@JDW0325 We have a miniature schnauzer puppy. He's 15 weeks old and full of terrier spunk and stubbornness...lol. It's a good thing he's so cute. I love Aussies, but man! The herding dog energy is too much for me! I'd be exhausted everyday taking care of them. They are awesome dogs, though, for the lucky people who can keep up with them!
@chloe97 Puppies are frustratingly wonderful creatures. He can annoy me no end with his puppy antics (absolutely everything on the ground goes in his mouth!). But the abounding joy he has on seeing me in the evenings just can't be beat. I can't remember the last time I ran full speed at someone I knew and jumped into a hug. Lol. Maybe I should do that more often. Also, congrats on your anniversary!!! Hopefully you have something awesome planned!
I agree having a wonderful, supportive partner is the best and my DH is what I am thankful for this week. Going through two losses together has just made us stronger. And even though what we are going through is sad I have to remind myself that we are lucky that we have eachother. That is more than a lot of people have.
Happy Thursday ladies. Today I am thankful for hope. I am feeling optimistic and hopeful about getting KU this month and about ttcal in general. As usual, I'm also thankful for you ladies and your support and humor through this difficult journey we're all on.
TW*** Child and loss mentioned Married 10/12 DS 11/14 Ectopic 2/16 PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16 IUI x 3- BFN Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos FET- 6/17- BFP! Due Feb 15, 2017
Today, I am most thankful for DH. Seems to be a trend today but he really tried hard to make my birthday special on Tuesday, knowing it would be a hard day. I have reminded myself that I need to get over 'having a baby by this age' and remove that thought from my mind. I know that it is silly, that I have time, etc, but I think for me, that is the hardest part. Feeling that internal clock and having no control.
I am also thankful for the dude at the car dealer who extended my warranty so I wasn't spending $400/per light bulb. Seriously... I wanted to cry thinking about spending $800+ on front lights when we are paying out of pocket for my Gonal F.
Kinda silly, but I'm thankful for the Mexican place we're getting takeout from tonight. So excited!
@Aera11 Happy birthday! It's so easy to get down on yourself when you do 'timekeeping'. I just realized the other day I'd deliver over two years since we decided to try to have a baby if I get KU this cycle (and I've had a smooth ride compared to a lot of ladies, I know). It's kind of mind boggling but I guess we have to try to not let it get to us.
Happy belated birthday @aera11! What did your DH do for your day? I feel the exact same way about the time passing and not being pg by a certain age or event. Its what I struggle with most in all of this. I know its silly and in the long run won't make a difference but its hard to seeing your life keep moving along and not be where you thought you would be especially when you see other people having kids and moving on with their lives.
@lin0442- Im always thankful for food - especially if I don't have to make it, lol. And Im with you that if I get pg the next cycle I am able it will be over 2 years since we started trying that I am due. Really crazy to think about.
Im thankful summer is almost over. This summer has been such a roller coaster I started the summer depressed over ttcal, then I was pg, then very anxious the 3 weeks I was pg, then found out I was going to miscarry now I am still waiting to miscarry naturally. I just want some peace. And I love fall. We are doing our fantasy football draft tmrw and I am getting excited for football season. I also love getting new fall soaps and candles ( haha very exciting life I lead). And I want to plan a fall trip somewhere to get away for a bit. But ultimately I'm hoping fall will be a fresh start.
Happy bday @Aera11 ! Hope you enjoyed- and hope you didn't worry about age/ ttc that much.
I am thankful for travel. Went to visit one of my bff's who moved to Denver recently. I've never been to Colorado and it was awesome. It's great to have a girl trip once in a while. We saw the rockies, chilled in hot springs and saw a concert. Love travel and the perspective it brings. Love coming home to my boys ( DH and puppies) I feel SOO much better now. And guess what?! a friend who was pregnant at the same time as me announced her daughter's birth on fb and i didn't cry my eyes out, bc I was traveling with my friend when I saw it. Now I will go to my therapy appointment and cry about it there. So I guess I'm thankful for therapy as well!
Me:35, DH 37 ~ Married July 2014 ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp) bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease) ttcal May 2016
@TScalei - what an emotional summer, so sorry. I also love fall. Football and hockey are back! Hooray!
I'm feeling thankful today for my OB... 6 months ago tomorrow (in February the 26th was also a Friday), the MMC was discovered at my 13 week appt and my OB was so amazing then and continues to be. Is it weird to miss a doctor? Because I miss her!
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
Thank you @lin0442@TScalei & @KarenBeth714! I have accepted that I can't control my age (I am not even old by fertility standards) but it is what I struggle with from time to time. DH and I have said no gifts, we just don't need anything. And with birthdays, anniversaries, holidays, etc. it gets to be excessive. So he gave me cards and gifts from our fur kids and they were super sweet and thoughtful.
@KarenBeth714 I'm so glad you enjoyed colorado! My brother lives in Aspen and we usually go once a year - I wish I was a skier!
I am thankful for my dh and the few friends I feel like I can talk about my loss and fears with without me feeling guilty. I am thankful for you ladies bc you have helped me not feel so alone or like I am over reacted. You have been very helpful even when all I can do is lurk
This week I'm thankful for a group of ladies I've met in our new town and sadly (but sort of a relief) 3 of the 4 of them have had an MC at some point so they just get it. I feel like they are people I can talk to without advice or suggestions of therapy for wanting to talk about it.
Also thankful that I get to babysit my 2yo nephew all weekend and take him up to my 3yo nieces birthday party. I don't get to see them as often as I'd like so this weekend should be fun.
Thankful that the mornings are start to have the crisp, cool feel to them. Makes me excited to cook, bake, decorate, etc.
Thankful for me handsome and funny DH, who can make me laugh in the midst of this crappy situation.
And very thankful for this great group of ladies. I'm not sure why it took me so long to join (I think I didn't want to admit that I needed a "support group") but I am sooooo glad I did.
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
@soontobemommahowe - I agree the women on this site and that you know in real life who have suffered a loss just seem like a godsend. It just feels so good to have your feelings validated and somebody that gets you. Sometimes I scroll through here literally nodding yes in agreement to everything I am reading. Definitely makes me feel less alone.
Today I am thankful for a more controlled and balanced mental approach to this cycle. I have been going bsc the past few cycles and decided I needed to take a step back and chill, so far so good.
TW*** Child and loss mentioned Married 10/12 DS 11/14 Ectopic 2/16 PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16 IUI x 3- BFN Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos FET- 6/17- BFP! Due Feb 15, 2017
Married 06.21.14 / TTC since 11.15 / BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16 Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky. BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017 DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate. Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017. Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Today I'm thankful for a renewed perspective on life. I'm such a planner, I've always had these well laid out plans for my life..married before 30, two kids by 32, cute house, big yard and winning lots of games as a basketball coach. While I have gotten some of those things I realized that after this failed cycle I won't have any kids at 32, this was my last chance to have a child before my 33rd birthday. I've lived the last three years of my life month to month, hoping and stressing and crying and worrying and peeing on just about everything and you know it hasn't done me any good. The plans I made for myself are shot so I need to sit back, relax, enjoy this life that God gave me and accept that I am not the one in control but there is a plan for me.
Sorry if if that was too deep!
*Im also thankful for homemade cinnamon applesauce
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
@SoonToBeMommaHowe I think that is a great outlook. There is only so much we can control and we are only given one life to live; we might as well make it the best we can.
AFM - Today I am thankful for my wonderful husband and SD, my mom, and a few wonderful friends. I am also thankful that this miscarriage is over and we can move past this.
**TW - Loss & Child mentioned** Me: 40 DH: 47 Married: 10/2015 DSD: 17 BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15 BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15 BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19 BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018 Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
@soontobemommahowe - I think thats a great thing to be thankful for. I am working on the same thing. My second EDD was a few days before my 33rd birthday so after that loss it just threw having a baby at 32 out the window. I feel like I am working on accepting that this is my journey and having my first child just has not been easy for me. Ive been living my life month to month for almost 2 years now and it just sucks. Ive said no to so many things bec I think I will be pg then. Im really trying to just be grateful for what I have and live in the moment. I feel like every day I can do that is progress and Im thankful for that.
Im thankful its the first day of fall - my favorite season! Im getting my fall clothes out this weekend and decorating my house . Im also a sucker for all the limited edition fall foods and treats. Going to try to hunt some pumpkin honey nut cheerios this weekend.
@aera11 - thanks for reviving this thread! I think its great to reflect on the big and little things we are thankful for. Have fun on your few days away!
@SoonToBeMommaHowe and @TScalei My first EDD was 3 weeks after my 37th birthday and with this BFN, I have no chance of an EDD before my 38th bday. My life has never gone as planned. I thought I'd be married by the time I was 30 and I didn't actually meet my husband til 33. The 10 years I spent dating while my friends were getting married and having kids were very hard for me. The years I spent waiting for DH to propose were even harder. And of course, this year of losses has been the hardest of them all. Enjoying the life god has planned for me has been tough to say the least, but you do remind me that it's important.
Today, I'm thankful that my CD 3 numbers looked good for a 37 year old. It gives me hope that 2 kids may still in the cards for us.
Re: {{{Thankful Thursday}}}
@chloe97 Puppies are frustratingly wonderful creatures. He can annoy me no end with his puppy antics (absolutely everything on the ground goes in his mouth!). But the abounding joy he has on seeing me in the evenings just can't be beat. I can't remember the last time I ran full speed at someone I knew and jumped into a hug. Lol. Maybe I should do that more often. Also, congrats on your anniversary!!! Hopefully you have something awesome planned!
I agree having a wonderful, supportive partner is the best and my DH is what I am thankful for this week. Going through two losses together has just made us stronger. And even though what we are going through is sad I have to remind myself that we are lucky that we have eachother. That is more than a lot of people have.
Charlotte, NC
Married 10/12
DS 11/14
Ectopic 2/16
PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
IUI x 3- BFN
Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
FET- 6/17- BFP!
Due Feb 15, 2017
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@Aera11 Happy birthday! It's so easy to get down on yourself when you do 'timekeeping'. I just realized the other day I'd deliver over two years since we decided to try to have a baby if I get KU this cycle (and I've had a smooth ride compared to a lot of ladies, I know). It's kind of mind boggling but I guess we have to try to not let it get to us.
@lin0442- Im always thankful for food - especially if I don't have to make it, lol. And Im with you that if I get pg the next cycle I am able it will be over 2 years since we started trying that I am due. Really crazy to think about.
Im thankful summer is almost over. This summer has been such a roller coaster I started the summer depressed over ttcal, then I was pg, then very anxious the 3 weeks I was pg, then found out I was going to miscarry now I am still waiting to miscarry naturally. I just want some peace. And I love fall. We are doing our fantasy football draft tmrw and I am getting excited for football season. I also love getting new fall soaps and candles ( haha very exciting life I lead). And I want to plan a fall trip somewhere to get away for a bit. But ultimately I'm hoping fall will be a fresh start.
I am thankful for travel. Went to visit one of my bff's who moved to Denver recently. I've never been to Colorado and it was awesome. It's great to have a girl trip once in a while. We saw the rockies, chilled in hot springs and saw a concert. Love travel and the perspective it brings. Love coming home to my boys ( DH and puppies) I feel SOO much better now. And guess what?! a friend who was pregnant at the same time as me announced her daughter's birth on fb and i didn't cry my eyes out, bc I was traveling with my friend when I saw it. Now I will go to my therapy appointment and cry about it there. So I guess I'm thankful for therapy as well!
ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp)
bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease)
ttcal May 2016
I also love fall. Football and hockey are back! Hooray!
I'm feeling thankful today for my OB... 6 months ago tomorrow (in February the 26th was also a Friday), the MMC was discovered at my 13 week appt and my OB was so amazing then and continues to be. Is it weird to miss a doctor? Because I miss her!
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@KarenBeth714 I'm so glad you enjoyed colorado! My brother lives in Aspen and we usually go once a year - I wish I was a skier!
Also thankful that I get to babysit my 2yo nephew all weekend and take him up to my 3yo nieces birthday party. I don't get to see them as often as I'd like so this weekend should be fun.
Thankful that the mornings are start to have the crisp, cool feel to them. Makes me excited to cook, bake, decorate, etc.
Thankful for me handsome and funny DH, who can make me laugh in the midst of this crappy situation.
And very thankful for this great group of ladies. I'm not sure why it took me so long to join (I think I didn't want to admit that I needed a "support group") but I am sooooo glad I did.
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
today I am thankful for...
•the weird calmness I've felt most of this tww. I for sure thought my anxiety/hypochondria would kick in but so far so good
•fall-like weather
•a few days away with DH
Married 10/12
DS 11/14
Ectopic 2/16
PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
IUI x 3- BFN
Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
FET- 6/17- BFP!
Due Feb 15, 2017
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
While I have gotten some of those things I realized that after this failed cycle I won't have any kids at 32, this was my last chance to have a child before my 33rd birthday. I've lived the last three years of my life month to month, hoping and stressing and crying and worrying and peeing on just about everything and you know it hasn't done me any good. The plans I made for myself are shot so I need to sit back, relax, enjoy this life that God gave me and accept that I am not the one in control but there is a plan for me.
Sorry if if that was too deep!
*Im also thankful for homemade cinnamon applesauce
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
AFM - Today I am thankful for my wonderful husband and SD, my mom, and a few wonderful friends. I am also thankful that this miscarriage is over and we can move past this.
Me: 40 DH: 47
Married: 10/2015
DSD: 17
BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15
BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15
BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19
BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018
Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
Im thankful its the first day of fall - my favorite season! Im getting my fall clothes out this weekend and decorating my house . Im also a sucker for all the limited edition fall foods and treats. Going to try to hunt some pumpkin honey nut cheerios this weekend.
Today, I'm thankful that my CD 3 numbers looked good for a 37 year old. It gives me hope that 2 kids may still in the cards for us.