I hope it's okay I'm starting this one today!
I'm not usually the easy to cry type but I have been lately. Today I cried because I crave a casserole my grandmother used to make me. It was actually a pretty gross casserole that only I liked and I didnt save her recipe before she passed away. Sadly, I cant remember how to make it and I have an intense craving for it. So... I cried. I feel like an idiot for crying about it but there it is.
It had ground beef, tomato soup, creamed corn, cheddar cheese and egg noodles for sure. I wish I could remember the rest.
Re: Why My Pregnant Self is Crying
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
I cried today because I’m bleeding again and my anxiety is completely out of control.
And then then I cried again because my dog climbed on top of me and rested her head on my tummy and gave me the sweetest look.
This rollercoaster...
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
I cant imagine being in a weird city, with 2 babies, having to try to find somewhere to stay and make sure they are taken care of.
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
Then my cat threw up on the floor
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
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BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
the only things that really get me to cry now is if someone’s kid dies or if someone suffers a loss (there’s been a lot of news like that here and among my friends/coworkers).
Then of course I was a puddle of tears today because I'm lonely because I'm just pissed off and feeling crappy and not much fun to anyone all the time. I forgot just how delightful these hormones are.