TTCAL week of 12/02/18

CraftyG · February 2018

**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and / or stillbirth may be mentioned.**

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.

Status:

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?

Any testing coming up/any recent results?

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans?

CraftyG · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. Loss at 13 weeks Jan 16, loss at 9 weeks Oct 17

Status: TWW

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Oh friends it seems like I missed such a heavy week last week. I had a quick scan of last weeks thread and my heart is aching so much for all you ladies all of my thoughts and hugs to each and every one of you.
Rave - Got back from a week away in a cabin with a hot tub which was lovely and we also finally replaced our broken TV after months of trying to decide on one.
Rant - My mental health has just been ridiculous lately. I thought a relaxing week away would help but it just seems to be spiralling so I’m sure it’s not situational depression and more chemical depression which is going to be fun to deal with.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nada

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? I think that we’re going to get a dine in deal, maybe steaks and maybe watch a romantic movie

dpjennifer · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. Unexplained RPL, 4 MCs.

Status: CD 5. WTO.

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Had my diet cheat day yesterday after another busted attempt at a natural PG cycle. Was emotional at the end of last weekend and start of the weekend, but doing better now and back on the diet plan! Really hoping we all have a much better week this week!!!!

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? DH and I are just going low-key. We may go see a movie tomorrow night, hoping it'd be less busy. We'll see...

CraftyG Sorry for the depression and emotional pain you're feeling! Do you have a therapist? I went to one (well, several, I had to find the 'right' one) and still go and I LOVE her!!!! Best decision ever.

kindbytealikat · February 2018

Sorry for being MIA last week I needed a bump break. I’m sorry I wasn’t here for everyone, it looks like we’re all struggling right now. Hugs and love to every single one of you.

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 early losses

Status: Taking a break

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Last week was rough for me. I honestly don’t know why exactly it just was. I’m sure you guys can understand that though. Overall I’m just feeling really discouraged right now and trying to figure out my life. I took a break between degrees to focus and baby and now I feel it’s time wasted and I feel like I’m doing nothing productive. **TWKid***DH is fine with things because I’m home with DS so it’s not that he’s upset about it. Two of my mom friends who have been SAH since our kids were born have started working again. End TW***
Rave: I managed to work out 5 days last week

Any testing coming up/any recent results? D&C follow up Wednesday and labs the week of 20th

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? I’m not big on Valentines Day but DH is so it’s interesting every year. My only request is DH get me a pound of chocolate covered strawberries from this local chocolate shop. My doctor appointment is that day as well so idk were I’ll be emotionally that day. I did buy groceries in anticipation of making a nice dinner though, we have church at 6 though so who knows. DSS is staying at her moms so they can do anti Valentine’s Day dinner.

ChloandCoco · February 2018

@CraftyG I'm sorry you are struggling with depression right after your week away. It's definitely hard coming back to reality after escaping everything.
@dpjennifer I'm sorry your last cycle didn't work out. What movie are you going to go see?
@kindbytealikat Like you, I put my career 'on hold' thinking I would have a baby relatively quickly. Now that it hasn't happened, I've decided to not hold back, if we want to move to a new house, or if a new job pops up, I'm going for it and any future pregnancy/baby will just have to fit into that. It's taken me a long time to realize that, though.

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.

TFAS - 4 early losses in the last 10 months (double digits...yay...)

Status: WTO

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? We got back from our weekend getaway last night and it was great to get away and forget everything. But now that I'm back and entering my FW again, it's just emotionally exhausting. TW Pregnancy** It really didn't help that my friend who is due the same day that I was due, just had her anatomy scan and it reminded me that I should be that far along **End TW

MH and I also had the 'what if' conversation about adoption, IVF, and how far we are willing to go to have another. No desicions were made but it's definitely a conversation that we will keep having over the next few months.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? OPKs starting at the end of the week.

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? We don't really celebrate Valentine's day. But we are going to make a cheese fondue and probably watch some netflix.

coco2787 · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.

MMC in December 2017, CP last week

Status:
WTO. H wants to take a break this cycle but I don’t really want to. Hoping we can compromise by just HIO once or twice during FW.

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?

Struggling a bit. This recent loss wasn’t as hard to handle as the MMC but I think part of it is just not having any time to process it as I haven’t been able to take any time off. It’s been hard to muster up the positivity needed to perform well during fieldwork and to stay on top of all my assignments. TW in spoiler (kid mentioned)

My son keeps talking about “when we get a baby” and it breaks my heart every time. I want so badly to give him a sibling and I feel guilty that I ever even mentioned anything to him about it. I hate that my body is letting everyone down.

Any testing coming up/any recent results?

RPL appointment on Thursday with my OB. Hoping for some answers/an easy fix but I don’t have high hopes.

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans?

No plans. We’re lame.

ChloandCoco · February 2018

@coco2787 FX your OB finds something easy to fix and you get some answers. TW** kid mentioned in spoiler**

My DD keeps making drawings with me, MH, her, and a baby. We didn't tell her about the losses, so part of me thinks this is a phase or that lots of kids in her daycare are talking about babies. Either way, it's very hard to hear.

dpjennifer · February 2018

ChloandCoco We may go see The Greatest Showman for a second time. Just low key go out. Glad you and DH were able to have a good convo about 'what ifs.' Those are always important to have!

coco2787 Good luck deciding what to do this cycle. Sometimes people bounce back pretty quickly. But if you think you need time off emotionally, it's best to take a cycle or two to breathe. Sometimes even if you aren't 'really' trying, emotionally seeing that BFN when you became hopeful deep down (even if you didn't KNOW you were hopeful) can be shattering.

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@CraftyG I hope you are able to figure things out re: your mental health. It can be such a struggle to have either chemical or situation depression or anxiety.

@dpjennifer Sorry to hear that it didn't work out for you last month. Sometimes diet cheat days are needed!

@kindbytealikat I have those up and down weeks too for seemingly no reason. It's tough. Good luck at your follow up appointment.

@Chloandcoco Those milestones are so hard. I went to Ikea the other day and it seemed like every visibly pregnant woman in the city was there. It's good that you and YH can have that talk. I find it can be so hard to discuss the "what ifs".

@coco2787 I hope you get some time to process things. Fingers crossed that your OB has some answers for you.

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.

CP in late 2017, MMC with D&C last month

Status: WTO / get AF back after D&C

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm getting very frustrated waiting for first AF to come back. I just need to know that my body has recovered so that I can start temping. I need to feel like I'm doing something other than waiting. I find it hard to concentrate on anything else, I feel like I'm crossing off days on the calendar. I'm back at the gym, so I guess that's a good thing

Any testing coming up/any recent results? OPKs daily to make sure I don't O and get risk getting pregnant before AF comes back. I have a requisition for a bunch of day 3 bloodwork in my purse...but can't do much until AF returns! I'll see my OB next week for D&C follow up. I may ask about Provera to jump start things at that point, five weeks post procedure.

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? Nothing. I'm not sure MH knows what day Valentine's is. I'm ok with that though.

eleven_ · February 2018

@craftyg Welcome back! I’m sorry your weekend away didn’t help in the way that you wanted. You have been through so much though so it’s okay not to feel okay. I agree with @dpjennifer about maybe looking into seeing a therapist. I saw one when I was younger and struggling with depression and it helped me so much.
@dpjennifer I’m so sorry this cycle was a bust for you. Are you doing the fertility diet?
@kindbytealikat I hate that some days are just so much harder and you aren’t even sure why. I blame hormones. I’m so sorry you are feeling discouraged. Loss not only messes you up emotionally, but it also messes up life plans. It’s so discouraging. *Hugs* Good for you for working out! I also ask my DH to get me chocolate covered strawberries every year. He always wants to buy them at the grocery store and I’m like no no no. I want them from the fancy chocolate shop. #notsorry

@coco2787 I’m so sorry you are struggling right now.
TW-kids mentioned

I’m so sorry you are feeling guilty about telling your DS. I told my kids as well and I feel so guilty when they say things like “Mommy, can I kiss the baby in your belly?” I don’t even know what to say. All of this is so hard. I’m so sorry

@chloandcoco I know what you mean about feeling exhausted by entering the FW. When you see the BFP, you think you’ve put all that crap behind you and then the whole exhausting process starts again. I'm so sorry

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 CPs this year

Status: WTO

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I’ve felt so pessimistic about life this week. I have always had mild seasonal depression so I know being trapped indoors is partly to blame. I wish I could know if I’ll ever have another baby. If it’s not in our cards, I just want to move on from this dream and put my energy into something else like going back to school.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? DH and I have been back and forth between going to see an RE. I scheduled the appointment and then cancelled it. We had a long talk and I tried to explain to him that seeing an RE would really help put my mind at ease. I just want to do all I can to prevent this from happening again. We rescheduled the appointment for tomorrow.

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? We will probably go out for sushi

lokibear89 · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC at 6 weeks discovered at 9 weeks with failed medical management and eventual D&C in november.

Status: TWW second cycle from MMC, first actively TTGP

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Overall last week was good then Sunday night the DH and I had a bit of a blow out. He has been sleep talking and I don't really know how to describe it kind of like sleep walking but not... like a waking dream. Anyway its been getting pretty intense and his mum had called from the UK on saturday (she has not got the hang of the time difference and called at 11:30pm) and he couldn't remember having a conversation with her. So I just kind of blew up at him forcing him to actually talk to me. He was stressed about trying, stressed because if we do conceive then we have to worry about MC and felt pretty alone because he hadn't really talked much to his family. I told him we could give trying a break if that's what he wanted (he looked at me like I was crazy so that was a no), and then told him if he wanted to talk to people maybe he should you know... talk to them and stop expecting everyone to know what he wants. Also told him that maybe he should stop drinking for a while, he never gets drunk but after the MC it just seems more frequent. We hugged it out and now I get to tell him off more as I am right (not something I ever hear). I will also tell him when I am upset as he has noticed me bottling it up a bit. So we had a big cry but feel better for it in the long run.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Will test next monday (assuming AF doesnt come)

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? I'm a bit of a spoilsport and don't really do Valentines.
@CraftyG A week away with a cabin and a hot tub sounds like heaven! Sorry about the depression, its like fighting air sometimes.

@ChloandCoco that is super hard, I have 2 people due near where I was and I kind of have to shut myself off to the milestones. Saying that I got a bit teary just seeing a pregnanct lady in the supermarket so hey ho.

@coco2787 I have to say I have been considering it too, I just think I expected to be 'fine' too soon, and expected DH to be the same. Saying that I'm not sure that I would truly not be 'trying'.

@bakerstreetboys I did the same thing after mine, so impatient to know that I was at least a little bit normal. Hopefully it comes soon so you can get back on track.

holly321 · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.

MMC 2/12 MMC molar pregnancy 8/17

Status:

Benched

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?

I am doing well so far. I actually feel pretty optimistic. I am glad to be stopping BCPs soon.

Any testing coming up/any recent results?

No

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans?
We have never done much for Valentine's day. We.are planning to go to one of our favorite restaurants, but it won't probably be for another week or two. We decided on no gifts or anything this year. We are both trying to eat healthier and all.

holly321 · February 2018

@CraftyG, I am sorry you are having a hard time.
@kindbytealikat, I hope all goes well with your upcoming appointments.i am sorry you are having a rough time.
That's great about working out. I have been trying to workout more, which I can usually convince myself to do, but am struggling with emotional eating, so it is counteracting it poorly. Lol.
@coco2787, I hope you get answers at your appointment. I completely understand the different feelings with losses. My 1st was so much harder emotionally, but maybe I never had time to process this one since everything just kept going wrong after.

TW, I am sorry about your feelings with letting everyone down, I again know the feeling. DS doesn't get it and thinks things come back after they die, so he still thinks the baby is coming one day.

coco2787 · February 2018

@CraftyG I'm sorry your struggling and that your week away didn't give you the reprieve you hoped for

I hope you can find something that helps.

@dpjennifer sorry this last cycle was a no-go

You're right about being hopeful even if you don't think you are. It's so hard to just let go of that.

@kindbytealikat I'm sorry last week was rough for you. I hate how the emotions come out of nowhere sometimes. I hope everything goes well at your follow up appointment

@ChloandCoco I understand feeling emotionally exhausted. I haven't been through as much or been on this journey as long as you, but I'm already pretty sick of this roller coaster. It's so hard not to let it take over your life.

@bakerstreetboys I hope AF shows up for you soon. Waiting/being in limbo is so frustrating.

@eleven_ the not knowing is the worst. It just would be nice to know whether or not all this pain and suffering will be worth it in the end. I hope your RE appointment helps find some answers for you.

@lokibear89 I'm glad you and your H had a good talk. I'm bad about talking about my emotions too, I need to work on that.

@holly321 I'm glad to hear you're feeling optimistic this week. Yay for stopping BCP soon!

holly321 · February 2018

@eleven_ good luck with your appointment tomorrow.

@lokibear89, I am glad you and your DH talked. Sometimes it takes blowing up on each other to get to a better place.

And my optimistic good attitude came crashing down. TW mentioned in spoiler. I will allow myself a pity party tonight.

DH just told me that SIL went to labor and delivery yesterday, she isn't in labor yet but said any time down. Obviously, I am happy for them, but sad for me. Dh was trying to be really sweet when he told me and was saying how it will be our turn soon and all that crap, that annoys me instead of making me feel better. It isn't like we know what will happen next time.

lokibear89 · February 2018

@holly321 So sorry about your SIL, its so hard those mixed emotions. Its not like you want everyone to stop having babies but where is yours?!

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@eleven_ I couldn't have said it better myself. I just want a crystal ball to tell me if I'll have a healthy baby. This not knowing is just awful. If it isn't going to happen, I'd rather know now so I can grieve and eventually move on. Also, I love your user name and profile pic

offtoneverland · February 2018

@CraftyG Do tell us about this wonderful hot tub! Did you have such a great time relaxing with YH? I hope so. I hate that you came back feeling just as depressed though. Please take time for yourself so you can hopefully start to feel a little better.
@dpjennifer What did you eat on your cheat day? I hope it was delicious. I'm so sorry about AF.
@kindbytealikat Good luck at your appointment on Wednesday. Please let us know how it goes, if you're feeling up to getting online that night. That's sweet that YH likes to celebrate Valentine's Day!
@ChloandCoco I love your idea of not holding back and trying to plan for a future baby. I'm getting tired of planning around it too, and I want to be better about just doing what I want and figuring things out later. I'm so sorry about the recent reminder of your due date. I'm really glad you enjoyed your weekend getaway. You deserved some time away.
@coco2787 Good luck at your appointment this week. Hopefully you can get some testing started. I understand what you mean about not getting time off to process the CP. I found out about my last loss the day I got back from a long vacation so I couldn't call in sick the next day. It was so difficult trying to get things done while my mind was elsewhere.
@bakerstreetboys FX your period starts soon so you can get the testing started ASAP. It must be torture waiting so long for it to start.

@eleven_ Hooray for your RE appointment tomorrow! I'm looking forward to hearing about it. What would you study if you went back to school?
@lokibear89 So sorry to hear about the fight with YH, but that's great that you both were able to open up about your worries and fears. Those conversations are so good to have, but sometimes are really hard to get started. After my losses I kind of assumed that MH knew how I was feeling, but realized way too late that I never expressed my feelings to him and couldn't expect him to understand. I'm planning to test on Monday as well, but might cave and do it Sunday instead.
@holly321 It's so hard to juggle between those feelings of being happy for someone, but being sad for yourself at the same time. Take care of yourself.

offtoneverland · February 2018

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. Three early losses in 2017.

Status: TWW

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Right now I'm just so thankful for my wonderful friends on TTGP who've helped me come to terms with my low AMH. I had my RE appointment today and found out that my AFC was 3 at my baseline u/s; I thought she had said it was 6 or 8. So that was quite a shock too. She gave us our options of trying on our own, IUI with clomid, or IVF with PGS. She said we shouldn't try on our own for too long as it's not clear if I'll be fertile for a lot longer or not. MH and I talked about it tonight and decided to try on our own for a few months and see what happens. I'd like to let the CoQ10, and my other recent changes from ISWTE, run their course and see if that helps. Oh, the RE recommended this time that I take CoQ10. Last time she didn't think it was necessary because of my age, but I guess my low numbers changed her mind!
I'm feeling surprisingly okay. I got a good laugh tonight when MH asked me how I was doing with the news. I said that I'm used to bad news by now, so I'm feeling okay. He jokingly said, "So you're telling me you're sad all the time?" And I replied, very seriously, "Yes! All the time!" I don't think he realized it was that bad, so he was surprised.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Vitamin D, genetic tests for Fragile X and other stuff. HPT on Sunday or Monday.

GTKY: Honestly, I haven't even thought about it! We'll probably just have a lazy night playing video games and reading books, as per usual.

lokibear89 · February 2018

@offtoneverland I think we had spent so long trying not to upset the other it just built up. I think if anything he might be more upset (at the moment) than I am because I have launched myself into TTGP and he is kinda just doing as he is told in regards to that. On that note I might actually show him some of my crazy charting and symptom recording tonight so that he can see what it is I am doing and what it means. Also there is this kind of COQ10 - called mitoquinol or MitoQ which is supposed to reach the mitochondria of cells as its water soluble with a slight positive charge. Its pretty pricey but might be worth looking at.

offtoneverland · February 2018

@lokibear89 I haven't heard of MitoQ. I'll look it up. Thanks for the tip! I've spent so much this week replacing my hair products and makeup with paraben-free versions that I'm hesitant to spend more money. But if it helps, it's worth a shot! Good luck showing YH your charts. I showed MH a while ago and his eyes glazed over.

lokibear89 · February 2018

@offtoneverland I kind of assume that is what will happen but at least I would have tried

coco2787 · February 2018

I'm so sorry your test results aren't what you had hoped @offtoneverland

Hopefully the fact that you've been able to get pregnant in the past without intervention will work in your favor.

zamoraspin · February 2018

It's crazy and sad how this thread has blown up so much over the last few months. For a while last summer/early fall I felt like it was just me and like 4-5 other ladies who posted here.

@offtoneverland I'm glad you were able to talk to the RE and I'm sorry the AFC was lower than you thought. I'm glad she's on board with the CoQ10. I listened to a specific episode of a podcast this morning that you might be interested in. I sporadically listen to Beat Infertility (sometimes I don't love it, and I can't hear about the host's own stories, they make me too sad). Episode 113 "Premature Ovarian Aging" is a success story about a woman who had Hashimoto's and Lime disease which caused premature ovarian aging. She had a lot of struggles but once she found the right dr (in her case a dr who specialized in immune issues) and was put on the right balance of supplements (CoQ10 and DHEA) she got her AMH to go from .8 to 3.7. I was shocked to hear this was even possible, and it may have been because her underlying issues could be addressed, but just wanted to share this with you.
@CraftyG I'm sorry you are going through depression and I echo the sentiment to consider talking to someone.
@dpjennifer When a cycle doesn't work out I usually eat stuff like queso cheese and Margaritas. Treat yo self.
@eleven_ Let us know how the appointment goes.
@kindbytealikat I'm sorry you've been struggling. It is so hard when we put things on hold for ttc and it doesn't work out.
@ChloandCoco I mean, are we the same person? DH and I are also planning to do fondue and a movie at home on V-Day. What do you put in your fondue? I used to have the Melting Pot cookbook but lost it somehow in a move I think. I usually do gruyere and swiss, and sometimes have added carmelized onions. I have also experimented with things like flavored cheeses.
@coco2787 @holly321 For me the first loss I had destroyed me and made me not function for a while. My other losses made me very sad, depressed, and hopeless, but somehow the first one has remained the worst.
@bakerstreetboys I'm sorry for the waiting. I do not wait very patiently either. I hope things move quickly for you and you get your cycle back soon.
@meatballs37 I saw your post in last week's thread and just wanted to say I am thinking about you. I am so sorry, I always wish I had words of wisdom but I've got nothing. It just sucks and is terrible.
I'm sorry if I missed anyone!

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 first tri losses.

Status: WTO

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am doing ok this week. I am not quite sure what my body is doing because I have O'd anywhere from CD12 - 25 since we started trying last March. Hopefully things will become clearer soon.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope

GTKY: Valentines days coming up, what are your plans? Fondue and a movie. Open to suggestions on the movie though. We usually have difficulty deciding.

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@offtoneverland Sorry to hear about your AFC results. Fingers and toes crossed that you're able to conceive on your own soon. Enjoy your gaming and book night tomorrow

Edited to add: does anyone know which is better; Ubiquinol, or CoQ10? I have read a ton about both online, and get that one is absorbed better/faster, but I'm still unclear on the difference. I have taken both and plan to ask my OB about it in a couple of weeks at D&C follow up.

dpjennifer · February 2018

bakerstreetboys Cheat day was amazing! And yay for you being back at the gym!

eleven_ Nah, I’m doing BeachBody. I just finished 21 day fix. After the long weekend I’m going to start Country Heat for 30 days. Hope your RE visit goes well.

lokibear89 I’m glad you and DH were able to have a good talk.

holly321 Sorry for the rough evening. It is hard to be happy for others when you feel so bad for yourself. And the super optimism when you don’t know what the future will hold, is harsh as well. Sorry DS doesn’t understand either. That has to be tough!

offtoneverland I had a cookie, and some popcorn and pop at the movies, and some mozzarella sticks… mmm…. Sorry for the bad news though. It does suck when you start expecting bad news because that’s all you ever seem to be told.

zamora_spin Good luck picking a movie! If you haven't seen The Greatest Showman, I HIGHLY recommend. Jumanji was also pretty good... funny and light, not as scary as the first one. (Or maybe I'm just a pansy about 'scary' movies). I've heard 15:17 to Paris is good, but it doesn't have 'actors' in it, but rather the people who were actually there... so it's good but not well 'acted' which makes it a bit off at times. Forever My Girl is supposed to be good, but I haven't seen it.

zamoraspin · February 2018

@bakerstreetboys I have read that Ubiquinol is better absorbed than Ubiquinone (both are forms of CoQ10). I originally took a Jarrow Ubiquinol supplement I found on Amazon. Then my RE suggested I switch to Theralogix NeoQ10 which is one pill and is allegedly better absorbed, but weirdly that is Ubiquinone (allegedly it is the equivalent of over 600 mg of CoQ10). I did it because she said to but I think it's a confusing area. Try to take it in the morning in any case, it sometimes gives you extra energy.
eta - @dpjennifer I have seen Greatest Showman and I loved it. I bought the album too. We will probably just stick with a movie at home (on V-Day) but are planning to see the Black Panther movie this weekend.

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@Zamora_spin Thank you for taking the time to answer! It is a confusing thing to understand. I'm not sure my OB will have an opinion on it, and I don't have my first appointment with the fertility clinic until April, so I'm trying to figure out the best approach on my own for now

zamoraspin · February 2018

@bakerstreetboys No problem, I agree it is confusing. I also just thought to mention that when I was doing initial reading it wasn't clear how much I should take, but my RE (and others I've heard of) seem to have a strong preference that you take the equivalent of 600mg CoQ10. I like the Theralogix because I can get that in one pill, whereas the Jarrow I was taking three 100mg pills which I *think* was equivalent to 600mg because it was Ubiquinol which is allegedly absorbed twice as well, but I'm not totally sure. Again, it's all kind of confusing, but I would suggest if you take it to aim for the 600 mg amount, which is kind of high but it's better than getting to your RE and finding out you aren't taking enough. I also have DH on the Theralogix. I mean, why not.

eleven_ · February 2018

@dpjennifer Oooh I love the 21 day fix work out DVDs. I don’t follow the diet, but I still do the workouts.
@bakerstreetboys Thank you! I just loved Stranger Things. I totally know what you mean about feeling the need to be doing something. Waiting for AF to come and then end for me has been really hard because I just want to try again as quickly as possible. I’m sure it’s so much harder for you after the D&C. I hope AF shows up for you soon.
@holly321 I’m so sorry you had to deal with the emotions of hearing about your SIL. It’s so hard because you want to be happy, but you are just so sad for yourself. My SIL is pregnant too and she is due this month. I am so happy for her, but I know I will be filled with jealousy when I hold her newborn.
@lokibear89 I’m so sorry about your fight with your DH. I feel like fights with my DH are so stressful for me when they are happening, but afterwards I feel so much better and we feel closer than ever. It’s hard trying to not let things bottle up. FX for you for this cycle.
@offtoneverland I graduated with my medical technology degree a few years ago. I would only have to go to school for 2 more years to become a PA. My plan was to start applying when this baby turned 2. My plans seem further away now though. I’m so sorry you feel so sad all the time now. That’s sort of how I feel too. We need a vacation. Did you finish your book for book club? What are you reading now?
@zamora_spin I hate when O doesn’t come on the same day every month. When I first started TTC, I always O’d on day 11, but after my losses it’s been really late and it stresses me out. I’m trying to think of a good movie I’ve seen lately. Have you watched the new Thor? We watched it last weekend and I really liked it. My DH is from Switzerland so we eat a lot of fondue in our house. Have you tried adding cloves of garlic? It’s my favorite!

ChloandCoco · February 2018

@bakerstreetboys Waiting for AF is one of the hardest parts of a mc. I really hope it starts up soon for you. I read somewhere that chamomile tea is suppose to help kickstart your period, but it never really worked for me.
@eleven_ I know what you mean about wanting to know if it's in the cards or not so you can just move on. I hope your RE appointment goes well today!
@lokibear89 It sucks that you and YH had a fight, but it's good that YH was able to open up to you about his fear and stress. I hope you two are able to keep talking to each other.
@offtoneverland It sounds like your RE appointment went fairly well, I'm sorry to hear about your AFC level.
@holly321 I'm sorry about your SIL. I get that you are feeling happy for her, but it's also a reminder of what you don't have. It's a very weird mix of emotions.
@zamora_spin Geez! It's really starting to feel like our lives are very similar... I can PM you the recipe (once I get it from my parents), but the ingredients are gruyere, emmental, garlic, and white wine. It's such a good recipe that it really don't need anything else. We use a fondue pot, which I think is the same thing as a melting pot? As for movie suggestions, this one isn't romantic, but we started watching Altered Carbon on Netflix and it's really good!

galactickates · February 2018

Tw lurking Oct bmb rant - children - not mine obviously mentioned

I just read an intro on Oct - pregnant with #7... seriously... can I just have 1? Just 1 would be great. That's all I'm asking for is one 1 healthy baby. It just seems so unfair some people get 7 freaking children and I have 0. Must be nice.

eleven_ · February 2018

@ChloandCoco I just mentioned to @zamora_spin above that we love fondue in our house too. I would love the recipe if you end up getting it from your parents. We usually do the same thing every time. It would be nice to try something new

ChloandCoco · February 2018

@galactickates Ugh. That's why I have trouble lurking the intros in the new BMB.

@eleven_ , @zamora_spin , and anyone else who would like the cheese fondue recipe (in the spoiler)

This recipe is for two and plenty if you have a salad and dessert. But if this is all you are eating, I would double the recipe.

Ingredients:
- 1 clove of garlic
- 150g of gruyere
- 150g of emmental
- 40ml of dry white wine
- white baguette cut into bite sized cubes
- pinch of pepper

Preparation:
- Grab a fondue pot a rub the bottom and sides with the clove of garlic
- Add the wine
- Cut both types of cheese into thick shavings, and add to the fondue pot
- Cook over high heat while stirring constantly until the cheese becomes creamy, turn the heat down to low
- Add the pepper
- Put a piece of baguette on the end of a fondue fork, dunk it in the cheese and enjoy!

I would keep it on low heat while eating it, or else it turns into a hard lump of cheese.

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@eleven_ My DH is from Denmark, so fondue is big in our house too! Have you been to Switzerland? We go to Denmark every year or every second year, and I'd love to visit Switzerland while we're there some time. So far we have made it to France, Scotland, and Germany.

galactickates · February 2018

@chloandcoco - I just saved that recipe, that looks incredible!

eleven_ · February 2018

@bakerstreetboys We lived in Switzerland for a year! It's really beautiful. I would love to go to Denmark, and Scotland is definitely on my bucket list. Do you guys celebrate European Christmas? DH's family made me fall in love with celebrating on the 24th instead of the 25th.
@ChloandCoco Thank you! I think I will attempt your recipe this weekend

@galactickates I'm sorry, friend. Reading the intros always makes me sad. Especially when I was supposed to be in that BMB.

bakerstreetboys · February 2018

@eleven_ Wow, that must have been an amazing year! We sort of celebrate both

We do the advent candle on the four Sundays leading up to Christmas, and open one gift on the 24th! The celebrations continue on the 25th

dpjennifer · February 2018

galactickates Ugh.. I hate people and the unfairness of life.

zamoraspin · February 2018

@ChloandCoco Thank you! Looks great. Similar to what I have done but different enough I bet it is amazing!

eleven_ · February 2018

My OB just made me feel like complete shit. She basically made me feel like she thought I was lying about ever being pregnant. I brought her documentation from both CPs. The first HCG test I had done when I had already started bleeding so my results were only at 5. She basically said that 5 is a normal result and she can't even count that as a loss. During my second CP I tested my HCG the day I started cramping and my result was 12 followed 2 days later by bleeding. She said 12 isn't that high either and it could have been HCG left in my blood from my first loss (which she won't acknowledge). Is this a thing? I mean... I feel like I know my body. I had my blood tests done by the health clinic at my work, and she asked "Who even ordered these tests for you? Your friend"? I was at a loss for words and I couldn't keep it together so I just got up and walked out.

Now I'm so nervous to go the RE. Are they going to treat me this way too? Since my last 2 CPs don't even count, do I need to go through his 3 more times and make sure they are 100% documented be taken seriously?

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