IVF Single Mom By Choice

LoveDontCostAThing

I totally agree that I am happy that this is an ongoing thread.  I check out and sometimes comment on the pregnancy ones, but it's really not the same as the threads over here.  I haven't connected with anyone in particular on the other threads.  Oh, and I don't know when I will find out the sex.  I know it's too soon!  I will ask tomorrow!

prudence9-2

@littledarlins glad your dr is ok with another try! I hope you will have better luck this time around!!!

@LoveDontCostAThing can't wait to hear your update from the dr visit tomorrow! 

@Hopeful_mom If 1 or 2 come back normal you will still go with another IVF? Once you're done with all the IVFs I think your body deserves some pampering! 

AFM... AF stopped by today.... it wasn't a surprise as i stopped BCP on Sat... tomorrow is my baseline... and if I get the ok then will start with the patches. 

I still havent got the biopsy results. I think it can take a week or two... so hopefully by the end of next week!!!

if the results come back normal (as my dr predicts) I will continue with the planned FET and hope that I won't have another m/c! 

Ahhh this is all soooo stressful!!! 

prudence9-2

Got the okay to start with the patches today... 

@LoveDontCostAThing hope the appt went well!

LoveDontCostAThing

@Prudence9 -ahhh I will be so excited if you do your FET soon!!!

AFM, ugh, my appointment got canceled because the dr. had to deliver a baby.  Now I have to wait until Thursday!  Anxiety!  I am just so used to the frequent monitoring, but suppose I need to get used to not as frequent!

prudence9-2

@LoveDontCostAThing ahh I can imagine how anxious you must be... do you already feel kicking or is that too soon?

AFM... at the baseline yesterday I was told that my lining is a little thick. She asked me if I have a flow and I said yes. So she said, okay then. But as soon as I got home I barely had anything. Just spotting. So now, of course, I'm worried that I'm going to start FET with old lining. Ahhh. There's always something!

littledarlins

@Prudence9 Ahhhh is right, there is always something!  

@LoveDontCostAThing that is a drag and yes, you probably will have to get used to less monitoring, and that is a good thing, no?

I have been anxious for a long time, but all of a sudden I am not anymore.  I think I have realized just how high my level of stress is (family difficulties), and I think it is hurting the process. I think you can just adjust and get accustomed to it, and then you dont realize how much you are causing yourself damage.  I am going to commit to having a relaxing summer, working less, and laughing more.  Thats my story and Im stickin to it. 

prudence9-2

@littledarlins I totally agree. I believe that our state of mind can influence things in this process!

prudence9-2

I was worried after my baseline as they told me it's a little too thick and I had just a little bit spotting afterwards. So called the clinic this morning and one of the REs just called me back and agreeded to see me for another ultrasound tomorrow morning!

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 Nice your RE is being so responsive, hopefully its nothing too series and will correct itself.
@littledarlins this process is very hard, expensive and stressful!!  Its a lot and i think our bodies are have a mind of their own.  I think everyone you said sounds great and your should totally get a lil more R&R in your life.  I try not to blame my surroundings and blame myself when my cycles dont go my way as I did get pregnant with my twins during a very stressful time and lost them when I had way less stress in the new year, so go figure.  I still cant comprehend it.

@LoveDontCostAThing bummer for sure!  I liked and wanted to see my nuggets every week if I could.  Did you ever think of getting a doppler so you can hear the heartbeat on your own?  I was thinking about and saddly no longer needed it BUT I think when and f the time come again I probably will want one.  Sux they're making you wait a full week and couldn't squeeze you in sooner.  Thats a good sign too as they're not worried about anything  Just think how much bigger ur lil nugget is going to be, your going to see a lil kicking baby

edit - i cant spell!

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom that was my RE but one of the doctors on call. Every weekend a different dr is in call and takes care of all the calls from all the patients. So we'll see what he says tomorrow. 

prudence9-2

I've been having slight headache all day long today... I think it's the Lupron... already took 2 tylenols around noon. Might take more now... 

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 sorry your not feeling well - try an ice pack too!

LoveDontCostAThing

@littledarlins- that's a great attitude!  it's such a stressful process.  at the end of the day, whatever will be...will be.

@Prudence9 -hope your ultrasound went well today!

AFM, too early to feel kicking.  it's possible to feel little movements/ flutters, but I don't know how likely?  I thought I felt something the other day, but really not sure.  There is stretching and cramping and ligament pain, so hard to know what is what.  It sucks to wait longer, but at least I'll be one more week along.  It's hard not to worry since I have anxiety to begin with, but I am trying to be calm.  I am still so tired!  I thought I was getting less tired, but nope!

prudence9-2

@LoveDontCostAThing yeah, I bet it's tough to wait a whole week... but you're already half way there 

AFM... u/s went well. It's funny how I'm so much anxious this time around. And worry about every little thing. My next u/s is next wed. That's when they'll tell me the transfer day. But hopefully by the end of this week I'll get the biopsy results!

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 so glad things went well today and you're on track yay!!  I'm anxious all the time, I think its being on high alert of anything and everything going wrong just try and relax!!  So your RE isn't concerned with ur lining right now?

AFM:  AF is here and i'm on the patch only since friday so its probably only going to be a couple days of priming again...hopefully it'll be enough like the cycle before.  So far I have been to monitoring on every holiday, halloween, mothersday...pretty much all the days people dont want to be working i have to go, now we can add memorial day to the list  I am glad that at least the holy days I didn't have to go in right

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom he said it's where they want it to be... it was 5.4 today. (And 6.4 on Thurs). Anyway, I'm also on the patch now. And Lupron injections. Next u/s is wed next week. But hopefully before that I'll get the biopsy results. 

So are you starting another IVF cycle? Any idea when you'll get the PGS results??

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 i'm glad things are progressing well for u!!

AFM:  I'm about ready to puke, what a morning!!  After 6 tries and 3 different nurses my body still didn't want to give any blood this morning, did you ever.  They felt terrible but my body just wasn't having it.  I did give bw friday so they will go off of that and my US to make sure i can start stemming today.  I was nervous i would have a cyst or something growing as i felt i was getting some strange zings through the week BUT technically the tech said that things look really good so hoping its a go and I can' get a few days off.  So yes looking to do hopefully my last cycle of ivf, lucky #7 right  Assuming my PGS results will becoming in the next few days...could've been today if not for the holiday but we know how that goes.  Can't believe how much worse I feel with them getting no blood as opposed to when they get blood.  That time they took 30 vials I felt better that day then I do now....go figure.

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom ohhh sorry to hear you had such a bad experience with the bw... 

I never have problem to give blood. But at the MUA after they got some blood I bled like crazy (almost fainted) and ever since then giving blood from that arm is really painful. 

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 yea apparently I have very tiny veins so it makes it much harder...funny its the only small thing on me.  It is a lot of blood test in this process so its not that surprising.  Right now my AF cramps are sucking!

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom yeah... soooooo many blood tests!!! 

so I've been having crazy dreams every night. I think it's the patches. I'm a little disappointed because when I got pregnant, the dreams were one of my signs... I thought I got them from the day after the transfer. But maybe I didn't pay attention and I had them since I started with the patches?

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 are  kidding?  thats so interesting I was having bizarre dreams last few nights myself...and its friends that i'm annoyed with so i rather NOT be dreaming about them  SO my results are ready and i have to wait.  Explain why the lab calls me first before my dr.  Now I'm more anxious then before...I knew they were going to be ready....ugh!!!  I'm so stressed right now!

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom did you also start with the patches?

i can't believe they make you wait like that!!! FX you will have some normals!!! 

Hopeful_mom

I started them friday night and took it off before starting shots last night.  Its so backwards they call me first...I guess to confirm payment BUT then I know they're ready..its just too backwards.

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom the dreams must be because of the patches then... 

and so stupid they they call you NOW to confirm payment. Shouldn't they confirm payment BEFORE they start testing???

Hopeful_mom

Freaking out and finally breathing i got 2 normies back yay!!!  Finally!  Quality over quantity!!

and no it wasn't really the payment it was me telling them to please release the records...very strange as I never hear that from anyone else....

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom OMG!!! That is the best news ever!!!!! So happy for you!!!! 

does that change your plan for another IVF cycle??? Will you now switch and do FET instead???

Hopeful_mom

I know  u think it would but i'm still going to move forward with this one and then take it from there.  I'm PM u

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom wow! Well at least for the first time you can have a "relaxing" cycle as you know you have 4 normies!! 

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom I hope you're celebrating tonite!

littledarlins

@Hopeful_mom  Fantastic!!!  so nice and even though you are going through another cycle, its all butter.    
They always have a hard time getting blood out of me.  They usually tell me I am dehydrated, and that I need to be drinking more water.   One time this Fall a nurse looked at my veins, gave me a bottle of water, and said Drink this and Ill be back in about 5 minutes.  and it worked.  no joke.  So now I chug water on  the way to the lab but they really say you have to start the night before.  Now, they usually get it in 1 or 2 pokes, instead of my normal 4 per BW. 

@Prudence9 is your next thing tomorrow or do yo mean Next wednesday?

prudence9-2

@littledarlins my next u/s is next Wed. But hopefully before that I'll get the biopsy results. 

Hopeful_mom

littledarlins hey i tagged u on a thread (not my first rodeo) a girl was in there asking about what it sounded like mini stemming, maybe you can share some knowledge with her and ur process.
I did drink water as I went to the bathroom 2x there but still not enough.  The regular girl who usually takes the blood wasn't there so i'm sure that didn't help the situation...we'll see what happens on thursday fx and toes crossed!

LoveDontCostAThing

@hopeful_mom -2 more normal!!!! 2+2=4!!!!!!  This is great news!  So happy for you!

@Prudence9 -sounds like things are going well for you too  I have weird dreams every night!!!!  I am also not sure if it began when I started the progesterone or once pregnant, but they're still very vivid every night.

AFM, nervous, like usual, for my appointment tomorrow.  I'll keep you posted.

prudence9-2

@LoveDontCostAThing when I got pregnant before I thought the dreams came the night after the FET. But this time around, it came as soon as I started with the patches. And I thought it was a sign for being pregnant... 

i can imagine how nervous you are. FX the appt tomorrow goes well. 

AFM... still waiting for biopsy results. Hopefully I will get them tomorrow!

Hopeful_mom

@LoveDontCostAThing cant wait for your appt - US is gonna be awesome!!
@Prudence9 really hope the results come in and ur moving on!

I think I just get bw tomorrow - did some acupuncture today...anything to help the cause at this point!

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom I haven't gone to acupuncture this past month. But back at it tomorrow! Anything that can help the cause indeed!

prudence9-2

Emailed the nurse asking about the biopsy results. So she just emailed me back saying the dr will follow up with me. WTF does that mean?? Something must be wrong. Ahhh. And now I wait. 

prudence9-2

I'm going crazy here. I'm hoping I just have an infection and not cancer. Ahhh. Seems like I won't get the results until tomorrow. 

Hopeful_mom

Prudence9 oh no!  I hate that!  i try and relax and lets not expect the worst here, the nurse is just following protocol!  You know for fact the results are in.  Lets try and not jump to conclusions, do you have a reason to assume its cancer, history?  I have the worst headache ugh!!  no sleeping and neds are not helping!

prudence9-2

@hopeful_mom I'm out for June FET. not gonna happen. Dr told me I have some cell growth in my uterus they don't really know what it is. They think it's from a previous pregnancy... she was at loss... ahh really didn't expect results like that from the biopsy. 
 
Anyway, plan is to stop prep for FET. And instead take progesterone for a week. Then get my period. And a week later have hyseroscopy and see what's going on in there. She said I could tough it up and do it with only local anesthesia. But I can have full if i prefer. 

Then, depending on the results, she will put me on antibiotics in case I did have an infection. And if all looks ok, we could do FET then. 

If im lucky I will have FET in July. 

Good thing I did the biopsy. I wouldn't have been able to get pregnant with those leftovers. So I'm glad we found out. But right now, all I wanna do is cry. But I'm sitting in front of the computer at work. No one here even knows about all this shit. Ahhh. 

So sad right now.