You are all so right. The whole process is so hard sometimes and has so many ups and downs, and often the ups are hard to even fully enjoy since we've all experienced heartache before. While this board overwhelms me sometimes in keeping up, I'm so glad to have somewhere to chat with people who get it.
Leaving shortly for my transfer and my doctor called to let me know we have 3 beautiful embryos that are perfect, 2 that he is hoping will catch up by tomorrow for freezing, and 3 that dropped off. Feeling so grateful that I'll have at least 2 chances with this IVF cycle, as I know some people get many more and but often many less!
Thank you @artemis618, hoping it goes smoothly! Anxiously awaiting your day 6 report tomorrow with you!
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like
a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
Ladies I am way to emotional today for this board!!
artemis618 yay for 3 thats great! Hoping a few more would pull through tomorrow...glad you have frosties for testing yay!! We will always want more and I"m hoping you got some normies in there!!
@latvaughanash yay that is a great update - go lil embabies thats awesome!!! sending you super sticky vibes for your transfer today - best of luck!!!
@emmasemm you're very wise and really have the perfect attitude for IVF. Its so hard and its good to have people like you to help remind us of this process. I hate that when we take a test we expect it to be negative but after your first IUI or IVF you are shocked that you don't see the second line. From the beginning I cried at my clinics first visit but I excepted it and moved on that I could do this... but you really don't know what you're made of till you start this process. It bothers me that the first try doesn't work for everyone cause it should...its right there how does it not!!! But we know its a miracle and pray that we're all on our road to motherhood in some way. I'm nervous everyday, I hate, i hate thinking of the worst all the time and just want to be happy but in the moment i'm happy i just get so scared. As for your test I tested too early so you just dont know. Hoping you have a lil late snuggler like me Still have all the hope in the world for you!!
cxsimo08loverin thinking of you both and have high hopes hang in there. This journey is different for us all but hopefully we are on our way!!
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
BFN today. I'm heartbroken. No eggs left twice now and no funds left to do this again- so I think I'm done. I feel completely hopeless.
I may come back to check on you all but for now I'm just going to hibernate a bit. Thanks ladies for being here for me for the past month. It's meant more than you know. I hope you all have wonderful happy pregnancies and beautiful healthy babies. I wish you all the best.
Christina
Me 32 DH 36, Married 12/2013, TTC Since 9/2015 Diagnosis: Unexplained 2 IVFs, 8 IUIs (2 Clomid, 6 Injectables)
Nov '16: TI Clomid- 2 Follicles, BFN
Dec '17: IUI Clomid- 1 Follicle, BFN
Jan '17: TI Clomid - 1 Follicle, BFN
Feb '17: IUI Clomid - 1Follicle, BFN
Mar '17: IUI Inject - Canceled (Cyst)
Jun '17: IVF Antagonist, 13ER, 10Fert (5ICSI, 5Nat) - No Blasts, 1 D5T, BFN
@cxsimo08 oh no :-( I'm so sorry. You know where we all are. Hibernate. Cry. Scream. Whatever you need to do for you. You're in my thoughts.
And you know I'm a one-egg-at-time girl so totally with you on not having frosties.
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@cxsimo08 Oh no Christina I am so sorry to hear this. Please take all the time you need to rage or cry or check out. We are always here if you need us. You're a wonderful person and I know you will find some path forward. Sending you so much strength right now
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like
a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
I'm heart-broken to come back to this thread to see BFN and CP. I'm sorry, ladies, I'm crying with you
I'm hoping so hard for the good results for the people who're still in wait for their Beta and/or embryo reports.
AFM: My beta#2 came back at 528, and the clinic won't be doing any more Betas, but rather will go straight into U/S on Oct 9 to locate the implantation spot.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My story in signature spoiler. Children mentioned.
Me: 37 DH: 45 I don't produce FSH, so no natural menstrual cycle. DH has reduced morphology. Summer 2014 IUI (with first husband): cancelled after almost a month of stims due to too many follicles Time off to divorce, get back on my feet, find a new hubby and get married again 💑 March 2017 IVF#1: ~70 follicles, 13R, 10M, 7F, 3B = 2 PGS Normal (both XY) - no transfer due to ohss Sept 2017 FET#1: BFP, Beta#1 (10dpt) - 253, Beta#2 (12dpt) - 528, DS born 05/31/2018 👨👩👦 Dec 2019 FET#2: BFN Changed clinic, planning March 2020 IVF#2 - postponed due to the pandemic April 2020 IVF #2: ~30 follicles, 24R, 12M, 8F, 4B = 2XY & 2XX, all normal Sept 2020 FET#3: one XX embryo, BFP, Beta#1 (9dpt) - 161, Beta#2 (11dpt) - 519, Beta#3 (19dpt) - 7174, Due date 05/30/2021 DD born 05/23/2021 👨👩👧👦 - My family is now complete
@cxsimo08. Oh, dear. So many hugs to you. I don't even know what to say. It's like we reach the end of our rope with ttc, and then we tie a knot and hang on when we try ivf. And even that doesn't work every time, either. It's so cruel really. I can only relate best to how I felt when we got DHs azoo dx. I hate to admit, but I had those passing thoughts like my life was over. But somehow we found a way to pick up the pieces and move forward. And I know you will, too. Please know you are loved and cared for, and welcome anytime, to lurk, post, take a break, pm, whatever you need to do bumpwise. But please do be gentle with yourself, and take good care. Hot baths, long walks, aimless drives, ridiculous workouts - whatever you need to do to feel just a tiny bit okay. That's what I hope you'll do. ❤❤❤
@DecemberDoll27 I’m so sorry about your CP. unfortunately I’ve been there multiple times so please PM if you need to talk. We are all here for you. Whatever you do don’t blame yourself - I know it’s not easy but as someone once told me we do not have the power to control these things.
@cxsimo08 so sorry you feel like this is the end for you. I hope that in time you pick up the pieces and figure out what’s best for you. Are you located in the US? If so, is changing jobs for you or DH an option to find a plan with fertility coverage? I work in the insurance industry so if you ever need advice feel free to reach out.
AFM: still waiting to hear about the test results. Transfer will be around Nov 6th at the earliest. Hoping my little fighters pass this test with flying colors. Sorry I’ve been lurking recently - just need time to come to terms with reality. Wishing everyone GL and Fx for BFPs.
@cxsimo08 Oh Christina I'm heartbroken for you, be kind to yourself! I'm so sorry! I know your journey isn't over!! Take all the time you need!
looking for a job with coverage is a great idea. I hear city jobs offer good coverage. I've been OOP I get it with every card maxed out.
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
AFM I had strong cramps in the night and heavy spotting (but not enough to fill a panty liner, so technically spotting), still applied my crinone this morning which has of course slowed things down a bit, and am waiting for a call back from the clinic to see if they want me to go in, still use the crinone the next days, or what. I assume the crinone is the only thing preventing AF from coming in full. Had a good hug this morning with DH before work and trying not to kill anyone in the office at the moment as 1) I'm in pain with cramps which makes me snappy normally and 2) definitely in the anger stage of grief and extra quick to lash out. My anger is a bit directed at the clinic and a bit at me at the moment - my progesterone levels have been really high, and I had all the strong symptoms that it was working, so we didn't re-test the levels in the last week, whereas maybe I should have pushed to have done so. Since it was public holiday the clinic was closed from Friday until today, so in reality even if we'd tested in Thursday it probably was still ok and if it dropped after that I would have had no way to get checked, but, well my RE will get the full Spanish Inquisition on it when I get to speak to him... And the planner in me is already trying to pre-block dates in my calendar for November round 2. At these times I need to have the next actions clearly laid out in front of me, so I can move forward step by step.
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@cxsimo08 I’m so sorry my friend. My heart hurts for you. I hate that with all the work and tears it’s not always what we’d like it to be, it doesn’t seem fair. You’re in my thoughts, know we are here for anything you need in this process!
@emmasemm my heart goes out to you as well! Be kind to yourself the next few days, we are here for whatever you need right now. You are a warrior and use that planning to keep your mind off of things!
AFM Just got beta drawn. I’d like to go puke right now while I wait.
Me & DH: 28 | TTC since May 2016 | DH: Morphology 0% | 2 IUI's with Clomid - BFN | IVF ICSI Sept. 2017
@emmasemm Ah, shoot, I'm so sorry to hear it I think planning ahead sounds great if it's giving you comfort and confidence to move forward! Your RE better be ready for you!
@emmasemm, I am so sorry you are going through this! But not all the hope is lost just yet! My thoughts are with you today!
@cxsimo08 I am so incredibly sorry for your BFN, be kind to yourself and don't lose hope. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better right now, but just know that you have a bunch of virtual strangers who wish you well.
@loverin hey girl, hang in there! You should be our first success in September IVF group! I have everything crossed for you!
AFM, I am trying to not let myself fall into a deep depression. I actually feel ok today. I had a dream today that an old man I don't know told me that I should not cry. That CP means I can get pregnant and that we should do FET and everything will be good. For some reason that dream gave me hope back. We are doing blood work on Friday again to see if HCG goes to zero and then we will schedule a FET. My poor DH is so upset it hurts me. He really took it to heart, he was so excited about this pregnancy, and I do not know how to make him feel better.
Me 30, DH 39 TTC since Aug 2015, BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred. Dx: tubal IF IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN FET #2 Jan 2018- CP FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
@DecemberDoll27 Oh friend I'm so sorry for what you are going through I wish there were some magic words, but there aren't. My husband and I both became extremely depressed after my loss this year. I spent days in bed. I think I took a whole week off work followed by "working from home" another week because I couldn't handle going outside. Be kind to yourself. This is a trauma and you deserve to grieve.
Give yourself several days to grieve before you try to do anything about it. Try to lean on each other in your sadness, instead of isolating yourself from each other. You don't have to be normal today. If you take a shower, if you eat something, that's a victory. If you find something small that keeps you holding on a few more minutes -- watching a TV comedy together, a podcast, a novel, a craft project, a walk to the park, a call with a friend -- that's a victory.
It seems impossible to get through. So many of us know this pain and it's horrible and unfair and nothing makes it feel better for a long time. But you will get to a place where you are ready for FET and you will get your take-home baby.
@adirat Thank you! Your words mean so much right now! When are you gonna know your PGD results?
Me 30, DH 39 TTC since Aug 2015, BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred. Dx: tubal IF IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN FET #2 Jan 2018- CP FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
My heart goes out to everyone who is hearing and coming to terms with bad news over the last few days on here. I am sad to report I am also in that category (most likely). POAS yesterday and again this morning and no second line. Have beta tomorrow morning. MEH. As far as being angry, I’m right there with some of you. This cycle was just so rushed and cobbled together. I look back and am angry with myself for not having the mind and strength of heart to tell my doctor to wait until my next AF and properly check surge again. We didn’t suppress, just went right into stims, which had me starting with a higher AFC but then yielded horrible stimulation and even worse fertilization (even with 100% ICSI)
Hubby and I are heading away on holiday for the rest of the week after beta. A good glass of wine and a deep tissue massage is most certainly in order.
Then we will discuss our next steps, whether we ride this crazy train again, move to DOR or even adoption.
This process seems to harden your heart once you hit a certain point, and I think that is what makes me the saddest.
Good luck to those of you who have amazing successes. I couldn’t be happier for you all!
Hugs and strength and virtual fist bumps to all of my fellow warriors, still fighting to build the family we all want to have.
@cmiller73 I hope you have a great vacation and you guys can figure out a path moving forward! I hate seeing so many have to go through a failed cycle.
@DecemberDoll27 My husband isn't super emotional, so I can't even imagine if he was as depressed as I was during all the ups and downs! Just keep being there for him and you guys will get through this together and be ready to try again shortly!
@emmasemm I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're already able to look forward to the next step, as I know being able to plan and move forward is always what helped me throughout all our IUIs, etc.
My transfer went pretty well. I do have a slightly tilted cervix so it took a little longer than normal, which was uncomfortable to say the least, but overall pretty painless. I am sooooo uncomfortable and bloated today from the hcg and progesterone shot they gave me. I'm honestly not sure how you guys do those PIO shots regularly, they are a killer! Made me grateful for my suppositories, haha.
Today I'll find out if any more made it to blast; yesterday there was just 1 and he was watching 2 or 3 more (can't remember for sure). I'm really hoping 1 more caught up but it is what it is. First beta is scheduled for next Wednesday which I think will be here before I know it!
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like
a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
@DecemberDoll27 Glad your dream made you feel better. I almost think our mind knows more on a subconscious level. With my *TW second MC end TW* I dreamt that my great grandmother was calling family members that I was Pg. I woke up and tested that AM and it was positive but sadly it ended a week later. Do not lose hope - you have a good chance with FET as CP is a good indication that you can get pregnant. GL!!
@cmiller73 sorry you're not getting a squinter but i would still like to hold out hope for you! Hoping you have an enjoyable time away! Glad you're still thinking of next steps! Try not to beat yourself up about the cycle, I do the same and we'll never know what the differences could have done or not!
@latvaughanash congrats your PUPO yay!!! Next week will be hear soon enough! (something I keep trying to remind myself of too!!) Hoping a couple more frosties pull through for you!!
@DecemberDoll27 I'm sorry you're in this situation its very hard to bounce right back from. I have bad days of depression still, allow yourself to grieve and go through the motions. I'm glad you had a dream that is hopefully foreshadowing your future!
@emmasemm you're a true warrior and I know that you're going to have your miracle baby! Please don't beat yourself up I do it all the time and still do. We never know what could've should've for our cycles. You've done everything and I always admired from the beginning your passion for your one egg this cycle. I know how important each egg means for us. You did everything right please don't forget that!!
adirat hoping you get a great report today or tomorrow with lots of frosties ready for pgd!
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Thanks everyone for your kind words today, it really means a lot. Which sounds cliched but it's true.
@dragonette505 Thanks a lot for popping in here. Beta was supposed to be Friday but they've said I can go in tomorrow already so that's what I'll do. Apart from anything I want to stop the progesterone and get AF asap if it's truly a BFN. They seem most concerned that it might be ectopic. Had the old, if the cramps get stronger, if you feel pain in your shoulder speech again...
@loverin any news on your beta? I'm needing success stories more than ever today
@adirat you hit the nail on the head, I actually think my RE was already a little scared of me, when he sees my extended decision tree and my excel analyses he's going to run for the hills ;-) Any news on your day 5 report? Keeping everything crossed for you!
@dcemberdoll27 thank you for coming back even though you are hurting yourself. are you back at work, or taking time off? I felt I had to push myself to keep going today as I know if I stay in bed all day I will fall into a big hole that it's really hard to get out of. But it was the right thing for me for today. Let's see tomorrow. I'm just taking it one day at a time for now.
@cmiller73 oh I do hope you get a nice surprise with beta tomorrow. Though good wine and massage sounds like a good way to recover. Maybe I hit an Aperol Spritz on the weekend... mmm... fist bump right back at ya :-)
@latvaughanash yay to being PUPO! wow next Wednesday is really soon for your beta! That will be here before you know it! Fx for a good update on your other blasts too!
@artemis618 any more news on your embies they were still watching?
@hopeful_mom you are keeping me inspired that it is possible to have success after many difficult cycles! Keep popping in to say hi please so we can keep a glimmer of light in our sights!
And for tonight I'm snuggled up on the couch with DH watching Gremlins and eating ice cream - life could be better, but it could also be worse :-)
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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@emmasemm hang in there! I hope it is not EP (TW I had one and it sucked really bad TW). I actually only took Monday off and was back to work yesterday, keeping busy distracts me and I actually love my job. ( I do QA for a drug company) Could it be just spotting? Are you cramping badly with it? I refuse to lose hope for you! And I will have a glass of wine or two tonight, I will take small things that make me happy for now. Still waiting on the stupid bleeding to start, we are expecting my HCG to go to <5 by Friday already. @loverin I can't wait to hear your good news!
I miss chatting with you every day on here, so I can't stay away long!
Me 30, DH 39 TTC since Aug 2015, BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred. Dx: tubal IF IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN FET #2 Jan 2018- CP FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
@emmasemm No news yet... I'm ok with it though. If there are some they're still watching, I would rather get a full report on Day 6 instead of freaking out on Day 5 that too few have grown.
Hey ladies! *TW* I’m excited to say that we got a positive beta!!! I’m 10dp3dt and it was at 56 so I’m hoping that’s in the normal range! I literally just got the results 10 minutes ago (6:25 pm EST) after hounding our awful lab all day cause I was going CRAZY! I’m talking to my RE in the morning about next steps so that’s why I don’t know if it’s in a good place or not. *TW* A stressful day but I’m so excited and so nervous! Thank you guys for your support and well wishes, they were all felt!
Me & DH: 28 | TTC since May 2016 | DH: Morphology 0% | 2 IUI's with Clomid - BFN | IVF ICSI Sept. 2017
@loverin congrats!!!! This is awesome!!!! I am so happy for you!
Me 30, DH 39 TTC since Aug 2015, BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred. Dx: tubal IF IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN FET #2 Jan 2018- CP FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
@adirat I pretty much always have to wait till day 6 because our embryos are slow. My last RE assured me day 6 is totally normal. So as of yesterday, we had three blasts and today...
AFM (thanks for asking for @emmasemm), we had seven more blasts make it to biopsy as of this morning for a total of 10 (again, twice as many as the most we’d ever sent for testing in a single cycle), and RE says results should take about a week. We were kind of spoiled with our last shop b/c one time we even got the blast report on Friday and had the results the following Monday afternoon. But at this age, who knows? DH is petrified we’ll end up with no normals like we did last cycle, but all we can do at this point is hope for the best.
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@loverin Congrats! How are you surpriding DH again!! So glad you got some good news!! Everything crossed that beta keeps doubling!!!
@Artemis0685 whoah that is AMAZING!!! Double digits blasts u go girl!!! I know how hard it is to keep cycling but I think you found your magical protocol in every way!!! Can't wait for more good news!!!
@emmasemm I'm glad u relaxed and had some enjoyment!! It's tough! OH works crazy hours I had to beg for a bac rub, anything to take my mind off of worrying! I love all your spreadsheets I feel so unorganized. I would start putting questions in my phone to ask my RE and she would be nice asking if we covered everything but you know I would forget something and email her. Some emails I get a phone call back and that's when I know I e asked too much
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Congrats @loverin! I hope they have you in again to check the doubling soon and then onto 1st US with @hopeful_mom and @fuzzydust!
And @artemis618 I have screenshotted the details you sent me of your protocol and printed them for my "package" for my follow up! 10 is an awesome number of blasts for anyone but for us "more mature specimens" that is some kind of miracle! Now I KNOW I can do more than one egg per cycle too! Maybe not as high as you, but you pretty much doubled eggs and like you say have more blasts from one cycle than from the other three added together. So if I had 3 with 1, if I could get six from the 4th I think I would also have a chance.
Spreadsheet is I think up to date, let me know if I missed something in all the craziness.
@cmiller73 still keeping fx for you today and for @adirat for the freeze report
PS sitting waiting in the RE office right now for the academic blood draw. Going into the office for the morning then working from home this afternoon so I don't have to explain any tears in the office. Unless I feel like making all my male colleagues super uncomfortable, which is also I an idea if I'm feeling a bit sadistic later...
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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@adirat thank you!!! That did! I guess I was expecting the HCG to be higher and then not getting to talk with my doctor I wasn't sure what that number actually meant lol
@artemis618 those are incredible numbers, I'm so happy for you!! I'm glad it's "only" a week you have to wait but I can imagine that week is torturous! I know there's the worry of normal embies but I'd hope with that high of numbers you'd have better odds? I don't know how that works statistically but I have my fingers crossed for you! When will they be sent off to test so you can start the week count down?
@hopeful_mom thank you! I ended telling him the correct beta day because I didn't think it'd be fair to spring a negative on him when he wasn't expecting it if that was the result. BUT I did wake up yesterday morning and do a HPT before my beta and it was positive! I was still skeptical until I had the HCG number just to make sure it wasn't a fluke but I went ahead and woke him up at 6 AM (after working a shift until 1 AM) gave him a coffee mug with scorching hot coffee that he had to drink to read that said "you're going to be a daddy" on the bottom. Poor guy did not know what was going on but it was still nice to be able to surprise him lol.
@emmasemm lol at your sadistic comment. I'm glad they had you do it today instead of making you wait another day. You are a force to be reckoned with and I hope and have everything crossed that today is a surprise result for you! But if not, it sounds like you'll be prepared and ready to take on the next step with some helpful information from this group! I wish I were as organized as you my friend!
Me & DH: 28 | TTC since May 2016 | DH: Morphology 0% | 2 IUI's with Clomid - BFN | IVF ICSI Sept. 2017
I know I am new and jumped in towards the end, but I do appreciate the kind words that I received. I was super down about the fact that I tested at 8dpt, and saw 2 negatives.
*TW*
My beta was yesterday, and we got a BFP! I cannot believe it! My beta level was 436, so I don't KNOW what those pregnancy tests were about.
We are not out of the woods by any stretch, we had 2 losses this year and are cautiously optimistic. Want to be positive, but a lot of us know too well that it is hard sometimes.
I just wanted to share our good news...although I know not everyone has good news, and I want to note that my thoughts and prayers are with you all...
Me - 39 / Husband - 30 One 19 year old son Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally) Started with fertility Dr. 09/16 4 IUIs's 1st cycle canceled (10/16) 2nd cycle BFN (11/16) 3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16) -BREAK- 4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17) -BREAK- D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17) 1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
Follow up meeting next Thursday to agree plan for November round 2. So now I have a week to get my agenda and folder ready to be the best self-advocate possible.
Will keep following these betas and US and PGS and PGD results in the next weeks!
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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THAT BETA level, wow! Goes to show you that you never really know until beta what you're going to get, if I had tested even 2 days before beta I don't think I would have gotten a positive on Hpt, mine barely showed up on one home test yesterday while it showed up fine on 2 others (I went a little crazy).
AFM Just talked to my drs office and they said as long as my beta was over 50 they were ok with that. I'm doing another beta tomorrow to make sure it's doubling and if all looks good they'll set up my ultrasound! I'm nervous for tomorrow but fingers crossed all looks good. In other good news, they said my estradiol and progesterone levels looked "fabulous" so no more IM injections for me . It's silly but i'm nervous to stop them, it's nice to have that safety net right now.
Me & DH: 28 | TTC since May 2016 | DH: Morphology 0% | 2 IUI's with Clomid - BFN | IVF ICSI Sept. 2017
@Jaygrand and @loverin Congratulations!! Love seeing some positive results!
Just heard from my doctor that 1 more made it to freezing so we have 2 now, feeling so much better about that! Now just waiting till the 11th.
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like
a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
@loverin Good luck with your beta tomorrow, hopefully everything is progressing for you!! I understand being nervous to lose your safety bet, BUT hey - your levels are FAB!
The HPT are the worst...I know some are better than others, and sometimes it is all we have to cling on to, in hopes of getting a BFP, but UGH - never again. I was better off not knowing.
Praying for everyone, good news, bad news or no news...
Me - 39 / Husband - 30 One 19 year old son Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally) Started with fertility Dr. 09/16 4 IUIs's 1st cycle canceled (10/16) 2nd cycle BFN (11/16) 3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16) -BREAK- 4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17) -BREAK- D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17) 1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
@latvaughanash Congrats on 1 more! Next week will get here, although that wait is killer!
Me - 39 / Husband - 30 One 19 year old son Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally) Started with fertility Dr. 09/16 4 IUIs's 1st cycle canceled (10/16) 2nd cycle BFN (11/16) 3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16) -BREAK- 4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17) -BREAK- D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17) 1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
@emmasemm Again, I’m sorry about this cycle but I’m glad you have a plan. My first cycle I had zero blasts - one day 7 morula was what we had to show for that cycle. Unfortunately this can be a very pricey learning process. It took a new RE, new protocol, new lab to see such different numbers on my 4th cycle - hopefully your RE will make changes earlier. It’s definitely about making the most of what you’ve got despite the absolute numbers. As freaked out as I was about a dominant follicle (I suspect starting out with higher stims along with the flare helped), I did better with the natural start (at least this cycle #s wise - still TBD on the quality) and you might too. OCP and luteal lupron can just be too suppressive for some people. Feel free to ask me any questions - I know we’re all different, but I’m happy to help however I can.
@loverin Thanks so much. The quantity is promising, but the quality’s what counts. Every cycle is different, but out of 8 we’ve tested from previous cycles, we’ve only gotten one normal so far, which my egg freezing RE acknowledges is “below average” for my age (of 39 - for 5 more days at least ). They were sent yesterday so we’ll see! When’s that next beta?
Re: September IVF
Leaving shortly for my transfer and my doctor called to let me know we have 3 beautiful embryos that are perfect, 2 that he is hoping will catch up by tomorrow for freezing, and 3 that dropped off. Feeling so grateful that I'll have at least 2 chances with this IVF cycle, as I know some people get many more and but often many less!
Thank you @artemis618, hoping it goes smoothly! Anxiously awaiting your day 6 report tomorrow with you!
Crossing my fingers for you @emmasemm
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
artemis618 yay for 3 thats great! Hoping a few more would pull through tomorrow...glad you have frosties for testing yay!! We will always want more and I"m hoping you got some normies in there!!
@latvaughanash yay that is a great update - go lil embabies thats awesome!!! sending you super sticky vibes for your transfer today - best of luck!!!
@emmasemm you're very wise and really have the perfect attitude for IVF. Its so hard and its good to have people like you to help remind us of this process. I hate that when we take a test we expect it to be negative but after your first IUI or IVF you are shocked that you don't see the second line. From the beginning I cried at my clinics first visit but I excepted it and moved on that I could do this... but you really don't know what you're made of till you start this process. It bothers me that the first try doesn't work for everyone cause it should...its right there how does it not!!! But we know its a miracle and pray that we're all on our road to motherhood in some way. I'm nervous everyday, I hate, i hate thinking of the worst all the time and just want to be happy but in the moment i'm happy i just get so scared.
As for your test I tested too early so you just dont know. Hoping you have a lil late snuggler like me Still have all the hope in the world for you!!
cxsimo08 loverin thinking of you both and have high hopes hang in there. This journey is different for us all but hopefully we are on our way!!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10.
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
I may come back to check on you all but for now I'm just going to hibernate a bit. Thanks ladies for being here for me for the past month. It's meant more than you know. I hope you all have wonderful happy pregnancies and beautiful healthy babies. I wish you all the best.
Christina
Diagnosis: Unexplained
2 IVFs, 8 IUIs (2 Clomid, 6 Injectables)
And you know I'm a one-egg-at-time girl so totally with you on not having frosties.
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
I'm hoping so hard for the good results for the people who're still in wait for their Beta and/or embryo reports.
AFM: My beta#2 came back at 528, and the clinic won't be doing any more Betas, but rather will go straight into U/S on Oct 9 to locate the implantation spot.
My story in signature spoiler. Children mentioned.
I don't produce FSH, so no natural menstrual cycle. DH has reduced morphology.
Summer 2014 IUI (with first husband): cancelled after almost a month of stims due to too many follicles
Time off to divorce, get back on my feet, find a new hubby and get married again 💑
March 2017 IVF#1: ~70 follicles, 13R, 10M, 7F, 3B = 2 PGS Normal (both XY) - no transfer due to ohss
Sept 2017 FET#1: BFP, Beta#1 (10dpt) - 253, Beta#2 (12dpt) - 528, DS born 05/31/2018 👨👩👦
Dec 2019 FET#2: BFN
Changed clinic, planning March 2020 IVF#2 - postponed due to the pandemic
April 2020 IVF #2: ~30 follicles, 24R, 12M, 8F, 4B = 2XY & 2XX, all normal
Sept 2020 FET#3: one XX embryo, BFP, Beta#1 (9dpt) - 161, Beta#2 (11dpt) - 519, Beta#3 (19dpt) - 7174, Due date 05/30/2021
DD born 05/23/2021 👨👩👧👦 - My family is now complete
@cxsimo08 so sorry you feel like this is the end for you. I hope that in time you pick up the pieces and figure out what’s best for you. Are you located in the US? If so, is changing jobs for you or DH an option to find a plan with fertility coverage? I work in the insurance industry so if you ever need advice feel free to reach out.
AFM: still waiting to hear about the test results. Transfer will be around Nov 6th at the earliest. Hoping my little fighters pass this test with flying colors. Sorry I’ve been lurking recently - just need time to come to terms with reality. Wishing everyone GL and Fx for BFPs.
looking for a job with coverage is a great idea. I hear city jobs offer good coverage. I've been OOP I get it with every card maxed out.
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10.
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@artemis618 hope you get a good update on your "late bloomers" today and have a good number of frosties for testing
@adirat fx on your D5 update today for a good number for testing and freezing too
@loverin good luck with the beta today!
AFM I had strong cramps in the night and heavy spotting (but not enough to fill a panty liner, so technically spotting), still applied my crinone this morning which has of course slowed things down a bit, and am waiting for a call back from the clinic to see if they want me to go in, still use the crinone the next days, or what. I assume the crinone is the only thing preventing AF from coming in full. Had a good hug this morning with DH before work and trying not to kill anyone in the office at the moment as 1) I'm in pain with cramps which makes me snappy normally and 2) definitely in the anger stage of grief and extra quick to lash out.
My anger is a bit directed at the clinic and a bit at me at the moment - my progesterone levels have been really high, and I had all the strong symptoms that it was working, so we didn't re-test the levels in the last week, whereas maybe I should have pushed to have done so. Since it was public holiday the clinic was closed from Friday until today, so in reality even if we'd tested in Thursday it probably was still ok and if it dropped after that I would have had no way to get checked, but, well my RE will get the full Spanish Inquisition on it when I get to speak to him...
And the planner in me is already trying to pre-block dates in my calendar for November round 2. At these times I need to have the next actions clearly laid out in front of me, so I can move forward step by step.
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@emmasemm my heart goes out to you as well! Be kind to yourself the next few days, we are here for whatever you need right now. You are a warrior and use that planning to keep your mind off of things!
AFM Just got beta drawn. I’d like to go puke right now while I wait.
@emmasemm Ah, shoot, I'm so sorry to hear it I think planning ahead sounds great if it's giving you comfort and confidence to move forward! Your RE better be ready for you!
@cxsimo08 I am so incredibly sorry for your BFN, be kind to yourself and don't lose hope. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better right now, but just know that you have a bunch of virtual strangers who wish you well.
@loverin hey girl, hang in there! You should be our first success in September IVF group! I have everything crossed for you!
AFM, I am trying to not let myself fall into a deep depression. I actually feel ok today. I had a dream today that an old man I don't know told me that I should not cry. That CP means I can get pregnant and that we should do FET and everything will be good. For some reason that dream gave me hope back. We are doing blood work on Friday again to see if HCG goes to zero and then we will schedule a FET. My poor DH is so upset it hurts me. He really took it to heart, he was so excited about this pregnancy, and I do not know how to make him feel better.
TTC since Aug 2015,
BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred.
Dx: tubal IF
IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP
FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN
FET #2 Jan 2018- CP
FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
Give yourself several days to grieve before you try to do anything about it. Try to lean on each other in your sadness, instead of isolating yourself from each other. You don't have to be normal today. If you take a shower, if you eat something, that's a victory. If you find something small that keeps you holding on a few more minutes -- watching a TV comedy together, a podcast, a novel, a craft project, a walk to the park, a call with a friend -- that's a victory.
It seems impossible to get through. So many of us know this pain and it's horrible and unfair and nothing makes it feel better for a long time. But you will get to a place where you are ready for FET and you will get your take-home baby.
TTC since Aug 2015,
BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred.
Dx: tubal IF
IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP
FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN
FET #2 Jan 2018- CP
FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
Hubby and I are heading away on holiday for the rest of the week after beta. A good glass of wine and a deep tissue massage is most certainly in order.
Then we will discuss our next steps, whether we ride this crazy train again, move to DOR or even adoption.
This process seems to harden your heart once you hit a certain point, and I think that is what makes me the saddest.
Good luck to those of you who have amazing successes. I couldn’t be happier for you all!
Hugs and strength and virtual fist bumps to all of my fellow warriors, still fighting to build the family we all want to have.
@DecemberDoll27 My husband isn't super emotional, so I can't even imagine if he was as depressed as I was during all the ups and downs! Just keep being there for him and you guys will get through this together and be ready to try again shortly!
@emmasemm I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're already able to look forward to the next step, as I know being able to plan and move forward is always what helped me throughout all our IUIs, etc.
My transfer went pretty well. I do have a slightly tilted cervix so it took a little longer than normal, which was uncomfortable to say the least, but overall pretty painless. I am sooooo uncomfortable and bloated today from the hcg and progesterone shot they gave me. I'm honestly not sure how you guys do those PIO shots regularly, they are a killer! Made me grateful for my suppositories, haha.
Today I'll find out if any more made it to blast; yesterday there was just 1 and he was watching 2 or 3 more (can't remember for sure). I'm really hoping 1 more caught up but it is what it is. First beta is scheduled for next Wednesday which I think will be here before I know it!
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
@latvaughanash FX for your beta next week! I hope your little growers keep growing, too.
@DecemberDoll27 Any time, friend. It's just an awful situation and all you can do is get through each day.
We are hoping to get a Day 5 report today or tomorrow, then it will take 15-20 days for the PGD testing to come back. So much waiting...
@latvaughanash congrats your PUPO yay!!! Next week will be hear soon enough! (something I keep trying to remind myself of too!!) Hoping a couple more frosties pull through for you!!
@DecemberDoll27 I'm sorry you're in this situation its very hard to bounce right back from. I have bad days of depression still, allow yourself to grieve and go through the motions. I'm glad you had a dream that is hopefully foreshadowing your future!
@emmasemm you're a true warrior and I know that you're going to have your miracle baby! Please don't beat yourself up I do it all the time and still do. We never know what could've should've for our cycles. You've done everything and I always admired from the beginning your passion for your one egg this cycle. I know how important each egg means for us. You did everything right please don't forget that!!
adirat hoping you get a great report today or tomorrow with lots of frosties ready for pgd!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10.
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@dragonette505 Thanks a lot for popping in here. Beta was supposed to be Friday but they've said I can go in tomorrow already so that's what I'll do. Apart from anything I want to stop the progesterone and get AF asap if it's truly a BFN. They seem most concerned that it might be ectopic. Had the old, if the cramps get stronger, if you feel pain in your shoulder speech again...
@loverin any news on your beta? I'm needing success stories more than ever today
@adirat you hit the nail on the head, I actually think my RE was already a little scared of me, when he sees my extended decision tree and my excel analyses he's going to run for the hills ;-)
Any news on your day 5 report? Keeping everything crossed for you!
@dcemberdoll27 thank you for coming back even though you are hurting yourself. are you back at work, or taking time off? I felt I had to push myself to keep going today as I know if I stay in bed all day I will fall into a big hole that it's really hard to get out of. But it was the right thing for me for today. Let's see tomorrow. I'm just taking it one day at a time for now.
@cmiller73 oh I do hope you get a nice surprise with beta tomorrow. Though good wine and massage sounds like a good way to recover. Maybe I hit an Aperol Spritz on the weekend... mmm... fist bump right back at ya :-)
@latvaughanash yay to being PUPO! wow next Wednesday is really soon for your beta! That will be here before you know it! Fx for a good update on your other blasts too!
@artemis618 any more news on your embies they were still watching?
@hopeful_mom you are keeping me inspired that it is possible to have success after many difficult cycles! Keep popping in to say hi please so we can keep a glimmer of light in our sights!
And for tonight I'm snuggled up on the couch with DH watching Gremlins and eating ice cream - life could be better, but it could also be worse :-)
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@loverin I can't wait to hear your good news!
I miss chatting with you every day on here, so I can't stay away long!
TTC since Aug 2015,
BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred.
Dx: tubal IF
IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP
FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN
FET #2 Jan 2018- CP
FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
@DecemberDoll27 You deserve that wine!
@Hopeful_mom Thank you
<img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/jo/inonxqp1iv6i.gif" alt="">
TTC since Aug 2015,
BFP Apr 2017 - late diagnosed EP, right tube removed, left tube scarred.
Dx: tubal IF
IVF Sept 2017, 7 R, 6M, 6F- 4 blasts, 1 transferred fresh - CP
FET #1 Dec 2017- BFN
FET #2 Jan 2018- CP
FET #3 BFP!!! EDD 12/15/2018!
@cxsimo08 @emmasemm @cmiller73 I’m so, so sorry . This process is so excruciating. I’m thinking of you.
Congrats @loverin ! Yay for happy news . Fx that beta keeps rising.
@latvaughanash Congrats on being PUPO!
@adirat I pretty much always have to wait till day 6 because our embryos are slow. My last RE assured me day 6 is totally normal. So as of yesterday, we had three blasts and today...
AFM (thanks for asking for @emmasemm), we had seven more blasts make it to biopsy as of this morning for a total of 10 (again, twice as many as the most we’d ever sent for testing in a single cycle), and RE says results should take about a week. We were kind of spoiled with our last shop b/c one time we even got the blast report on Friday and had the results the following Monday afternoon. But at this age, who knows? DH is petrified we’ll end up with no normals like we did last cycle, but all we can do at this point is hope for the best.
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
-----
TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@Artemis0685 whoah that is AMAZING!!! Double digits blasts u go girl!!! I know how hard it is to keep cycling but I think you found your magical protocol in every way!!! Can't wait for more good news!!!
@emmasemm I'm glad u relaxed and had some enjoyment!! It's tough! OH works crazy hours I had to beg for a bac rub, anything to take my mind off of worrying! I love all your spreadsheets I feel so unorganized. I would start putting questions in my phone to ask my RE and she would be nice asking if we covered everything but you know I would forget something and email her. Some emails I get a phone call back and that's when I know I e asked too much
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10.
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
And @artemis618 I have screenshotted the details you sent me of your protocol and printed them for my "package" for my follow up! 10 is an awesome number of blasts for anyone but for us "more mature specimens" that is some kind of miracle! Now I KNOW I can do more than one egg per cycle too! Maybe not as high as you, but you pretty much doubled eggs and like you say have more blasts from one cycle than from the other three added together. So if I had 3 with 1, if I could get six from the 4th I think I would also have a chance.
Spreadsheet is I think up to date, let me know if I missed something in all the craziness.
@cmiller73 still keeping fx for you today and for @adirat for the freeze report
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1kJctnUODjHMslMgogYS5A940wZTHwJZ_PF_RDAxHWAM
PS sitting waiting in the RE office right now for the academic blood draw. Going into the office for the morning then working from home this afternoon so I don't have to explain any tears in the office. Unless I feel like making all my male colleagues super uncomfortable, which is also I an idea if I'm feeling a bit sadistic later...
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@adirat thank you!!! That did! I guess I was expecting the HCG to be higher and then not getting to talk with my doctor I wasn't sure what that number actually meant lol
@DecemberDoll27 thank you so much!
@artemis618 those are incredible numbers, I'm so happy for you!! I'm glad it's "only" a week you have to wait but I can imagine that week is torturous! I know there's the worry of normal embies but I'd hope with that high of numbers you'd have better odds? I don't know how that works statistically but I have my fingers crossed for you! When will they be sent off to test so you can start the week count down?
@hopeful_mom thank you! I ended telling him the correct beta day because I didn't think it'd be fair to spring a negative on him when he wasn't expecting it if that was the result. BUT I did wake up yesterday morning and do a HPT before my beta and it was positive! I was still skeptical until I had the HCG number just to make sure it wasn't a fluke but I went ahead and woke him up at 6 AM (after working a shift until 1 AM) gave him a coffee mug with scorching hot coffee that he had to drink to read that said "you're going to be a daddy" on the bottom. Poor guy did not know what was going on but it was still nice to be able to surprise him lol.
@emmasemm lol at your sadistic comment. I'm glad they had you do it today instead of making you wait another day. You are a force to be reckoned with and I hope and have everything crossed that today is a surprise result for you! But if not, it sounds like you'll be prepared and ready to take on the next step with some helpful information from this group! I wish I were as organized as you my friend!
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My beta was yesterday, and we got a BFP! I cannot believe it! My beta level was 436, so I don't KNOW what those pregnancy tests were about.
We are not out of the woods by any stretch, we had 2 losses this year and are cautiously optimistic. Want to be positive, but a lot of us know too well that it is hard sometimes.
I just wanted to share our good news...although I know not everyone has good news, and I want to note that my thoughts and prayers are with you all...
One 19 year old son
Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally)
Started with fertility Dr. 09/16
4 IUIs's
1st cycle canceled (10/16)
2nd cycle BFN (11/16)
3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16)
-BREAK-
4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17)
-BREAK-
D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17)
1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
Results are in and it is negative as expected.
Follow up meeting next Thursday to agree plan for November round 2.
So now I have a week to get my agenda and folder ready to be the best self-advocate possible.
Will keep following these betas and US and PGS and PGD results in the next weeks!
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
THAT BETA level, wow! Goes to show you that you never really know until beta what you're going to get, if I had tested even 2 days before beta I don't think I would have gotten a positive on Hpt, mine barely showed up on one home test yesterday while it showed up fine on 2 others (I went a little crazy).
AFM Just talked to my drs office and they said as long as my beta was over 50 they were ok with that. I'm doing another beta tomorrow to make sure it's doubling and if all looks good they'll set up my ultrasound! I'm nervous for tomorrow but fingers crossed all looks good. In other good news, they said my estradiol and progesterone levels looked "fabulous" so no more IM injections for me . It's silly but i'm nervous to stop them, it's nice to have that safety net right now.
Just heard from my doctor that 1 more made it to freezing so we have 2 now, feeling so much better about that! Now just waiting till the 11th.
TTC since 2012 | Unexplained Infertility -- Sept 2017 found cyst seemingly confirming previously suspected endometriosis | IVF Sept/Oct 2017 Negative | FET scheduled early December
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul."
The HPT are the worst...I know some are better than others, and sometimes it is all we have to cling on to, in hopes of getting a BFP, but UGH - never again. I was better off not knowing.
Praying for everyone, good news, bad news or no news...
One 19 year old son
Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally)
Started with fertility Dr. 09/16
4 IUIs's
1st cycle canceled (10/16)
2nd cycle BFN (11/16)
3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16)
-BREAK-
4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17)
-BREAK-
D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17)
1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
One 19 year old son
Married 07/15 - started trying 09/15 (naturally)
Started with fertility Dr. 09/16
4 IUIs's
1st cycle canceled (10/16)
2nd cycle BFN (11/16)
3rd cycle BFP - CP (12/16)
-BREAK-
4th cycle BFP - CP (03/17)
-BREAK-
D&C due to uterine polyps (and to give IVF the best chances) (08/17)
1st IVF cycle - {13 mature eggs, 7 fertilized, 6 blasts - 2 transferred and 4 on ice} (09/17)
@loverin Thanks so much. The quantity is promising, but the quality’s what counts. Every cycle is different, but out of 8 we’ve tested from previous cycles, we’ve only gotten one normal so far, which my egg freezing RE acknowledges is “below average” for my age (of 39 - for 5 more days at least ). They were sent yesterday so we’ll see! When’s that next beta?
Congrats @jaygrand!
@latvaughanash Yay for another frostie! Hopefully you won’t need them
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)