This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another. Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say, and treat this like an ongoing conversation.
Diagnosis (If you've been):
Cycle/CD:
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?)
How are things going?
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
Based on the grad threads it appears I might be the only one left so someone has to start the thread.
Diagnosis (If you've been): Endometriosis and low AMH Cycle/CD: 21
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): wto
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Will be doing 2nd FET and putting my last two embryos in
How are things going? Terrible. I wouldn't be here if I didn't have questions. I'm only hanging in this thread because it's too hard to read anything else. I really thought my transfer would be successful and I can't wrap my head around why it couldn't have just woeked.
Any questions? My RE gave me some other additional things that could assist in making this next one successful. Has anyone heard of hcg washes, intralipid ivs or prograf used for IVF?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I absolutely hate shopping but I like having new things to wear. I have recently found the Loft store to be successful. If I should live in Lululemon I'd never shop anywhere else!
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Waiting
How are things going? So yesterday I had BW and an u/s and it showed 3 huge cysts on my ovaries from the Clomid, so they threw me on BC for the next 10 days and I have an ultrasound in 2 weeks to see what they are doing. Somethings about knowing I have cysts make other things make a lot of sense- like, I had NO post-O symptoms. At all. Well, its because my estrogen is sky high from these cysts instead of progesterone. Plus my period was half a day long and light. Thats it. Also makes sense since my estrogen is so high. So now we just wait and see. And with that, my hopes of doing IVF this calendar year are dashed.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love Madewell!
kiwi2628 Ugh. Sorry about the inability to do IVF this calendar year.
But hopefully the cysts they found can be fixed and help things out.
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained
RPL
Cycle/CD: CD 27, 6 DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): Benched
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing?
Treatment?) Losing weight! (hopefully)
How are things going? Pretty good. Sorry
everyone that I ghosted last week, but I was helping my sister after her tonsillectomy
(and I tend to bump at work). Looks like I missed a lot of grads. Hoping
everyone is still plugging along and doing great!
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for
purchasing clothing? Ugh… my favorite store used to be Dress Barn, but (TMI)
since my RPL and my constantly changing and seemingly ever-expanding breasts, I
don’t always fit into their dresses… which means I’d have to go to the 1X/2X
size, which would fit my boobs, but be HUGE in the waist. So right now… um… whatever I find?
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
@leekat14 I'm so sorry that you're still here. So many creepy internet hugs @kiwi2628 That's awful about the cysts. Hopefully it can be resolved quickly.
Diagnosis (If you've been): Secondary IF (see spoiler for why this is BS)
Cycle/CD: 11 / 23
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO/TWW - just waiting for third high temp tomorrow to confirm Saturday O
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) WFAF to start testing
How are things going? Frankly it depends on the hour. In spoiler for TWs - M/C and pregnancy
There's so much going on and it's all happening all at once and it's getting so overwhelming. We're starting some testing which I'm excited about. But my OB is making me second guess everything because of his apparent incompetence with anything to do with IF. On Friday (CD 20) I was there to talk about progesterone, but since it's been 11 months he decided to go ahead and start some testing. He did blood work for FSH, Estradiol, TSH, Testosterone, Prolactin, DHEA-S, Insulin, and Glucose. He also ordered an HSG and pelvic ultrasound for me and an SA for DH. He does not plan to test AMH and seemed unphased that the rest of the blood work was done CD 20 and not CD 3. Thankfully all of the results should be in before my RE consult on 9/5. In the paperwork for conditions addressed at the appointment he has lpd, fallopian insufflation for infertility testing, and secondary female infertility. Apparently according to my OB this is secondary IF because I've gotten KU before, and it doesn't matter that when I got KU'd I M/C'd at 5.5 weeks.
On top of all of this our EDD is coming up on Thursday. I've been doing really well. There are plenty of times that I'm all excited about starting testing and treatment, but then it's like I hit a brick wall and all I can think is WTF do I have to do all of this. I shouldn't be worrying about DH's SA or my blood work or trying to understand insurance or my OB's IF incompetence. I should be counting down the days to Thursday and worrying about having my hospital bag packed and enough food in the freezer. I was doing dishes last night and all I could think was that I shouldn't be able to reach the sink. DH has been wonderful and he tries so hard. He keeps reminding me that we're going to have a franken-baby (DH loves old horror movies and Frankenstein is his absolute favorite so this is not meant as a bad thing) which will make our baby instantly cooler than the other babies. Some days just suck though.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? There's a local consignment store that I love. I sell a lot my clothes there so usually I just use store credit to buy new stuff.
@KariAnn323 I might call your RE before they do any more tests just to make sure they will accept them. I know my RE doesn't accept HSGs or SSGs from OBs, and I would hate for you to waste money/time
KariAnn323 Ugh sorry. That's a lot to be going through all at once. EDD's are very hard and I hope you can do something nice for yourself on Thursday. Also, I second what kiwi2628 said. I've heard that a lot of RE's are picky about the HSG's and SSG's and will make you do them again if you didn't do it specifically with them. Definitely don't want to have it done twice and pay for it twice!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
@leekat14 oh hon, I was so sad to hear that your FET didn't work out. I don't have any advice on your questions, but I'm sending love and hugs your way.
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Hysteroscopy today with ma gurl @adirat Getting papers together for IVF cycle to start hopefully in September
How are things going? Good. I feel like I am finally working towards GTFKU. I want to start my own IVF journal and I have been meaning to write about the appointment the other day and haven't gotten started.
Any questions? @laurad75 did you have to meet with a psychologist before starting IVF with donor? that is on our to do list.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Banana is probably where I get 90% of my clothes. I just know my size and how everything fits so most of the time I can just pull off the shelves. I also have a Banana republic card so I get rewards and I get a lot of "free" clothes from there because of it.
@leekat14 Don't worry girl, I am still hanging on here. You aren't alone! I am sorry you're feeling so frustrated with your last cycle. I hope you can get in some good juju to get ready for this FET cycle! @kiwi2628 ugh I am so sorry for the cysts. That really sucks. Hopefully the BC will blast them away and you can get back onto a cycle next month. @KariAnn323 I agree with @kiwi2628 I would just start up with an RE. I would definitely want to be working with someone that specializes in IF.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@leekat14 I’m so sorry that you’re back here girl. So many creepy internet stranger hugs sent
your way!
@KariAnn323 I’m sorry things have been so tough and that your
EDD is coming up! Can you find another
OB or are there pretty slim pickings where you live? I do know that not all b/w needs to be done
CD3, I think that’s only 1 specific test (don’t remember which though). The other important thing is that your
progesterone is tested at 7DPO.
@JuneRoseRuby I’m so excited for you to start towards getting
KTFU!!!!! GL today at your
hysteroscopy!! (and you too @adirat!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): Hyperprolactinemia
Cycle/CD: Cycle 19/CD 22/ 12DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) waiting
How are things going? Eh, I’m not really sure. I finally made the follow-up appointment with
the RE since the bromocriptine didn’t seem to be working to get me KU and the
soonest they had was August 17th.
Then last week, I got to thinking; I realized how unhappy I am right now
in general. I’m unhappy with where my
life is right now (I figured I would at least have a baby on the way by now!)
and I’m really unhappy about the way I look thanks to the 30+ lbs of TTC weight I’ve
gained. If this cycle isn’t successful,
I’ve decided that I’m taking a 3 month TTC break. It’s not something I want to do but more
something I need to do. I need to take a
mental break to reset myself. I also
need to truly try to do something about the weight gain and try to lose as much
as I can in those 3 months. I'm keeping my appointment with the RE so that I can have a plan after my break. I don’t know
how much I would be stalking you ladies because it might just been too hard but
you know I’ll be cheering you all on from afar!
I hope that when I come back, the IF thread is empty and all of you have
moved on! Of course, there’s still a
chance I could be KU but I’m certainly not holding out any hope.
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for
purchasing clothing? I don’t really have a favorite store. It’s wherever I can find clothing that fits
my style at a decent price.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Me: 38 DH: 38 Married 6/11/16 TTC Since 6/2016 12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal 3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve 8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC 7/2018 Clomid+IUI 11/2018 Letrozole+TI 12/2018 Letrozole+IUI 2/2019 NTNP 5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@leekat14 you are not alone. I'm still here, and I am so, so sorry that you are too. I have no answers to your questions, just a lot of support and hugs for you.
@KariAnn323 I am sorry that,you have to deal with an incompetent OB at a time like this. I agree @dpjennifer and @kiwi2628. Especially if he's doing CD3 bw on CD20... I would be concerned about whether he can appropriately do the HSG and whether the RE would accept it. My one HSG was expensive enough OOP, I definitely would not have wanted to pay gor it twice.
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI, ov dysfunction
Cycle/CD: 28/CD30
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Just waiting on consults now.
How are things going? Eh. Sorry I bailed and never responded last week, work got crazy and i sort of lost base. At this point, we're just waiting on H's consult with his RU to hear why he wants H to have surgery, and then we'll make some decisions. Someone asked last week (sorry, I can't remember who!) about whether I was pro surgery... right now, no, I'm not. The one little varico they found on u/s doesn't seem significant enough to be causing the issue, and there are just too many ifs and maybes for me to feel like it would be worthwhile. We'll see what the RU has to say though.
Any questions? No.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Definitely banana republic. 3/4 of my work wadrobe is from that one store.
ETA: @lulu1180 I am so sorry that you are going through this. I completely understand the need for a break, and have been thinking that I might need one of my own here shortly. I think I'm just going a little crazy and I'm driving H there with me. This is such a mentally and emotionally difficult experience and you constantly feel like you're being pulled in different directions. So many hugs to you. I hope you find even a little slice of peace.
I had to copy and paste this from this morning since the bump wouldn't let me post it. I just kept getting a notice that the site is 'over capacity'.
@leekat14 I'm just starting the process so haven't heard of any of those but just wanted to say big hugs to you. Also thanks for starting this early. It's helping my anxiety while I wait at the RE's office.
@kiwi2628 So sorry about the cysts. Really hope that doesn't hold you back for too long.
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI, low AMH
Cycle/CD: ?/ CD4
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): waiting to start BCP
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Starting the IVF process
How are things going? Tough. Last night read a book about going through IVF and suddenly got very depressed that apart from DH I have very little support through this. I tried to tell one of my friends last night but she was busy. I'm also second guessing everything. How much debt we are going into for this, if I trust this RE's office, if maybe we should have tried longer on our own. Anyway, here I am at 7 am for a 7:30 appointment for blood work, ultrasound and to get a script to start birth control. I aso haven't told my boss about any of this yet so hoping to get to work by 8:30. Ugh, just so many things.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? For work usually New York and Co, especially the outlet store for good deals. Casual clothes are usually from anywhere I happen to be or amazon.
@lulu1180 I'm sorry you're feeling so unhappy - this process definitely takes its toll. We will miss you, but you need to do what you need to in order to get in a good place - Hugs (and if you do get KU in that time you better get back here and let us know so we can celebrate and gif appropriately!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI (low morph)
Cycle/CD: Cycle 12/CD 17
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW (2 DPO)
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Trying on our own.
How are things going? Ugh. I know it's for the best for the time being but I just feel like it's pointless. We did have good timing so I'm trying to focus on that (maybe there was one guy who just powered through!) It's taking all my power not to start bothering my RE's IUI nurse. I was going to wait until one more cycle to start doing that lol
Any questions? Not at the moment
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? JC Penney. I hate clothes because my body is gross and nothing looks good on me, so I rarely buy anything.
@JuneRoseRuby We have to meet with a social worker that is assigned by our clinic. Our meeting is scheduled for Thursday. I'm a little nervous that H is going to say something stupid.
@lulu1180 I know just how you feel. What we are all going through is so difficult and heavy. I think a break is a really good idea (we are in the middle of a break right now) and it can be very helpful to getting your mind back on track. I still have moments when I get really down about everything but its not as all consuming as it was when I was doing treatment. Take care of yourself.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): Waiting for AF - I've thought it was coming for a week now.
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) prelim meetings for DE IVF
How are things going? whatever...
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love J. Crew.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@leekat14 I’m still here too.I’m sorry you’re having such a rough go.I don’t have any help as far as the
additional procedures go, but my fingers are crossed for you!
@kiwi2628 So many hugs.That’s so frustrating.BTW, I
love me some Madewell.
@lulu1180 Ah girl, I feel you.I thought that lowering my prolactin would be
the answer too.I also have some weight
that has come on in the last few months.It’s adding insult to injury.Last
year I took a 3 month break too.Well,
NTNP.It was so so good for my mental
health.This process isn’t easy.But you do what is best for you.
@zwink1 I hope you and your H get some answers soon and can
decide how best to proceed from here.
@safire3 FWIW I think you made the right decision to see
your RE.I waited over a year, because
TW* I had gotten pregnant on my own twice. End TW* But I wish now I had gone so
much sooner.The whole, wait a year
thing, shouldn’t really be the standard, especially if you’re charting and have
good timing.And while I know it’s not
the same as IRL friends, you have a ton of support here.
@RVAmom315I say
bother the nurse!!But I hope this is
your cycle and that little guy did his job!
@juneroseruby Good luck today with the hysteroscopy!I’ll be thinking of you two ladies!!
Diagnosis: High Prolactin, High AMH, Fragile X carrier, PCOM
Cycle/CD: Hit month 20 eesh/ CD 10
Status: WTO
What are you doing this cycle: My RE wants us to try for 3 cycles on our own. (I stopped taking my temp, checking CM, CP, and OPKs, andnd they want me to chart again so they can see if anything has changed. I'm so out of the habit of this stuff, and part of me wonders if it really is going to help at all.)
How are things going: Meh, they're going. Maybe I'm a weirdo, but I loved that we were in the RE's office so much the last few months. We were always getting answers and changing up meds, and I felt like the pressure was off of us. Now we are going to try again for 3 cycles on our own and see where we are at. I just feel, like in my bones and my gut, that we will end up doing IVF and I need to stop wasting time. Also, my prolactin blood work came back TOO LOW! Good news I guess, is that I'm responding to the meds.
Any Questions: not at the moment
GTKY: I love madewell for the basics, but my favorite is Free People. Especially their shoes!!
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) I feel like everything is finally for-real beginning starting today! I'll be going in to meet with the RE who will be doing my retrieval and she will do a saline sono during this morning's visit, too.
How are things going? Eh, it was a strange week last week. I went to a conference, but my leg was wonky after the flights. Since I had a DVT a few months ago, I had to go to the ER for an ultrasound immediately when I got off the plane. It was clear, but my leg is still experiencing strange sensations, possibly from lymph fluid. I'm supposed to follow up with my primary care doctor today, so I'm pretty much planning on living at the clinic this morning. My body has not gotten the memo that it needs to get its ish together!
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I'm not a huge shopper. (I still have clothes from 10+ years ago that I wear on a regular basis.) However, when I do feel like adulting and buying new clothes, I usually just go to Ross or TJ Maxx. There's also a really great thrift sale at the YWCA every month that benefits a women's clothing fund.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
@laurad75 yes, I feel like I will have to have a preparatory discussion with H to make sure he doesn't say anything moronic.
@lulu1180 I fully support breaks. I felt so much better after I took off December. Of course I also had to take off January through now, but I feel like it makes you mentally prepared to battle IF. Reset your mind, heart, relationship with H. I don't know that you need to set a time limit of how long you will be on a break, but just know we will miss you and you are welcome back whenever, friend!
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@leekat14 I'm so sorry the FET didn't work. I hope this next one is successful! All the fx for you! @kiwi2628 I'm so sorry about the cysts delaying everything. @dpjennifer that's great that you were able to help your sister! I've heard that a tonsillectomy as an adult can have a really tough recovery. @KariAnn323 I'm so sorry that the EDD is hitting you hard. And I agree that it's BS for the OB to diagnose you as secondary IF. So many hugs. @JuneRoseRuby good luck today!! @lulu1180 I totally understand needing a break but I hope you're KU so that you don't even need to go to your RE follow up! @zwink1 when is your H's consult? @safire3 I definitely think the doubts are normal, especially when it's such a big decision and one you never thought you'd have to make. But we are all here to support you through it! @RVAmom315 don't give up hope, there's always the possibility that trying on your own will work. And your body is not gross!!!
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained secondary IF
Cycle/CD: 20/not sure
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) last IUI before the big decisions start
How are things going? Not bad. I've been in a much better frame of mind. I stopped charting after the IUI because I didn't want to be stressed out. I had to move my RE follow up from this week to the 21st so that DH can make it so if I'm not KU we will go to that appointment to discuss next steps.
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Target!
TTC History
Me: 35 DH: 34 Married 07/2012 DD born 07/2014 DD2 born 10/2018 DS born 10/2022
IF history: TTC #2 since January 2016 June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018 FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@kariann323 All the hugs friend. I can't imagine this is easy with your EDD coming up. And diagnosing you with secondary IF is completely ridiculous IMO
@shortstack930 Thanks girl, I'm glad you're feeling better, and I hope you don't even have to make those decisions!
@alohakumu Yikes! Scary about the DVT - I hope your appointment goes well today
@Redpuma119 Not a weirdo at all! Even though I have only been to the RE once so far, I felt the same way. Ok, a plan, I don't have to do it all on my own anymore (even though we aren't going back for another couple months)
@safire3 Hugs. This process is so scary and overwhelming I'm sure. I'm not at the same stage yet, but just thinking about the process freaks me out and when I start to really think about it, I get down. DH is still all unicorn farts and rainbows thinking we'll do it on our own, but I just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that IVF is around the corner (if I can even get DH 100% on board - but that's a story for another day)
AFM (I forgot to add this in my original post) DH and I went to lunch Saturday and talked a little bit more. We've 100% decided on trying on our own until my October cycle (well he is, I'm like, ugh let's move on already lol), and then definitely moving on to IUI. He's completely on board with that, which is a huge step. Question - how does your RE decide if the IUI is going to be medicated or natural? Is it based on your BW numbers?
@zwink1 That’s one of the reasons DH is completely on board
with it; I have become obsessive about it (as we all have at one point or
another) and he thinks it would be good for me to take that mental break. I’d be interested to hear what YHs RU says about
surgery. When is your consult?
@safire3 I’m sorry you’re feeling so down, friend! This whole process can feel lonely IRL; I know
we’re only internet strangers but the ladies on this board have seriously
helped me through my worst TTC days and I am so thankful that I found this
amazing group
@RVAmom315 Thanks, friend!
And there will be very little chance of getting KU, cuz we’ll be
TTA. I considered NTNP but with
everything I know about my body, it would be too hard not to be all like “Oh, I
got EWCM today, I’m going to be sneaky and seduce H” which takes the whole
relaxing thing out of it. There’s a part
of me that feel really good about this and another part of me that is
immeasurably sad. But what matters most
is that I’m truly taking care of myself for once and making myself a priority!
@laurad75 Thanks, girl! I do think it will make a huge difference
when I come back to it. I hope your
meetings go well!
@Redpuma119 I thought about NTNP, but decided instead to TTA
(see my note above). While I hated when
I got my IF dx, I was also hopeful that finding out what was wrong would lead
to being KU. It’s just so damn
unfair! GL getting back into the swing
of charting! I hope it’s just like a
riding a bicycle and you pick it back up without an issue!
@AlohaKumu Sorry your leg isn’t getting the memo! GL with your SSG today!
@shortstack930 Thanks, friend, me too! I try hard not to SS but it’s so hard. Although it’s even harder when there seem to
be so few symptoms…..maybe it’s a good sign…?
I’m just trying hard not to read into it. So happy to see you’re in a better frame of
mind!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Me: 38 DH: 38 Married 6/11/16 TTC Since 6/2016 12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal 3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve 8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC 7/2018 Clomid+IUI 11/2018 Letrozole+TI 12/2018 Letrozole+IUI 2/2019 NTNP 5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@safire3 this journey can feel really lonely, esp when all your friends are able to get KU rather easily or are in a place in their life where they don't get it
This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another. Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say, and treat this like an ongoing conversation.
Diagnosis (If you've been): AMA/waiting for first RE appt
Cycle/CD: month 12/cycle 8/cd 35/dpo 3
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) my first RE appt is next Monday
How are things going? our timing was not great this month. We found out about my dad the day of my first + OPK. H didn't feel well the second day. Then we drove home O day so we didn't HIO until later that night. Sigh. I have my RE appt next Monday. I wasn't going to test at all but I have my friends bachelorette party & bridal shower the weekend before and I guess I should if I'm going to be drinking.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Lilly Pulitzer. It's an addiction
@purplg8r Hopefully you won't even be needing that appointment! AFM, My re thinks that the high prolactin was our issue. Obviously, there's a whole lot of other issues, so I'm not thrilled about these next 3 months.
@leekat14 so many hugs. I am so sorry you are still here @JuneRoseRuby Eeeeee! Good luckk today! @lulu1180 I am so sorry you are feeling out of control. I hope the break does wonders for your mental health, but I will miss you @Redpuma119 I know the gut feeling of IVF. Back when I was only on cycle 6 I was like 'I know there is something wrong with me, I know'. So sorry you are feeling down though @purplg8r luckily they aren't painful at all
@purplg8r This Thursday we meet with the social worker; next Monday we have an appt with the RE.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@leekat14 Big hugs friend. What you are going through is so hard. I hope you have a path forward to success with your frozen embryo. I'm still here with you as long as you need me I haven't heard of any of those things you mentioned but I'm glad you're going to try something different next FET!
@kariann323 Hugs friend. I know exactly how you are feeling and it sucks. I hope that the new RE has better plans (and clearer care) for you than the confusing current situation...but I also know that hope is cold comfort when you should have your baby soon. One day at a time. Thinking of you
@juneroseruby I hope your hysteroscopy went well today! It's another step toward GTFKU just like you said! Thinking of you.
@lulu1180 It's been such a long road for you and I don't at all blame you for wanting to get your life back in order. I hope this cycle is it and you don't have to contemplate TTA, but you have my full support whatever you choose. Big hugs friend.
Diagnosis (If you've been): POI/LPD associated with genetic condition
Cycle/CD: Stopped counting cycles. More than a year.
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): Waiting for IVF+PGD
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) We are officially signed up for IVF! I'm kind of happy and kind of freaked out. We paid our down payment for PGD last week and got all the financial information for IVF at our appointment today. The PGD takes 6-8 weeks to prepare, so the RE's nurse told me I should expect to start stims approximately the last week of September. I am mildly terrified but also wish it was like tomorrow.
I had my hysteroscopy this morning which was all clear. That was SUCH a relief because of my complicated recovery after d&e earlier this year. And, it means that I can start birth control pills again (they work wonders for me) until IVF. Small victories.
How are things going? This gif best describes my moods day to day/minute to minute:
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I buy most of my clothes secondhand/consignment.
@dpjennifer I LOVE DressBarn! I just wish they had better sales. @kiwi2628 and @dpjennifer That's a good point. I'll email the RE's office after work. @JuneRoseRuby So I have an RE appointment set for 9/5. The appointment with my OB was supposed to just be about progesterone and to let him know that we have an RE appointment set. When he offered to start testing we got excited to feel like we were actually doing something. My OB and RE work together frequently so I'm hoping the RE will accept the OB's test results. If not then we'll just put everything on hold until September. @lulu1180 So he's a great OB so I'm hesitant to go to someone else especially because I generally hate doctors. He's actually highly recommended I just think that he's a bit out of his element with IF stuff. @zwink1 I'm going to email the RE's office tonight after work and see if he would accept the results. If not then we'll wait until we see him in September. @adirat Thank you so much! My fingers are crossed so hard that your IVF+PGD goes as smoothly as possible.
@leekat14 I'm so sorry your first transfer didn't work. I am rooting for you so, so hard. You're not alone, I know I sometimes feel that way too, but you're not alone. I hope after this transfer for you, you are gone for good! @KariAnn323 I have never heard of an RE giving a diagnosis of secondary IF for that reason..that seems absurd to me. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that. Hugs for your upcoming EDD too @lulu1180 It's so tough when your life isn't where you thought it would be. I'm sorry I think you're brave for realizing you need a break too. It's a tough decision to make. I hope it's exactly what you need! Ultimately, of course I hope you don't even need a break at all! @adirat Yes to that gif and emotional roller coaster! Some days I feel like I don't even want to be around myself. YAY for progress for you!!
Diagnosis (If you've been): Unexplained Sec IF
Cycle/CD: Cycle 20 or 21, lost count/ CD 21
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Follistim, Pregnyl trigger, IUI, progesterone
How are things going? Ok. I had my progesterone draw today at 6dpIUI because I leave tomorrow AM super early for a flight to Dallas! I'm going for my Mary Kay convention and I'm so.freaking.excited. I'm excited to just be there, learn, and also be super busy and distracted for most of the second half of my TWW. I fly home late Friday night. I've distanced myself from social media and whenever I do, I feel better..lighter. It's nice not to be inundated with pics of infants and bellies. I've been feeling a lot of random cramping from 2dpIUI so of course my BSC brain is settling in, but I'm trying to distract the heck outta myself and remind myself that I've had soooo many months with pregnancy symptoms, and no pregnancy.
We are still waiting on a closing date for the house. The appraisal is done, the title came in, so a closing date should be the final step! We're still hoping for an August move date. I'm so excited about this house and I can't wait to live there! I'm trying to focus all of my energy in that.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I like NY&Co but I really haven't shopped in so long...I do online shopping too but that rarely works out for sizing and actually looking good in person vs. online.
Random question for the PCOS ladies. What, if any, diet did you follow? At my last consult, my dr suggested following a typical PCOS diet, even though I wasn't showing all the markers. And I agreed that it couldn't hurt. (I miss my cheese though.) I talked to a nurse on Friday to talk about maybe adding metformin to the mix and she let me know that my dr recommended a different diet instead of starting the metformin. This one is essentially vegan, so no animal products. Also, no caffeine, no processed foods, no honey, no alcohol, the usual. But here's the kicker... no nuts, no oils, no avocado, no squash of any kind, no salt, no beans, no lentils, no night shades, no oats, barley, brown rice. LOTS of fruit. And tofu is recommended.
I'm not a PCOS expert, but why would I eat 90% carbs when we are worried about insulin resistance. And then add soy into the diet? So I sent an email to the nurse asking why I am being asked to follow a diet that is completely different than the one only a few weeks ago.. but until then..
@adirat hysteroscopy went well. I stood up after and saline gushed out of me onto the floor. Woof. I definitely still feel like I am occasionally peeing myself even though I know its the saline. i was going to try to go to the gym tonight but I think I should do some jumping jacks to get it all out so it doesn't flush out at the gym!
I asked the RE about timelines and how long he thinks it will take for me to get everything together and pick out a donor and they said 1-2 months. So I was a little surprised it would take that long but everything is in my court, so I'm sure it just depends on me and MH. They keep saying there is no rush for me but I'm like uh I've been waiting for well over a year and a half, I'm rushing the hell into this.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@adirat hysteroscopy went well. I stood up after and saline gushed out of me onto the floor. Woof. I definitely still feel like I am occasionally peeing myself even though I know its the saline. i was going to try to go to the gym tonight but I think I should do some jumping jacks to get it all out so it doesn't flush out at the gym!
I asked the RE about timelines and how long he thinks it will take for me to get everything together and pick out a donor and they said 1-2 months. So I was a little surprised it would take that long but everything is in my court, so I'm sure it just depends on me and MH. They keep saying there is no rush for me but I'm like uh I've been waiting for well over a year and a half, I'm rushing the hell into this.
@juneroseruby I know exactly what you mean! My husband said something identical to this earlier today. I'm glad everything went well with your hysteroscopy!
Cycle/CD: ??? / 11</div><div> </div><div>Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WFIVF</div><div> </div><div>What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Testing / last cycle before retrieval!
</div><div>How are things going? Okay. Trying to enjoy the calm before the storm...</div> Any questions? Not really...
<span>GTKY: Macy's apparently! Lol but I also like Modcloth</span>
@adirat, woohoo, I'm glad you're signed up, though I also understand the up and down emotions. I'm glad to hear that your hysteroscopy was clear!
@lulu1180, I hear you. I simultaneously feel like we're not going anywhere (which a break isn't going to help), and that a break could potentially help me refocus mentally. It's just so hard to keep yourself in even a halfway stable place emotionally and mentally.
I'll check in tomorrow... but guuuuuyyssssss my body sucks sometimes. Progesterone was only 6.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Sorry everyone I'm on mobile and it's so hard to comment to everyone and scroll but love tits all around!
@leekat14 so sorry friend. I wish I had some answers for you but I'm hoping that someone here does. Please keep us posted!
@kiwi2628 so sorry again about the cysts and having IVF get delayed. I really hope this issue resolves quickly so that you can start moving forward. Hugs
@JuneRoseRuby fx for things to be good to go for September!
@KariAnn323 ugh I'm frustrated with your OB I can only imagine how you feel. Fsh BW on cd 20? What a waste of money and concern. You're levels are gonna be off it's a time sensitive test. Your RE apt can't come soon enough!
@safire3 girl everything you said is how I'm feeling. I'm also in the IVF dilemma of did we give it enough time or are we rushing. I wish I had an answer for you but I just wanted to say that your feelings validated my emotions. I'm hoping you find peace in whatever you decide!
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained
Cycle/CD: 21 I think/ cd 4
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): wto
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) testing I think and trying on our own
How are things going?
Overwhelming. Went to another clinic today for a second opinion, he's also recommending IVF like my other RE but this clinic has more exposure than my other RE who has a small practice hence the second opinion and clinic switch. He doesn't seem as convinced about DOR as my other RE, said my fsh is only slightly elevated at 10.6 amh is 2.08 and that my afc is 13 which he likes to see above 8 so I guess at this point we are back to unexplained. I'm kind of more confused about IVF now because if it's not DOR and we have more time then I thought I am now wondering if we are rushing it after 6 medicated cycles 2 of which were IUIs. The decision process is not easy at all.
Any questions?
My RE today said from my medical records I've only had basic genetic testing and DH never had any. I'm confused about getting the genetic testing and doing pgs testing are the both needed or is it usually one over the other like if there is a concern with genetic testing than you do pgs?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
I like Express cause I always have awesome coupons and like walking away with a good deal
@leekat14 I wish there were easy answers/solutions to anything involving IF. I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling frustrated by your FET. I really hope those two sweet embryos stick for you! @kiwi2628 Even though the discovery of the cysts help to explain some of what you've been seeing/experiencing, I can't imagine how frustrating it is to have this setback. I hope your ultrasound will bring you good news. @JuneRoseRuby That would be awesome if you could get the IVF ball rolling for September! I'm glad the hysteroscopy went well. @lulu1180 As difficult as it can be to take a break, sometimes those breaks are so very necessary for our sanity. I hope life brings you happiness and you start to feel more like yourself again soon. @shortstack930 I hope this IUI is successful for you! But if you have to go to the next steps, I hope that is a smooth transition for you. @purplg8r Sorry to hear that your timing wasn't as you wanted it with everything happening all at once. I hope your RE appointment goes well next week. @adirat That gif tho... I'm so glad you have gotten started for IVF! We talked PGD vs PGS with our provider today, and I know in your case the PGD is definitely going to make a huge difference. Here's to hoping you have way more ups than downs this week. @TravelingCouple Have a fantastic time at your convention! I hope all goes smoothly with your upcoming move date, too. @BusinessWife LAST CYCLE!!! I'm so super-stoked for you!
The meeting with the RE and the saline sono went well today. We showed up about 30 minutes early and it seemed like the doctor would be able to take the appointment earlier, but she was called into a c-section. She ended up seeing us about 30 minutes after our scheduled appointment time. (Of course I was supposed to have a full bladder for the saline sono, so I had chugged two full bottles of water before the appointment.)
We met in the RE's office and went over sooo much information, like our decision to do PGS instead of PGD (since AZFc will pass on to any males 100% of the time anyway) and our plans for donor sperm, if needed. However, my bladder got to the point where we had to do the saline sono right then or my full bladder would be going all over the floor. DH was amazing and held my hand during the procedure. The RE said everything looks fantastic, took some pictures, and I ran down the hallway after a basic cleanup. (I didn't even put on my underwear or fully tie my shoes for my potty run. Ha ha!)
Once I sheepishly made it back down the hallway, the RE looked over my levels from my previous bloodwork and said my ovarian reserve levels look great. I ended up having to get 8 vials of blood taken to ensure that I don't have any blood clotting issues with the recent DVT/calf pain scares, but it will help everyone feel better in the long run. My next IVF appointment won't be until the end of next week, but I think my bladder needs a break after this trip. Ha ha.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
Re: IF Treatment &Testing Week of July 31
Diagnosis (If you've been):
Endometriosis and low AMH
Cycle/CD: 21
Will be doing 2nd FET and putting my last two embryos in
Terrible. I wouldn't be here if I didn't have questions. I'm only hanging in this thread because it's too hard to read anything else. I really thought my transfer would be successful and I can't wrap my head around why it couldn't have just woeked.
Any questions? My RE gave me some other additional things that could assist in making this next one successful. Has anyone heard of hcg washes, intralipid ivs or prograf used for IVF?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I absolutely hate shopping but I like having new things to wear. I have recently found the Loft store to be successful. If I should live in Lululemon I'd never shop anywhere else!
Cycle/CD: 13/Welll, I dunno
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love Madewell!
leekat14 Still present!
kiwi2628 Ugh. Sorry about the inability to do IVF this calendar year. But hopefully the cysts they found can be fixed and help things out.
Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained RPL
Cycle/CD: CD 27, 6 DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): Benched
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Losing weight! (hopefully)
How are things going? Pretty good. Sorry everyone that I ghosted last week, but I was helping my sister after her tonsillectomy (and I tend to bump at work). Looks like I missed a lot of grads. Hoping everyone is still plugging along and doing great!
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Ugh… my favorite store used to be Dress Barn, but (TMI) since my RPL and my constantly changing and seemingly ever-expanding breasts, I don’t always fit into their dresses… which means I’d have to go to the 1X/2X size, which would fit my boobs, but be HUGE in the waist. So right now… um… whatever I find?
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@kiwi2628 That's awful about the cysts. Hopefully it can be resolved quickly.
Cycle/CD: 11 / 23
On top of all of this our EDD is coming up on Thursday. I've been doing really well. There are plenty of times that I'm all excited about starting testing and treatment, but then it's like I hit a brick wall and all I can think is WTF do I have to do all of this. I shouldn't be worrying about DH's SA or my blood work or trying to understand insurance or my OB's IF incompetence. I should be counting down the days to Thursday and worrying about having my hospital bag packed and enough food in the freezer. I was doing dishes last night and all I could think was that I shouldn't be able to reach the sink. DH has been wonderful and he tries so hard. He keeps reminding me that we're going to have a franken-baby (DH loves old horror movies and Frankenstein is his absolute favorite so this is not meant as a bad thing) which will make our baby instantly cooler than the other babies. Some days just suck though.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? There's a local consignment store that I love. I sell a lot my clothes there so usually I just use store credit to buy new stuff.
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@kiwi2628 ughhhh, sorry about the cysts.
@KariAnn323 I'm sorry that your EDD milestone is starting to hit you pretty hard. Big hugs, friend.
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Cycle/CD: 21/5? Pure guesses
Any questions? @laurad75 did you have to meet with a psychologist before starting IVF with donor? that is on our to do list.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Banana is probably where I get 90% of my clothes. I just know my size and how everything fits so most of the time I can just pull off the shelves. I also have a Banana republic card so I get rewards and I get a lot of "free" clothes from there because of it.
@leekat14 Don't worry girl, I am still hanging on here. You aren't alone! I am sorry you're feeling so frustrated with your last cycle. I hope you can get in some good juju to get ready for this FET cycle!
@kiwi2628 ugh I am so sorry for the cysts. That really sucks. Hopefully the BC will blast them away and you can get back onto a cycle next month.
@KariAnn323 I agree with @kiwi2628 I would just start up with an RE. I would definitely want to be working with someone that specializes in IF.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@leekat14 I’m so sorry that you’re back here girl. So many creepy internet stranger hugs sent your way!
@KariAnn323 I’m sorry things have been so tough and that your EDD is coming up! Can you find another OB or are there pretty slim pickings where you live? I do know that not all b/w needs to be done CD3, I think that’s only 1 specific test (don’t remember which though). The other important thing is that your progesterone is tested at 7DPO.
@JuneRoseRuby I’m so excited for you to start towards getting KTFU!!!!! GL today at your hysteroscopy!! (and you too @adirat!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): Hyperprolactinemia
Cycle/CD: Cycle 19/CD 22/ 12DPO
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) waiting
How are things going? Eh, I’m not really sure. I finally made the follow-up appointment with the RE since the bromocriptine didn’t seem to be working to get me KU and the soonest they had was August 17th. Then last week, I got to thinking; I realized how unhappy I am right now in general. I’m unhappy with where my life is right now (I figured I would at least have a baby on the way by now!) and I’m really unhappy about the way I look thanks to the 30+ lbs of TTC weight I’ve gained. If this cycle isn’t successful, I’ve decided that I’m taking a 3 month TTC break. It’s not something I want to do but more something I need to do. I need to take a mental break to reset myself. I also need to truly try to do something about the weight gain and try to lose as much as I can in those 3 months. I'm keeping my appointment with the RE so that I can have a plan after my break. I don’t know how much I would be stalking you ladies because it might just been too hard but you know I’ll be cheering you all on from afar! I hope that when I come back, the IF thread is empty and all of you have moved on! Of course, there’s still a chance I could be KU but I’m certainly not holding out any hope.
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I don’t really have a favorite store. It’s wherever I can find clothing that fits my style at a decent price.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@KariAnn323 I am sorry that,you have to deal with an incompetent OB at a time like this. I agree @dpjennifer and @kiwi2628. Especially if he's doing CD3 bw on CD20... I would be concerned about whether he can appropriately do the HSG and whether the RE would accept it. My one HSG was expensive enough OOP, I definitely would not have wanted to pay gor it twice.
Cycle/CD: 28/CD30
Just waiting on consults now.
Eh. Sorry I bailed and never responded last week, work got crazy and i sort of lost base. At this point, we're just waiting on H's consult with his RU to hear why he wants H to have surgery, and then we'll make some decisions. Someone asked last week (sorry, I can't remember who!) about whether I was pro surgery... right now, no, I'm not. The one little varico they found on u/s doesn't seem significant enough to be causing the issue, and there are just too many ifs and maybes for me to feel like it would be worthwhile. We'll see what the RU has to say though.
Any questions?
No.
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
Definitely banana republic. 3/4 of my work wadrobe is from that one store.
ETA: @lulu1180 I am so sorry that you are going through this. I completely understand the need for a break, and have been thinking that I might need one of my own here shortly. I think I'm just going a little crazy and I'm driving H there with me. This is such a mentally and emotionally difficult experience and you constantly feel like you're being pulled in different directions. So many hugs to you. I hope you find even a little slice of peace.
@leekat14 Damn I'm so sorry you're here. Hugs
@kiwi2628 That really sucks about the cysts - I hope the BC helps them GTFO
@JuneRoseRuby and @adirat GL today!
@lulu1180 I'm sorry you're feeling so unhappy - this process definitely takes its toll. We will miss you, but you need to do what you need to in order to get in a good place - Hugs (and if you do get KU in that time you better get back here and let us know so we can celebrate and gif appropriately!)
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI (low morph)
Cycle/CD: Cycle 12/CD 17
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW (2 DPO)
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Trying on our own.
How are things going? Ugh. I know it's for the best for the time being but I just feel like it's pointless. We did have good timing so I'm trying to focus on that (maybe there was one guy who just powered through!) It's taking all my power not to start bothering my RE's IUI nurse. I was going to wait until one more cycle to start doing that lol
Any questions? Not at the moment
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? JC Penney. I hate clothes because my body is gross and nothing looks good on me, so I rarely buy anything.
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@lulu1180 I know just how you feel. What we are all going through is so difficult and heavy. I think a break is a really good idea (we are in the middle of a break right now) and it can be very helpful to getting your mind back on track. I still have moments when I get really down about everything but its not as all consuming as it was when I was doing treatment. Take care of yourself.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Cycle/CD: CD 25
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I love J. Crew.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@leekat14 I’m still here too. I’m sorry you’re having such a rough go. I don’t have any help as far as the additional procedures go, but my fingers are crossed for you!
@kiwi2628 So many hugs. That’s so frustrating. BTW, I love me some Madewell.
@lulu1180 Ah girl, I feel you. I thought that lowering my prolactin would be the answer too. I also have some weight that has come on in the last few months. It’s adding insult to injury. Last year I took a 3 month break too. Well, NTNP. It was so so good for my mental health. This process isn’t easy. But you do what is best for you.
@zwink1 I hope you and your H get some answers soon and can decide how best to proceed from here.
@safire3 FWIW I think you made the right decision to see your RE. I waited over a year, because TW* I had gotten pregnant on my own twice. End TW* But I wish now I had gone so much sooner. The whole, wait a year thing, shouldn’t really be the standard, especially if you’re charting and have good timing. And while I know it’s not the same as IRL friends, you have a ton of support here.
@RVAmom315 I say bother the nurse!! But I hope this is your cycle and that little guy did his job!
@juneroseruby Good luck today with the hysteroscopy! I’ll be thinking of you two ladies!!
Diagnosis: High Prolactin, High AMH, Fragile X carrier, PCOM
Cycle/CD: Hit month 20 eesh/ CD 10
Status: WTO
What are you doing this cycle: My RE wants us to try for 3 cycles on our own. (I stopped taking my temp, checking CM, CP, and OPKs, andnd they want me to chart again so they can see if anything has changed. I'm so out of the habit of this stuff, and part of me wonders if it really is going to help at all.)
How are things going: Meh, they're going. Maybe I'm a weirdo, but I loved that we were in the RE's office so much the last few months. We were always getting answers and changing up meds, and I felt like the pressure was off of us. Now we are going to try again for 3 cycles on our own and see where we are at. I just feel, like in my bones and my gut, that we will end up doing IVF and I need to stop wasting time. Also, my prolactin blood work came back TOO LOW! Good news I guess, is that I'm responding to the meds.
Any Questions: not at the moment
GTKY: I love madewell for the basics, but my favorite is Free People. Especially their shoes!!
Cycle: 14
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I'm not a huge shopper. (I still have clothes from 10+ years ago that I wear on a regular basis.) However, when I do feel like adulting and buying new clothes, I usually just go to Ross or TJ Maxx. There's also a really great thrift sale at the YWCA every month that benefits a women's clothing fund.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
@lulu1180 I fully support breaks. I felt so much better after I took off December. Of course I also had to take off January through now, but I feel like it makes you mentally prepared to battle IF. Reset your mind, heart, relationship with H. I don't know that you need to set a time limit of how long you will be on a break, but just know we will miss you and you are welcome back whenever, friend!
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@kiwi2628 I'm so sorry about the cysts delaying everything.
@dpjennifer that's great that you were able to help your sister! I've heard that a tonsillectomy as an adult can have a really tough recovery.
@KariAnn323 I'm so sorry that the EDD is hitting you hard. And I agree that it's BS for the OB to diagnose you as secondary IF. So many hugs.
@JuneRoseRuby good luck today!!
@lulu1180 I totally understand needing a break but I hope you're KU so that you don't even need to go to your RE follow up!
@zwink1 when is your H's consult?
@safire3 I definitely think the doubts are normal, especially when it's such a big decision and one you never thought you'd have to make. But we are all here to support you through it!
@RVAmom315 don't give up hope, there's always the possibility that trying on your own will work. And your body is not gross!!!
Cycle/CD: 20/not sure
Any questions? Nope
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Target!
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@shortstack930 Thanks girl, I'm glad you're feeling better, and I hope you don't even have to make those decisions!
@alohakumu Yikes! Scary about the DVT - I hope your appointment goes well today
@Redpuma119 Not a weirdo at all! Even though I have only been to the RE once so far, I felt the same way. Ok, a plan, I don't have to do it all on my own anymore (even though we aren't going back for another couple months)
@safire3 Hugs. This process is so scary and overwhelming I'm sure. I'm not at the same stage yet, but just thinking about the process freaks me out and when I start to really think about it, I get down. DH is still all unicorn farts and rainbows thinking we'll do it on our own, but I just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that IVF is around the corner (if I can even get DH 100% on board - but that's a story for another day)
@zwink1 FX all goes well with the RU results
AFM (I forgot to add this in my original post) DH and I went to lunch Saturday and talked a little bit more. We've 100% decided on trying on our own until my October cycle (well he is, I'm like, ugh let's move on already lol), and then definitely moving on to IUI. He's completely on board with that, which is a huge step. Question - how does your RE decide if the IUI is going to be medicated or natural? Is it based on your BW numbers?
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@zwink1 That’s one of the reasons DH is completely on board with it; I have become obsessive about it (as we all have at one point or another) and he thinks it would be good for me to take that mental break. I’d be interested to hear what YHs RU says about surgery. When is your consult?
@safire3 I’m sorry you’re feeling so down, friend! This whole process can feel lonely IRL; I know we’re only internet strangers but the ladies on this board have seriously helped me through my worst TTC days and I am so thankful that I found this amazing group
@RVAmom315 Thanks, friend! And there will be very little chance of getting KU, cuz we’ll be TTA. I considered NTNP but with everything I know about my body, it would be too hard not to be all like “Oh, I got EWCM today, I’m going to be sneaky and seduce H” which takes the whole relaxing thing out of it. There’s a part of me that feel really good about this and another part of me that is immeasurably sad. But what matters most is that I’m truly taking care of myself for once and making myself a priority!
@laurad75 Thanks, girl! I do think it will make a huge difference when I come back to it. I hope your meetings go well!
@Redpuma119 I thought about NTNP, but decided instead to TTA (see my note above). While I hated when I got my IF dx, I was also hopeful that finding out what was wrong would lead to being KU. It’s just so damn unfair! GL getting back into the swing of charting! I hope it’s just like a riding a bicycle and you pick it back up without an issue!
@AlohaKumu Sorry your leg isn’t getting the memo! GL with your SSG today!
@JuneRoseRuby
@shortstack930 Thanks, friend, me too! I try hard not to SS but it’s so hard. Although it’s even harder when there seem to be so few symptoms…..maybe it’s a good sign…? I’m just trying hard not to read into it. So happy to see you’re in a better frame of mind!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@leekat14 I'm so sorry the first one didn't work. Keeping my fX for you!
@kiwi2628 are the cysts painful? And I've never heard of madewell
@dpjennifer how is your sister feeling?
@KariAnn323 ugh. I'm sorry your OB doesn't seem that with it about IF! And sending you hugs. This is definitely a hard week.
@JuneRoseRuby thinking of you today. Hope it went well!
@lulu1180 it's completely understandable that you might need a break. It's hard, but you have to do what's best for you mentally and physically.
@zwink1 when is H's consult again?
@safire3 this journey can feel really lonely, esp when all your friends are able to get KU rather easily or are in a place in their life where they don't get it
@RVAmom315 fx you had good timing!
@laurad75 when are your meetings?
@Redpuma119 did your RE say why they want you to try on your own?
@AlohaKumu I'm sorry about your leg! But exciting about your appt with the RE!
@shortstack930 fx this IUI works!
Cycle/CD: month 12/cycle 8/cd 35/dpo 3
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? Lilly Pulitzer. It's an addiction
@JuneRoseRuby Eeeeee! Good luckk today!
@lulu1180 I am so sorry you are feeling out of control. I hope the break does wonders for your mental health, but I will miss you
@Redpuma119 I know the gut feeling of IVF. Back when I was only on cycle 6 I was like 'I know there is something wrong with me, I know'. So sorry you are feeling down though
@purplg8r luckily they aren't painful at all
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@kariann323 Hugs friend. I know exactly how you are feeling and it sucks. I hope that the new RE has better plans (and clearer care) for you than the confusing current situation...but I also know that hope is cold comfort when you should have your baby soon. One day at a time. Thinking of you
@juneroseruby I hope your hysteroscopy went well today! It's another step toward GTFKU just like you said! Thinking of you.
@lulu1180 It's been such a long road for you and I don't at all blame you for wanting to get your life back in order. I hope this cycle is it and you don't have to contemplate TTA, but you have my full support whatever you choose. Big hugs friend.
Cycle/CD: Stopped counting cycles. More than a year.
I had my hysteroscopy this morning which was all clear. That was SUCH a relief because of my complicated recovery after d&e earlier this year. And, it means that I can start birth control pills again (they work wonders for me) until IVF. Small victories.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing? I buy most of my clothes secondhand/consignment.
@kiwi2628 and @dpjennifer That's a good point. I'll email the RE's office after work.
@JuneRoseRuby So I have an RE appointment set for 9/5. The appointment with my OB was supposed to just be about progesterone and to let him know that we have an RE appointment set. When he offered to start testing we got excited to feel like we were actually doing something. My OB and RE work together frequently so I'm hoping the RE will accept the OB's test results. If not then we'll just put everything on hold until September.
@lulu1180 So he's a great OB so I'm hesitant to go to someone else especially because I generally hate doctors. He's actually highly recommended I just think that he's a bit out of his element with IF stuff.
@zwink1 I'm going to email the RE's office tonight after work and see if he would accept the results. If not then we'll wait until we see him in September.
@adirat Thank you so much! My fingers are crossed so hard that your IVF+PGD goes as smoothly as possible.
Dating: 2/2007 Married: 4/2011
TTC #1: 9/2016
*TW*
BFP #2: 3/9/2017 - CP: 3/10/2017
08/2017: DH's SA = normal
08/2017: Low progesterone (4.6) all other BW normal
11/2017: HSG Clear; Pelvic Ultrasound Normal; and AMH, FSH, and Estradiol normal
12/2017: 1,000mg Metformin
12/2017: 50mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: 100mg Clomid + TI = BFN
01/2018: RE Consult
03/2018: 5mg Letrozole + 50 units Gonal-F + 500 μg Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #3: 4/1/2018 - CP: 4/4/2018
04/2018: 5mg Letrozole + Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP #4: 5/2/18
@KariAnn323 I have never heard of an RE giving a diagnosis of secondary IF for that reason..that seems absurd to me. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that. Hugs for your upcoming EDD too
@lulu1180 It's so tough when your life isn't where you thought it would be. I'm sorry I think you're brave for realizing you need a break too. It's a tough decision to make. I hope it's exactly what you need! Ultimately, of course I hope you don't even need a break at all!
@adirat Yes to that gif and emotional roller coaster! Some days I feel like I don't even want to be around myself. YAY for progress for you!!
Cycle/CD: Cycle 20 or 21, lost count/ CD 21
We are still waiting on a closing date for the house. The appraisal is done, the title came in, so a closing date should be the final step! We're still hoping for an August move date. I'm so excited about this house and I can't wait to live there! I'm trying to focus all of my energy in that.
Any questions?
GTKY: What are your favorite stores for purchasing clothing?
I like NY&Co but I really haven't shopped in so long...I do online shopping too but that rarely works out for sizing and actually looking good in person vs. online.
@adirat It's all happening!!
Random question for the PCOS ladies. What, if any, diet did you follow? At my last consult, my dr suggested following a typical PCOS diet, even though I wasn't showing all the markers. And I agreed that it couldn't hurt. (I miss my cheese though.) I talked to a nurse on Friday to talk about maybe adding metformin to the mix and she let me know that my dr recommended a different diet instead of starting the metformin. This one is essentially vegan, so no animal products. Also, no caffeine, no processed foods, no honey, no alcohol, the usual. But here's the kicker... no nuts, no oils, no avocado, no squash of any kind, no salt, no beans, no lentils, no night shades, no oats, barley, brown rice. LOTS of fruit. And tofu is recommended.
I'm not a PCOS expert, but why would I eat 90% carbs when we are worried about insulin resistance. And then add soy into the diet?
So I sent an email to the nurse asking why I am being asked to follow a diet that is completely different than the one only a few weeks ago.. but until then..
I am not a doctor but that diet sounds like nonsense to me.
Soy definitely is not recommended to ADD to your diet when TTC...
Your post reminded me of this:
I asked the RE about timelines and how long he thinks it will take for me to get everything together and pick out a donor and they said 1-2 months. So I was a little surprised it would take that long but everything is in my court, so I'm sure it just depends on me and MH. They keep saying there is no rush for me but I'm like uh I've been waiting for well over a year and a half, I'm rushing the hell into this.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@TravelingCouple enjoy your trip!
@TravelingCouple have a great time at your convention!
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Cycle/CD: ??? / 11</div><div>
</div><div>Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WFIVF</div><div>
</div><div>What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Testing / last cycle before retrieval!
</div><div>How are things going? Okay. Trying to enjoy the calm before the storm...</div>
Any questions? Not really...
<span>GTKY: Macy's apparently! Lol but I also like Modcloth</span>
@shortstack930, @lulu1180, @purplg8r, H's consult is 8/15. I am clearly *patiently* waiting...
@adirat, woohoo, I'm glad you're signed up, though I also understand the up and down emotions. I'm glad to hear that your hysteroscopy was clear!
@lulu1180, I hear you. I simultaneously feel like we're not going anywhere (which a break isn't going to help), and that a break could potentially help me refocus mentally. It's just so hard to keep yourself in even a halfway stable place emotionally and mentally.
my body sucks sometimes. Progesterone was only 6.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@leekat14 so sorry friend. I wish I had some answers for you but I'm hoping that someone here does. Please keep us posted!
@kiwi2628 so sorry again about the cysts and having IVF get delayed. I really hope this issue resolves quickly so that you can start moving forward. Hugs
@JuneRoseRuby fx for things to be good to go for September!
@KariAnn323 ugh I'm frustrated with your OB I can only imagine how you feel. Fsh BW on cd 20? What a waste of money and concern. You're levels are gonna be off it's a time sensitive test. Your RE apt can't come soon enough!
@safire3 girl everything you said is how I'm feeling. I'm also in the IVF dilemma of did we give it enough time or are we rushing. I wish I had an answer for you but I just wanted to say that your feelings validated my emotions. I'm hoping you find peace in whatever you decide!
testing I think and trying on our own
@kiwi2628 Even though the discovery of the cysts help to explain some of what you've been seeing/experiencing, I can't imagine how frustrating it is to have this setback. I hope your ultrasound will bring you good news.
@JuneRoseRuby That would be awesome if you could get the IVF ball rolling for September! I'm glad the hysteroscopy went well.
@lulu1180 As difficult as it can be to take a break, sometimes those breaks are so very necessary for our sanity. I hope life brings you happiness and you start to feel more like yourself again soon.
@shortstack930 I hope this IUI is successful for you! But if you have to go to the next steps, I hope that is a smooth transition for you.
@purplg8r Sorry to hear that your timing wasn't as you wanted it with everything happening all at once. I hope your RE appointment goes well next week.
@adirat That gif tho... I'm so glad you have gotten started for IVF! We talked PGD vs PGS with our provider today, and I know in your case the PGD is definitely going to make a huge difference. Here's to hoping you have way more ups than downs this week.
@TravelingCouple Have a fantastic time at your convention! I hope all goes smoothly with your upcoming move date, too.
@BusinessWife LAST CYCLE!!! I'm so super-stoked for you!
The meeting with the RE and the saline sono went well today. We showed up about 30 minutes early and it seemed like the doctor would be able to take the appointment earlier, but she was called into a c-section. She ended up seeing us about 30 minutes after our scheduled appointment time. (Of course I was supposed to have a full bladder for the saline sono, so I had chugged two full bottles of water before the appointment.)
We met in the RE's office and went over sooo much information, like our decision to do PGS instead of PGD (since AZFc will pass on to any males 100% of the time anyway) and our plans for donor sperm, if needed. However, my bladder got to the point where we had to do the saline sono right then or my full bladder would be going all over the floor. DH was amazing and held my hand during the procedure. The RE said everything looks fantastic, took some pictures, and I ran down the hallway after a basic cleanup. (I didn't even put on my underwear or fully tie my shoes for my potty run. Ha ha!)
Once I sheepishly made it back down the hallway, the RE looked over my levels from my previous bloodwork and said my ovarian reserve levels look great. I ended up having to get 8 vials of blood taken to ensure that I don't have any blood clotting issues with the recent DVT/calf pain scares, but it will help everyone feel better in the long run. My next IVF appointment won't be until the end of next week, but I think my bladder needs a break after this trip. Ha ha.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.