April TWW

clovelyone

Thanks, ladies!

@lindyc13 When will you POAS or have a beta? 

@rel_1987 Welcome and good luck and baby dust to you! 

@Aera11 I'm still FX and praying for both of us to have great beta results on Thursday. 

dragonette505

stella_700 That's an awesome first Beta!

dragonette505

clovelyone  Yay for those double lines!! Congrats!

morgan&paul2010

Congrats for all the BFP's! A good month so far! Praying it gets better! I am having mild cramps here and there and a tad bit of nausea but feeling good over then that! Wanting to test but nervous at the same time!

clovelyone

Thanks @dragonette505! Ladies, what can I expect to happen at my first beta appointment? It will be with my gynecologist rather than the IVF clinic (so we didn't talk about what to expect there). Will it just be a blood draw or an exam or ultrasound too? 

clovelyone

And thanks @morgan&paul2010!

Aera11

@clovelyone all my betas have been blood draws, they don't usually u/s that early.  From my experience they have you come back every 2-3 days to make sure the numbers are going up, but mine are through an RE not obgyn. Crossing my fingers for you on Thursday!!

clovelyone

@Aera11, thanks! I have to be somewhere right after the appointment so I just wanted to make sure that it won't take long. 

lindyc13

I took a test this morning and though I saw a vvfl so we will see. I need to go get a frer and test again tomorrow. They won't do a beta till the at home test is BFP. 

JaeJayStark

@lindyc13 what cd are you?

morgan&paul2010

lindyc13 said:

I took a test this morning and though I saw a vvfl so we will see. I need to go get a frer and test again tomorrow. They won't do a beta till the at home test is BFP. 

What cd are you?!  I'm dying to test! 11-12pdiui and 14 days past trigger!

Aera11

I'm 9dp3dt and stark white, but I tested out the trigger over the weekend & started breaking out yesterday with some spotting today.  I'm so sad but at least I was prepared this time since I poas every morning.  I'll still go for a beta tomorrow to confirm but I'll be sitting down with my re later this month to figure out if I should do a round of IVF w/PGS testing or skip to donor eggs.  I know egg quality is the issue & I don't know if I want to do another IVF, only get two embryos again & find out both aren't good quality.  But part of me needs to know for closure I think...

crossing my fingers for everyone still in the tww!

lindyc13

Oh @Aera11 I so sorry for a bfn! 

@morgan&paul2010 I am 10dpiui 12 dp trigger. I had tested out the trigger. I am trying to decide if I test again tomorrow or wait a few more days. 

wabash15

@aera11 I'm so sorry for the BFN. hugs.

clovelyone

@Aera11 I'm so sorry to hear you had a BFN. Virtual hugs for you. It's very hard to come to terms with using donor eggs, but I really just can't imagine never being pregnant so after I cried and got over the fact that my child probably won't look like me (although my SO could have really strong genes and that could have been the case with my own eggs), I started looking into the donor process. Take your time to think about it, it is a big decision. Best of luck to you with whatever you choose to do next. 

stella_700

@aera11-I'm sorry. Curse the stark white line! Praying for guidance on your next step.

dragonette505

Aera11 UGH sorry for the BFN. There are things you can do (supplements, acupuncture) that can help with egg quality, but they take about 3 months to be effective (the length of time it takes for an egg to mature and be recruited for ovulation).  None of these things are sure fire bets, but many of us have thought it was worth a shot... for sure I've drowned myself in supplements over the past year.

stella_700

***TW***
Got beta #2 back today. 662! Almost exactly double since Monday. I guess my clinic does a third beta. They want me in next Wednesday to test again, back to the vampires I go. I did the excited dance at work, probably completely embarrassed myself, don't care.
***TW***

I've discovered that a positive test doesn't lessen the anxiety/fear it just shifts it to a whole different level. Maybe after the first ultrasound where I can hear the heartbeat will help with that I guess. I've taken up coloring and I've done a ton of gardening this spring so far. It seems to help me let things go at least for awhile.

Aera11

Thank you for the support ladies, it is so greatly appreciated.  @clovelyone did you use donor eggs?  Sorry, I am mobile bumping and can't see signatures if there is one.  I am totally okay with my child not looking like me, if I can still give birth, breastfeed, etc. that will be enough and I'll be forever grateful.  

@dragonette505 I do fertility acupuncture and take so many supplements I use ice cube trays to organize them, haha.  

I am not giving up on my own eggs just yet.  I am only 31 so maybe these first two rounds were just not meant to be...I just feel like we've been at this forever and it is exhausting in so many ways.

clovelyone

@Aera11 I love your attitude! Yes, I ended up using DE. I feel the same way, but I'm older than you and OOP. This was my first cycle, so I probably could have tried my OE again, but since I really just want a baby and my endometriosis will only get worse over time and could cause issues with carrying a baby, I just wanted to be pregnant. 

Aera11

@clovelyone how long did the DE process take? Did you go through my egg bank? After I talk to my RE later this month I'll have a better idea of our game plan, but I'm thinking we'll do one more IVF & then move forward.  The first time they only got 3 eggs & this past time 6, so I definitely don't produce a lot.  I know it only takes one but sheesh, we've put in two perfect looking embryos and nada.  We're pretty much all OOP too, our insurance covers like 5%, which is better than nothing but I don't want to waste our money on IVF with my eggs if they're no good.  DH and I seriously hope one day we'll look back at this and know it was worth it.

clovelyone

@Aera11 I went abroad to Cyprus for a tandem IVF cycle. If you have time off work, maybe that could be an option for you. Tandem allows you to try with your OE and have a donor stimming at the same time. My follies stopped growing do they canceled my ER and prepped me for the ET with DE. For flights (for me and my SO), accommodations, medications, scans and everything, we will have spent about $12K. I decided to go there to start stimming since getting the meds there saved us probably 5K so I ended up staying ~3.5 weeks. If you start the meds here, they say you should plan on being there 2-2.5 weeks. I submitted my information in November and started BCP in February. The only downside is that it's illegal for them to show pics of the donors. You can send them a pic of yourself and they try to use someone with similar features. You also receive a profile with details about their background and a pen portrait which is a couple of paragraphs the donor writes about herself. 

Aera11

I can take time off since I'm self employed, so I guess that's an option. Thank you so much for the info @clovelyone!  The options seem endless so it's nice to hear people's first-hand experiences

clovelyone

@Aera11 If you'd like more information, check out the website at www.cyprusivf.com. A very prominent endometriosis specialist in NY referred a friend of mine to this clinic. That's great that you are self employed. I work from home so I was able to work from there and use vacation time. The Internet kind of sucks there though LOL. 

rel_1987

Well it looks like I may be out this month 13dpiui poas and its negative. My clinic has me scheduled 4/17 for beta and also baseline. Now hoping af arrives so I can squeeze an iui in for the end of the month. 

SoonToBeMommaHowe

Sorry for the BFN @rel_1987 & @Aera11. I'm also joining the BFN group, I tested negative at 13 & 15dpiui. of course the witch can't come at a normal time, 12-14dpo, she needs to hold
out just to mess with my head. I keep search FF for late BFPs after BFNs...quickly falling down the rabbit hole 

rel_1987

@SoonToBeMommaHowe sorry for your bfn also. I keep symptom spotting and holding out hope also. But I know af will be here any day. 

stella_700

@SoonToBeMommaHowe @rel_1987 I'm sorry. Hopeful AF can kick into gear so that you can move on quickly. As soon as she starts indulge in some wine and treat yourselves to something nice.

lindyc13

Well it got darker. But I am still skeptical so I will keep testing. 

Aera11

I'm so sorry @SoonToBeMommaHowe  

JaeJayStark

FYI, @lindyc13 last month's TWW got shut down for pregnancy picture tests. I love to see them but it's against "the rules."

Excited for you!

rel_1987

@lindyc13 looks like a good bfp to me   

clovelyone

@rel_1987 & @SoonToBeMommaHowe, sorry to hear about your BFNs. I think a glass of wine would be in order too. 

@lindyc13 Hopefully it will get darker. 

AFM I had my beta today, but I won't get the results until tomorrow. Just keeping a positive mind here. 

stella_700

@clovelyone Ewww, no same day results from your lab. I'd be loosing it. Plan something fun to try and keep your mind off of it.

clovelyone

@stella_700 IKR, but it's my ob/gyn rather than an RE. Since I had IVF abroad, I have to follow up with my doctor here. It definitely sucks, but a friend just sent me a message earlier this week saying to be patient and not try to rush things because everything will be OK. She doesn't even know that i did IVF so it really helped. I feel like it was a sign 

stella_700

@clovelyone Don't you love it when something like that happens. You hear that comment or get that message that smooths everything out. I can ride the good vibe moods on something like that for the rest of the week.

lamaricelita88

Im so sorry @Aera11 @rel_1987 @SoonToBeMommaHowe i know how that feels but dont give up im sure one day, bfp will come true just have faith and treat yourselves to something nice take care.
 I wish all april tww many baby dust to all ☺

rel_1987

Thank you @lamaricelita88. Plan on having a nice weekend out 

clovelyone

Ladies, I finally got my beta results and it was 2,518! My doctor was so happy! I'm assuming it can't be too high, right? I will get an ultrasound and another beta on Tuesday, but of course I won't get the results from the beta until Wednesday. 

@stella_700 Yes, I love it! 

JuliaGoolia719

Hi ladies!  I go in for my FET on Monday and thought I'd introduce myself since I've been lurking on here!  Im 33 DH is 34, TTC for 2.5 years, I have PCOS, DH has some MFI issues. This is our first round of IVF/FET. I'm getting nervous for Monday but excited to move forward!