This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another. Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say, and treat this like an ongoing conversation.
Diagnosis (If you've been):
Cycle/CD:
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?)
How are things going?
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
Re: IF Treatment &Testing Week of July 31
Diagnosis (If you've been):
Endometriosis and low AMH
Cycle/CD: 21
Will be doing 2nd FET and putting my last two embryos in
Terrible. I wouldn't be here if I didn't have questions. I'm only hanging in this thread because it's too hard to read anything else. I really thought my transfer would be successful and I can't wrap my head around why it couldn't have just woeked.
Any questions? My RE gave me some other additional things that could assist in making this next one successful. Has anyone heard of hcg washes, intralipid ivs or prograf used for IVF?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I absolutely hate shopping but I like having new things to wear. I have recently found the Loft store to be successful. If I should live in Lululemon I'd never shop anywhere else!
Cycle/CD: 13/Welll, I dunno
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love Madewell!
leekat14 Still present!
kiwi2628 Ugh. Sorry about the inability to do IVF this calendar year. But hopefully the cysts they found can be fixed and help things out.
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained RPL
Cycle/CD: CD 27, 6 DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): Benched
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Losing weight! (hopefully)
How are things going? Pretty good. Sorry everyone that I ghosted last week, but I was helping my sister after her tonsillectomy (and I tend to bump at work). Looks like I missed a lot of grads. Hoping everyone is still plugging along and doing great!
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Ugh… my favorite store used to be Dress Barn, but (TMI) since my RPL and my constantly changing and seemingly ever-expanding breasts, I don’t always fit into their dresses… which means I’d have to go to the 1X/2X size, which would fit my boobs, but be HUGE in the waist. So right now… um… whatever I find?
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@kiwi2628 That's awful about the cysts. Hopefully it can be resolved quickly.
Cycle/CD: 11 / 23
On top of all of this our EDD is coming up on Thursday. I've been doing really well. There are plenty of times that I'm all excited about starting testing and treatment, but then it's like I hit a brick wall and all I can think is WTF do I have to do all of this. I shouldn't be worrying about DH's SA or my blood work or trying to understand insurance or my OB's IF incompetence. I should be counting down the days to Thursday and worrying about having my hospital bag packed and enough food in the freezer. I was doing dishes last night and all I could think was that I shouldn't be able to reach the sink. DH has been wonderful and he tries so hard. He keeps reminding me that we're going to have a franken-baby (DH loves old horror movies and Frankenstein is his absolute favorite so this is not meant as a bad thing) which will make our baby instantly cooler than the other babies. Some days just suck though.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? There's a local consignment store that I love. I sell a lot my clothes there so usually I just use store credit to buy new stuff.
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@kiwi2628 ughhhh, sorry about the cysts.
@KariAnn323 I'm sorry that your EDD milestone is starting to hit you pretty hard. Big hugs, friend.
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Cycle/CD: 21/5? Pure guesses
Any questions? @laurad75 did you have to meet with a psychologist before starting IVF with donor? that is on our to do list.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Banana is probably where I get 90% of my clothes. I just know my size and how everything fits so most of the time I can just pull off the shelves. I also have a Banana republic card so I get rewards and I get a lot of "free" clothes from there because of it.
@leekat14 Don't worry girl, I am still hanging on here. You aren't alone! I am sorry you're feeling so frustrated with your last cycle. I hope you can get in some good juju to get ready for this FET cycle!
@kiwi2628 ugh I am so sorry for the cysts. That really sucks. Hopefully the BC will blast them away and you can get back onto a cycle next month.
@KariAnn323 I agree with @kiwi2628 I would just start up with an RE. I would definitely want to be working with someone that specializes in IF.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@leekat14 I’m so sorry that you’re back here girl. So many creepy internet stranger hugs sent your way!
@KariAnn323 I’m sorry things have been so tough and that your EDD is coming up! Can you find another OB or are there pretty slim pickings where you live? I do know that not all b/w needs to be done CD3, I think that’s only 1 specific test (don’t remember which though). The other important thing is that your progesterone is tested at 7DPO.
@JuneRoseRuby I’m so excited for you to start towards getting KTFU!!!!! GL today at your hysteroscopy!! (and you too @adirat!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): Hyperprolactinemia
Cycle/CD: Cycle 19/CD 22/ 12DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) waiting
How are things going? Eh, I’m not really sure. I finally made the follow-up appointment with the RE since the bromocriptine didn’t seem to be working to get me KU and the soonest they had was August 17th. Then last week, I got to thinking; I realized how unhappy I am right now in general. I’m unhappy with where my life is right now (I figured I would at least have a baby on the way by now!) and I’m really unhappy about the way I look thanks to the 30+ lbs of TTC weight I’ve gained. If this cycle isn’t successful, I’ve decided that I’m taking a 3 month TTC break. It’s not something I want to do but more something I need to do. I need to take a mental break to reset myself. I also need to truly try to do something about the weight gain and try to lose as much as I can in those 3 months. I'm keeping my appointment with the RE so that I can have a plan after my break. I don’t know how much I would be stalking you ladies because it might just been too hard but you know I’ll be cheering you all on from afar! I hope that when I come back, the IF thread is empty and all of you have moved on! Of course, there’s still a chance I could be KU but I’m certainly not holding out any hope.
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I don’t really have a favorite store. It’s wherever I can find clothing that fits my style at a decent price.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@KariAnn323 I am sorry that,you have to deal with an incompetent OB at a time like this. I agree @dpjennifer and @kiwi2628. Especially if he's doing CD3 bw on CD20... I would be concerned about whether he can appropriately do the HSG and whether the RE would accept it. My one HSG was expensive enough OOP, I definitely would not have wanted to pay gor it twice.
Cycle/CD: 28/CD30
Just waiting on consults now.
Eh. Sorry I bailed and never responded last week, work got crazy and i sort of lost base. At this point, we're just waiting on H's consult with his RU to hear why he wants H to have surgery, and then we'll make some decisions. Someone asked last week (sorry, I can't remember who!) about whether I was pro surgery... right now, no, I'm not. The one little varico they found on u/s doesn't seem significant enough to be causing the issue, and there are just too many ifs and maybes for me to feel like it would be worthwhile. We'll see what the RU has to say though.
Any questions?
No.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
Definitely banana republic. 3/4 of my work wadrobe is from that one store.
ETA: @lulu1180 I am so sorry that you are going through this. I completely understand the need for a break, and have been thinking that I might need one of my own here shortly. I think I'm just going a little crazy and I'm driving H there with me. This is such a mentally and emotionally difficult experience and you constantly feel like you're being pulled in different directions. So many hugs to you. I hope you find even a little slice of peace.
@leekat14 Damn I'm so sorry you're here. Hugs
@kiwi2628 That really sucks about the cysts - I hope the BC helps them GTFO
@JuneRoseRuby and @adirat GL today!
@lulu1180 I'm sorry you're feeling so unhappy - this process definitely takes its toll. We will miss you, but you need to do what you need to in order to get in a good place - Hugs (and if you do get KU in that time you better get back here and let us know so we can celebrate and gif appropriately!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI (low morph)
Cycle/CD: Cycle 12/CD 17
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW (2 DPO)
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Trying on our own.
How are things going? Ugh. I know it's for the best for the time being but I just feel like it's pointless. We did have good timing so I'm trying to focus on that (maybe there was one guy who just powered through!) It's taking all my power not to start bothering my RE's IUI nurse. I was going to wait until one more cycle to start doing that lol
Any questions? Not at the moment
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? JC Penney. I hate clothes because my body is gross and nothing looks good on me, so I rarely buy anything.
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@lulu1180 I know just how you feel. What we are all going through is so difficult and heavy. I think a break is a really good idea (we are in the middle of a break right now) and it can be very helpful to getting your mind back on track. I still have moments when I get really down about everything but its not as all consuming as it was when I was doing treatment. Take care of yourself.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Cycle/CD: CD 25
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love J. Crew.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@leekat14 I’m still here too. I’m sorry you’re having such a rough go. I don’t have any help as far as the additional procedures go, but my fingers are crossed for you!
@kiwi2628 So many hugs. That’s so frustrating. BTW, I love me some Madewell.
@lulu1180 Ah girl, I feel you. I thought that lowering my prolactin would be the answer too. I also have some weight that has come on in the last few months. It’s adding insult to injury. Last year I took a 3 month break too. Well, NTNP. It was so so good for my mental health. This process isn’t easy. But you do what is best for you.
@zwink1 I hope you and your H get some answers soon and can decide how best to proceed from here.
@safire3 FWIW I think you made the right decision to see your RE. I waited over a year, because TW* I had gotten pregnant on my own twice. End TW* But I wish now I had gone so much sooner. The whole, wait a year thing, shouldn’t really be the standard, especially if you’re charting and have good timing. And while I know it’s not the same as IRL friends, you have a ton of support here.
@RVAmom315 I say bother the nurse!! But I hope this is your cycle and that little guy did his job!
@juneroseruby Good luck today with the hysteroscopy! I’ll be thinking of you two ladies!!
Diagnosis: High Prolactin, High AMH, Fragile X carrier, PCOM
Cycle/CD: Hit month 20 eesh/ CD 10
Status: WTO
What are you doing this cycle: My RE wants us to try for 3 cycles on our own. (I stopped taking my temp, checking CM, CP, and OPKs, andnd they want me to chart again so they can see if anything has changed. I'm so out of the habit of this stuff, and part of me wonders if it really is going to help at all.)
How are things going: Meh, they're going. Maybe I'm a weirdo, but I loved that we were in the RE's office so much the last few months. We were always getting answers and changing up meds, and I felt like the pressure was off of us. Now we are going to try again for 3 cycles on our own and see where we are at. I just feel, like in my bones and my gut, that we will end up doing IVF and I need to stop wasting time. Also, my prolactin blood work came back TOO LOW! Good news I guess, is that I'm responding to the meds.
Any Questions: not at the moment
GTKY: I love madewell for the basics, but my favorite is Free People. Especially their shoes!!
Cycle: 14
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I'm not a huge shopper. (I still have clothes from 10+ years ago that I wear on a regular basis.) However, when I do feel like adulting and buying new clothes, I usually just go to Ross or TJ Maxx. There's also a really great thrift sale at the YWCA every month that benefits a women's clothing fund.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
@lulu1180 I fully support breaks. I felt so much better after I took off December. Of course I also had to take off January through now, but I feel like it makes you mentally prepared to battle IF. Reset your mind, heart, relationship with H. I don't know that you need to set a time limit of how long you will be on a break, but just know we will miss you and you are welcome back whenever, friend!
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@kiwi2628 I'm so sorry about the cysts delaying everything.
@dpjennifer that's great that you were able to help your sister! I've heard that a tonsillectomy as an adult can have a really tough recovery.
@KariAnn323 I'm so sorry that the EDD is hitting you hard. And I agree that it's BS for the OB to diagnose you as secondary IF. So many hugs.
@JuneRoseRuby good luck today!!
@lulu1180 I totally understand needing a break but I hope you're KU so that you don't even need to go to your RE follow up!
@zwink1 when is your H's consult?
@safire3 I definitely think the doubts are normal, especially when it's such a big decision and one you never thought you'd have to make. But we are all here to support you through it!
@RVAmom315 don't give up hope, there's always the possibility that trying on your own will work. And your body is not gross!!!
Cycle/CD: 20/not sure
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Target!
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@shortstack930 Thanks girl, I'm glad you're feeling better, and I hope you don't even have to make those decisions!
@alohakumu Yikes! Scary about the DVT - I hope your appointment goes well today
@Redpuma119 Not a weirdo at all! Even though I have only been to the RE once so far, I felt the same way. Ok, a plan, I don't have to do it all on my own anymore (even though we aren't going back for another couple months)
@safire3 Hugs. This process is so scary and overwhelming I'm sure. I'm not at the same stage yet, but just thinking about the process freaks me out and when I start to really think about it, I get down. DH is still all unicorn farts and rainbows thinking we'll do it on our own, but I just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that IVF is around the corner (if I can even get DH 100% on board - but that's a story for another day)
@zwink1 FX all goes well with the RU results
AFM (I forgot to add this in my original post) DH and I went to lunch Saturday and talked a little bit more. We've 100% decided on trying on our own until my October cycle (well he is, I'm like, ugh let's move on already lol), and then definitely moving on to IUI. He's completely on board with that, which is a huge step. Question - how does your RE decide if the IUI is going to be medicated or natural? Is it based on your BW numbers?
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@zwink1 That’s one of the reasons DH is completely on board with it; I have become obsessive about it (as we all have at one point or another) and he thinks it would be good for me to take that mental break. I’d be interested to hear what YHs RU says about surgery. When is your consult?
@safire3 I’m sorry you’re feeling so down, friend! This whole process can feel lonely IRL; I know we’re only internet strangers but the ladies on this board have seriously helped me through my worst TTC days and I am so thankful that I found this amazing group
@RVAmom315 Thanks, friend! And there will be very little chance of getting KU, cuz we’ll be TTA. I considered NTNP but with everything I know about my body, it would be too hard not to be all like “Oh, I got EWCM today, I’m going to be sneaky and seduce H” which takes the whole relaxing thing out of it. There’s a part of me that feel really good about this and another part of me that is immeasurably sad. But what matters most is that I’m truly taking care of myself for once and making myself a priority!
@laurad75 Thanks, girl! I do think it will make a huge difference when I come back to it. I hope your meetings go well!
@Redpuma119 I thought about NTNP, but decided instead to TTA (see my note above). While I hated when I got my IF dx, I was also hopeful that finding out what was wrong would lead to being KU. It’s just so damn unfair! GL getting back into the swing of charting! I hope it’s just like a riding a bicycle and you pick it back up without an issue!
@AlohaKumu Sorry your leg isn’t getting the memo! GL with your SSG today!
@JuneRoseRuby
@shortstack930 Thanks, friend, me too! I try hard not to SS but it’s so hard. Although it’s even harder when there seem to be so few symptoms…..maybe it’s a good sign…? I’m just trying hard not to read into it. So happy to see you’re in a better frame of mind!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@leekat14 I'm so sorry the first one didn't work. Keeping my fX for you!
@kiwi2628 are the cysts painful? And I've never heard of madewell
@dpjennifer how is your sister feeling?
@KariAnn323 ugh. I'm sorry your OB doesn't seem that with it about IF! And sending you hugs. This is definitely a hard week.
@JuneRoseRuby thinking of you today. Hope it went well!
@lulu1180 it's completely understandable that you might need a break. It's hard, but you have to do what's best for you mentally and physically.
@zwink1 when is H's consult again?
@safire3 this journey can feel really lonely, esp when all your friends are able to get KU rather easily or are in a place in their life where they don't get it
@RVAmom315 fx you had good timing!
@laurad75 when are your meetings?
@Redpuma119 did your RE say why they want you to try on your own?
@AlohaKumu I'm sorry about your leg! But exciting about your appt with the RE!
@shortstack930 fx this IUI works!
Cycle/CD: month 12/cycle 8/cd 35/dpo 3
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Lilly Pulitzer. It's an addiction
@JuneRoseRuby Eeeeee! Good luckk today!
@lulu1180 I am so sorry you are feeling out of control. I hope the break does wonders for your mental health, but I will miss you
@Redpuma119 I know the gut feeling of IVF. Back when I was only on cycle 6 I was like 'I know there is something wrong with me, I know'. So sorry you are feeling down though
@purplg8r luckily they aren't painful at all
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@kariann323 Hugs friend. I know exactly how you are feeling and it sucks. I hope that the new RE has better plans (and clearer care) for you than the confusing current situation...but I also know that hope is cold comfort when you should have your baby soon. One day at a time. Thinking of you
@juneroseruby I hope your hysteroscopy went well today! It's another step toward GTFKU just like you said! Thinking of you.
@lulu1180 It's been such a long road for you and I don't at all blame you for wanting to get your life back in order. I hope this cycle is it and you don't have to contemplate TTA, but you have my full support whatever you choose. Big hugs friend.
Cycle/CD: Stopped counting cycles. More than a year.
I had my hysteroscopy this morning which was all clear. That was SUCH a relief because of my complicated recovery after d&e earlier this year. And, it means that I can start birth control pills again (they work wonders for me) until IVF. Small victories.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I buy most of my clothes secondhand/consignment.
@kiwi2628 and @dpjennifer That's a good point. I'll email the RE's office after work.
@JuneRoseRuby So I have an RE appointment set for 9/5. The appointment with my OB was supposed to just be about progesterone and to let him know that we have an RE appointment set. When he offered to start testing we got excited to feel like we were actually doing something. My OB and RE work together frequently so I'm hoping the RE will accept the OB's test results. If not then we'll just put everything on hold until September.
@lulu1180 So he's a great OB so I'm hesitant to go to someone else especially because I generally hate doctors. He's actually highly recommended I just think that he's a bit out of his element with IF stuff.
@zwink1 I'm going to email the RE's office tonight after work and see if he would accept the results. If not then we'll wait until we see him in September.
@adirat Thank you so much! My fingers are crossed so hard that your IVF+PGD goes as smoothly as possible.
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
@KariAnn323 I have never heard of an RE giving a diagnosis of secondary IF for that reason..that seems absurd to me. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that. Hugs for your upcoming EDD too
@lulu1180 It's so tough when your life isn't where you thought it would be. I'm sorry I think you're brave for realizing you need a break too. It's a tough decision to make. I hope it's exactly what you need! Ultimately, of course I hope you don't even need a break at all!
@adirat Yes to that gif and emotional roller coaster! Some days I feel like I don't even want to be around myself. YAY for progress for you!!
Cycle/CD: Cycle 20 or 21, lost count/ CD 21
We are still waiting on a closing date for the house. The appraisal is done, the title came in, so a closing date should be the final step! We're still hoping for an August move date. I'm so excited about this house and I can't wait to live there! I'm trying to focus all of my energy in that.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
I like NY&Co but I really haven't shopped in so long...I do online shopping too but that rarely works out for sizing and actually looking good in person vs. online.
@adirat It's all happening!!
Random question for the PCOS ladies. What, if any, diet did you follow? At my last consult, my dr suggested following a typical PCOS diet, even though I wasn't showing all the markers. And I agreed that it couldn't hurt. (I miss my cheese though.) I talked to a nurse on Friday to talk about maybe adding metformin to the mix and she let me know that my dr recommended a different diet instead of starting the metformin. This one is essentially vegan, so no animal products. Also, no caffeine, no processed foods, no honey, no alcohol, the usual. But here's the kicker... no nuts, no oils, no avocado, no squash of any kind, no salt, no beans, no lentils, no night shades, no oats, barley, brown rice. LOTS of fruit. And tofu is recommended.
I'm not a PCOS expert, but why would I eat 90% carbs when we are worried about insulin resistance. And then add soy into the diet?
So I sent an email to the nurse asking why I am being asked to follow a diet that is completely different than the one only a few weeks ago.. but until then..
I am not a doctor but that diet sounds like nonsense to me.
Soy definitely is not recommended to ADD to your diet when TTC...
Your post reminded me of this:
I asked the RE about timelines and how long he thinks it will take for me to get everything together and pick out a donor and they said 1-2 months. So I was a little surprised it would take that long but everything is in my court, so I'm sure it just depends on me and MH. They keep saying there is no rush for me but I'm like uh I've been waiting for well over a year and a half, I'm rushing the hell into this.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@TravelingCouple enjoy your trip!
@TravelingCouple have a great time at your convention!
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Cycle/CD: ??? / 11</div><div>
</div><div>Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WFIVF</div><div>
</div><div>What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Testing / last cycle before retrieval!
</div><div>How are things going? Okay. Trying to enjoy the calm before the storm...</div>
Any questions? Not really...
<span>GTKY: Macy's apparently! Lol but I also like Modcloth</span>
@shortstack930, @lulu1180, @purplg8r, H's consult is 8/15. I am clearly *patiently* waiting...
@adirat, woohoo, I'm glad you're signed up, though I also understand the up and down emotions. I'm glad to hear that your hysteroscopy was clear!
@lulu1180, I hear you. I simultaneously feel like we're not going anywhere (which a break isn't going to help), and that a break could potentially help me refocus mentally. It's just so hard to keep yourself in even a halfway stable place emotionally and mentally.
my body sucks sometimes. Progesterone was only 6.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@leekat14 so sorry friend. I wish I had some answers for you but I'm hoping that someone here does. Please keep us posted!
@kiwi2628 so sorry again about the cysts and having IVF get delayed. I really hope this issue resolves quickly so that you can start moving forward. Hugs
@JuneRoseRuby fx for things to be good to go for September!
@KariAnn323 ugh I'm frustrated with your OB I can only imagine how you feel. Fsh BW on cd 20? What a waste of money and concern. You're levels are gonna be off it's a time sensitive test. Your RE apt can't come soon enough!
@safire3 girl everything you said is how I'm feeling. I'm also in the IVF dilemma of did we give it enough time or are we rushing. I wish I had an answer for you but I just wanted to say that your feelings validated my emotions. I'm hoping you find peace in whatever you decide!
testing I think and trying on our own
@kiwi2628 Even though the discovery of the cysts help to explain some of what you've been seeing/experiencing, I can't imagine how frustrating it is to have this setback. I hope your ultrasound will bring you good news.
@JuneRoseRuby That would be awesome if you could get the IVF ball rolling for September! I'm glad the hysteroscopy went well.
@lulu1180 As difficult as it can be to take a break, sometimes those breaks are so very necessary for our sanity. I hope life brings you happiness and you start to feel more like yourself again soon.
@shortstack930 I hope this IUI is successful for you! But if you have to go to the next steps, I hope that is a smooth transition for you.
@purplg8r Sorry to hear that your timing wasn't as you wanted it with everything happening all at once. I hope your RE appointment goes well next week.
@adirat That gif tho... I'm so glad you have gotten started for IVF! We talked PGD vs PGS with our provider today, and I know in your case the PGD is definitely going to make a huge difference. Here's to hoping you have way more ups than downs this week.
@TravelingCouple Have a fantastic time at your convention! I hope all goes smoothly with your upcoming move date, too.
@BusinessWife LAST CYCLE!!! I'm so super-stoked for you!
The meeting with the RE and the saline sono went well today. We showed up about 30 minutes early and it seemed like the doctor would be able to take the appointment earlier, but she was called into a c-section. She ended up seeing us about 30 minutes after our scheduled appointment time. (Of course I was supposed to have a full bladder for the saline sono, so I had chugged two full bottles of water before the appointment.)
We met in the RE's office and went over sooo much information, like our decision to do PGS instead of PGD (since AZFc will pass on to any males 100% of the time anyway) and our plans for donor sperm, if needed. However, my bladder got to the point where we had to do the saline sono right then or my full bladder would be going all over the floor. DH was amazing and held my hand during the procedure. The RE said everything looks fantastic, took some pictures, and I ran down the hallway after a basic cleanup. (I didn't even put on my underwear or fully tie my shoes for my potty run. Ha ha!)
Once I sheepishly made it back down the hallway, the RE looked over my levels from my previous bloodwork and said my ovarian reserve levels look great. I ended up having to get 8 vials of blood taken to ensure that I don't have any blood clotting issues with the recent DVT/calf pain scares, but it will help everyone feel better in the long run. My next IVF appointment won't be until the end of next week, but I think my bladder needs a break after this trip. Ha ha.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.