Hello, let me introduce myself first..
For the first 30 years of my life, everything was smooth and worry-free. I was my parents’ most beloved child, found my true love in college, and happily married him after graduation.
At work, I was my boss’s most valued employee. Whenever I was in charge of a project, colleagues would inevitably say, “Oh, then I’m totally at ease.” I was constantly named “Employee of the Year,” with generous bonuses every year.
Later, I started my own business. Within just three months, I had broken into the market and started making money. By the fifth month, I was earning twice my previous salary. Growth was steady month after month. Right when the business needed more hands, I serendipitously met an amazing partner, and the company reached a whole new level.
Really, it seemed like at every step, whatever I needed, a pair of hands would always place it right in front of me, just in time.
My Two Girls: Ellie & Mia
Meet Ellie, My Firstborn
In 2020, my husband and I decided to have a child. After trying for over a year, we finally got the news in 2021 that a little one was on the way. In 2022, we welcomed our first child, Ellie. She made me a mother.
She is utterly adorable—big eyes, rosy skin, chubby little hands. Every time I look at her, I can’t help but give her a kiss. She is pure joy, and I love her more each day.
But as a first-time mom, I faced unprecedented difficulties. The postpartum tearing wouldn’t heal, and the pain was excruciating. Clogged milk ducts made my breasts hard as rocks. The severe sleep deprivation… And what was even more crushing was that, with zero parenting experience, I was clueless when faced with her unexplained wailing, night terrors, refusal to nurse, constipation, diarrhea, fevers… I desperately searched online, longing for one accurate, truly useful answer!
It was during this time that I thought, once I make it through this “dark” path, I must leave a light on for other new moms.
And Then Came Mia
Ellie had just turned one when I got pregnant again. In 2024, we welcomed our second daughter, Mia.
Completely different from Ellie, Mia is a great eater and sleeper. Although she had her fussy moments in the first two months, starting almost from month three, she became super easygoing. She feeds on schedule, gradually sleeps through the night, loves her solid foods, and adapted quickly when I had to stop breastfeeding due to mastitis.
This made me realize just how vastly different babies can be! It made me even more determined to write about my experiences.
Why I Had to Start This Blog
The Catalyst: A Life Pivoted
After Mia was born, my business also began to decline sharply. I had no choice but to close it and become a full-time mom. My work no longer involves Excel and Word, but instead revolves around changing diapers, washing bottles, making baby food, and managing household chores…
This has been a monumental challenge for me. All my past achievements seem irrelevant now. Managing two young children has brought me a sense of frustration I’ve never known before.
The Daily Reality
They are always fighting over things. When one is in my arms, the other immediately demands to be held too. When I try to cook, Ellie wants me to read her a book. When I attempt to load the washing machine, Mia has a diaper blowout, and I must drop everything to change her…
By the time I finish all that, I see the cup of hot coffee on the table has gone cold again. And it’s not until evening that I remember, “Oh my goodness, the clothes are still in the hamper, unwashed!”
Of course, being a mom is filled with happiness, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.
My Promise to You
Because I’ve walked this path myself, I won’t just tell you how joyful motherhood is, like many websites do. I want to share my real, unfiltered experiences so every new mom can find a “companion” here.
I want to tell you: you are not alone. What you’re going through, I’ve been there too. Your breakdowns, your helplessness, your moments of losing control—I’ve had them all. You don’t need to feel guilty. This is just a small, necessary stretch of the journey for every mom.
My Hope for This Space
I really want to share my parenting experiences—not just the warm, glowing moments, but to honestly document the pitfalls I’ve stumbled into, the tears I’ve shed, and the “survival wisdom” I’ve scraped together in utter exhaustion.
The Goal: A Mom’s Toolkit
I hope this blog becomes a “mom’s toolkit,” filled not with vague theories, but with:
- Practical Tips: Like how to quickly figure out why a baby is crying, tried-and-true methods for dealing with clogged ducts, or how to efficiently manage the daily grind with twins (or two under two) solo.
- Pitfall Avoidance Guides: Sharing the baby products I regret buying the most, and those “game-changer” parenting hacks. Letting you know which parenting anxieties you can let go of, and which principles are worth holding onto.
- A Community for Moms: I hope my stories connect me with more moms like you. We can cheer each other on in the comments, share our own tricks, turning the storms we face alone into a journey we walk together.
The Bigger Vision
My previous career taught me to analyze data, solve problems, and optimize processes. Now, I’m applying all those skills to this new “position” of Mom. I want to prove that a mom’s value is absolutely not confined to the home. The mindset, resilience, and creativity we built in our careers can shine just as brightly—perhaps even brighter—in this more complex, long-term “project” of raising humans, and can even be transformed into a force that helps others.
My hope is simple: that every mom who opens this blog can let out a sigh of relief and say, “So it’s not just me.” Then, she can find a bit of practical info, a dose of comforting solidarity, and return to her sweet, chaotic mom-life with a little more confidence and a little less weight on her shoulders.
This road? Let’s walk it together.
Re: June IVF
@mrsa2017 I think you're starting the process tomorrow, right??
me 34 | him 37 | married 6/6/15
• April 2017 - TI #3, 100mg Clomid BFP | CP
• May/June 2017 - IVF#1 - BFP - Due 3/7/18
@Hopeful_mom glad to hear your back is doing better but sorry about the bloat. Hopefully you get somebody good news this weekend.
Yay for only being a month away but it feels like the slowest moving time ever!
Holls214 I rush every month a way in this process BUT I have to tell you that this is the first time I"m like if I do that then the summer is over...ugh!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
me 34 | him 37 | married 6/6/15
• April 2017 - TI #3, 100mg Clomid BFP | CP
• May/June 2017 - IVF#1 - BFP - Due 3/7/18
Wanted to edit with my update:
so I was wondering about my other embaby in waiting and I just found out that it "survived nicely" (to go for testing) ahhhhh how great if that could be a normie for me
@SP128 start ur magical sprinkle
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Funny you say that about your OH, my doctor made the wonderful mistake of telling my husband he had "superman sperm" after the testing. I guess he wanted him to feel good. So everytime we BD, he's like yup, I just got you pregnant!!!! haha TMI, but it makes me laugh.
me 34 | him 37 | married 6/6/15
• April 2017 - TI #3, 100mg Clomid BFP | CP
• May/June 2017 - IVF#1 - BFP - Due 3/7/18
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
So then, he tells me he's going to do a vaginal ultrasound and me and DH has to do some starting BW. I was caught off guard because I was on CD4 and also because I thought it would only be a consult.
Later into the appointment, one of his assistant told us why we had to do some BW after I told her I was under the impression that we was only doing a consult. Anyway, the RE asked if I wanted to start Aug or September but husband and I decided that we would wait due to the fact that my RE is big on your body being in the best shape so that you can get the best results.
I haven't even started prenatal yet but I definitely will be starting end of month. They also told me to take probiotics. Can anyone say what that's for?
Oh! so overall we paid $1,049 for bw and visit. It's a good thing I am always prepared even tho I hate these types of surprises. And the IVF was not as much as we thought it would be plus we got 25% off for being international patients (yaaay) but I need you ladies help in finding places for the meds because they are expensive!!
We have my cousin's baby shower today, then we go home tomorrow so I can catch up. Just wanted to update you ladies and @KZ1126 thanks for asking about me hun...
Happy Weekend mamas!!
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
Freedom pharmacy seem to have decent prices for some of the ladies. I'm trying to think on which thread there was talk about meds...It's on one of these recent boards where people discussed the difference between walgreens and cvs too. @Prudence9 what was that website you mentioned to get cheaper drugs at. I sound like a dealer writing that
have a FABULOUS time at the shower you deserve it!! So excited for you!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos. :'(
IVF #2: 03/2018.
@mrsa2017 sounds like a very productive visit indeed. I'm not sure which the cheapest pharmacy is. However i have heard of people using a few different ones to get the best price. I use Walmart for my estradiol. It's a $4 copay and I don't use my insurance card. I also transferred my prenatal prescription to Walmart. It will be $10 for 90 days rather than over $30.
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
I am finally back home in the Bahamas and was fighting a flu uuuggghhh. My H says every time I visit Florida I get sick the last days because I am ripping and running the streets and not resting LOL, and to think doc told us to be mindful of mosquitoes and the Zika Virus as well... So whenever I see a mosquito I shoo it away and yell Zika!!!!! LOL
@hopeful_mom I didn't want to start anything before I saw an ER to know what is going on first. I usually try to expect the unexpected so I can shield myself a little bit just in case things don't go as I hope. My RE says everything looks good so only my PCOS I need to be mindful of. I will start prenatals, CoQ10, myo-inositol and the probiotic. I think I read that I may need to take melatonin as well, I 'll double check when I get home. I want my eggs to be the best they can be, so I will take the vitamins and supplements for 3-4 months then we'll be ready to rock and roll.
@SP128 @Holls214 thank you ladies as well. I will check out the places mentioned for the meds. I like to be ahead of things so I can be ready once he gives me my protocol, I'll know what costs what and be prepared.
Enough about me, how is everyone?
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
I finally get to do something this week. Yay! I stop BC tomorrow and start estrogen pills on Friday. Less than a month away from FET now.
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
@KZ1126 SP128 hey how are things progressing for you ladies? how are those pnuts doing? I wanted to say I think the miracle grow is working i need it to just stay on track
Holls214 now you're in it and the countdown begins
mrsa2017 how are you doing?
AFM: I'm right in the middle of IVF 8 woo hoo. I feel like after 5 days of meds I already have a follicle at 13 so a lil nervous that i haven't even been to acupuncture yet so hoping that wont effect anything. I have 4 follies on the right and left and so far they have all progressed so hoping they will keep doing that. I'm concerned with the one that jumped from a 9 to a 13...big mama!! I have 4 ranging from 10-11.5. And then 6.5, 7.5 and a 9. Hopefully this will pop up to the others.
I added my update from my immunology consultation that took too long to get! figured I'd update you on my immunology dr. A quick recap...ever since my MC Im still searching for the WHAT HAPPENED! my acupuncturist asked to see my blood work results from after. She saw them and suggested I also get the NK cell text (natural killer cell) I asked my RE about she basically said thats immunology testing. They dont do it and she doesn't think its necessary. I keep pressing the issue and she recommends someone I can reach out to. SO that bring me to my consultation with dr. braverman (immunology dr) today and i just have so many more questions. He thinks i could have a silent endometriosis issue...which could be problematic. Its all a guessing game BUT it would also mean to push everything back about 3 months. The blood work alone takes 6 weeks to do. i'm very torn AND also pissed that it took so long to get the appointment in the first place, 3 weeks ago I could've gotten the blood work done and still be on the path i'm at now UGH!!!!! He can't do the blood work while I have all these meds in my system...I literally just starting stemming WTH!!! You have to have faith in your RE and all my tests have shown no endo, but my mom has hashimotos which is an immune thing so he thinks i could be a carry of the gene which could be an issue...really. That could be the reason for my MC, so its hard to not really look into it....ugh now even more to think about. Lastly it'll cost me about another 6k and I might need a laparoscopy done...which also means more delay to a transfer. He suggested I stop stemming as endo can hurt your egg quality BUT its my choice. SO I can't say I'm feeling all that great today just trying to read and wrap my head around it. Happy to hear your thoughts...whether your endo knowledgeable or not!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
AFM- I'm lost today too. Frustrated and unsure where to go from here.... basically ever since I started the double dose of estrogen pills I have felt horrible. Horrible headaches, back pain and dizziness with anxiety. It's been a week with these symptoms. Hormone meds and me don't mix well. I guess my fear is that I will need to cancel my cycle since I can barely do anything. A girl in my Resolve group had the same side effects and said thy didn't go away until she stopped the estrogen. That would be 12 weeks from now if we get a positive. UGH! I don't know what to do. Should I cancel my FET for the 17th and wait to do a natural cycle or just hope that one day I start to feel better?! Also my DH is in London for the week for work so that's awesome. Thanks for letting me vent.
@hopeful_mom so I see that you are doing good and so are your follies Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! How many days have you been stimming for already? One follie at 13, that's a big gussy Mae (Bahamian term for big mama) LOL. There is always one over achiever I see. Let's pray the others catch up and they all grow to be mature normal embryos to join their siblings at daycare hahaha ha.
Question: when you initially started IVF they didn't ask about family history or did a genetics test? We got our results back and hubs found out that he has alpha-thalassemia. I knew I had it since I was in high school and my mom has it. So they are suggesting PGS testing on our future embryos but we really wasn't hoping to do that.... Decisions decisions
@Holls214 you have come so far love. It sucks ass that the meds are making you feel awful. You lasted long tho because I would've already asked about an alternative to take, hell IVF alone is stressful and then side effects to meds?! That's just too much. Hope you feel better and not have to cancel FET. I can't wait until this entire group is PUPO...
AFM... Hubs and I decided to look into IVF in Barbados as well so in a few weeks we will set up a consult with them then make our decision... Decisions decisions. August has been a rough month for us so I haven't even gotten my supplements and Prenatal yet uuuuugggghhhh why life so hard sometimes! So in the main time my ass is chugging down beers (hubs work at the brewery) and enjoying the last days of summer. I can't believe we're 4 months from the end of the year... We want to be pregnant after our 1 year anniversary in Feb. Guess we'll be stimming around that time or already KU
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
@mrsa2017 I hope you get to start soon! You have probably the best attitude about all of this
@Holls214 hang in there, these meds certainly aren't fun.
me 34 | him 37 | married 6/6/15
• April 2017 - TI #3, 100mg Clomid BFP | CP
• May/June 2017 - IVF#1 - BFP - Due 3/7/18
Do you wanna know what's so ironic? I have been pregnant 3 times and not once did I get a positive from POAS. I think when that happens I may just ball my eyes out.
@Holls214 darn it, I'm sorry love. How long will the push back be?
You all will be well into third trimester or close by the time I'm stimming lol so just don't leave me here to talk to myself LOL
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
When is your dr back? Have you stopped taking everything? When I stopped the estrace I went in for bw/us so we could see where i was at, I had the 2 follies growing and then I triggered to force me to ovulate and start my cycle, probably took about 2 weeks. I get you're bummed but hope you start feeling better!!
@KZ1126 yay!!! i love hearing great updates, ur lil pnut is starting to look like a baby now! When the next US? Are you finding out the gender? so glad you're progressing well!
mrsa2017 you keep on chugging away and enjoying it! Its so crazy how everyones journey is different. I'll never knoe what it is to conceive naturally and you experienced it 3x and didn't even know. I totally cried tears of joy and disbelief seeing my first BFP ever. I actually did a video from that day. Its bittersweet having it. I'm excited for you to get started!! Did you really just say we're 4 months away
AFM: Today has been a tough day - having twins I shouldve delivered sooner but today was my due date and its just sad.
My E2 did rise to 400 and 7/8 follies are all on point...one is at 6.5 so we shall see if it perks up. Tomorrow I'll go to acupuncture and hopefully that will help make this eggs super strong and normal!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
I'm so sorry that today should have been your day. That's really rough. Thinking about you. This process is so rough. I'm happy to hear your eggies are doing well!! 7/8 is great. What day of stims are you on?! Come on eggies grow!
TW**
@Hopeful_mom I understand your sadness. My DH and I always try to imagine what age our kids would've been right now... Sigh.. When I get sad about them, I just rub my tattoos. I got each of their dates tattooed right above my C section scar.
I often tell people that you cannot put things off for a later date these days because later comes too soon
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
Today will be day 8 of stemming. I'm curious to see what tomorrow will show, I actually dont want to trigger yet as I dont know the dr on call over the weekend...so lets hope i'm having a nice even moving growth. Its funny how much you have to hope and pray through this process!
mrsa2017 thats really sweet you have that...I keep trying to figure out what i want to do. I still have all my photos of them...
Stop you're already listening to xmas music, its way too hot out for that today!!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
My clinic has 3 RE and unfortunately I've met them all...they all happen to be really nice. In fact my OH wanted me to switch to one of the other RE as he thought they had a better bed side manner but I didnt want to. My RE still knows her sh*t! It a completely different RE altogether on call so I really dont want to go down that road. My issue as crazy as this will sound, my RE has done so far all of my ER except ONE, and the one she didn't do where i got the most eggs from they were all abnormal. SO I feel like shes my lucky charm and that means I would have to get to sunday before triggering...I guess we will see what tomorrow will have to show...
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
mrsa2017 you're eating carrot cake and i'm in pizza at midnight, ugh I need to close my mouth!! So in answer to your question I would LOVE to do a fresh transfer 100% so much that I asked my RE after the ER can I do a fresh transfer with one of my pgs tested normie on day 5....so hopefully the blasts I get can go for testing...trying to stay positive
Holls214 what type of cleanse r u doing?
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@Holls214 I really wanna know about this cleanse as well. I know what a Cleanse is suppose to do but the ones I have heard about puzzles me with the food choices people decide on.
Soooooo my coworker told me today that he and his wife has to talk about IVF and I felt so good sharing a bit of information with him. If he opens up more about it, I want to suggest TB to him for her. This is a great community and any information is helpful. Yikes imagine when I start swimming and actually experiencing it... I will feel like a whizz at this
Dx:PCOS
2012-2015: TTC #2 (2 rounds of clomid + metformin)
04/13/15: Second ectopic pregnancy :'(
02/29/16: Third ectopic pregnancy :'(
Tubal Infertility
Married: 2/11/17
7/21/17 : Consult with RE
10/12/17 : Second consult with a different RE
1st IVF Cycle scheduled for Feb 2018
02/13/18 : ER (22 follies,16m Eggs, 11 fert, 5 blasts)
02/18/18 : ET - 2 beautiful blast 3AA,2AA (highest quality)
02/27/18 : First Beta - 193!!!
03/01/18 : Second Beta - 546
@Hopeful_mom You got some big follies going. How did your apt go today? Are we triggering?
@mrsa2017 I love your positive attitude. I'm feeling that the next couple of months are going to be a whirlwind for you. It is definitely nice when there is someone in real life that can relate to all this.
@Holls214 I am so sorry to hear that the effects of the estrace was so miserable for you. Did you have similar effects before?
AFM - I had a good ultrasound on 7/31 at 7 weeks and 2 days. Embaby was measuring one day behind but with the one day either way margin of error no one was concerned. Heartrate was a 132. It was my first good ultrasound. The np said that there is a 90% chance of the baby being a take home. If the next ultrasound the percentage increases to 95%.
My next u/s is on Thursday, 8/17. I'll be 9 wks and 5 days. If it is good I'm going to graduate from RE. Per usual super nervous that something is wrong.
So many thoughts to you ladies. Fx so hard that you ladies get your BFP soon. Tough road but it'll make things so much sweeter in the end. Hugs to all.
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
I just took another shot of gonal f as its time for trigger so give me the normie miracle grow please
mrsa2017 - I'm glad we're so in tune
@Holls214 hows the cleanse going? I swear my top belly role is actually bigger then my bottom roll
AFM: I got the call and it's trigger time y'all!! I feel like its the world series and i'm being called to the plate...its hilarious. This is it game 7...even though its cycle 8
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal :'(
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
We are not going to find out the sex. He wouldn't mind, but I want to be surprised. There are so few true surprises left in life : )
I haven't checked out the PAIF board yet. Maybe I'll hop over there to lurk.
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161