I sometimes will have a drink on the bedside table, and I don't always finish it. Then if I wake up in the MOTN or early morning, I'll finish it because I don't want to be wasteful. Nothing like victory golden monkey at five in the morning.
I'm a sometimes-poster under a different name. We filed for bankruptcy yesterday. I am relieved and ashamed at the same time. We will be surrendering our house in the process. I am ready for a fresh start. It was a combination of factors (high-risk pregnancies and extended maternity leaves, MH's job instability, college, 40% depreciation in our home value) that lead to this point but I'll admit overspending was a big part of it too. This will wipe out our credit card bills and medical bills so we can actually start saving money for the first time ever.
I'm a sometimes-poster under a different name. We filed for bankruptcy yesterday. I am relieved and ashamed at the same time. We will be surrendering our house in the process. I am ready for a fresh start. It was a combination of factors (high-risk pregnancies and extended maternity leaves, MH's job instability, college, 40% depreciation in our home value) that lead to this point but I'll admit overspending was a big part of it too. This will wipe out our credit card bills and medical bills so we can actually start saving money for the first time ever.
You should not feel ashamed at all. We've all been there. Do you know how many people in just the last 5 years have had to do this? A LOT.
Look at it as a fresh start. No sense in feeling bad about it.
Oh, and last night dh was watching the game and I was tired. I hinted he'd get sex if he came to bed with me, then I asked him detailed questions about his patients and the tests he did and day until he fell asleep.
This morning he apologized for falling asleep before sex.
I knew he'd fall asleep if I got him talking. I didn't really want sex, I just wanted his warmth next to me so I could sleep nice and toasty warm.
@IamInigoMontoya, I sometimes say "leave it" or "no" to DS in the same tone I would use with the dog. DH usually calls me on it and says that I should talk nicer to him, but it's hard when you're in the moment and you just want to tell him something quickly.
We're taking DD to Boo at the Zoo tomorrow. She's wearing a homemade costume of her favorite character - Bean from the Super Sproutlet Show.
But it'll be cold and she'll have to wear her coat, which will cover up most of the costume. I'm all bummed because no one will see her cute costume. Priorities. I need them.
I have 3 bags of Reece's Pumpkins (they were buy 2 get 1 free) and I haven't told MH that we have them in the house I'm tempted to hoard them and enjoy for the next few months
I too opened the box of 100ct Cadbury (fucking yummy) mini chocolates. They've been in my cupboard for a week so I consider that a personal record..wonder how many will be left come Halloween..
Also, I have drank (drunk?) every night this week. Not a lot, but I am finding that most nights I have about 2 drinks. I don't know if this is bad or not. I also feel bad that the only reason I really find it troublesome is the extra calories. And by this week I mean since I came back to work.
Was at a wedding last weekend. MH was with me. I ended up two stepping with a guy for like 5 songs. I LOVED it. Is that bad? Was stinkin drunk but he did ask MH for permission lol
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
About once a month, after having a craptastically long day, Nate will get a Lean Cuisine for dinner. He likes the meatballs. I figure it's a tad better than McD's right?
I think I need to do something about my emetephobia. For the second time in a month I had a full on panick attack over getting a stomach virus. It's been going through my work and I got myself so upset thinking about it that I felt physically ill. I think it wouldn't be so bad if DH were here but I freak out about getting sick and having to take care of the kids. Also vomit.
I used to be like this. Even hearing about someone having the stomach flu made me feel symptoms. I don't even have to be around the infected person.
I think I need to do something about my emetephobia. For the second time in a month I had a full on panick attack over getting a stomach virus. It's been going through my work and I got myself so upset thinking about it that I felt physically ill. I think it wouldn't be so bad if DH were here but I freak out about getting sick and having to take care of the kids. Also vomit.
I was seriously going to post this almost word for word. There has been a stomach bug going around my office for the past two weeks and I am paranoid as hell. Like, I have laid awake at night in bed thinking about how I would handle it.
Also, and I do feel guilty about this, but one of my best friends is newly pregnant and having terrible morning sickness. I have been avoiding her calls because I am afraid she is going to want to talk to me about it in detail.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
Oh and I'm addicted to this crazy board. First click is here not my home board. How come none of you fun gals don't live in Pittsburgh?
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
I'm home today with DS2 because he had a fever and was puking last night. I think he's totally over it by today, but I still stayed home AND sent DS1 to daycare so I could take munchkin to the dr.
Really, the little guy is fine and he and I are going to have a nice quiet day at home without DS1.
I couldn't get on this morning and was freaking out. All I could think about was that I would have to work and I would miss something good. I got on though finally and realized I have an addiction now that I've started posting.
FFFC: After reading the 'How often do you have sex?" poll, I am super depressed. DH and I don't have sex nearly as often as we should and it's my fault. My drive has seriously dropped since having DD and that's been over 2 years. DH is down to do it every day but I just can't get myself into it.
I'm broken and it gives me the sadz.
Like I mentioned in that poll MH sex drive is bad. In the beginning it was good but not like when I was married before. Is it such a bad thing not to have sex all the time?
I told him we really need to make an effort.. like ATLEAST once/month. I think the more you go without it the more comfortable/lazy you get. Don't be sad
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
FFFC: After reading the 'How often do you have sex?" poll, I am super depressed. DH and I don't have sex nearly as often as we should and it's my fault. My drive has seriously dropped since having DD and that's been over 2 years. DH is down to do it every day but I just can't get myself into it.
I'm broken and it gives me the sadz.
You are not broken. You sound pretty typical IMO, and you are definitely not alone.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
We're taking DD to Boo at the Zoo tomorrow. She's wearing a homemade costume of her favorite character - Bean from the Super Sproutlet Show.
But it'll be cold and she'll have to wear her coat, which will cover up most of the costume. I'm all bummed because no one will see her cute costume. Priorities. I need them.
Can you do two or three layers under the costume?
Hmmm, not sure. It might be a tight fit. There is a cape she'll wear on the outside, so she will at least look like a superhero. This is the back.
I'd see if I could find a similar colored pair of sweat pants. Have her wear the leggings, then the sweats, then the skirt. If it warms you can remove the sweat pants. If it's really chilly, a tall pair of socks under the leggings will help, as will shoes over those pretty socks.
I'd put a onesie or tight t-shirt under the shirt, and then a long sleeve shirt or two. Long underwear is great for this, as are fleece pajama tops. Thin and warm! I've also seen parents put kids in footie pajamas and then put the costume on.
How cold will it be? I grew up trick-or-treating in thirty and we layered up and would sometimes put hand warmers in our shirts, against our stomachs.
I guess my confession is that I don't think that McDonalds is that bad. We get it for DD probably once a week. (the HORROR!!) She eats the kids happy meal-- 4 chicken nuggets, a small order of fries, apple slices and milk.
That's actually pretty close to what I would make her for a typical dinner-- the Tyson's or Perdue nuggets, I might do tater tots instead of fries or sweet potato fries-- but I guess I don't see much of a difference.
I work 55 hour work weeks. I am tired. Mama needs a break sometimes.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
My sister is suppose to come over tonight so that I can go to dinner with a friend. Well, the plans got postponed. I have not told my sister of the change in plans because I still want her to come over and watch DS so that I can clean the house. She will try to back out if she knows that I'm not going because she hates making the 30 minute commute.
I am a candy camel. Or that's what DH calls me. I store candy for months/years and don't eat it. I know it is there and I want it, but I don't eat it because then it will be gone and I won't have anymore. It doesn't matter that I can just go to the store and get more, I won't have that candy anymore. Drives DH nuts! Sometimes he eats it or if it is something he doesn't like eventually he'll just toss it out.
Here is my lurker FFFC.. (a little backstory first) - DD1 was born at 23w due to cervical incompetence, so I had a cerclage placed a couple weeks ago since I'm pregnant with #2. I am now on full pelvic rest (no intercourse or outercourse, no orgasms, NOTHING) and I'm starting to go crazy. I normally don't have a very high drive so I didn't think it would be an issue, but I've been having sex dreams the last few nights and I'm afraid it's going to cause problems. I can obviously control myself during the day, since I'm way too scared to even think about "breaking the rules", but I can't control my dreams!
I am also avoiding all those sex threads that were posted this morning and trying not to think about it.
What is this silver bullet you speak of? I'd Google but I'm at work.
It looks like a large bullet and vibrates. You hold it against your clit. The rest is self explanatory.
I might be able to get down with all that! I have always been with someone and was pretty much a 3x a day type sex person so I never wanted to spend the money. Now that I am single though, and its been a long, long, LONG time I might have to spend it.
Here is my lurker FFFC.. (a little backstory first) - DD1 was born at 23w due to cervical incompetence, so I had a cerclage placed a couple weeks ago since I'm pregnant with #2. I am now on full pelvic rest (no intercourse or outercourse, no orgasms, NOTHING) and I'm starting to go crazy. I normally don't have a very high drive so I didn't think it would be an issue, but I've been having sex dreams the last few nights and I'm afraid it's going to cause problems. I can obviously control myself during the day, since I'm way too scared to even think about "breaking the rules", but I can't control my dreams!
I am also avoiding all those sex threads that were posted this morning and trying not to think about it.
First... your SN is amazing....
Second... what is outercourse?
Third.... I'm sorry you're going nuts.
lol, I actually heard someone here say it, so it's not something I really use everyday. I figured it just meant external stimulation, i.e., not penetration? Anyway, that's what I meant by it.
My DS took 3 steps last night. I didn't tell DH because he missed the first word and was bummed so this weekend hopefully he will do it again with DH watching and I can act super surprised.
I'm anxious for our date tonight. Its date night at daycare (they watch the kids from 6:30-10) and I did my nails and toes while DH was at class last night and did my hair the 'better' way this morning. He's been turning me down for sex since the baby so I feel gross and he's going to do it again tonight so I want to just cancel all of it and spare myself the embarassment.
Re: FFFC
#bitter
My 4 Angel Babies.....
MC#1- 12/2008, MC#2- 05/2009, MC#3 07/2009, MC#4 11/2009
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DS loves tomatoes and tries to steal my tomatoes, so I sneak them in my bedroom so I don't have to share.
Sometimes I give him the last slice if I feel generous.
You should not feel ashamed at all. We've all been there. Do you know how many people in just the last 5 years have had to do this? A LOT.
Look at it as a fresh start. No sense in feeling bad about it.
This morning he apologized for falling asleep before sex.
I knew he'd fall asleep if I got him talking. I didn't really want sex, I just wanted his warmth next to me so I could sleep nice and toasty warm.
#Bodymber14 #Bodygate #itsMillerTime
Bradley 05-04-11 & Tyler 06-18-13
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
#Bodymber14 #Bodygate #itsMillerTime
Bradley 05-04-11 & Tyler 06-18-13
I used to be like this. Even hearing about someone having the stomach flu made me feel symptoms. I don't even have to be around the infected person.
I was seriously going to post this almost word for word. There has been a stomach bug going around my office for the past two weeks and I am paranoid as hell. Like, I have laid awake at night in bed thinking about how I would handle it.
Also, and I do feel guilty about this, but one of my best friends is newly pregnant and having terrible morning sickness. I have been avoiding her calls because I am afraid she is going to want to talk to me about it in detail.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Really, the little guy is fine and he and I are going to have a nice quiet day at home without DS1.
I told him we really need to make an effort.. like ATLEAST once/month. I think the more you go without it the more comfortable/lazy you get. Don't be sad
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
I'd put a onesie or tight t-shirt under the shirt, and then a long sleeve shirt or two. Long underwear is great for this, as are fleece pajama tops. Thin and warm! I've also seen parents put kids in footie pajamas and then put the costume on.
How cold will it be? I grew up trick-or-treating in thirty and we layered up and would sometimes put hand warmers in our shirts, against our stomachs.
I left work early yesterday to go shopping and eat out with my cousin.
I bought her DS a puzzle for Christmas and then decided to give it to my DS instead.
I drank two beers while watching the cardinals game at TGI Friday's (my cousin drove).
I told DH I didn't have that great of a time or that I drank.... I felt bad after he complained about DS being grouchy all night.
I already ate one bag of fun size snickers that was meant for tricker treaters.
We are out of coffee in my department and I stole some from another.
I pretended to be sleeping at 5am when DS woke up. DH went and got him and closed the bedroom door really quietly LOL.
Ok I think that is all I have to confess.... I am bad this week.
I guess my confession is that I don't think that McDonalds is that bad. We get it for DD probably once a week. (the HORROR!!) She eats the kids happy meal-- 4 chicken nuggets, a small order of fries, apple slices and milk.
That's actually pretty close to what I would make her for a typical dinner-- the Tyson's or Perdue nuggets, I might do tater tots instead of fries or sweet potato fries-- but I guess I don't see much of a difference.
I work 55 hour work weeks. I am tired. Mama needs a break sometimes.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12
Here is my lurker FFFC.. (a little backstory first) - DD1 was born at 23w due to cervical incompetence, so I had a cerclage placed a couple weeks ago since I'm pregnant with #2. I am now on full pelvic rest (no intercourse or outercourse, no orgasms, NOTHING) and I'm starting to go crazy. I normally don't have a very high drive so I didn't think it would be an issue, but I've been having sex dreams the last few nights and I'm afraid it's going to cause problems. I can obviously control myself during the day, since I'm way too scared to even think about "breaking the rules", but I can't control my dreams!
I am also avoiding all those sex threads that were posted this morning and trying not to think about it.
lol, I actually heard someone here say it, so it's not something I really use everyday. I figured it just meant external stimulation, i.e., not penetration? Anyway, that's what I meant by it.
and thanks!
I'm anxious for our date tonight. Its date night at daycare (they watch the kids from 6:30-10) and I did my nails and toes while DH was at class last night and did my hair the 'better' way this morning. He's been turning me down for sex since the baby so I feel gross and he's going to do it again tonight so I want to just cancel all of it and spare myself the embarassment.