April TWW

JaeJayStark

@JuliaGoolia719 Ha! You are funny. Try to distract yourself a bit. Do you POAS?

I'm 8dpiui and starting to make myself crazy too! 

Irisheyes81

@JuliaGoolia719 a short road to batsh!t  right there with you. 

JuliaGoolia719

@JaeJayStark I did POAS this morning and got a faint 2nd line (my very first BFP in my WHOLE LIFE, which is hilarious since I spent my 20's scared to death of getting one and my early 30's crying bc I didn't have one). I called DH into the bathroom and he immediately saw the 2nd line (I'm pretty sure he has never seen a FRER before this morning) and then said "didnt the dr tell you not to do this?" aw honey it's cute that you thought I'd wait...
So now its just waiting until tomorrow to find out if the beta # is high enough.  Why is it that there's always something else to wait for?? after tomorrow it will be Thurs to see if the number doubles, then Monday to make sure its increasing still, after that it will be US to make sure there's a heart beat etc.  Someone please tell me that at some point the fear that the next thing will go wrong dissipates at least a little?

JaeJayStark

Ahhhh! @JuliaGoolia719 That is great news!!!! I'm so excited! I think we do have a lot of worrying ahead of us but we can only take it one step at a time. Can't wait to hear about your beta!

stella_700

@JuliaGoolia719 Congrats!!!! Ahh, I'm so pleased for you. For me seeing the first ultrasound with a good heartbeat will hopefully ease the fear that something will go wrong. Otherwise still on pins and needles here.  DH said, "Get used to it, we'll be worrying about something for at least the next 18 years". I think he meant to be reassuring.

@JaeJayStark Are you going POAS later this week/weekend?

JaeJayStark

@stella_700 I think I am going to start POAS tomorrow at 9dpiui. For some reason, it's ok when I get a negative that early. For my first BFP I got it on 10dpiui.

kristimh80

@JuliaGoolia719 Yay!!! That's so exciting!!! Congratulations!!!!!
My DH fusses are me all the time for POAS too! It's not like they would wait either!

Irisheyes81

@JuliaGoolia719 yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lindyc13

So unfortunately my BFP is a chemical and then number is going down.  Not sure what's next since this was iui #4 and we don't think we are going to do IVF 

JuliaGoolia719

lindyc13  hugs I'm so sorry! Good luck as you guys figure out your next steps

AFM I got my beta back (8dp5dt), 62.  Not amazing but definitely not bad so I'm not going to stress about it (laughs hysterically because OF COURSE I'm going to stress about it until Thursday when we find out if its actually rising like it's supposed to)  

JaeJayStark

@JuliaGoolia719 you crack me up! You're pregnant! You really are! I'm very excited for you. 

@lindyc13 just mentioned you on the other board. Again, I am so very sorry and I know a little bit how you feel. 

AFM - took an early test this AM at 9dpiui. Nothing there. My boobs are sore so I hope that's a sign. I never know anymore. 

JuliaGoolia719

JaeJayStark   FX for good news, don't read too much into it, it's still early!

wabash15

@JuliaGoolia719 fx for a doubling beta on thursday!

i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake

Hi Gals! I hope I can join you here...I've been hanging out with the super cool chicks over the April IVF community for the past month but as of last Friday, I'm officially in the 2WW!
I am 4dp3dt and am going insane, naturally. We transferred 2 embabies and have 3 frosties waiting. When does everyone plan to take a hpt? I just don't want to do it TOO early as I don't want a false negative (or false + for that matter) but I don't want to have to find out by a nurse over the phone, most likely when I'm at work, either...

JuliaGoolia719

@i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake I did a FET with a 5day embaby on the 17th, I POAS on the 23rd (5dp5dt) with a cheapy one that I was 98% sure was not going to be sensitive enough to pick up any HCG (I was right). The next day I POAS with a FRER and got my first BFP. Since I did a FET I didn't have any hcg from a trigger to give a false +.

kristimh80

@i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake welcome!! I'm 3dpiui and already driving myself crazy too! I'm scheduled for bloodwork on May 5th, but I'm sure I'll start POAS too early because I won't be able to help it! I'm hoping by 8-10 dpiui I'll have a clue either way.

JaeJayStark

@i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake Welcome to the party!

@kristimh80 I'm at 9dpiui with no clue. My boobs hurt but tests are negative so far. It's early though and my first and only positive started on 10dpiui previously. I put a lot of pressure on day 10 for a squinter.

kristimh80

@JaeJayStark I understand that...I never got a positive before until later on as well. Only sign I had was a weird taste in my house and food aversions. Best of luck to you! Sadly, I'm praying for a weird tasting mouth! 

thucks

Hey ladies. I hope you don't mind me joining in. I'm 3dp5dt. Just hanging out in the dreaded TWW. I had the past 2 days off from work to "relax" and now I'm back to the grind wishing I was back at home.

JuliaGoolia719

JaeJayStark its still early! 

thucks

Are any of you reading "The Two Week Wait Challenge: A Sassy Girl's Guide to Surviving the TWW" by Lindsay Fischer? So far I am loving it. I like her perspective on things and a daily challenge.  

kristimh80

@thucks Thanks for reminding me of this book! I keep meaning to download it

Ilky

I'm 3dpiui today and have a lot of mild cramping. I'm taking progesterone suppositories so not sure if the pain is related to that or aftermath of painful ovulation. Does any of you have the same issue? 

baseballhoney

@Ilky I am on the progesterone suppositories and I will get cramping when I am laying down after I insert them for about half an hour and sometimes throughout the day too. 

i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake

Ilky - I don't get pain from progesterone. I'm on crinone 2 xs day. My side effects seem to be hot flashes, sore ta tas, and a bit of constipation. Hang in there!
thucks - I downloaded the sample and think I'll buy the book! Anything to stay sane right now would do me (and everyone around me) good!
JaeJayStarkkristimh80JuliaGoolia719 - Thanks for the info and warm welcome!!

Irisheyes81

welcome @i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake LOVE your screen name.  FX. Man isn't the tww the worst?! 

thucks @JaeJayStark and I are reading the book together and it has helped us a lot! Last night I wrote myself a love letter 

thucks

@irisheyes81 I'm on the love letter today. Kinda feel awkward but I'm ganna try lol 
The part about the thoughts we have like If I only.... hits home pretty hard in a lot of this journey.

Ilky

Hi ladies,

I was wondering where all of you live. If we are close maybe we can create an in-person support group. I know a couple of people who had done it when they were trying and said that their experience was great. Just curious if anyone interested in this idea...

kristimh80

@Ilky I'm in Dallas, Texas. That sounds like a great idea! It's hard to find people that can actually relate outside of making friends in the dr office

Ilky

@kristimh80 I know what you mean. I pretty much don't talk about my struggles I go through because either the person have kids or not even trying. 
I live in Irvine, CA.

kristimh80

Random...a lot of things that usually taste normal, now all taste salty. Anyone else have this happen before? 

thucks

@llky I'm in Danville, Illinois. I go to an office in Champaign, Illinois but my procedures are out of Indianapolis, Indiana. 
@kristimh80 I've never had a taste thing before sorry. 

JaeJayStark

kristimh80 Thank you for the well wishes. I hope you get the weirdest of tastes in your mouth!!

thucks Yes, @Irisheyes81 and I are reading it too! It's so helpful. My mantra is "I am enough." I keep meditating on that over and over. It helps me when my brain gets spinning. 

Ilky I am in Seattle.

AFM, I posted this on the IUI board too but I am 10dpiui and still negative. I am oddly aware of my nipples and my armpits are sore. I also have a lot of CM but who knows! I'm making myself so nuts. 

i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake

Irisheyes81 - Thanks! And yes, I'm dying to know! It's as if I have entered a whole new level of crazy. I worry that I don't 'feel pregnant' then worry that I'm going to have multiples and how blessed I'd be but also have difficult that sort of pregnancy can be. And riskier. Idk. I just worry.

kristimh80

Ilky Exactly!! The most frustrating thing for me is my best friend that has 2 grown kids now is trying again in her mid 40s. She doesn't know how lucky she is or understand everything we have to go thru 

Ilky

@JaeJayStark i lived in Seattle for about 2 years and still miss it. Although just during summer lol, rain was the main reason we moved to sunny southern California

JaeJayStark

Yeah! I am a true NW girl. I lived in San Diego for two years but I needed green and seasons! 

Ilky

@i-wanna-b-the-girl-w-most-cake totally understand how you feel. I sometimes (especially during the last clomid cycle) think that I'll lose my mind, go totally nuts, and will become a psychopath trying to go through the tww haha. We just worry too much   

Irisheyes81

I'm in Denver, CO.  Seems like we are all over the place! 

thucks The love letter was a little awkward and the picking best body parts.  When my acupuncturist asked if I would want to "hang out" inside my body, I almost started crying. I had no idea how much i was hating on myself.  Every month it seems to get worse.  It was nice to look at the parts of me that aren't broken for at least a minute. I'm loving the book. WAY better 2ww than the last few

stella_700

I'm in DFW. I find myself struggling with the guilt of this. I know that its completely random but the irrational guilt that I lay on myself for having to go through the treatments, drugs, the cost has thrown me and I've not yet developed a great coping strategy there. I've not read this book, might look it up on my kindle later.