Happy Thursday to you all! I thought we could inject some good energy today and distract us from the difficulties that we are going through otherwise.
So let's have it, what's going good for you today? What are you grateful for? The littlest things count just as much as the big ones.
Today I am grateful for:
~ Blue skies and crisp wind for my morning dog walk.
~ Modern day travel. I am flying to DC tomorrow to see my brother and his family and hopefully some cherry blossoms. I always like to think of what people had to go to to travel back in the day. The fact that I can be somewhere different in an hour and a half instead of sitting in a car for 9 hours is fantastic.
~My husband. He had to do his semen analysis yesterday and took a photo of himself standing with the brown paper bag and a thumbs up outside the hospital. He cracks me up and makes all of these embarrassing / invasive aspects of infertility bearable.
~Audio books. I spend a lot of time in my car and getting to listen to someone tell me a story relaxes me so much more than listening to NPR or other talk radio. I just finished "The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks".
~ You all! You all make me feel less crazy every time I check in here, so thank you!
Re: {{{Thankful Thursday}}}
i am thankful for my husband. He has demonstrated unwavering positivity during all of this and has been strong enough for the both of us when I have been having melt downs
my group of 5 girlfriends I've had since elementary school. They are so loving and always find unique ways to make me smile. They send care packages with cookies and home spa day materials and wine.
Lastly, I am thankful for 5 am fluffy dog snuggles to make me feel better after yet another negative OPK. Just waiting the days tick by waiting on a positive.
Married: 11.12.11
TTC: Nov 2015
BFP #1: 1.22.16 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
D&C: 3.2.16
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.2016
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending 8.15.16
Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid
half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
Today, it's the crappy grocery store salad I doctored into a glorious taco salad with too many black beans and the last jar of my viciously spicy homemade tomato salsa. When I was single, I ate taco salad for practically every meal because I hate cooking for myself. That, and garlic stuffed olives, lightly salted Lays potato chips and Twizzlers. Model vegan.
I'm loving the rainy day we're having.
That my hot pepper plants have germinated! They're so freaking cute.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
@SnobunnieMel How nice to have those friends that you've had since elementary school. I moved around a lot and sadly don't have friends that have been in my life that long. I envy the connection that you seen to have with them.
@reneeannemm I love taco salad! Now I'm sitting here in my office thinking about how good it would be to eat right now. I might have to pick up ingredients tonight to make it for dinner!
Im also thankful that my kitty cat Lexi is feeling better. She wasn't eating for a few days and just when we were about to take her to the vet she started eating more again. Luckily she's really plump so she has a lot of reserve, lol.
I'm trying to stay calm and optimistic which isn't always easy but I've felt really good about TTC this cycle and mentally preparing myself for disappointment if it doesn't go the way I want it to.
Lastly, I'm incredibly greatful for my hubby. He has been at my side during this whole journey from day one. He doesn't always know whatnot say or do to make me feel better and honestly I don't think there is anyone that can is these situations...but he stays by my side and let's me know he's there for me. Plus he's always optimistic about future pregnancies and TTC which I really need sometimes.
Thankful for my DH- even though he doesn't always understand how I am feeling and what I'm going through, he is really trying his best to make me happy and feel better. He is so much more calm and positive than I am and I really need that in a partner. He is just a very patient person to put up with me this past month that I have been struggling.
Thankful for finding this board and all of you! Hopeful that there will be a light at the end of the tunnel for all of us.
@BornReady I love the idea of a pic of your husband with the little baggy! How cute!
New supervisor assignments at work due to people leaving today lands me with my favorite choice as a supervisor! Yay!
It's already Thursday and we're close to the weekend, which is always a positive!
Also, my O date should be today. I’ve turned my OPK positive the past 3 days. I’m excited because if that’s the case, our timing looks good so far and BDing this past week has actually been good and not felt as much like a chore. So I’m optimistic about that.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
I'm also thankful for my husband's patience with my mood swings lately; I go from having a good time to sobbing so quickly and he just hugs me and tries to make it better. My cat is also helpful with that - the dog doesn't seem to care, somehow.
I'm thankful for a job that is understanding when I need to work from home and lets me do what I love.
I'm thankful for a support system of family and friends who are mostly really awesome.
I'm thankful for my doctor's office which is so helpful and easily accessible and supportive.
What a great thread idea - I enjoyed taking a minute to think it through and find all sorts of positives in my life.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
I'm thankful for my DH and fur babies. I don't know where I'd be without them. B
Also my job, my car, my health and my house.
Oh I finally got an appt to see if I'm infertile. It's not until April 18 so probably no answers for at least two months but still hopeful.
~Formerly @dogmomwantinghuman ~
TTC #1 since January 2015
BFP #1: 11/30/15| MC 12/16/15BFP # 2: 6/2/16 | EDD 2/16/17
- cat health - Ellie woke up on Sunday to a scare with one of them - she was shivering, weak walking and not eating. But a few hours later she was ok - still no clue what is up, and still a bit nervous but for now we're ok.
- finances to know that if something was wrong with Ellie we'd be able to handle it
- sleeping in - I don't teach today so I slept in until about 10 and woke up with my "fur alarm" called Ellie. Once she realized I was awake Zoie came to snuggle too.
- nearly the end of the semester here - then a brief break before the next semester starts up
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
@Spartanrd4 I hear you on the health piece. I work in community mental health and it is a daily reminder how hard life can be for people.
Today I am grateful for:
-my boss taking me to PF Changs for lunch. Yum!
-my health and the health of my family.
-feeling good about our choice to join a local church recently. The weekend service always leaves me feeling focused, refreshed and grateful for the next week ahead.
-feeling good about this cycle. I don't even think it will result in a BFP, I just mean more my attitude toward TTC, my acceptance of a likely upcoming BFN & little to no desire to POAS so far this TWW.
DD1 born 5/24/10.
Missed M/C at 14 wks Feb 2012.
DD2 born 5/14/13.
Missed M/C at 9 wks July 2015.
-a wonderful group of kinders this year, they make me love my job!
-my very sweet husband
-my fur baby, even though she woke me up at 3:30 am crying for love
@dogmomwantinghuman Good luck! I hope your appt provides some much needed peace
@reneeannemm & @MooFish2364 Man! I want taco salad too! Wish I could make it for dinner, but my DH is so picky! He just makes nachos and skips all the tasty greens and beans and Pico de gallo that makes taco salad great! I guess more for me
@Spartanrd4 What an amazing and difficult job! Sometimes it can be easy to forget that we are not they only ones with strife in life.
I am grateful for my job! It is full blown Spring down here in Arizona, and there is more work to do than hours in the day! But I wouldn't trade it for anything A constant challenge and I can see how much progress I have made in growing plants better season after season ))
I am grateful for my FIL who has us over for dinner once a week and feeds us awesome food!
I am grateful for being able to start school up again this Fall. Can't wait to start the learning again!
I am grateful for my awesome DH who constantly works on spending time with me and finding things for us to bond over. Recently he has been trying to teach me how to bowl and also helping me in a video that he wants me to get good at
Love all the positivity!
Married to for 3yrs w/5 furbabies
I am grateful for my DH, first and foremost because he balances my crazy with his mellow. And because he loves Grey's Anatomy as much as I do and has watched it with me for 10 years.... and so much more.
I am grateful for our RE who has shown us a path forward when we thought we were done. He is an amazing person and doctor and we are so fortunate to be under his care.
I am grateful that my former college roommate is coming into town this weekend to stay Saturday and Sunday nights with me. We always laugh so, so much.
I am grateful for my adopted hometown. This is my 15th year here and I couldn't love it more, especially in the springtime.
I am grateful that even after I had a bad taste in my mouth from the BMBs I had stalked in the past, I found this board. Y'all are awesome and participating here has been meaningful to me in many ways. Thanks to all of you for giving so much love and support to a bunch of creepy internet stranger friends!
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL! E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
I'm thankful for my pals who all stepped up and helped take care of me during this awful time. Usually I do the care taking and sometimes we get forgotten. In particular, my husband's oldest friend really stepped up. He's emotionally hard to read - because he's shy and young and undeveloped - but he made his presence really evident and took extra special care to be there for both of us.
Thankful that my ten anniversary limited edition of Sufjan Steven's Illinoise came in the mail and it included the special single I very reluctantly didn't order to be financially prudent. Especially thankful it has a weird picture of that weirdo included with the lyrics because extra goodies in records are what it's all about!
Making nachos tonight and I'm thankful I had everything I wanted to put on them (sweet potatoes, pink onions, black olives, yellow peppers, green onions) was already in my pantry and I didn't have to get dressed and go to the store that's literally across the street. Sometimes I'm a bit reclusive.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
Married: 11.12.11
TTC: Nov 2015
BFP #1: 1.22.16 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
D&C: 3.2.16
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.2016
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending 8.15.16
Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid
half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
@reneeannemm I'm looking at you in particular - I'm glad you have people taking care of you too, because you really take care of people and are an amazing listener. I'm going through a really rough patch - emotionally harder than my MC - and Renee has helped me see the start of the path on the way out.
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
I am thankful today is my Friday!!
I am thankful I have a loving and supporting DH who would do literally anything to help me feel better.
i am also thankful for having people that support me today and listen to all of the craziness I feel in my mind.
Married to for 3yrs w/5 furbabies
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
I'm grateful for my boyfriend who helps me when I'm feeling down and doesn't take it to heart when I'm feeling angry because of what happened
I'm grateful for having my own house so I can foster puppies and help find them forever homes because they have come from such awful situations
I'm grateful for my dog who has always put up with the puppies and comforted me when I needed him
I'm grateful for my mother who has tried to support me in her own way after the MC
Mostly I'm grateful that my boyfriend is willing to try again even though we're both nervous
~ Hot tea in the morning
~Having parents who I actually like as people and enjoy spending time with.
~My education: It has given me choices and flexibility in my work life.
~ Sunny days and the hope that spring might show up eventually
I am grateful for my job and the stability I have here. It will be 9 years this summer that I have been here and of course our office has its issues, but I have great benefits, fun work friends and I enjoy what I do.
I am also grateful that it has not been hot and humid here in SE Georgia yet. We are actually enjoying very spring-like weather. Cool evenings, warm days, sunny, breezy - just lovely.
Lastly, I am so excited to be going to see Pearl Jam this weekend with friends!
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL! E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
I'm grateful that
- I'm going for pedicures with a friend today - new place - hopefully it is a good one
- I've got a lovely GP and her staff is amazing.
- we might go to a concert next week because I'm not pregnant and therefore it isn't an issue if there is smoke etc.
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
I am thankful for my work friends who always keep me laughing throughout the day.
Thankful that it's Friday-eve, I have a fun and busy weekend ahead!
I am thankful and grateful for my husband, the most amazing and supportive partner in life. He always has the right words for my crazy ups and downs!
Lastly im thankful that it's my fertile week and have been getting flashing smiles on my clear blue OPKs for the last few days. Praying for ovulation soon
I am grateful for my DH who is joining me in getting our lives more baby-ready and is really stepping up.
I am grateful for the beautiful sunny and Spring-like weather we finally have today (after snow yesterday).
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
I'm a nanny so it was so nice to be able to get out for a walk with the little girl I watch. Extra bonus that I was able to walk to Starbucks
I'm especially thankful today because it's my DH's birthday! I'm so happy that he was born.
I'm thankful that we have a low key weekend since the past few have been so crazy.
Lastly I'm thankful new content was released this week on the video game that my DH and I play together. (Nerds )
1) the ability to breathe 100% unrestricted breaths through my nose again. I never appreciate that ability until I'm struggling with eating and suffocation from not being able to breathe while doing so
2) this beautiful sunny weather we have had the last two days! Our recent dumps of snow were starting to bring me down. It feels so great watching that snow melt away!
3) the incredible timing of the call from the gyno office that I was referred to last month. I was told it would be a 3-4 month wait, which I was shocked by as I was expecting a 6 month wait. Then today I got a call from them! They wanted to get me in to see the dr either tomorrow or next week, but unfortunately due to the nature of my job it's not really enough warning to cancel clients. Plus it's out of town so I'd need to cancel an entire day. Anyways, I have an appointment booked for June, which I'm actually okay with. The timing of this call was what I needed to pick myself back up. I started spiralling into the dark thoughts again of "why can't we get pregnant, what's wrong with me, will it ever happen,etc etc etc). Having the appointment booked gives me hope and I feel good about forward movements.
Edit: clarification
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
*the last 48 hours have been rough, the only grandparent I ever really had a relationship with had a small stroke and we are currently waiting for her to pass. She is 96 and lived a great, healthy life. So today, I am thankful for her. Without her life, mine never would have been possible.
*I am thankful for the 70 degree day we had and the promise of another tomorrow.
*my appointment today with my awesome RE who said I am officially off the bench, woohoo!
*and my DH, for letting me sugar load on this bizarrely happy/sad day
enjoy your sugar!
I am thankful that my first AF after loss was easy after one night of bad cramps. I expected a lot worse, but it was short and not too bad.
I am thankful that we have a lovely doggie daycare that our pup loves and that we are able to send him once a week.
I am thankful for DH who is willing to do things that make me happy even when he has no interest (ex: going to see a play tonight).
I am grateful that I have an acupuncture appointment today so that I can try and calm/ground myself a little bit more ahead of whatever the news is tomorrow.
I am grateful for these boards that have provided comfort and a sympathetic ear when it's so hard to find people IRL who can really relate to these challenges.
I am grateful that my DH has been such a support and an amazing partner through all of the BS. I may not be lucky with fertility, but I am lucky in love.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL! E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
Married: 11.12.11
TTC: Nov 2015
BFP #1: 1.22.16 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
D&C: 3.2.16
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.2016
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending 8.15.16
Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid
half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
I'm also thankful I get to get my hair done next week! I've been waiting since January! I know it will be a very welcome pick me up.
The weather this week has been gorgeous! I'm also grateful for fun and laughter with people I love last weekend. I needed that so badly.
Today, I am grateful for my DH. We have been together more than half our lives and even though we have downs we know just how to bring each other back up again.
DD1 born 5/24/10.
Missed M/C at 14 wks Feb 2012.
DD2 born 5/14/13.
Missed M/C at 9 wks July 2015.
I'm thankful it's almost the weekend.
Thankful for my sweetie pie because he's so cute and wonderful and always pushing forward with me, focused on never being stagnant and always being better for each other and everyone around us.
Thankful this tww will be over in around 5 days - one way or the other is better than waiting.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!