After 4 months of no coffee, I treated myself to a pumpkin spice misto this morning. It's half steamed milk (which I've also been trying to avoid dairy) and half decaf coffee with pumpkin syrup. It tastes so good!
I emailed my IVF nurse last night with a list of questions. I hope she doesn't think I'm nuts. I'm supposed to start stims 10/25 and estimated ER is 11/3 - 11/10. I'm going on vacation 11/25 - 12/2. Hopefully, I'll know if I'm pregnant before I leave.
I'm preparing myself for possible setbacks. If it doesn't work out this first cycle than I can have drinks on vacation.
Thank you ladies for the welcome wishes. I feel good, just planning to rest up the next two days. The PIO shots are the worst, but pushing through and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
Boo, got a call from my nurse. 11 eggs retrieved, 8 matures, 7 fertilized. I'm OK with these numbers (assuming one of those become a BFP in the future), but the big bummer was that they said there really wasn't any sperm left over to freeze. We purposely chose a sperm retrieval process that was supposed to yield us a decent amount of sperm to freeze for later so this would be a one-time procedure. Still trying to get a hold of the doctors to figure out what went wrong...
***pregnancy mentioned***
Me: 27/ DH: 29
Dx: obstructive azoospermia
IVF#1: October 2015
10/7/2015: ER 11 retrieved, 8 mature, 7 fertilized w/ ICSI
10/12/2015: Transferred 5AA and 4AA blasts, froze one 4AA and 4BB
@HBamama2B Is there anything you don't know... I swear I've learned more on this blog than I have reading and searching online.
@MissK501 WELCOME and WHOO HOO on your transfer. Sticky baby Dust to you!!
LCK0830 Yes, tomorrow is my ER. I was hoping it would be tomorrow because Saturday is my anniversay and I would like to go out on the town with my hubby and not be all tired and exhausted from a procedure.
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned*** ME: 34/DH: 33 TTC (On & Off) Since 2008 Diagnosed DOR August 2013 2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC 10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks 7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining 08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13 ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal. 10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd! 12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
@ShayLatrice lol. I'm a researcher which is a nice way of saying I managed to turn being a knowitall into a profitable career. I'm keeping my FX for you tomorrow!!
Welcome @MissK501 ! Congrats on the transfer and officially being PUPO with us! so excited for you!
@caitiemae congrats on the lovely embies! I will pray they grow grow grow over the next few days. I'm very sorry to hear about the setback with freezing sperm. I know that procedure it's very taxing, I hope your RE/urologist have a very good explanation! I'll keep my FX that you get a BFP this cycle and several to freeze so your DH will not need to go through that again.
@Rachd110 ask away! The more prepared you are the less likely you are to be crazy pants later. My guess is the nurses know this and email is easier for them then call after call!
@mclorn it's your bday soon??? Dude, blow out so many candles and make the best bday wish ever!
I've had pinching pain/cramps in my lower abdomen all morning. It feels like AF is trying to punch through the PIO hormonal wall. Love is a battlefield ladies!
@caitiemae your poor DH, I can't even imagine what he's going through! 7 fertilized is GREAT though, so let's hope those all continue to grow and you'll have those to transfer AND freeze!
I believe we started to talk about symptoms yesterday and then I interrupted with my meltdown. It's tough to figure out what are side effects from medication and what's possible implantation. I had bursts of cramps yesterday that were in the lower middle portion of my abdomen and on the side (so, basically cramps everywhere), oily skin, increased CM, and mood swings like whoa. Anyone else?
@LCK0830 hahaha mine must be saying hi AND punching me then! @HBamama2B AF symptoms are so emotionally taxing, as for the past 18 months they were a sure indicator of a major disappointment... BUT we got this! We are going to start off with BFPs so everyone can follow!!
I woke up and poas again this morning- still negative:( today is 8dp5dt. Nooooo!!! I'll try again tomorrow. Good luck tomorrow to all the ladies with betas!!! I can't believe you guys didn't test early! That's amazing!!!
Maybe you breathed in some of their pregnancy juju!
Speaking of mood swings, my coworker kept complaining about his sore throat today. I wanted to tell him to get his sh*t together - that he'd be fine. I (and all of us) get an injection in my butt every night with a three inch needle. He'll survive a sore throat. Instead, I politely smiled and offered him Tylenol.
For all of my girls out there that tomorrow is Beta day, I am going to say EXTRA prayers tonight for all of us. I am so tempted to test tomorrow but i figured i've come this far let's just do this. I had my ipod playing and my wedding song came on, people are so lucky i'm at work oh i got so choked up and was holding back the tears. I just want this to work so badly, I just want to make dh a daddy so bad it kills me. He would be such a good one. Sorry emotions got the best of me right now.
TC Since 2006
Me: 33
Dx: Hydrosalpinx
DH: 34
Dx: Perfect
IUI #1-4 = BFN
BCP Started 2/23/2014, Tubal ligation surgery 3/5/2014
1 Polyp removed, Tubes are bye bye.
IVF #1 - Gonal-F, Menopur, Cetrotide, Lupron, ER 4/14, Freeze All, OHSS 31R, 28M, 21 fertilized!
FET#1 - 06/26/14 transferred 5 day blasts 2- 1 4AA and 1 3BB lining at 12 (PIO shots, Progesterone and Estradiol) Beta 7/10/14 14dp5dt = BFFN
FET#2- 9/25 Transfer day 3, 2- 10 cell Lining at 12
10/2/15 - Progesterone Check 30
10/9/15 - 14dp3dt BFN 4/27/16 - Mock transfer protocol- Vit C, Vit D, DHEA, Prenatal, Lovenox, Estradiol, PIO FET #3 - 5/18/16 -
Hi! I was reading all your posts for the last days! I had a 5d transfer on monday- so its 4dp5 and i am so anxious! Its my second ivf. First was bfn so mew cycle now with new embies. I jad a fresh transfer this time. I don't have any symptoms and tell myself its megativ again! Its so long to wait until 15/10 for my beta and i feel it didnt work i guess to protect me Wish all the ladies good luck for betas tomorrow
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned*** ME: 34/DH: 33 TTC (On & Off) Since 2008 Diagnosed DOR August 2013 2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC 10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks 7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining 08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13 ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal. 10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd! 12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
@lizg19 sometimes it's better just to let it out. I want to live in a cave and not come out until I'm absolutely certain I'm pregnant. Sorry you are having a tough moment. Hang in there!!!
Hi girls! Sorry I've been MIA for a few days. Today was a really rough day for me too. We found out that out of our 9 remaining embryos, only 1 made it to freeze. I was so upset. I wasn't so disappointed in the number but am just worried now that there is something wrong with the blastocyst we transferred. The one we transferred was the highest quality, but I know they say just because a blastocyst is pretty, it doesn't mean it's normal. I found all this out at work and then had to go babysit my 3 month old nephew who I love to death. Needless to say I broke down crying as soon as I got to my sister-in-laws house. Thankfully she has been really supportive through all of this. I just couldn't keep it in any longer.
@lizg19 and @runmeg91 I'm so sorry for your struggles today. It's 100% ok to be emotional during what is such a physically, mentally, and emotionally taxing process. I feel for both of you and hope that tomorrow begins with some exciting positive to help lift your spirits. You are stronger than you know and strongest when you recognize, and allow yourself to feel, those really difficult moments. Hugs.
@Christiniv welcome! And please don't worry. I was 100% positive it didn't work until 7dp5dt. Now I know. I still feel like it will be a no, but like you I think that's me trying to prepare for disappointment and limit my hurt. Eyes a really great Buddhist concept for this called 'second arrow'. In short it means that by anticipating pain, you cause yourself pain twice unnecessarily. I try to remember that, lol, but clearly easier said than done! GL on your cycle and I hope time flies till your beta day!
@lizg19 and @runmeg91, seems like today was a tough day for a lot of us. This process is so unlike anything I've every gone through in my life and I didn't really understand just how overall draining it would be. I feel like throwing my hands up sometimes and just saying I QUIT! Nothing in my life has come easy, I feel like I've had to fight and claw to just accomplish anything, especially since I grew up in the hood... so I always wonder why this ONE thing couldn't be easy for me. Somewhere within all the disappointment and sadness we continue to find strength and hope...and I'm proud to be apart of this strong group of women.
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned*** ME: 34/DH: 33 TTC (On & Off) Since 2008 Diagnosed DOR August 2013 2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC 10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks 7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining 08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13 ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal. 10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd! 12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
@runmeg91 I know exactly what you're going through. The same thing happened to me this week. I too am worried what this means for my eggs in general and the blast that was transferred. However, as the ladies here explained, embryos are inherently weak and often don't thrive in the lab environment (which means they're more likely to survive in your body). After more research and reading feedback I got here, it's not likely an egg quality issue. If there was an issue with quality you wouldn't have the strong one that made it to the freezing stage. Trust me, I know how disappointing it is; I spent the whole day crying. Just remember you have a team of professionals working with you to get you pregnant. It will happen. You're on a down swing in this rollercoaster of a journey but you will come back up.
HBamama2B Hey the cramping is normal love It feels like AF X( for sure but it isn't. Its the uterus expanding
We go for our ultrasound tomorrow and I have been keeping track of everyone, during our 2nd 2ww for this ultrasound. GL girls on the beta's tomorrow and the ladies for ER tomorrow GL FX!!!
***Pregnancy Mentioned***
1st IVF and Only....
Me:30 DH:29 3/4 ( littles will be a great 30th prez)
PCO w/o symptoms/DH crooked swimmers
Lupron CD21 Aug 18
AF Aug 25
Stim Aug 28-follistim started at 150u
E2 Aug 31- 345- dropped dosage 100u
US/BW Sept 1- 16 eggies E2 695-dropped dosage 75u
BW Sept 2 E2 791 bounced up to 91.6u
BW/US Sept 3 E2 1095 dropped back to 83u 20+ eggies 12mm-14mm range
BW/US Sept 4 E2 2050 same dose @83u 20+ eggies 14mm- 16mm range
EGG Retrieval Day sept 8th 24 eggs 12 embies
EMBRYO Transfer Day 6 Embies
2 embies 8c grade 1 and 2 transfered with Assited Hatching due to Zona Factor
Bravo @LCK0830 . Your post just blew me away. I'm tearing up to see such bravery, strength, and support. That just set the bar for how I want to manage this process. To take your experience and use it to help another in such a positive way left me deeply touched. So grateful to have you ladies share such incredible spirit. Proud to be a part of this group!!!
@Knottie24173360 hello! Welcome back, you've been missed! What an exciting moment for you. Keep us updated on how it goes and how lovely it feels. So happy for you! 8->
Thank you for the positive outlook! DH keeps saying it's the baby getting space (it's funny only Bc I'm a fanatic about having more space around me than is strictly necessary. We will see tomorrow! Praying for a only miracle!
@Rachd110 glad you indulged on your latte treat! Definitely a good idea to email your nurse questions. Dinner with friends on Saturday for my bday but purposely didn't plan anything else because I am not sure what kind of mood I will be in!!
@LCK0830 way to keep your cool, girl!
@Isabelfuentes2015 I am amazed at how many pregnant women I see everyday....
@dreambig1021 ugh yes so many emotions!
@cristiniblu best of luck and stay strong!
@runmeg91 so sorry for just your one frozen.... But remember that it is not uncommon to have nothing to freeze.... And the one you have is mighty!!
@Isabelfuentes2015 a cave does sound nice..... We could just all go hibernate for winter....
HBamama2B totally been lurking for the last week or so lol...Trying to remain distracted.... and reading about everyone and the newest members of our group has done just that. I will keep you guys posted!!!
@ShayLatrice that was beautiful.... You are so strong and powerful.
@HBamama2B second arrow - this is why testing early is no good!
@LCK0830 also beautifully said! So lucky to have all of these wise and sympathetic women! You are INSPIRING.
@Knottie24173360 best of luck and thank you!
Thanks @HBamama2B ! You ladies have helped me out tremendously throughout the course of this process but especially yesterday. I wanted to pay it forward.
Hey guys! Finally settling down this evening and checking in. A big day for a few on here. Keep me posted! My transfer is at 2:00 PM tomorrow. We will transfer 2. So nervous and excited all in one. How much rest am I supposed to be doing afterwards. Doc says to just relax at home... Is that feet up rest??? I really wish I could sleep on my stomach because the PIO is evil! I feel like I worked out my butt muscles for 3 days in a row.... but of course I didn't.... because I'm too tired to do anything. Thinking of you all!
@Joyzie77 haha I don't know if it's placebo but I am so lazy!! Enjoy tomorrow!! Take pictures and embrace the experience!! It's truly magical. Just be a bum all weekend! You can definitely putz around a bit, but keep it nice and mellow!!!!
My doctor told me not to lift anything heavier than 25lbs (in my mind that included dishes and laundry) and to be lazy for the day. I did take a short walk with my dog and DH but other than that I took advantage of doctor's orders to be a couch potato.
@HBamama2B that's very wise and a great way of thinking! I will try to remember that. Easier said than done! Any other tips for the 2 ww? How did yours go so far? Whyvwere you sure until 7dp5d? What happened after? I am not ready to jave another bfn!
Re: September / October IVF
Happy early birthday, @mclorn!
After 4 months of no coffee, I treated myself to a pumpkin spice misto this morning. It's half steamed milk (which I've also been trying to avoid dairy) and half decaf coffee with pumpkin syrup. It tastes so good!
I emailed my IVF nurse last night with a list of questions. I hope she doesn't think I'm nuts. I'm supposed to start stims 10/25 and estimated ER is 11/3 - 11/10. I'm going on vacation 11/25 - 12/2. Hopefully, I'll know if I'm pregnant before I leave.
I'm preparing myself for possible setbacks. If it doesn't work out this first cycle than I can have drinks on vacation.
I read this great blog yesterday about IVF expectations.
https://withgreatexpectation.com/infertility/ivf-tips-things-wish-id-known/
I feel good, just planning to rest up the next two days.
The PIO shots are the worst, but pushing through and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
Welcome @MissK501 ! Congrats on the transfer and officially being PUPO with us!
@caitiemae congrats on the lovely embies! I will pray they grow grow grow over the next few days. I'm very sorry to hear about the setback with freezing sperm. I know that procedure it's very taxing, I hope your RE/urologist have a very good explanation! I'll keep my FX that you get a BFP this cycle and several to freeze so your DH will not need to go through that again.
@Rachd110 ask away! The more prepared you are the less likely you are to be crazy pants later. My guess is the nurses know this and email is easier for them then call after call!
@mclorn it's your bday soon??? Dude, blow out so many candles and make the best bday wish ever!
I've had pinching pain/cramps in my lower abdomen all morning. It feels like AF is trying to punch through the PIO hormonal wall. Love is a battlefield ladies!
Good luck tomorrow to all the ladies with betas!!! I can't believe you guys didn't test early! That's amazing!!!
Speaking of mood swings, my coworker kept complaining about his sore throat today. I wanted to tell him to get his sh*t together - that he'd be fine. I (and all of us) get an injection in my butt every night with a three inch needle. He'll survive a sore throat. Instead, I politely smiled and offered him Tylenol.
Yes, pregnancy is everywhere and it is most likely contagious!
Mixed emotions
31R, 28M, 21 fertilized!
Beta 7/10/14 14dp5dt = BFFN
4/27/16 - Mock transfer protocol- Vit C, Vit D, DHEA, Prenatal, Lovenox, Estradiol, PIO
FET #3 - 5/18/16 -
I don't have any symptoms and tell myself its megativ again!
Its so long to wait until 15/10 for my beta and i feel it didnt work i guess to protect me
Wish all the ladies good luck for betas tomorrow
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
Walk out of Panera
dh is packing our food
Waiting in my car
31R, 28M, 21 fertilized!
Beta 7/10/14 14dp5dt = BFFN
4/27/16 - Mock transfer protocol- Vit C, Vit D, DHEA, Prenatal, Lovenox, Estradiol, PIO
FET #3 - 5/18/16 -
Sorry you are having a tough moment. Hang in there!!!
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
Thank you for the positive outlook! DH keeps saying it's the baby getting space (it's funny only Bc I'm a fanatic about having more space around me than is strictly necessary. We will see tomorrow! Praying for a only miracle!