes, this certain person I felt like gave a condescending comment to me after my US came back with positive news “see that is good news” like seriously...😑 at 6 weeks, my PGAL milestones are really far away. So no, I don’t feel fully relaxed and probably never will. I am learning how to cope with my anxiety, it’s not going to go away after one very early US. 

I also decided to go with the “ignore” approach. 

meatballs37

@srscott3 same 

Dcwtada

I about got a warning I wanted to call her out so bad, I have to save those though. She wasn’t worth one of my 2 

meatballs37

Right, if you aren’t here to support pgal moms. GTFO 

Eta: no need to announce your departure 

ruby696

@meatballs37 YGPM

sparklingdiamond

I keep meaning to tell you guys. After my stillborn loss I became involved with a group called Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS).  They have tons of FB groups and one is for those who are pregnant after a loss.  I've found it super helpful.  You can just search for it on FB o think the exact name is PALS- Pregnancy After Loss Support (all of that is in the title).  There are a lot of members so we wouldn't know who each other is in there.  You do have to answer three questions though to join. But I've found it helpful so wanted to share.

bakerstreetboys

My betas came back at a good number, but it isn't really comforting me at this point.  They ended up bringing me back in for an u/s, but of course it's too early to really see anything.  There's a gestational sac that "could" be a pregnancy, but we don't know yet.  I'm going back in next Tuesday.

Edited because I don't mean to sound negative.  I am of course happy that my numbers have gone up...but PGAL brain is real, and it's a bitch.

eleven_

@bakerstreetboys I'm happy to hear you had good betas, but sorry the US wasn't more reassuring. I'm sure this will be such a long week for you  How many weeks/days are you today?

ruby696

@bakerstreetboys I'm sorry you're in limbo. Weeks 3 through 5 really are their own special kind of hell. Fingers crossed that everything is progressing as it should. 

bakerstreetboys

Thanks   @eleven_ I'm only 4w6d, so although I know that we shouldn't see anything yet, I still wanted to.

@ruby696 Yes, these weeks are very tough!!

Dcwtada

@bakerstreetboys that is something! I know it’s not completely reassuring and lord knows if anyone of us will ever get that relief especially in the first trimester but that is good news to me. FX for Tuesday. 

PGAL is a bitch. Believe me I have had some dark thoughts I don’t even like to admit to myself so believe me you don’t sound negative...just a scared mom that knows terrible heartache all to well. It’s hard to be excited and hopefully when you know how devastating and life-altering it is and a few months or even a successful pregnancy doesn’t change any of those feelings. They are our babies. 

prpl11butterfly

@bakerstreetboys I'm glad your#s are good but sorry thats not helping the PGAL brain. And I fully get the US disappointment. FX that next one shows more development.

kjr9519

@bakerstreetboys I’m so glad your numbers look good at least. The waiting is terrible, and it certainly doesn’t help that even the best they can do right now can’t give any definite answers. FX that everything is going well and that you’ll be able to see good results next appt.

ncm1919

Waiting for my US tomorrow at 1p EST might actually have slowed the clocks down so they are no longer moving forward. Good lord 

borgahurst

Time is the worst in the first trimester. Good luck tomorrow @ncm1919. 

dntstpbelieveing

Had my us tonight. Babe is measuing a week behind. I'm trying not to let that freak me out. **Tw With my mc I was bleeding and when I went in for my us the baby was measuring a week behind and I miscarried about a week later. I am not bleeding currently so I am going to try not to compare the two** 

Dr put in an order for bonjesta to see if that with help my Ms. She put the mfm order in, ran a fuck load of blood work, and is having me do a 24 hour urine screen. She kept bringing up that my blood pressure is high today. Yea doc I'm a little freaked out. 

sparklingdiamond

@dntstpbelieveing I am thinking of you!  Hopefully it's just a little off on measurement and will catch back up quickly.  

luckystar28

@dntstpbelieveing Solidarity on all the monitoring. It’s pretty exhausting honestly, but I know it’s for the best. Hang in there. I’ll be thinking of you. If it helps, my 24 hour urine is being completed this weekend. Woo hoo...

antera23

@dntstpbelieveing oh man. I know exactly how that would trigger your PGAL brain. I wish there was something I could say to help, but just know you are in my thoughts. 

@ncm1919 I hope you’re able to sleep tonight and the time starts going by faster for you. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. The anticipation is the worst. 

meatballs37

@dntstpbelieveing how many weeks are you? Praying they get your BP back to where it should be. 

dntstpbelieveing

@meatballs37 after the ultrasound I'm bumped back to 6+1 

bakerstreetboys

@dntstpbelieveing I'm sorry you had a stressful appointment and u/s.  Fx that the monitoring goes well, and that everything is ok.

prpl11butterfly

@dntstpbelieveing I'm sorry your US was stressful. Were you tracking anything to have an idea when you ovulated? Hopefully it was late and that's the reason for babe being a week behind. And yea, with all the PGAL stuff I can't imagine you BP not being slightly raised.

ruby696

@dntstpbelieveing Ugh, I'm sorry you're not feeling great about your US. Hopefully baby catches up a bit by the next one. I'll be thinking of you.

mackorori

@dntstpbelieveing If you don’t typically have BP issues, I’m surprised they were so concerned about it being high. I’ve been higher day of US in past because I was so nervous and was told it’s pretty common. Prayers and good thoughts that everything turns out OK.

Dcwtada

@dntstpbelieveing

I know every situation is different but if it gives you any comfort, my 3rd pregnancy measured 2 weeks behind for our first ultrasound. I remember it took me a couple days after my missed period to test positive so I wasn’t sure if I ovulated late or what. Supposed to be ~8 weeks, measured at ~6 weeks.

My my son was born healthy at 38 weeks just shy of 10 pounds. 

dntstpbelieveing

@prpl11butterfly I was not tracking so it is totally possible I O'd late. I was expecting it to be a few days off anyway because I didnt get a bfp until 4 days after when I expected my period. I just worry because I know when we had sex and the dates dont line up but that is ok. I am just going to try to remember that I am pregnant today and that is where I am at.

kjr9519

@dntstpbelieveing I’m so sorry for all of the stress and anxiety this is putting you through. My thoughts are with you and I’m hoping everything is okay.

bumblebee0210

I have my US tomorrow morning and I am trying not to let the anxiety get the better of me. I had a MMC at 8 weeks but at the 7 week US we had a slow heartbeat, so that was really the beginning of the end. I'm 7w tomorrow and going in for the first US and just feeling a lot of dread. I keep thinking "wait! wait! just let me stay pregnant a little longer!" 

@dntstpbelieveing Ugh that is the pits. My doctor actually told me she had a similar thing happen (and they couldn't find a heartbeat), but it was a perfectly healthy pregnancy with just a late O. She said it's why she doesn't like early ultrasounds-- too little info. Fingers crossed that your LO just got a late start and is doing fine!