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Why My TTGP Self is Crying
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Re: Why My TTGP Self is Crying
We're out of wine. And there's a hole in the crotch of my favorite pair of lounge pants. Am I the only one that gets weird emotional attachments to my lounge pants? It's probably because I change into them the second I walk in the door. I never wear real grown up clothes at home.
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
@SkilledSailor, sorry you are bloated, and I am certain clomid is not only making you bloated, but isn't helping you emotionally with it either. I am certain you look great!
I am crying because my parents' barn cat keeps sneaking in the house (we live here temporarily while looking for something new) and I keep having to put him out. I feel so bad, especially because he sees my cats in here and not being put our.
We decided he is going to be allowed to stay, but he needs flea treatment and shots first.
Meanwhile, hubs has decided against wanting to try anytime soon if ever (TW: I had terrible untreated port partum, end TW***) and even if he was on board, and have some health stuff that just won’t get under control.
@holly321 I am a sucker for cats. Let all the little kitties inside!!
@offtoneverland I am with @holly321. A hole never stopped me from wearing the pants!
@spottedginger All of the Hugs.
*H forgot to bring me lunch when he said he would.
*He told me to eat something I’m allergic to.
*My parents both wished MH happy birthday today. Spoiler alert: today is not his birthday.
*My parents had a shitty response to me telling them about the RE.
*MH’s parents responded exactly as expected.
*I want to be eating chocolate but chocolate does not sound good.
*I had to unwrap a present bc I couldn’t remember who it was for & hadn’t put a a tag on it yet.
*I was thinking about the time my kitty at escaped & ran away.
*I am dreading bed because I get cold then hot.
......clearly my medication level should be adjusted if I wasn’t TTGP
@offtoneverland wear the pants, and send DH out for more wine
@spottedginger sorry, hugs to you and hope you can get on the same page
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
@offtoneverland Haha I have sweats with a crotch hole. I totally still wear them. Do you have Amazon Prime Now where you are? Wine can be delivered.
@spottedginger *hugs* Those are both rough. My above suggestion goes for you as well.
@jrm_14 Sorry your parents didn’t respond well today. Not a great weekend. Again, you can have wine delivered
@nmbrcrnchr1 I hope tomorrow is better for you! Sometimes we just need a fresh start.
@kariann323 Um, did you TP them? Because I would have been tempted.
Having to read through and sign IVF paperwork and make decisions I never thought I would have to make.
Working third shift and never ever ever getting enough sleep.
Having to wake up at 6am tomorrow for a 7am ultrasound after being awake almost 27 hours and only sleeping maybe five hours tonight.
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
I am crying bc I did like six loads of laundry today, and now there's six loads worth of clean clothes I need to bring up from the basement.
I am crying bc I want to make banana bread, but I don't have the energy to make banana bread.
I am crying because I am fat but I also want cheesecake.
I am crying because I wanted to push myself to start decorating, and now there are holiday decorations in the diningroom. :'(
<div class="QuoteAuthor"><a href="/profile/jrm_14">jrm_14</a> said:</div>
<div class="QuoteText">@shortstack930 @BusinessWife Cry all the tears (and eat the cheesecake). </div>
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I almost took a picture! DHs was mostly blueberry with a little cherry; mine was mostly cherry with a little blueberry. I made super-easy cheesecake bars and served them topped with the canned fruit pie-filling. 10/10 would recommend. ;)
I cried for a bit, but now I just want to fight her.
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
AFM... I stepped on the scale. I think I'm just going to throw the damn thing out.
BFP #1: 9/12/2015
DD: 6/1/2016
BFP #2: 1/16/2018 MC 2/2/2018
@BusinessWife - I feel ya on the cheesecake! I love dessert. I went to a work dinner last night and while I do not enjoy making small talk, I very much enjoyed the catering. We had the most delicious tiramisu ever. I tried to make it myself once but failed really hard because I used shortbread instead of lady fingers. I'll figure it out one day. I have goals to learn excellent Italian cooking.
@jsnakehole - what a C U Next Tuesday! I hate sanctimonious women who rant against couples with pets. My pets are my family. They're a rotten and decrepit lot but I still love them. I don't trust people who don't have pets. They bring so much joy. And I'll never understand how people can hate cats. They're so lovable and playful and so sweet when they sleep on your chest. Cat purrs make everything better for me.
I'm crying due to my intense PMS which is conflicting with my health goals. I have a severe case of tender-tits and perpetual cravings that I cannot satisfy. And bloating. And pre-cramps which while not as awful as real cramps still distract me. My skin's okay, though, because it's winter and the large amount of oil my skin makes during this time is helping a lot with the dryness I normally experience. Hope is on the horizon - my students are doing a dine-and-donate at my favorite pizza joint and I am really excited to participate tonight.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@BusinessWife I too am crying that I did about 6 loads of laundry but mine are in the car because our washer broke and I had to go to my moms to do them and now I have to bring them in the house.
im crying Bc I feel Like I’ve been PMSing for a week and CD1 has yet to start.
im crying Bc my new nurse still hasn’t called me today.
@galactickates omg peanut butter cup cheesecake blizzard ?!? I didn’t even know that existed! MIND BLOWN!
@jsnakehole WHERE IS SHE?!?! We’ll all kick her as*!!
Pathetic.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
I can't wait to hear how much you loved it!
@offtoneverland i agree i don't wear real close at home--or a bra. that's off right after my jacket.
@holly321 oh sad, poor cat, glad he can come in soon.
@spottedginger ((hugs))
@jrm_14 i'm sorry for all the listed.
@nmbrcrnchr1 i hope today is better
@KariAnn323 ugh, people are so stupid sometimes--why don't you keep opinions to yourself unless you can reference a study.
@SkilledSailor and @jrm_14 do you eat tofutti "icecream sandwhiches"? very yummy and diary free.
@shortstack930 wishing you lots of sleep
@galactick @BusinessWife Sunday laundry day is great but sucky at the same way.
@jsnakehole what a jerk--i want to fight her too.
@zamora_spin ((hugs))
@Spylon ditto
@wishiwaspreggo enjoy that pizza
i'm crying because MH went to a movie without me -->which then of course went to a fight because why? why would you do that it's just rude. sure leave me at home to do laundry and clean and you go to a movie alone. (totally just my side of the story but i'm sticking with it!)
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LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby!
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Me: 33 | DH: 41
Married: March 2016
TTC #1/IUD out January 2017
PCOS dx January 2018
Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018
BFP 3/10/2018!
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@businesswife YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE. I had no idea non-dairy ice cream has evolved into delicious goodness. (See picture In spoiler)
@jrm_14 @businesswife I tried to find this in Germany for months, but read this before coming home earlier, swung by the supermarket, had a short chat (in german) at the managers counter and hey presto he is ordering some for next weekend for me to pick up Saturday :-) So now I’m smiling through my pizza tears. He can’t get the pizza unfortunately as it’s out of stock.
@lurvleybunchococonuts LOL at suck my lady balls hehehehehe
@wishiwaspreggo also LOL at “severe case of tender tits”
What makes you guys cry has me crying with laughter mostly!
@galactickates @ndz2018 omg I really want that ice cream now too...
maybe its an early FFFC... but I think I have an obsession with ice cream these past few weeks!
@jsnakehole she’s doesn’t stand a chance against the TTGP army! What a bi-at-ch...
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@blackhottamales I haven’t heard if those ice cream sandwiches. I’ll have to look for them (if you can pry the ben&jerry’s from my hands)!
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Eta- she also taught me about mint Oreo blizzards, and peanut buster parfait blizzards. I had the inside scoop
Also... I am ALWAYS interested in Blizzards
Btw I love this post. I love the support given and received from perfect strangers but brought close to this crazy thing we are all going through.
Married: 08/2016
TTC: 10/2017
IUI #1-3 BFN
IVF 11/2018- 23 eggs retrieved, 16 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI with 7 embryos making it to freeze
FET #1 02/2019 BFN
FET #2 4/19 BFP!!!!! EDD 1/4/20