I am a hot effing mess today. Dropped my DD2 off for her first day of preschool and I honestly am not sure if I cried more today or my first day back to work after she was born. She was like ‘peace mom I’m going to play’ meanwhile I’m ducking around a corner so she doesn’t see me blubbering. Plus today would have been my RCS from my most recent loss so I am sure that is not helping my crazy town feelings.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
@mamakate1616 I'm sorry you're having a rough day. These hormones make for some crazy days for sure. Do something nice for yourself!
I am having mood swings like mad lately. This morning I actually told the babies father **TW** I'm headed to the Dr. If there is no hb you'll be off the hook **TW end**. I honestly don't know what I was thinking. I don't wish for that at all, never! I am just so frustrated with the whole situation that I don't know what to say. He's been an ass and still hasn't reached out to see or talk to me. I've been the one to tacting him all the time. I feel like a fool but at the same time he is the father.
This is not what I ever had planned in my life and I'm just not sure how it's all going to turn out. I don't think what I want is going to happen and it's breaking my heart already.
TTC #1 Since May 2011 ~ Everyone Welcome
Me (34): DOR d/t chemo/radiation, Immature Endometrial Lining, Hypothyroidism
DH (35): MFI d/t testicular torsion and removal, Low T, Oligospermia, Anti-Sperm Antibodies, Currently on T supplements Sept '11-April '13 ~ Testing, failed multiple MFI treatments, saving & TONS of praying January 2014 ~ IVF/ICSI & PGS ~ no response to stims ~ converted to IUI ~ BFN February 2014 ~ On to donor embyros ~ 5 blasts!!! March 2014 ~ FET #1 ~ Transferred 2 blasts ~ BFN July 2014 ~ Kliman's mock cycle with endometrial function test Sample too small for EFT, HE slide showed immature cells New protocol planned, saving for another biopsy for EFT January 2015 ~ Considering adoption options April 2015 ~ Privately arranged adoption of planned pregnancy DD#1 ~ Lillyana Violet Marie born 6/15/16, Finalized adoption 12/20/16 July 13, 2018 ~ BFP....WTF?!?! 7/16 Beta #1 ~ 466...7/18 Beta #2 ~ 1,077...7/23 Beta #3 ~ 5,291 7/23 US #1 ~ 1 gestational sac seen and yolk sac 7/30 US #2 and 1st OB appt ~ 1 perfectly round gestational sac, 1 perfect yolk sac and 1 teeny tiny heart beat seen!!!
@violetmarie61516 thanks. I know you said you would post more details when you were ready, but is DH at least there for you/are you guys staying together? I can’t imagine how complicated things are.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
@mamakate1616 Awe sending lots of creepy internet hugs! Hopefully the day goes fast for you!
@violetmarie61516 I'm so sorry! But honestly, I probably would have said the same or something similar in your situation...even without the extra crazy pregnancy hormones. But I agree, he should step up, at least for your baby's sake. Hopefully, as time goes by he'll come to terms with it all and do the right thing for you both. *tw* when I was younger and had a cp with an ex I was on and off with for years...he also freaked out and shut me out for a long time as well. So I get exactly how your feeling. *tw end* Some guys just don't process things very maturely, but I really pray for you that everything works itself out.
TTC #1 since April 2015 June 2016 - CP 2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's IVF w/ PGS - January 2018 FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN ERA Cycle May / June 2018 ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change) FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP Beta #1 - 137 Beta #2 - 410 U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166 Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19 EDD March 28, 2019 Baby Girl born 3/26/19
@mamakate1616 I'm sorry you're having a hard day. But on the bright side, her having just run off to play means you've raised a strong, independent, social kid that knows her mom will be there to pick her up when she's done for the day. You've done a great job! And I'm sorry about the loss, I'm sure that doesn't help.
@violetmarie61516 I'm sorry the dad isn't being an adult about this. We all say things we don't really mean when we are upset, so don't beat yourself up about it. I hope he comes around and you get the outcome you want.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
here’s a good random... DH came home early to be there for pick up and stopped at a local deli to bring me a yummy sub for lunch.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
My thoughts @bdesterhouse! Maybe I killed the thread lol.
Heres something random my kiddo learned today, alligators carry their babies on their heads or in their mouths.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
Dang work. How dare they get in between you and the bump.
my random, we’ve implemented a new chore system for our son tonight. He is obsessed with money right now so we’re using felt money to get him incentivized to do stuff around the house and he can turn that ‘money’ in to watch tv or play on his iPad after chores and home work is done. Fingers crossed that this helps alleviate the attitude and self entitled brat we’ve been getting from him.
We have two sleeping beauties in heaven. Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016. Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015. They will be forever missed.
@Kenneylynn3 maybe a thread about appropriate levels of violence in reaction to said touching.... eta: I have pretty solid RBF and didn’t have any issues last time (that I remember), even my MIL who loves to touch preggo bellies knew not to.
@bdesterhouse how old is he? With homework I’m assuming not a toddler. That’s amazing. My Dd can be a tyrant and that sounds like it would work to get through to her when she gets in a demand loop. Did you make or buy the felt money?
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
Random, also appropriate for FFFC but Friday feels so far away:
We don’t know the gender yet but I really don’t want a boy. I have two DD and I just want to keep it easy. I have lots of brothers & nephews—the thought of a boy absolutely exhausts me. Even my DH wants another daughter. Praying we get a girl but “as long as it’s healthy that’s all that matters!” Lol.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
@mamakate1616 he is 7, I bought some felt money from targets $1 bin, to help him with math initially. I’m going to go back and see if they have more bc I think it might be cheaper. If they don’t then I plan to hit up the local Hobby Lobby and make more. I need to figure out a way to centeralize a chore list he can use to pick from. He’s a good kid, I’m just paranoid about the bout of bad behavior we get, getting worse as he gets older so I’m trying to setup a solid foundation now that way we aren’t overwhelmed when he’s a teenager and then is out of control... I’m also a slight control freak.
We have two sleeping beauties in heaven. Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016. Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015. They will be forever missed.
@Kenneylynn3 maybe a thread about inappropriate things people say and do to pregnant women. I didn’t get a lot of touching last time, but I did have a lot of older male coworkers telling me all about their wives’ breastfeeding efforts.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
Y’all, trying to make a pencil skirt work today was apparently NOT a good idea. Almost made myself sick leaning over to grab something in the passenger seat...
@lelkcot I washed and dried my work jeans last night. Getting them on this morning was a struggle. I'm on my last belt hole... I really need to find my maternity jeans.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
@meggyme the struggle is real! I desperately need to actually pull out my maternity clothes (I have both mine and my sisters sitting in bins in my closet and just haven’t been ready to start going through them).
@lelkcot I managed to pull them out because I needed the maternity shorts, but haven't gotten around to going through them all and washing/putting them in my drawers. They're just littering our office driving MH crazy.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
Like I said previously, I'm living in MM yoga pants. I'm even pulling them off at work!
TTC #1 Since May 2011 ~ Everyone Welcome
Me (34): DOR d/t chemo/radiation, Immature Endometrial Lining, Hypothyroidism
DH (35): MFI d/t testicular torsion and removal, Low T, Oligospermia, Anti-Sperm Antibodies, Currently on T supplements Sept '11-April '13 ~ Testing, failed multiple MFI treatments, saving & TONS of praying January 2014 ~ IVF/ICSI & PGS ~ no response to stims ~ converted to IUI ~ BFN February 2014 ~ On to donor embyros ~ 5 blasts!!! March 2014 ~ FET #1 ~ Transferred 2 blasts ~ BFN July 2014 ~ Kliman's mock cycle with endometrial function test Sample too small for EFT, HE slide showed immature cells New protocol planned, saving for another biopsy for EFT January 2015 ~ Considering adoption options April 2015 ~ Privately arranged adoption of planned pregnancy DD#1 ~ Lillyana Violet Marie born 6/15/16, Finalized adoption 12/20/16 July 13, 2018 ~ BFP....WTF?!?! 7/16 Beta #1 ~ 466...7/18 Beta #2 ~ 1,077...7/23 Beta #3 ~ 5,291 7/23 US #1 ~ 1 gestational sac seen and yolk sac 7/30 US #2 and 1st OB appt ~ 1 perfectly round gestational sac, 1 perfect yolk sac and 1 teeny tiny heart beat seen!!!
I started wearing flowy tops to work this week because by the end of the day there's an obvious (probably only to me...) bump and I'm trying my best to hold out until at least the 17th to share with the office. @bdesterhouse I might steal your cookie announcement idea for work!
@bdesterhouse I also will be stealing your announcement idea. Once my office clears out a bit I'm going to print out the sign. Originally I was going to bake something, but now it might just be grocery store cookies.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
Go for it. I did the sign this morning bc I forgot to do it on the computer last night. We have a new team member (transferred from a different area) and she started in our area yesterday and she’s due exactly a month before me. So naturally comments about the water were made, and everyone took the news great. They’re all excited for us. The moms on our team are all moms of two boys, so I told them they likely jinxed me out of my girl.
We have two sleeping beauties in heaven. Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016. Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015. They will be forever missed.
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
What planet is a jalapeño the same size as a lemon? Yesterday babe was the size of a tube of lipstick. Yet again, smaller than a lemon. I don’t get it. is a
We have two sleeping beauties in heaven. Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016. Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015. They will be forever missed.
@bdesterhouse omg, felt money is genius! I read an article sometime in the last 6 months that some non-human primates can understand the idea of currency after consistent practice with coins, including the idea of price fluctuation. So, at least you'll have a earthly stockbroker for a teenager, even if attitude doesn't improve. I'm seriously considering starting a chores/treats payment system for dd1 when she turns 2.
@bdesterhouse TB says my baby is the size of a lime this week while Ovia says it’s the size of a Brussel Sprout. Those two things are not even close. I’m not sure how they come up with these things!
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Plus today would have been my RCS from my most recent loss so I am sure that is not helping my crazy town feelings.
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
I am having mood swings like mad lately. This morning I actually told the babies father **TW** I'm headed to the Dr. If there is no hb you'll be off the hook **TW end**. I honestly don't know what I was thinking. I don't wish for that at all, never! I am just so frustrated with the whole situation that I don't know what to say. He's been an ass and still hasn't reached out to see or talk to me. I've been the one to tacting him all the time. I feel like a fool but at the same time he is the father.
This is not what I ever had planned in my life and I'm just not sure how it's all going to turn out. I don't think what I want is going to happen and it's breaking my heart already.
Sept '11-April '13 ~ Testing, failed multiple MFI treatments, saving & TONS of praying
January 2014 ~ IVF/ICSI & PGS ~ no response to stims ~ converted to IUI ~ BFN
February 2014 ~ On to donor embyros ~ 5 blasts!!!
March 2014 ~ FET #1 ~ Transferred 2 blasts ~ BFN
July 2014 ~ Kliman's mock cycle with endometrial function test
Sample too small for EFT, HE slide showed immature cells
New protocol planned, saving for another biopsy for EFT
January 2015 ~ Considering adoption options
April 2015 ~ Privately arranged adoption of planned pregnancy
DD#1 ~ Lillyana Violet Marie born 6/15/16, Finalized adoption 12/20/16
July 13, 2018 ~ BFP....WTF?!?!
7/16 Beta #1 ~ 466...7/18 Beta #2 ~ 1,077...7/23 Beta #3 ~ 5,291
7/23 US #1 ~ 1 gestational sac seen and yolk sac
7/30 US #2 and 1st OB appt ~ 1 perfectly round gestational sac, 1 perfect yolk sac and 1 teeny tiny heart beat seen!!!
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
@violetmarie61516 I'm so sorry! But honestly, I probably would have said the same or something similar in your situation...even without the extra crazy pregnancy hormones. But I agree, he should step up, at least for your baby's sake. Hopefully, as time goes by he'll come to terms with it all and do the right thing for you both. *tw* when I was younger and had a cp with an ex I was on and off with for years...he also freaked out and shut me out for a long time as well. So I get exactly how your feeling. *tw end* Some guys just don't process things very maturely, but I really pray for you that everything works itself out.
June 2016 - CP
2017 - Medicated Cycles & IUI's
IVF w/ PGS - January 2018
FET #1 - April 2018 - BFN
ERA Cycle May / June 2018
ERA Biopsy June 2018 ~ Results: receptive (no change)
FET #2 - July 2018 - BFP
U/S #1 7wk1d - HB 144 U/S #2 9w1d HB 166
Anatomy Scan 1st 11/2/18 2nd AS 11/19
EDD March 28, 2019
Baby Girl born 3/26/19
@violetmarie61516 I was thinking about you this morning wondering how you are doing. Hugs to you as well. I hope you get good news at the doctor.
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
@violetmarie61516 I'm sorry the dad isn't being an adult about this. We all say things we don't really mean when we are upset, so don't beat yourself up about it. I hope he comes around and you get the outcome you want.
here’s a good random... DH came home early to be there for pick up and stopped at a local deli to bring me a yummy sub for lunch.
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Heres something random my kiddo learned today, alligators carry their babies on their heads or in their mouths.
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
my random, we’ve implemented a new chore system for our son tonight. He is obsessed with money right now so we’re using felt money to get him incentivized to do stuff around the house and he can turn that ‘money’ in to watch tv or play on his iPad after chores and home work is done. Fingers crossed that this helps alleviate the attitude and self entitled brat we’ve been getting from him.
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
eta: I have pretty solid RBF and didn’t have any issues last time (that I remember), even my MIL who loves to touch preggo bellies knew not to.
@bdesterhouse how old is he? With homework I’m assuming not a toddler. That’s amazing. My Dd can be a tyrant and that sounds like it would work to get through to her when she gets in a demand loop. Did you make or buy the felt money?
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
We don’t know the gender yet but I really don’t want a boy. I have two DD and I just want to keep it easy. I have lots of brothers & nephews—the thought of a boy absolutely exhausts me. Even my DH wants another daughter. Praying we get a girl but “as long as it’s healthy that’s all that matters!” Lol.
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Sept '11-April '13 ~ Testing, failed multiple MFI treatments, saving & TONS of praying
January 2014 ~ IVF/ICSI & PGS ~ no response to stims ~ converted to IUI ~ BFN
February 2014 ~ On to donor embyros ~ 5 blasts!!!
March 2014 ~ FET #1 ~ Transferred 2 blasts ~ BFN
July 2014 ~ Kliman's mock cycle with endometrial function test
Sample too small for EFT, HE slide showed immature cells
New protocol planned, saving for another biopsy for EFT
January 2015 ~ Considering adoption options
April 2015 ~ Privately arranged adoption of planned pregnancy
DD#1 ~ Lillyana Violet Marie born 6/15/16, Finalized adoption 12/20/16
July 13, 2018 ~ BFP....WTF?!?!
7/16 Beta #1 ~ 466...7/18 Beta #2 ~ 1,077...7/23 Beta #3 ~ 5,291
7/23 US #1 ~ 1 gestational sac seen and yolk sac
7/30 US #2 and 1st OB appt ~ 1 perfectly round gestational sac, 1 perfect yolk sac and 1 teeny tiny heart beat seen!!!
DD2 started walking. It's adorable and I am already worn out. How am I going to do this with three DDs 3 and under?!
@bdesterhouse I might steal your cookie announcement idea for work!
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016
Jack gained his wings on 09/02/2016.
Kali gained her wings on 07/28/2015.
They will be forever missed.
Unless you want to spend thousands on fertility treatments for no reason.