2. Previous loss(es)? One MC not really sure what it was at 7 weeks. I knew it happened and didn’t want to talk about it.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? After my beta, feeling less emotional. Back to Bar method so feeling good physically minus being dizzy all day.
4. Any appointment updates? Us is a week from Thursday. First appointment after that is November 9th. I want the early genetic testing so I need to get that scheduled I’m realizing.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? My raves are all work related. I won’t bore anyone here. I’ll bore you elsewhere.
6. Any milestones coming up? Not really
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I want to basically adult back pack through Europe. I think that’s what we will do when we retire. The best times we have had are in Italy and the Netherlands. Can’t wait until we can go again.
Guys! I FINALLY got the US report from my portal. There was not just a gestational sac. There was a yolk sac too! This makes me feel a bit better. I wish the tech had metioned that detail.
@prpl11butterfly so glad you finally got the results. That sounds like everything is basically on track. I hope the next couple weeks fly by for you so you can see that little nugget again.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally I would say I'm doing better overall since the u/s last week looked good. Physically, in the last week I have started getting much worse nausea. I ended up cancelling a work trip last minute because the idea of getting on a plane was a non-starter. I'm also having pretty strong food aversions yet am constantly hungry, so that's fun.
4. Any appointment updates? I go back in a week on 10/25 for another scan. Just hoping that the bean has kept growing.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Rave - I had to tell a couple of people at work about the pregnancy in order to cancel the trip, and they were and continue to be super supportive. We've been pretty busy so I wasn't sure how that news would go over. I'm pretty relieved over all.
6. Any milestones coming up? Getting through my next scan will feel like a huge milestone, as that is the first time I would have been seen in the normal course if I weren't high risk.
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? My favorite vacation was probably Italy for our honeymoon...so much good food, good wine, and amazing scenery. I've always wanted to go on safari, preferably somewhere with many baby elephants, so I'll go with Tanzania or South Africa as a dream destination.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? So relieved now that we had our first ultrasound and got to see a baby in there! Physically, I’m having lots of food aversions and still exhausted.
4. Any appointment updates? My appointment today went so well. I was very nervous, but once I saw that little heart fluttering I just starting bawling. We will go back for another ultrasound and genetic testing at 10-11 weeks.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’m good right now.
6. Any milestones coming up? None
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? My absolute dream vacation would be Fiji or somewhere similar with the huts that are on the water. I would just like to totally veg out and be away from everything. My favorite vacation is our annual trip to the lake with BF and his family. His parents rent a cabin, there’s no cell service, and we just read by the water, paddle board, and drink wine at night. It’s awesome.
This week I’ve been reading posts and then forget to post my own update.
1. How many weeks are you? 7w1d
2. Previous loss(es)? Ectopic in feb 2018
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Pretty good emotionally, I’m sure that will change as I get closer to my next US. Physically still comes and goes with nausea but when it’s bad it’s bad! Ready for first tri to be over for so many reasons
4. Any appointment updates? Nov 1st for 2nd US @ 9 weeks
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I keep going to bed early which is nice but then I wake up super early (for me). I’m not ready for the abnormal sleep.
6. Any milestones coming up? No, we’ve passed those!
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I would love to go to the Maldives. Favorite vacation was a cruise in the Caribbean. I just love cruises!
@meatballs37 I that you did that fundraiser. What an amazing way to honour your boys and to help another family.
@srscott3 Well, your neighbours sound like crazy people. I go mama bear if someone hurts my kids, and I can't imagine parents not wanting to stop their child from harming others. Hopefully they move
@prpl11butterfly Yay for the update on the u/s! Why didn't they tell you that they saw a yolk sac?! I hope the house tour goes well.
@sparklingdiamond I love Scotland too and will definitely be going back! Congrats on a great beta, and I hope your DS is feeling better.
@Dcwtada I'm sorry your DH isn't sympathetic about your previous loss. It definitely helps to have someone to talk to about it.
@eleven_ Oh man, mornings are hard! My DH does them now, but when I used to do them, I remember thinking "I have to pack lunches, and have these people fed and dressed by what time? Again?!"
@Bumblebee0210 You've done some amazing traveling, and you are braver than I
@mackorori Your pills are red?! Why would they even make them that colour? Mine are white and they're gross enough as it is. I loved St. Maarten too, so gorgeous
1. How many weeks are you? 4+1
2. Previous loss(es)? Three in the past year
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically I'm just really tired, headachy, and sore by the end of the day. I almost wish that I felt more pregnant, because I'm not doing great emotionally the last couple of days. It's so hard to believe that this one will work. I broke down this morning and called my family doctor to get a requisition for a blood test, because I don't want to worry all weekend until I finally get one next week with my fertility clinic. Plus, they only do one, so this way I should get the results online tomorrow, and hopefully see them go up by Monday.
4. Any appointment updates? Not yet. I don't even know yet when I'll have my first u/s. My follow up appointment with the RE isn't until November 6, and there's no way I can wait that long.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nope, just annoyed at how slowly the first few weeks are going! I need to have an u/s date to count down to.
6. Any milestones coming up? Not yet.
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I would love to go to Italy! My in-laws are in Denmark, so we go there every year/second year, and try to see another country while we're already across the ocean. We've been to Germany and Scotland, but we're saving Italy until we can go without kids, and I can drink wine!
My favourite vacation would a toss up between Scotland, Thailand, and any number of Caribbean beach vacations. I love the history of Europe, but also love a week on a beach with my books!
@dntstpbelieveing@bakerstreetboys thanks for the info on having other color options for the progesterone, I’m definitely asking about it! I never asked why it’s a better option than taking a pill, will ask about that too, but also if anyone here has info/experience I would love the feedback.
@ncm1919 Thanks! Lucky you I suspect we won't get there for several years. We'll probably get to Switzerland or Norway first because they're so close to Denmark. I love Europe!
I’m having a hard PGAL day today, but I just scheduled my first appointment for mid-November. So, that’s making me feel a little bit better. I’m just having a hard time getting over anxiety because I’ve never had a successful pregnancy before, so I don’t have any good experiences to really know what symptoms and feelings are “normal” with pregnancy.
@krj9519 Sorry you're having a rough day. I've had two CP's, two MMC's and two living children. I didn't have strong symptoms even with my two living children. I've never had any kind of nausea and my other symptoms were fairly mild 1st tri. I guess my point is, it can be normal not to have crazy strong symptoms with a healthy pregnancy. Try not to stress too much about it (yeah right, I'm freaking out right there with you)
@ruby696 thanks for the reassurance. I know it’s probably still early for me to feel strong symptoms anyway, but I would sure like to have them so I could at least feel like everything is okay in there. I had an MMC and went nearly four weeks before finding out, so I’m freaked out that it will happen again.
Ugh, that's awful. My MMC's were the same way - I thought everything was fine for weeks. Now I just tell myself that this pregnancy will either be successful or it won't, and there's nothing I can do to change it. That usually calms me down a little.
@kjr9519 mine was also a MMC so I'm right there with you. My numbers at 8wks were perfectly in line but baby had already passed (around 6+4 they think) and we didnt find out until 11. I'm so on edge now that I've hit 6 and I dont get another US until 8. Its so hard not to worry about it happening the same way again. FX that we both get through this.
@prpl11butterfly that’s heartbreaking. With mine, we saw a good ultrasound and heartbeat at 7+5, then I went to the ER at 12w, a few days before my scheduled appointment, and found out the baby had passed at 8+4. I’m counting down the days until my first US, but I know I won’t be able to relax until I see a good US at 12w at least. FX for you that you see a healthy baby at 8 weeks.
@kjr9519 ugh I feel you— I have also never had a successful pregnancy, and even though I know logically that odds are everything will be fine, it’s like I can’t even really imagine what that is like. When I think about the ultrasound it seems like a cliff that i’m heading toward at full speed. I have strong first tri symptoms but I did last time too, so there’s no real comfort there. Sometimes I feel like I’m going to be in some weird loop of ttc/first tri/recovering from miscarriage forever. The only thing I can say is to be kind to yourself, and remember that all successful pregnancies start here too. This shit is hard.
I'm having a rough PGAL day as well. This is right around the time of my previous m/c. I really want to go to LabCorp and get another beta done today. I know at this point they don't double every 48 hours anymore though. So don't know if it would make me feel better or no? My ultrasound still isn't for 9 more days.
I had my HcG done this weekend and it was 15k, 24 hours later it only went up to just over 17k. So, yeah it didn’t really make me personally feel better. Sigh. Our US is Thursday.
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@meatballs37 really nothing will until my u/s. I just wish they didn't make me wait so long for it. I may do it anyways because I need to feel in control of something even if I'm not. And I'm almost out of the range that shows up on betabase lol .I think it only goes to 30 DPO.
@sparklingdiamond it does only go to 30 DPO. 😭 seriously that website is the best though.
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@bumblebee0210 I really hope neither of us gets stuck in a cycle like that, but it can be hard to believe it won’t when that’s all you’ve experienced. I really hope we’re both able to make it out of the first tri and go on to have healthy pregnancies.
You guys. I took an hpt yesterday just to see and the test line was almost darker than the control line. After two CP's, it was such a relief to see! Now I just have to get passed the 8 week mark I associate with my MMC's and I'll start to believe this is really going to happen.
Sorry that everyone is having a tough day. This is some serious emotional and stressy hell.
I wish I had asked for a standing order to betas as well. I need to see the numbers going up, and like many of you, having had a MMC makes me nervous that the first u/s won't be of much reassurance.
Yea, the MMC is a whole new hell. How do we know if everything is okay? I understand that they can't even verify until a certain point but it's still so difficult, mentally.
There must be something in the water. I’m climbing the walls waiting for my US. It’s thursday as well. Thinking of you all today. Hopefully some good news starts rolling in
I gave in and I'm going to do one more beta at LabCorp today. I'm just going in knowing the doubling time won't be as fast. My number was 5216 last Tuesday .
I think there is something in the water, I’m having a tough morning as well I know everything looked great a week ago, but similar to a couple of others I’ve had the post HB loss after getting the “95% of the time things are good from this point on” commentary from my OB, then they weren’t. A total mind game...sorry we all have to be in it and hoping for good news this week !
And wouldn't it be nice to be excited for an US? I mean, you want to get one to make sure everything is fine, but I know I dread every minute up until the moment of truth. So stressful.
@ruby696 yes! I had a sever hit from PTSD at mine last week. I know next week is going to be hell. I talked to my counselor and she advised me not to hold my feelings in during it. I don't think I'll be able to a second time anyway so GL to the tech who gets me....
My clinic just called with my betas from this morning. Thankfully they have gone up. They were 318 at 15DPO, and today at 18DPO, they were 1667. Now to wait at least two more weeks until I can get an u/s. Not sure how I'm going to handle that.
Excited for all you ladies who have them this week!!
Re: PGAL 10/17
@mackorori red seems like a really bad color for that. Like we aren't paranoid enough about bleeding.....
2. Previous loss(es)? One MC not really sure what it was at 7 weeks. I knew it happened and didn’t want to talk about it.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? After my beta, feeling less emotional. Back to Bar method so feeling good physically minus being dizzy all day.
4. Any appointment updates? Us is a week from Thursday. First appointment after that is November 9th. I want the early genetic testing so I need to get that scheduled I’m realizing.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? My raves are all work related. I won’t bore anyone here. I’ll bore you elsewhere.
6. Any milestones coming up? Not really
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I want to basically adult back pack through Europe. I think that’s what we will do when we retire. The best times we have had are in Italy and the Netherlands. Can’t wait until we can go again.
2. Previous loss(es)? Ectopic, CP
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally I would say I'm doing better overall since the u/s last week looked good. Physically, in the last week I have started getting much worse nausea. I ended up cancelling a work trip last minute because the idea of getting on a plane was a non-starter. I'm also having pretty strong food aversions yet am constantly hungry, so that's fun.
4. Any appointment updates? I go back in a week on 10/25 for another scan. Just hoping that the bean has kept growing.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Rave - I had to tell a couple of people at work about the pregnancy in order to cancel the trip, and they were and continue to be super supportive. We've been pretty busy so I wasn't sure how that news would go over. I'm pretty relieved over all.
6. Any milestones coming up? Getting through my next scan will feel like a huge milestone, as that is the first time I would have been seen in the normal course if I weren't high risk.
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? My favorite vacation was probably Italy for our honeymoon...so much good food, good wine, and amazing scenery. I've always wanted to go on safari, preferably somewhere with many baby elephants, so I'll go with Tanzania or South Africa as a dream destination.
2. Previous loss(es)? 1 CP in Apr 18
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? So relieved now that we had our first ultrasound and got to see a baby in there! Physically, I’m having lots of food aversions and still exhausted.
4. Any appointment updates? My appointment today went so well. I was very nervous, but once I saw that little heart fluttering I just starting bawling. We will go back for another ultrasound and genetic testing at 10-11 weeks.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’m good right now.
6. Any milestones coming up? None
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? My absolute dream vacation would be Fiji or somewhere similar with the huts that are on the water. I would just like to totally veg out and be away from everything. My favorite vacation is our annual trip to the lake with BF and his family. His parents rent a cabin, there’s no cell service, and we just read by the water, paddle board, and drink wine at night. It’s awesome.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
1. How many weeks are you? 7w1d
2. Previous loss(es)? Ectopic in feb 2018
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Pretty good emotionally, I’m sure that will change as I get closer to my next US. Physically still comes and goes with nausea but when it’s bad it’s bad! Ready for first tri to be over for so many reasons
4. Any appointment updates? Nov 1st for 2nd US @ 9 weeks
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I keep going to bed early which is nice but then I wake up super early (for me). I’m not ready for the abnormal sleep.
6. Any milestones coming up? No, we’ve passed those!
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I would love to go to the Maldives. Favorite vacation was a cruise in the Caribbean. I just love cruises!
@meatballs37 I
that you did that fundraiser. What an amazing way to honour your boys and to help another family.
@srscott3 Well, your neighbours sound like crazy people. I go mama bear if someone hurts my kids, and I can't imagine parents not wanting to stop their child from harming others. Hopefully they move
@prpl11butterfly Yay for the update on the u/s! Why didn't they tell you that they saw a yolk sac?! I hope the house tour goes well.
@sparklingdiamond I love Scotland too and will definitely be going back! Congrats on a great beta, and I hope your DS is feeling better.
@Dcwtada I'm sorry your DH isn't sympathetic about your previous loss. It definitely helps to have someone to talk to about it.
@eleven_ Oh man, mornings are hard! My DH does them now, but when I used to do them, I remember thinking "I have to pack lunches, and have these people fed and dressed by what time? Again?!"
@Bumblebee0210 You've done some amazing traveling, and you are braver than I
@mackorori Your pills are red?! Why would they even make them that colour? Mine are white and they're gross enough as it is. I loved St. Maarten too, so gorgeous
1. How many weeks are you? 4+1
2. Previous loss(es)? Three in the past year
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically I'm just really tired, headachy, and sore by the end of the day. I almost wish that I felt more pregnant, because I'm not doing great emotionally the last couple of days. It's so hard to believe that this one will work. I broke down this morning and called my family doctor to get a requisition for a blood test, because I don't want to worry all weekend until I finally get one next week with my fertility clinic. Plus, they only do one, so this way I should get the results online tomorrow, and hopefully see them go up by Monday.
4. Any appointment updates? Not yet. I don't even know yet when I'll have my first u/s. My follow up appointment with the RE isn't until November 6, and there's no way I can wait that long.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nope, just annoyed at how slowly the first few weeks are going! I need to have an u/s date to count down to.
6. Any milestones coming up? Not yet.
7. GTKY: Where is your dream vacation? What has been your favorite vacation? I would love to go to Italy! My in-laws are in Denmark, so we go there every year/second year, and try to see another country while we're already across the ocean. We've been to Germany and Scotland, but we're saving Italy until we can go without kids, and I can drink wine!
My favourite vacation would a toss up between Scotland, Thailand, and any number of Caribbean beach vacations. I love the history of Europe, but also love a week on a beach with my books!
I’m having a hard PGAL day today, but I just scheduled my first appointment for mid-November. So, that’s making me feel a little bit better. I’m just having a hard time getting over anxiety because I’ve never had a successful pregnancy before, so I don’t have any good experiences to really know what symptoms and feelings are “normal” with pregnancy.
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
I had my HcG done this weekend and it was 15k, 24 hours later it only went up to just over 17k. So, yeah it didn’t really make me personally feel better. Sigh. Our US is Thursday.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@sparklingdiamond and @meatballs37 I’ll be thinking of you guys and your upcoming ultrasounds.
Sorry that everyone is having a tough day. This is some serious emotional and stressy hell.
I wish I had asked for a standing order to betas as well. I need to see the numbers going up, and like many of you, having had a MMC makes me nervous that the first u/s won't be of much reassurance.
I hope this week passes quickly for all of us!
My clinic just called with my betas from this morning. Thankfully they have gone up. They were 318 at 15DPO, and today at 18DPO, they were 1667. Now to wait at least two more weeks until I can get an u/s. Not sure how I'm going to handle that.
Excited for all you ladies who have them this week!!