***July Two Week Wait!!***

SnobunnieMel

Well I'm out. Stark white flat FRER at DPO 12or 13 today. Nothing like looking forward to AF while stuck in a cabin with all my in-laws for a wedding I am dreading all weekend. Insult to injury at its worst 

BornReady

So sorry @SnobunnieMel, this process is such a crappy roller coaster of emotions. Good luck in the cabin...

Spartanrd4

**Lurking**

I am sorry @SnobunnieMel. I hope you can at least enjoy the wedding somewhat, alcohol will help! Big hug.

roxgibbons

@SnobunnieMel I'm sorry about the BFN and the cabin situation. I know how frustrating this process is.  I hope you can relax and have some fun. Take care of yourself- hugs to you. 

Aera11

I'm sorry @SnobunnieMel . I'm 12dpo and haven't tested yet but my temp dropped this morning and I'm having lower back pain, so I think AF is near. I have a wedding Saturday too and am thinking about testing that morning so I can make sure I can have a drink or two. Sending hugs

Taggarab

Sorry about the BFN @SnobunnieMel. Hoping your weekend isn't as bad as you think it will be.

SoonToBeMommaHowe

So sorry @SnobunnieMel. This process is so shitty 

AliciaGoose

*lurker*

@SnobunnieMel Ugh, I'm sorry! I hope you are able to enjoy the wedding and have fun with DH! This process really does suck.

brooklyngirl18

@SnobunnieMel ugh sorry about the bfn, sucks so bad. I hope you can enjoy the wedding.

I tested again this morning somewhere between 12-14 dpo and stark negative. just waiting for af to start this whole merry go round again.

SnobunnieMel

Thanks everyone.

There is no way this wedding will be any type of enjoyable. It's my SIL, who is already married. They got married on their boat last summer when she got knocked up while on BC. And had to be talked into keeping it. This is not even on their 1 year and is a 400 person event for attention. THe even shittier is I know she will be KU within like a week now. She was only waiting to try again util after she could drink at the "wedding". Their family is super fertile and I know she will be announcing before e can probably get any type of progress. His family has tons of drama including his parents recently getting back together. I hate my FIL and we are trapped in the same large sleeping room with them and DHs 3 other older siblings. Just trying to make it through my 15 surgeries today for the 3 hour red eye flight and then 2 hour drive to the middle of no where Wisconsin 

brooklyngirl18

@SnobunnieMel wow that sounds horrendous I'm sorry. I really don't get people...

chloe97

@SnobunnieMel Ugh so sorry!! Where in middle of nowhere Wisconsin? That's where I'm originally from! And yes I agree with @Spartanrd4- alcohol is the best way to handle that sort of crap. And in Wisconsin-pretty much the only thing to do!

SnobunnieMel

@chloe97 it's in holcombe/lady smith area. I hate the idea of drinking right now. I wish it wasn't even able to drink. After 3 losses all my mind can think of is how that isn't even supposed to be an option

cmmiller531

@SnobunnieMel I'm so sorry
i also had a bfn this morning so today is just already gone to hell

rainbowturtles

Hugs @SnobunnieMel just..,all the hugs  

chloe97

Oh dear @SnobunnieMel Ladysmith is pretty much middle of nowhere. Ugh so sorry about the BFN and the trip up there. You are right it is insult to injury. 

rainbowturtles

Sorry @cmmiller531 too

I might cave and test tomorrow but if I don't have any crazy SS today then I'll try to hold off until Sunday. DH has a ten day away trip starting Monday so I'd rather find out when he's here, if possible! (If I said this already, apologies...my brain lately!)

My "totes KU" story for yesterday is: You know this sweet little angel?
well, sometimes she can be a giant B! She and the pug always steal my spot when I get up. Now if I physically try to move Penny when no other dog is around, she seems okay, far as I can tell...she just ragdolls and is no help at all, but doesn't seem too bothered. But for some reason, if Wilbur is close by, she gets very upset and snaps at him, almost as if HE is the one moving her. I really don't understand it (she's a rescue, but the behavior itself doesn't quite make sense to me).

Anyways, this happened at one point last night and she ended up scratching me VERY hard on the chest (above my sore boobs, thank god, but still REALLY hurt) as she tried to give Wilbur crap. I reacted with my usual scruffing of her neck and scolding her, nothing crazy. I made her sit on the floor for a few minutes instead of just curling up on the other side of the love seat. Nothing extreme, right?

But for some reason I started crying uncontrollably like she was going to hate me and because I was sad she'd hurt me and sad I had to get mad at her  Poor DH didn't know what was going on! I just muttered "I'm hormonal" lol But obvs I'm totes KU, right??!! LOL

SoonToBeMommaHowe

Ahhhhh...I just got a call from my OBs office and my progesterone draw (when they finally took it at the right time instead of at cd21) came back at 14.6!! There were no notes from the OB, I just talked to a nurse. But I'm 99% sure a few months ago my OB she said anything over 10 unmedicated means I'm not anovulatory!! For the first time basically ever I'm officially in the TWW 

brooklyngirl18

@SoonToBeMommaHowe yay great news!! good luck!

rainbowturtles

@SoonToBeMommaHowe ooo yay!!! Confirmation must feel SOOOOOOO good!

edited because I was talking like a caveman 

Aera11

So I caved and POAS, talk about impulse. I'm 12dpo and was feeling hopeful until my temp dip today and I just got a BFN.  I see my RE tomorrow morning so I'm hoping to get some answers... This cycle and last I had large enough follicles for a trigger and we BD when the doctor said to, am I missing something?? I know it could take many months of this before I get a positive but the last two times I got KU there was no trigger or specific BD time, just our best judgement. 
I was feeling all zen-like until about 5 minutes ago...ugh

*edited because my bsc self can't type today

chloe97

Yay!! @SoonToBeMommaHowe! That's what my 7 dpo draw was the week I got pregnant!  Very strong!  Also, it's a good sign that you actually ovulated when you thought you did and not earlier.

SoonToBeMommaHowe

Thank you @brooklyngirl18, @rainbowturtles and @chloe97!!! I am so very excited, I was just crossing my fingers that she would give me something near 10 and then when she said over 14 I couldn't believe it! 

@chloe97 way to feed the crazy  The nurse I spoke with asked me if I had taken a test yet and then told me I should since I was on cd40...just reassurance that even she doesn't understand that DPO is more important than CD

Hopefulmommy1980

SnobunnieMel

And the icing on my very difficult TTC day: our flight tonight, DH and I were just about the only people who didn't have 5+ kids with them on the flight. Every. Single. Person. Under the age of 40 had multiple kids. And there were over 12 babies under 6 months. We counted. It wa so bad that even DH was getting upset and hurt by it and he usually keeps his cool about that kind of thing. I have been depressed all day and he could tell I was on the verge of a breakdown. It helped that he showed I wasn't being irrational about it. 

BornReady

I'm sorry about the plane ride. I truly think infertility/loss/trouble TTC is one of the more difficult hurdles in life that until you've lived it, you never understand. And those reminders that not everyone experienced this crap, just suck. Wishing you and DH well this weekend, we're always here for a vent amidst the festivities. Hope that cabin at least has WiFi.

Amdogger82

@SnobunnieMel I'm so sorry for this string of crappy events you are going through. Hugs to you and your DH. Wishing you strength for the weekend. 

Hopefulmommy1980

@snobunniemel. That sucks. I am sort you guys had to go through that

brooklyngirl18

@SnobunnieMel i'm really sorry,  you can't catch a break! I'll be thinking of you and hoping the weekend passes quickly.

AliciaGoose

@SnobunnieMel I am so, so sorry  I'm keeping you and DH in my thoughts this weekend. I hope it passes by quickly and without incident.

Taggarab

Sorry @SnobunnieMel. Such a horrible feeling that I wish all of us were able to avoid. 

Sorry about the BFN @Aera11. Knowing for sure you are out is def the hardest part of the month for me.

roxgibbons

@SnobunnieMel I'm so sorry this weekend is starting out rough. I hope it all works out and everything goes as smooth as possible- if you need us we are here. 

HLD3194

@snobunniemel I feel for you. I am so sorry you're in this situation. It always seems like we get kicked hardest when we're already down. Like others have said we're all here for you.

rainbowturtles

So sorry @SnobunnieMel

I know it's still early and our chances are slim if at all this cycle but damned if that BFN this morning wasn't still more depressing than I expected

jade24422

Congrats to all you with BFPs this month!! How exciting!! I have been off of the boards for a while since our chemical in June. This month, I had an unexpected death in my family that we had to travel for, and missed our window because of logistics, and just not feeling up to it after dealing with what happened to my family member.  It's been a sad month to say the least. I am in my TWW now but know there is nothing this time around. Hoping that next month we will be physically and emotionally ready to try again once things settle down. Next window is early August. Best wishes to all of you ladies!

KyCade3013

Sorry for all the bfns this month guys. Hoping to see more soon. I'm only 7 DPO so in the "still hopeful stage". I'm getting anxiety for testing though, I hate when it lands during the work week and I hate work. 

rainbowturtles

I think I'm 11dpo and my last two temps have been low so pretty sure I'm out for real. And I'm already a bit worried we might miss my next FW, too, but trying to stay positive

CTRMommyof4

CD 14, had a nearly positive OPK the past two days, and a glaringly positive OPK this morning, so I guess I'm in the TWW now. 

rainbowturtles

12dpo, no real symptoms aside from unreasonable bitchiness, which is likely PMS. Also, same low temp as yesterday. I've already bought chocolate and gf mac and cheese in anticipation of AF. 

SnobunnieMel

Still waiting on AF after stopping progesterone. Evil bitch SIL announced she's pregnant today at the after wedding brunch. Currently drinking on the drive to the airport and plan on continuing all flight. Couldn't even make it through her make up wedding without being KU again.