TTC After a Loss

TTCAL check-in week of 7/3

And boom! Here we are in July! 

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new)
2. Status?
3. R/R?
4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!)
Me: 39 DH: 39
CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
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Re: TTCAL check-in week of 7/3

  • 1. Hello!!!! Again!!! Is is me you're looking for? *cue Lionel Richie voice since y'all know me, I think*. I'm an AMA with autoimmune disease (Graves from MC and autoimmune pancreatitis). Still, I have hope one day. @Mack2342 gives me plenty of it!  :)
    2. WTO CD10
    3. Meh. Chilling at home over the holiday and not having to study anymore has been pretty cool. Still don't know if I passed my boards yet. Won't be the end of the world if I don't but I don't want having to retest hanging over my head since I'm traveling soon to work, visiting family, and starting my new job 8/1.
    4. GTKY: I know I mentioned this in convo once, but it's to stand on the beach in St. Maarten where the planes come in and look like they are about to hit you (seriously, Google Images "airport beach St.Maarten" and you'll see what I mean, oh my God!)

    Have a wonderful and hopefully short week!!
    Me: 39 DH: 39
    CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
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  • @amberruka. Glad you are enjoying not having to study.  
    We are just about cycle buddies 

    AFM, so not new.   Been here for almost a year now

    2. CD 9 WTO.  I go Wednesday for US to see how many follicles then last IUI will be soon after

    3.  We are on family vacation. Returning home tomorrow.  My anniversary is Wednesday and a year ago on anniversary we found out we were pregnant with 2nd child.  I thought what a great gift but it sadly ended in August at 10 weeks.  I'm hoping that this year we will see more follicles and can get pregnant again 

    4.  I think I'm boring.  I don't really have a bucket list but I have always wanted to travel overseas Italy Greece Spain 
  • SP128SP128 member
    @amberruka  I'm sure you rocked your boards!!  @Mack2342 gives me hope too  :)

    @Mack2342  FX for a good number of follicles.  

    1.  Not new
     2.  I'm 4 days post 5 day transfer.  This probably equals to 9DPO

    3.  Had 4 people scheduled at the clinic today and only saw 1.  2 no showed and 1 cancelled late last night.  
    Trying not to SS.  DH is working a double today and is probably going to try to work another double tomorrow.  Boring holiday weekend.  

    4.  My bucket list item was go to Hawaii.  We did that last year.  Would it be greedy to put Hawaii back on?  We contemplated going this Aug but with this IVF business we didn't book the trip.  
    ***TW***
    Me: 36  DH:35
    Married: 7/10/2016
    TTC#1 - May 2016
    BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016  
    BFP 5/5/2017  - CP
    IVF #1 - June 2017  - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo.  7/9 Beta #1 - 161 
    <3 Adam <3 Born on 3/18/18




     
  • @amberruka fx for great test results!

    @Mack2342 Happy anniversary! Good luck at your us.

    @SP128  enjoy your holiday to yourself. Wear your comfy clothes and relax 

    1. Not new, MC in December 

    2. Status? Tta 

    3. R/R? Well, it's July.  My due date is coming up and it's put me in a funk. Edd was 7/28. We have a 4 day vacation planned so we can distract ourselves. We bought ds the biggest sand castle kit we could find so we'll be pretty busy over there.

    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!) DH and I want to visit every baseball park. So far we've been to 2, we have a looong way to go haha.
  • 1. Introduce yourself (if you're new) hahaha. NEW!? Please. You can't get rid of me!
    2. Status? WTO - CD4ish. This is my 5th cycle TTCAL (2nd loss)
    3. R/R? This day/week sucks. I would/should/could?! be 39 weeks today which as a repeat CS mama is as far as I would go - so wish I was in hospital meeting my new baby girl today rather than packing for a vacation. I know the alternative of vacation packing is fabulous, but, you know. 
    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!) have a 3rd kid. 
    **** TW - kids and loss mentioned ****
    ~~ married 8.11.07
    ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
    ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
    ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
    ~~ BFP4 10.27.16  MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
  • Sorry @ladipale . I would be 36-37 weeks so i feel ya. This month needs to hurry up! Enjoy your vacation 
  • @sp128 that sucks with the no shows.  FX crossed for you.  

    Thanks @pumpkin0913.  EDDs are hard.  I stayed busy through mine and that helped.  I got a BFP the next day so that made it a little easier too but then of course I'm still here so we know what that means.  That EDD will be in November.  It sucks.  My DH had the same on his bucket list.  I think he made it to 4 or 5 then married me and I think it got derailed since he was going with single buddy.  He hasn't been to any since then and hasn't talked about it either 

    @ladipale this sucks.  I have said that too.  This process is so difficult.  I hope you can enjoy your vacation though. 
  • zamoraspinzamoraspin member
    edited July 2017
    Happy 4th!

    @amberruka  Fx for your boards and I'm glad you get to relax!

    @Mack2342 Fx for you this cycle!

    @SP128  That sucks, I feel like that's how the day before every holiday goes.

    @ladipale  I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I hope you have an awesome vacation, I know it's no substitute.

    @pumpkin0913  I'm sorry, that's tough to have your EDD coming up. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself.

    1. Introduce yourself (if you're new) First pg ended in mmc recently. In first cycle AL TTC.
    2. Status? WTO. Positive OPKs last night and this morning. Edit: CD 24
    3. R/R? It's raining here but that's ok because we weren't going to go to the BBQs we were invited to. It's kind of nice sitting here with the puppers before MH is up while it rains outside.
    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!) Hmm, not too crazy but there's a few places I'd like to travel to - Greece, India, and Japan are high on the list. 
  • 1. not new, mc in april
    2. CD 19
    3. First cycle of being off the bench and DH has been sick with a nasty cold for the past week so I'm just sitting here twiddling my thumbs waiting for next month.
    4. Travel is definitely high on the bucket list. I've been lucky enough to get to a few amazing places over the past few years but I have so many more places I want to go. Portugal, Galapagos, Botswana, Japan.... I also really want to do a big renovation on my home, we bought it as a fixer upper and 10 years late we are still fixing it up, I'd like to just bulldoze it sometimes.

    Happy 4th of of July to all my neighbours south of the border. We just had our Canada Day weekend and it was hot and sunny and we spent the weekend with friends camping. 

  • pghrenpghren member

    2. Status?

    WTO CD4 

    3. R/R?

    The timing of this month or next would be ideal in terms of EDD's and my school schedule. So if we get our bfp I'll be able to finish the Spring semester and have the summer to take off. So despite no luck since coming off the bench, there's a logistical plus side. Stressful though. Debating if I want to use opk's or not. They could be helpful for timing but also add to the stress of wanting it to work out. 

    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!)

    Traveling mostly. Have never been outside the country, so I'd love to go anywhere really
  • pghrenpghren member
    @40momma
    Sorry for DH being sick. That definitely sucks


  • @amberruka I know I missed this on account of being new, but what kind of boards did you take?  Both me and DH have been through different boards experiences and man oh man it is stressful!  Hope you hear good news soon!

    @Mack2342 I hope all looks great with your US tomorrow!

    @SP128 Getting closer!  Hoping for great news for you in the next few days!

    @pumpkin0913 Sorry that your EDD is coming up so soon :(  I think it's a great idea to take a distracting vacation...I hope you have a fun time and it helps you get through the month a little easier.

    @ladipale  Aw, crap...I'm so sorry that you began a new cycle :(  That really really blows.  I hope your trip offers a bit of distraction and rejuvenation in a difficult time.

    @zamora_spin  Glad to see those positive OPKs!  Good luck this month!!

    @40momma  Oh no!  Crappy timing for DH to get sick!  I know that must be disappointing and frustrating 

    @allowachick I've never been out of the country, either!  Been lots of places within it, but still looking forward to traveling farther someday!

    1. Introduce yourself (if you're new)
    New-ish, have done bigger intros on past posts...short of it is MC in early June from T18.
    2. Status?
    Benched for 1 cycle.  Currently 11dpo and looking forward to AF's arrival so we can officially be in TTC cycle 1 AL.
    3. R/R?
    Headed up to the Cleveland area this weekend and am so looking forward to it.  The lake, the ICE CREAM.  I'm a Mitchell's Ice Cream fanatic (If you've ever been up there, you know what I'm talking about!) and am litterally bring an empty cooler up with me so that I can bring home many many many pints of ice cream. Best I've ever had!
    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!)
    Big picture: To see a herd of elephants in their native habitat.  Smaller and more do-able: karaoke.  Why am I 35 and have never done karaoke?

  • @allowachick my DH had never been out of the country either, doesn't really like to travel. In 2015 I asked if he could chose one country to go to ever randomly, he said Ireland. We went in 2015 and he LOVED it, wants to go back! 

    @rosemaryandthyme it was my 6 year PANRE, I'm a physician assistant. And crappy how these tests *never* are an indication of the type of practitioner you are. At least I work in primary care, but the questions were like, "I would do 3 of these things simultaneously and you want me to pick one?!" I feel bad for my friends in derm or other specialties that have to take a primary care test to keep their certification....
    Me: 39 DH: 39
    CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
  • @zamora_spin. Yay for positives OPKs 

    @40momma. Hope DH feels better soon. 

    @rosemaryandthyme. Do you live in OH? And I'm 42 and never karaoke.  My DH says ever car ride is karaoke bc I sing nonstop in car but never out lol
  • @amberruka Oh okay, cool!  My dad is a PA (for almost 30 years!) and his test is coming up next year...no fun at all!  He works in ED now, but spent much of his career in general and vascular surgery...when I was in high school, I used to spend so much of my school breaks going to shadow him in the OR and saw so many neat surgeries (ha!  I'm sure they'd never allow that now, but 20 years ago everybody was like 'sure, whatevs', bring the kid in...).  I always thought his career was facinating, and also think it's awesome that he got in at the time when it only required an associate's degree!  I know your test must have been tough, so here's hoping you passed with flying colors!

    @Mack2342 No, not anymore (in TN now).  My parents are both born and raised Clevelanders, though, and I was born there...plus DH and I lived there again for a few years after grad school before we moved to TN.  I miss it so much!  I know most people are like, "huh?  You miss Cleveland?"  But omg, I love that scruffy city so much!
  • pghrenpghren member
    @rosemaryandthyme I have a rugby tournament coming up next weekend in Cleveland but I don't think we'll have enough players to go
  • @rosemaryandthyme. Gotcha. Most people say that about Cleveland if they are from there. At least that's my experience with friends that are from there. We live in Cincinnati 
  • 1. Did a formal introduction last week. I had a nmc right before thanksgiving  last year. Edd was supposed to be tomorrow. We are supposed to do something as a family.
    2. Not exactly sure where I am in the cycle but went off the pill 11 days ago. 
    3. Rant: just trying to get past tomorrow. 
    4. Gtky: I want to drive a race car. I don't know how to drive a stick, so that might be an issue.
    @ladipale and @pumpkin0913 sorry you all are still here and I, too, have been dreading July. 
  • @rklinge0 hugs for the edd. Hopefully july will fly by. We got this!
  • @rklinge0 - will be thinking of you tomorrow
    @ladipale and @pumpkin0913- I hope July is kind to you, I am dreading my EDD and it's not until Dec. 
    @rosemary&amp;thyme - A massive wild elephant walked by me, about 3 ft away, when I was in Sri Lanka in January, such an amazing experience. I just stayed silent and held my breath, hoping he wouldn't give me much thought, luckily for me he didn't, he was on his way to find a missus :) Oh and I LOVE karaoke!!
  • Hugs to you all with EDD this month. It is hard.   I hope you get through the month and get BFPs soon.  I know it doesn't replace what we've lost but feel like it would somehow ease the pain a little.  
  • @allowachick Awesome! I hope you get to go...Mitchell's would make a perfect after-match team treat if I do say so myself ;)

    @Mack2342 Yeah, Clevelanders are a loyal bunch!  I've known a few folks from Cinci and it really seems like it would be a nice place to live.  We always drive through the downtown area on 75 on our way up to Cleveland and it really has a nice energy to it.

    @40momma  Oooo, that's soooo cool!  And a bit scary, I'm sure!  And I don't know what on earth has made me wait to long to do karaoke, I've had a song all ready to go for years and everything *smh*.  Maybe this will finally be my year, lol.
  • hdaleyhdaley member
    Looks like we have a lot of July EDDs in this group, myself included-July 25.

    1. Not new. Mmc December
    2. TWW 6dpo but it's 1am so now 7dpo
    3. Rant: I am having a panic attack hence why I am still up.  While we were gone tonight a drunk driver left a party across the street. Hit two of our neighbors cars and swerved across the street right into a house!  The model is about the same as ours so the location the car hit would be our second child's room if it hit our house. I'm all kinds of shaken up.  And my mother in law tonight doesn't like when our DS gets in trouble and cries, I almost had to do a time out and she told me not to make him cry.  I wanted to slap her. 

    Gtky:  I don't really have anything. I guess I have never thought of it.

    Baby #1: BFP on 10/12/2011, EDD 6/24/2012 Born: 6/16/2012 Boy!

    Baby #2: BFP on 11/11/2016, EDD 7/25/2017 - MC 1/2/2017

  • 1.  Not new

    2. TWW not tracking but probably about 4-5 DPO

    3. Rant - I'm one of only 2 other people at work today. Most people took the week off and it sucks to be here knowing everyone else in on vacation. Plus I have no work friends to talk to. Lol. 

    4. I would love to go to Egypt and see the pyramids. I have been obsessed with them since I was a kid. I would also love to go up in space but don't know if I'd actually have the courage to go. 
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  • Stac928Stac928 member
    edited July 2017

    1. Introduce yourself (if you're new)
    Did an intro last week but will again. AMA, PCOS, lost our first pregnancy with a MMC on 5/2 (12w, baby 8wish). 

    2. Status? CD1 *sad face*

    3. R/R? 
    If people don't stop setting off fireworks and scaring my dog to death and in turn keeping me awake I might hurt someone. 

    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!)
    Oh so many things. But since I'm dreaming I'd travel right now...visiting all 50 states (I'm about 5 shy). 
    Me: 39  DH: 30
    Married 1/28/17
    TW:
    BFP #1 2/26/17, MMC 5/2/17
    BFP #2 10/10/17, MC 11/4/17
    BFP #3 12/17/17 Birth 8/13/18
    BFP #4 4/21/19 Birth 12/5/2019


  • I've decided I can be a part of this board without tracking my very regular and on time cycles lol.  I won't be participating much in the WTO or TWW.  This has been a hell of a process and a major mind fuck ha!

    I've been trying to figure out how to go on from this point.  I'm trying to figure out how I can accept we may be a one and only child family.  It's hard.  Sometimes I feel totally fine and happy with our life as it is.  And other times I really and I mean REALLY want to complete our family with a final kid.  I don't want to be 40 and pregnant - no offense to any on here that are.  I just feel my time is running out.  DH says "yeah well I'm already 40 so I know what you mean" and I'm like WTF "uh I would be the one who is 40 and birthing a kid not you".  My EDD is next month and I have a feeling this will be hard on me, but on the other hand I will also have my annual with OB around the same time so that will be good to talk to him about what next.

    Anyways current positives are we are going on vacation to Arkansas July 19th - 26th.  We haven't been on a family vacation in 2 years and I'm really looking forward to the break.  We are going to go to a lantern festival next saturday to a town about 90 minutes away.  It will be a fun day trip.  There is a solar eclipse next month and we are going to travel to a town about 45 minutes away where it's supposed to be the best.  Also I told DH we should get another puppy in the fall if I'm not pregnant so I'm looking forward to that.  AND I had no anxiety attacks or breakdowns this month with spotting starting just a couple days ago pre AF.  I think it has really helped me not tracking my cycle and feeling pressured with perfectly timed sex.  Looking back since the loss I've probably had 3 major anxiety issue induced moments and I'm just ready to enjoy this life we have.
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  • Welcome @Stac928 only 5 states left that's amazing!

    And welcome back @vlagrl29 glad your anxiety is doing good. Enjoy all your summer plans :)
  • 2. Status? CD 2. AF arrived yesterday. Still benched.

    3. R/R? Down 6ish pounds... but stuck. Frustrated. But hoping since AF is here, that maybe I'll be able to drop past this plateau after she leaves?

    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!): Lots of travel. I want to travel everywhere!

    @pumpkin0913 Sorry about the upcoming Due Date. Those suck. Glad you have a distraction planned.

    @MooFish2364 Ooooh… Egypt and the Pyramids! Count me in to that bucket list item.

    @vlagrl29 Sorry you’re having issues with imagining a different future than you had hoped for. I don’t know if it would help you, but when I realized we may be childless not by choice I really REALLY had a breakdown and had to spend a LOT of time envisioning what life would be like without that child. It took a while, but I’ve somewhat come to peace knowing I could be happy that way as well. Just DH and the dog and me, and travel travel travel! So I guess, just try to envision your future BOTH ways and see if that helps.

    MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
    MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
    MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
    RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
    MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
    RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
    MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)

    RE #3: More testing 2023. 
    Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
    Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
    Lupron Depo March 2024.  Benched 3 months.

    FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)

    Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.

    FET #2: September 2024 (failed)

    FET #3: December 2024 (failed)

    #BitterHagPartyOf1

  • @dpjennifer - thanks for the advice.  Someone at yoga last night recommend I go to this lady she knows that does Reiki.  It's energy work and I think it might be what I need right now.  I'm going to email her today.  Get all my energy back to where it needs to be and balanced.
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  • SP128SP128 member
    @amberruka  yahoo!!!!!  I knew it.  Big congrats lady!

    @dpjennifer  I agree that 6 lbs is nothing to sneeze at.  DH and I have discussed that if things don't work out for us, we would still have each other.  We would have the money to have a big trip every year and build a kick ass addition.  
    ***TW***
    Me: 36  DH:35
    Married: 7/10/2016
    TTC#1 - May 2016
    BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016  
    BFP 5/5/2017  - CP
    IVF #1 - June 2017  - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo.  7/9 Beta #1 - 161 
    <3 Adam <3 Born on 3/18/18




     
  • @amberruka. That's awesome!  Congrats!!

    @dpjennifer. 6lbs is awesome.  Weight loss is so hard!  I always find that I either stay the same or gain when on AF.   
  • jchpgjchpg member
    Eik! I was away for a few days and have ALOT to catch up on...

    1. Introduce yourself (if you're new). Not new. cycle 4 after first pg and first MC in March. 

    2. Status? CD 10, DH left this morning for vacation a few days ahead of me- crossing my fingers O comes on schedule/ a little late so we still have a chance when I join him on CD 16. 

    3. R/R? Its been a crazy week- my brother in law who was due with a baby one month before my EDD in October had his baby arrive this week- early at 29 weeks- but doing ok. I am so excited to have a new niece and happy for them- but its very hard knowing that the baby cousins were were hoping to have so close together is not happening now- with the loss of ours. 

    4. GTKY: name something on your bucket list (anything from the sane to crazy as hell!) I second/ third/ forth travel! I'm getting to see a lot of Europe during my stent as an ex-pat, but I'm dying to see South America and Asia some day. 

    @amberruka Yay on being done with your boards! Enjoy this in-between time while you can. 

    @Mack2342 Happy Anniversary. I hope you had good news with follicle count and a nice day.

    @SP128 I think its ok to put Hawaii on your bucket list twice! FX for success after your transfer. 

    @pumpkin0913, @ladipale, @hdaley I'm sorry about your up coming EDDs, this has to be so hard. Mine isnt until October but I'm nervous about it. Focus on fun vacations for distraction!

    @zamora_spin I want to see Greece, India and Japan too!

    @40momma sorry your DH is sick! I've been sick all week but were still BDing- I figure a little snot can't stop me! 

    @allowachick I only recently started using OPKs. It hasn't added tooo much stress yet. I was already closely watching CM so I had a good idea on when I O. For me it almost gives me a little piece of mind. Though we still DB alot just in case something is not right with the opks. 

    @rosemaryandthyme I understand your stocking up on icecream! I'm about to head back to the US and I have a few key things I am DYING to eat that I miss! If only I could pack my suitcase on the way home with sushi, hamburgers and Mexican food!

    @rklinge0 I love your gtky. I say if you dont want to learn to drive a stick- you can also drive an automatic "race car" just really really fast!

    @MooFish2364 Like your obsession with pyramids- my desire to go to south american is to see Machu Picchu- Ever sense I saw a picture in a text book Ive been obsessed. 

    @Stac928 Im sorry your CD1. Its the worst. Im impressed you've been to almost all of the states!

    @dpjennifer Sorry about the start of your cycle too. :( 

    AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST! @vlagrl29 Its "great" to see you back. Of course Im sad your still here, but we've missed you. Its good to hear your finding some balance and taking the time you need for yourself. 

  • jchpgjchpg member
    @amberruka  CONGRATS on passing your boards! I clearly took way to long to write my post and missed your news! 
  • 1. Introduction: My name is Leah and this is my first time posting, but I've been low-key lurking since last November 2016. *TW* I had my first miscarriage last November at 7 weeks. Didn't post then because I thought "I'll get pregnant again in no time." Well, my EDD was 6/26 so that delusion is over. Talked with my doc about it last month and was started on progesterone. Got a BFP on 6/30, but turned out to be a chemical pregnancy and am currently going through my 2nd loss. *end TW*

    2. Status: Benched. Need to work with my doc to come up with a plan for testing and what steps to take next. 

    3. R/R: At this stage in a loss I think the rants are all the same. That this sucks. That it is sad, and disappointing, and frustrating. And that if fertility were a merit-based system, surely we would all have as many healthy squishy babies as we want! Raves are that I do have a supportive family that I feel comfortable telling about my losses. And that there are communities like this. Because as much sympathy as people have, sometimes you need the empathy from someone else right there in the trenches with you. 

    4. Bucket List: I want to go to all of the Disney theme parks including the ones in Paris and Japan. Yes, I'm uncultured. No, I don't care.  :D

    @amberruka Congrats on passing your boards! Enjoy your 10 year break until the next time! 

    @Mack2342 Traveling isn't "boring" and you aren't boring for wanting to. My first time leaving the country was last year when we found an awesome Groupon to Italy. You should go! Totally worth it! 

    @sp128 Hawaii sounds like a dream! Hope you get to go back soon. I understand not booking a vacation, though. People keep asking where we're traveling next, but we're trying to save our pennies to pay for tests and treatments. 

    @ladipale Everything feels like a booby prize when compared with holding your baby. I hope that you find a way to enjoy your vacation and keep yourself distracted. 

    @pumpkin0913 Hitting that EDD milestone is a hard day. Take care of yourself! 

    @stac928 I'm so glad the 4th is over! Those fireworks were driving my dog (and me) bonkers! 

    @moofish2364 I don't think I could go to space. When they were looking for volunteers for that manned Mars mission my husband (then boyfriend) was talking about how much he'd want to go. Just the thought of it give me the heebie-jeebies. But, I've also watched a bunch of space disaster movies... Gravity, the Martian, Apollo 13.... 

    @vlagrl29 I'm glad you're trying to find ways to use the resources you have to get what you need, whatever that may look like. There's a quote I love "expectation is premeditated resentment." I'm finding that so true in my life right now. I had this notion about what my life and my family was going to look like at this stage and since it's not coming easily (and maybe not at all) I'm finding myself forgetting that things can be good, even if they aren't perfect. I hope you get your energy mojo back. Let us know how the Reiki goes! 

    @jchpg In a similar boat. My SIL is due this month and our kids were supposed to be 1 month apart. I'm working really hard to stay in that space of being happy for them, while still being sad for me. Mostly I feel jealous and petty, then feel guilty for feeling jealous and petty. Hopefully that'll end when I meet the little guy. 
  • SP128SP128 member
    @leahcimmichael  Welcome.  Glad you came out from lurking.  Your profile is eerily similar to mine.  Mine were just a month ahead of yours.  I had a lost late Oct 2016 at 11 weeks and a CP early May 2017.
    ***TW***
    Me: 36  DH:35
    Married: 7/10/2016
    TTC#1 - May 2016
    BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016  
    BFP 5/5/2017  - CP
    IVF #1 - June 2017  - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo.  7/9 Beta #1 - 161 
    <3 Adam <3 Born on 3/18/18




     
  • @SP128 Good to know. So once you get your BFP, mine won't be far behind!! 
  • SP128SP128 member
    @leahcimmichael  I like the way you think. I'm aiming for this month. hahahaha
    ***TW***
    Me: 36  DH:35
    Married: 7/10/2016
    TTC#1 - May 2016
    BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016  
    BFP 5/5/2017  - CP
    IVF #1 - June 2017  - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo.  7/9 Beta #1 - 161 
    <3 Adam <3 Born on 3/18/18




     
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