Friday night after work with a toddler in tow, I went to the grocery store because I NEEDED to make a snack my late grandfather used to make (pumpernickel bread, cream cheese, sliced green olives as an open-faced sandwich)
I couldn't find the pumpernickel bread. After scanning the shelves a few times, I really started to panic. My DD was so cute and said "maybe it's in another aisle" (she's 3). Going from being upset to her being so cute was a little much in the moment. I didn't cry but I was definitely a little watery for a minute. Then I found the damn bread and lived happily ever after.
I just bit into an apple and it was all mealy. I instantly teared up and my poor husband was so bewildered and finally asked if I was crying about the apple which made me cry more.
I just bit into an apple and it was all mealy. I instantly teared up and my poor husband was so bewildered and finally asked if I was crying about the apple which made me cry more.
Wah-wah.
I totally cried over an apple last week. But it was because I didn't want to waste an apple of it didn't sit well. I told DH it was a waste of food and I just wanted it to taste good but I didn't know if it would.
Got home tonight only to realize I forgot to stop and get cat food, had to go right back out - the poor cashier must of thought I was crazy crying through the store buying cat food.
I just had a big ugly crying moment because DH was cleaning the fridge and throw away tonigh's left over. The first meal I was able to cook/eat in days.... I can't blame him, so much really old leftovers in the fridge he didn't check...
Last night I went to the store to get cantaloupe. I wanted it all day. Seriously the only thing I have wanted to eat and as I got out of the car with the bag the cantaloupe container spilt all over the driveway. I sob/laughed for a full 20 min to my husband. I feel crazy.
@mandyjulie I just finished that last weekend!!! I was SO MAD at the cliffhanger, I wanted to cry! NOT COOL NETFLIX. But I loved the show, hope they don't wait too long on season 2!!!!
Married 6/1/13
BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
@crixiegirl nitrates are okay! I asked two different OBs and they say its okay in moderation. Obviously don't eat a pound of bacon a day.... but that sounds really good right now.
The "Christmas Shoes" song came on the radio. I actually really dislike this song because the guy's voice bothers me SO MUCH. The irritation of the guy's voice on top of thinking about a child buying his dying mother shoes to meet Jesus... cue ugly cry.
Um, my most comfiest pajama pants tore at the knee today. All of the material is so threadbare I doubt I could salvage it. I was so looking forward to many more lazy PJ moments throughout this pregnancy (seriously, they're super comfy). They got me through high school. And college. And almost five years of marriage. I'm just not ready to say goodbye!!!!
Because my husband finished the laundry to the point that I had to fold clothes before sleeping after working 13 hours overnight.. And I just can't sleep when there's a to do list hanging over me...
Because I just went to pick up my Diclegis Rx from the pharmacy and it came to $130 because of my deductible. I wasn't crying because of the money, I was crying because in 3 weeks we'll be switching to a no deductible plan and I got mad at myself for not being able to hold out being sick until then. Spent a good 5 minutes crying in the parking lot. Ha ha!
Anybody else see that Coat of Many Colors Dolly Parton movie on TV last night? Cue ugly crying. Mama Loses a baby due to preterm labor. My husband is completely bewildered by all my crying lately- fortunately he's being a good sport and usually makes me laugh by the end of my crying spell
DH jokingly said my gas was so bad we couldn't have sex. I immediately felt like a fat disgusting slob and went to bed and sobbed. He spent the next 20 minutes apologizing and explaining that he thought we were both joking around.
I tried to read this Humans of New York post and President Obama's comment to DH and started sobbing I couldn't finish it.
me 30; DH 35 TTC since May 2014. Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d. Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1). AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW. Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Short LP (8 days). Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
@chanfa ...doc didn't mention anything about them (probably because I didn't ask!) Although we typically eat no nitrate/no added nitrates foods anyway but good to know!! I got the sandwich the next day and it was glorious!
https://good.barkpost.com/dog-life-illustration/ all the tears... all the feels... sobbing into the tepid bathwater since it's not supposed to be hot. Now going to play with and cuddle my dog, who's been overly needy and protective because she doesn't understand what's going on with me lately.
crying because I finally woke up and had energy...so I baked banana bread...and grabbed the salt instead of the sugar I feel like I was way smarter before getting pregant. Now my house smells like amazing banana bread and we can't eat any.
I went to a Winter Pageant that an acquaintance was putting on. One of the little girl contestants (age 3-5) was seeing the sweetest little Christmas song and cue the tears.
Today is the anniversary of Sandy Hook. I just. I can't. It's so awful.
I simply can't fathom what those parents have been through.
I was pregnant and less than a month from giving birth when this happened, so my hormones were raging then, too. I can't let myself think about it for too long or I'll totally lose it.
Technically, I didn't cry but my heart was definitely shedding some tears.
With my first pregnancy, my husband and I were totally shocked but we were happy. I think he was just uncomfortable with the changes and wasn't sure what he was supposed to do as far as the pregnancy. He hardly touched my belly and when our son was born, he was very scared of how tiny he was and had very little confidence in himself. Fast forward 4.5 years and he is an amazing, hands-on dad.
With this pregnancy, we were trying to get pregnant but I still thought he might be a little standoffish about touching the belly, etc. Last night while we were lying in bed and watching TV, he randomly pats my lower belly and says, "I love you." And I sort of looked over and said, "I love you, too." To which he says, "I wasn't talking to you this time.." He then proceeded to lightly scratch my belly with one finger until he fell asleep with his hand there.
https://good.barkpost.com/dog-life-illustration/
all the tears... all the feels... sobbing into the tepid bathwater since it's not supposed to be hot. Now going to play with and cuddle my dog, who's been overly needy and protective because she doesn't understand what's going on with me lately.
Clicking that link was the worst mistake I've made today...
Sobbing at my desk- what else is new- because I got my paperwork from HR for maternity leave. 2 weeks I'm required to use my PTO (aka every moment I'll accrue between now and then so I can't visit anyone for the rest of the year or after baby is born), 2 weeks paid (fuck you that's NOT generous), 4 weeks at 60% salary, 4 more weeks disability at 60% salary for a grand total of 12 patchwork weeks of financial burden and stress about coming back. The forms literally require the doctor to detail my "condition" WHAT CONDITION?! You mean family fucking values- that "condition"? The one we all value so goddamn highly in front of the masses but can't be bothered to even remotely put into practice? And I'm supposed to be grateful?! As the only industrialized nation with NO paid maternity leave, I'm ASHAMED not grateful! And to the bitch in HR who tried to tell me this is "better than most" well 'most' are failing miserably then, but our company is still failing pretty badly! If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention!
Sorry it's a hysterical ranting crying kind of day apparently...
Sobbing at my desk- what else is new- because I got my paperwork from HR for maternity leave. 2 weeks I'm required to use my PTO (aka every moment I'll accrue between now and then so I can't visit anyone for the rest of the year or after baby is born), 2 weeks paid (fuck you that's NOT generous), 4 weeks at 60% salary, 4 more weeks disability at 60% salary for a grand total of 12 patchwork weeks of financial burden and stress about coming back. The forms literally require the doctor to detail my "condition" WHAT CONDITION?! You mean family fucking values- that "condition"? The one we all value so goddamn highly in front of the masses but can't be bothered to even remotely put into practice? And I'm supposed to be grateful?! As the only industrialized nation with NO paid maternity leave, I'm ASHAMED not grateful! And to the bitch in HR who tried to tell me this is "better than most" well 'most' are failing miserably then, but our company is still failing pretty badly! If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention!
Sorry it's a hysterical ranting crying kind of day apparently...
If it makes you feel any better I don't get any support for work and have to use short term Disability for 60% pay the whole time. But I'm sorry they are forcing you to use pto that is so incredibly dumb!
Sobbing at my desk- what else is new- because I got my paperwork from HR for maternity leave. 2 weeks I'm required to use my PTO (aka every moment I'll accrue between now and then so I can't visit anyone for the rest of the year or after baby is born), 2 weeks paid (fuck you that's NOT generous), 4 weeks at 60% salary, 4 more weeks disability at 60% salary for a grand total of 12 patchwork weeks of financial burden and stress about coming back. The forms literally require the doctor to detail my "condition" WHAT CONDITION?! You mean family fucking values- that "condition"? The one we all value so goddamn highly in front of the masses but can't be bothered to even remotely put into practice? And I'm supposed to be grateful?! As the only industrialized nation with NO paid maternity leave, I'm ASHAMED not grateful! And to the bitch in HR who tried to tell me this is "better than most" well 'most' are failing miserably then, but our company is still failing pretty badly! If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention!
Sorry it's a hysterical ranting crying kind of day apparently...
If it makes you feel any better I don't get any support for work and have to use short term Disability for 60% pay the whole time. But I'm sorry they are forcing you to use pto that is so incredibly dumb!
That's terrible! That just makes me want to cry more. I'm so sorry your work has a terrible policy too- it's seems most places do. All women and men deserve family leave of at least 3 months paid 100% with guaranteed health care coverage throughout! It's working in all other industrialized nations and even includes small businesses! We all deserve better and our babies do too.
me 30; DH 35 TTC since May 2014. Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d. Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1). AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW. Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Short LP (8 days). Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
After a terrible, emotional, 3 day weekend and 16 hours in a car with hubs entire family: His dad was driving, and he had been a jerk to everyone all weekend. I already dislike him because he has cheated on my DH mom more than once. Sitting in the back of this van, trying not to puke, or scream from his terrible driving (we had to ask him multiple times to watch the road/don't swerve/don't read notes/don't stop in the middle of the road), I look up right into a dogs eyes as he runs it over. I sob cried for the next two hours. I'm also a vegetarian, and a dog owner, this was just the perfect end to a perfectly shit trip. Never again! I know it wasn't technically his fault (we were on highway) but somehow this concluded for me that yes, he is definitely evil and our baby will never be left alone with him.
Sobbing at work mostly because of pain. I think I have a bladder infection and I'm seriously ready to fall over. It makes it worse that my manager tried to keep me for my shift, even after I spoke to my OB and they told me to go and rest. I'm leaving but it still hurts and I'm annoyed.
Re: #whymypregnantselfiscrying
I couldn't find the pumpernickel bread. After scanning the shelves a few times, I really started to panic. My DD was so cute and said "maybe it's in another aisle" (she's 3). Going from being upset to her being so cute was a little much in the moment. I didn't cry but I was definitely a little watery for a minute. Then I found the damn bread and lived happily ever after.
Wah-wah.
I feel crazy.
https://youtu.be/3_uOR8wwN2I
BFP #1 11/06/15 - EDD 7/14/16 - MMC 12/14/15 - D&C 12/22/15
BFP #2 03/13/16 - EDD 11/26/16
I don't think he'll ever do that again
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
all the tears... all the feels... sobbing into the tepid bathwater since it's not supposed to be hot. Now going to play with and cuddle my dog, who's been overly needy and protective because she doesn't understand what's going on with me lately.
YYCMama
Married November 2011
TTC since June 2012
2014 Diagnosed with Complete Uterine Septum
October 28, 2015 BFP!!!
[url=http://www.thebump.com/?utm_source=ticker&utm_medium=UBB&utm_campaign=tickers][img]http://global.thebump.com/tickers/tt1cd25d[/img][/url]
July BMB May Signature Challenge
Cried because I saw dead raccoon in the road and thought about his family he left behind---WTF!
https://www.buzzfeed.com/craigsilverman/people-in-toronto-created-a-memorial-to-a-dead-raccoon-after#.nnZwXqZ0G
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards: