@angelz429 I’m so sorry things haven’t progressed in the way you’d hoped. I will keep hoping for the best for you and your little one and for strength and peace for you whatever you decide. There’s no selfish decision here, so please don’t feel that way or doubt yourself, you are a great mom and doing what you think is best for all three of your children (and it’s absolutely okay to consider yourself and YH in the calculus as well). So many hugs as you navigate the next week, we are here for you as much and in whatever capacity you want us to be. ❤️
*TTC History*
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
@angelz429 I'm so, so sorry. It's such a difficult choice, but I'm sure that you will do what's best for you and your family.
TW For my TFMR I chose a D&C because I did want to be a unaware as possible and just forget. That said, I was much earlier along and didn't feel her yet, so it was much easier to pretend it wasn't happening. I know other women found closure through induction and being able to hold their child.
This is such an impossible and devastating situation, I'm truly sorry you have to deal with this. I'm keeping you in my thoughts, and like many of us am here if you ever need support.
@angelz429 Sorry to hear that the update wasn’t what you hoped for. Sending all the well wishes as you face this decision for yourself and your family.
@angelz429 awww honey.. im so so very sorry that you and your family are having to go through this. My heart is breaking for you 💔 😢 im sorry that the update wasn't what you were hoping to hear. Its such a difficult decision to have to make. My previous pregnancy i had to also make a choice like this so I feel your pain. For my TFMR I chose to have a D&E and was put to sleep as I didn't want to be aware of whats going on and wanted to just wake up and move forward. Like @akoros I also didn't feel him move as I was much earlier along too so it was easier on my heart at that point. I really do hope and pray you get your 1% miracle. Sending you so much love and hugs as you go through this next week. 😘💕 Were all here for you!
@angelz429 so much love to you and your family right now. I cannot imagine the many emotions you are going through right now. Please know that doing what is right for your family is not selfish. YOU ARE NOT BEING SELFISH! You are making a decision that will impact your entire family no matter which way you go. It’s important to factor in your two older kids and what your family life looks like now and what it would look like. Please know we are here for you.
@angelz429 I'm sorry the update wasn't positive and you and your family continue to be in such a difficult position. Whatever decision you come to is not selfish by any means.
@angelz429 my heart is breaking for you. I’m so so sorry you and your husband are forced to make this decision.
@MelissaMay82 how kind of you to share such a personal and painful story. I’m so sorry for the loss you endured.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@angelz429 I am so sorry for all of this. I do hope that you get some better news at your growth scan. You are most certainly not being selfish in this situation regardless of what you choose. I wish there was something more I could say to help you.
@angelz429, I’m so sorry the update wasn’t what was hoped for and that you and your family have to even think about these decisions. I am hoping beyond hope for positive news this week but regardless we are here for you in any capacity you need us. Sending you tons of hugs.
@angelz429Truly sorry you and your family are faced with such a difficult decision. 😔Keeping you in my thoughts and strongly hoping for good outcomes next week.
@angelz429 I am so, so sorry you are going through this. I've been thinking about you all week. You are not being selfish and please don't let anyone in your life make you feel as if you are- this is a situation that no one can predict what they'd do until they're in it. Sending you so much love and hope for a resolution you can eventually find peace in. Thank you for updating and we are here for whatever support you need.
@angelz429, I am so, so sorry. Sending you so much love and light as you handle this loss and grieve for your sweet baby boy. There are no words. I am sending endless virtual hugs to you.
@angelz429 Autumn, I'm so sorry to read this. There are no words to ease this immense pain. Try and remember that grief isn't linear and give yourself grace. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
@angelz429 Autumn, love tit for support. You are an amazing, strong woman! Allow yourself all the time you need to process and grieve. Love to you and your family!
@angelz429 I’m so terribly sorry you and your family have to experience this loss and heartbreak. This is so horribly unfair and something no one should have to go through. Sending you warm wishes and hoping you can find some comfort as you grieve.
*TTC History*
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
@angelz429 Autumn, I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this.
My parents had two TMFR and a baby who passed away soon after birth. Almost forty years on I can tell it’s the hardest thing they’ve been through. My mom said a couple years ago that she felt all her babies kick, and I could see that it was important to her to have that connection with all her babies, even the ones she lost, and that she never stopped loving any of them. that the time she had with her babies was a gift, as heart wrenching as it was to lose them.
@angelz429 Oh Autumn, im so truly sorry to hear this news. My heart is breaking for you 😥 I'm sorry your family has to go through this loss. 💔 Feel all the feelings of grief you need to. I just have no words. Im sending you so much love and will be thinking of you and your family and sweet little baby boy 💙 Please take care of yourself.
Autumn I am so so very sorry for everything you’ve been through. I hope you find some comfort in your family and know that however you grieve this loss is perfectly acceptable. I will keep you, your family, and that sweet baby in my thoughts. 😢
@angelz429 Autumn I am so, so sorry. I have no words. I am thinking of you and your husband, and all your children 💙💔 I don't know what to say. Sending so much love your way, I'm so sorry for your pain.
Autumn, I'm so incredibly sorry that this was the news you received. I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts through this difficult time. If you need support, don't hesitate to reach out. Take whatever time you need to grieve and heal. I'm sending you lots of love and light as you go through this.
@angelz429 I'm so so sorry. This is such an incredibly difficult thing to go through. Please do whatever you need to grieve and take care of yourselves. We're here for you if you ever need support and will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
@angelz429 I'm so sorry Autumn. Be gentle with yourself as you grieve.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@angelz429 My heart breaks for what you and your family is going through. So sorry for your loss and grieving all that is and might have beens. Sending all the love and light to surround you and your family through this time.
@angelz429 you likely won’t be back on to see our reply’s but in case you are please know you are in our thoughts. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.
@angelz429 Autumn, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find solace in your family while you grieve. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself. 💓
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Me: 36, DH: 38, Together since: 2006, Married: 9/2011 **TW Living Child**
Re: February Appointments Thread
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
TW
For my TFMR I chose a D&C because I did want to be a unaware as possible and just forget. That said, I was much earlier along and didn't feel her yet, so it was much easier to pretend it wasn't happening. I know other women found closure through induction and being able to hold their child.
This is such an impossible and devastating situation, I'm truly sorry you have to deal with this. I'm keeping you in my thoughts, and like many of us am here if you ever need support.
Continuing to keep you all in my thoughts.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
*Live, Love, Laugh, Learn*
autumn
*Live, Love, Laugh, Learn*
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
Me: 37, MH: 38; Married August 2017
TTC #1 October 2017: BFP on 12/1/2017, DD born 7/24/2018 @ 37+1 after induction due to preeclampsia
TTC #2 January 2020: AMA, dx with DOR in May 2020
IVF July 2020: 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 12 fertilized, 3 blasts, 2 PGT-A normal
FET 10/7/20: BFP on 10/12/20!!! (EDD 6/25/21); First beta 10/16/20 (9dpt): 148; Second beta 10/19/20 (12dpt): 621; Third beta 10/26/20 (19dpt): 4732; Fourth (and final!) beta 11/2/20 (26 dpt): 22,000+
DD1
DD2
DD3
Married: 10.2018
DS #1: 06.2014
Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG), Emergency C-Section
MC: 03.2017- 5 Weeks
Rainbow DS #2: 07.2018
HG, 19w Fetal Surgery, 24w PPROM, 33w Placental Abruption, Partial Uterine Rupture, Emergency C-Section
NICU, Chronic Kidney Disease
TTC #3: Medically Cleared 12.5.2019, had a bunch of problems and wonky cycles
BFP 10.13.2020 EDD: 6.26.2021
October 2020 TTGP Signature Challenge: Pets in Costumes
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
**TW Living Child**
BFP 2/2014 - DS - 10/2014