So sorry @TravelingCouple. I still secretly hope you are not out yet but if AF does show her face we are all here for you. Take the time you need to let out all your grief and frustration then pick yourself back up. I know it is so much easier said than done. I hope you and YH have a relaxed and wonderful vacation and that you guys will actually end up enjoying this break.
Thank you ladies so much. Seriously. I hope you all know just how much it means to have support from those who really truly understand this gut wrenching pain. I've had my ugly cry and although AF will still be a few days away (I won't get it until I stop taking the progesterone, which I won't do until I have my beta draw), I just know I'm out. The one silver lining I'm holding on to is now I won't be pregnant while on a 10+ hour plane ride to Hawaii. I really do hope DH and I can relax in some semblance over these next few months. I'll still be here as normal until AF. After that, I'll probably be lurking more. I don't want to disconnect from you ladies but I'll be putting my FF VIP on hold and may just need to step back from it all for a while. We'll see.
@travelingcouple I don't think I could have said it better than @KristoKekerooni so +1000 to her comments. I have 2 other comments, first you may get AF on progesterone, I do. Secondly, TW*** for both of my BFP's I was 100% certain that I was out. I had all of my usual Pre-AF symptoms and nothing unusual. I was dumbstruck both times. What your feeling may be pre-AF or it might not. Hugs either way.
*TW*
TTC 1/2012 Diagnosed : unexplained infertility 6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015 TTC #3 5/2016 Restarted Fertility tx IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@TravelingCouple...I hope you are wrong!!!! You aren't actually out yet! But I know how you feel. Today was supposed to be day 1 but I haven't gotten my period. Stark white test and feeling like my usual self with monthly symptoms so I'm sure I'm out too. This sucks. It just plain sucks. But maybe we are both wrong.
@travelingcouple So sorry you are feeling out. I second everything @kristokekerooni said and could not have put it better. While this break isn't something you want, I hope it helps you in some way you may not be able to imagine now. I feel for you. It sucks. Hugs.
@kiwi2628 That's awesome things are moving forward well with your RE. And that he looks like Anderson Cooper. Ha! Keep us updated on the rest of your results!
AFM: I've been feeling pretty crappy today about the decision not to convert this cycle to IVF, even though I do think it was the right decision for us right now. I'm afraid I'm going to end up with cysts from this cancelled cycle and that I'll have to sit out next cycle. I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but it's hard not to. I just want to know for sure when we'll be able to start playing in the game again, instead of sitting on the sidelines with swollen ovaries.
@madspunk I'm sorry you're sad about the canceled cycle. I hope you can continue next month without complications!
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@madspunk I have a similar brain where I get 10 steps ahead of myself with all the negative "what if's" and it's really tough not to do that, but I hope you can try. It's not worth the mental energy worrying before something has even happened. I wish I knew how to tell you how to do that...
@kiwi2628 I'm glad you're getting some answers. I'm never sure what's "better"... to find an issue or to NOT find an issue and still not know why you're KU, but either way, a step forward is a step forward!
I have a question for you all. I noticed someone who used to post here occasionally actually moved onto a BMB and I thought, oh I wonder why she didn't post her BFP here... but I realized from her posting history, she may not have felt comfortable because like many of us have discussed, our posting in the daily threads has really dropped off and we find ourselves mostly contained to this thread. Does anyone have any issues with IF ladies posting their BFPs in here (with the appropriate TW)? Of course if you do want to post in the larger grad thread that's also great, but I don't want anyone to feel like they can't share the news with this board because they don't regularly contribute to the other posts anymore. Thoughts?
*lurking* @hartmich Personally, I would love for anyone who posted in this thread to post in the weekly grad thread. Just because someone doesn't post in the daily threads doesn't mean they shouldn't let us all know they go their BFP. Just my 2 cents for what it's worth.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Me: 38 DH: 38 Married 6/11/16 TTC Since 6/2016 12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal 3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve 8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC 7/2018 Clomid+IUI 11/2018 Letrozole+TI 12/2018 Letrozole+IUI 2/2019 NTNP 5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
Someone from this thread better graduate soon, damnit!
@hartmich When (and I mean when, not if) I get my BFP I will definitely be posting in the grad thread and I would hate to be the jerk who questioned me for that even though I haven't been on the dailies.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@lulu1180@laurad75 Oh I also fully plan on posting in that damn thread. But I just want to make sure everyone here knows that we want to hear your news! So if you don't really care to share with the larger TTGP board, we still want to share the excitement
Someone from this thread better graduate soon, damnit!
@hartmich When (and I mean when, not if) I get my BFP I will definitely be posting in the grad thread and I would hate to be jerk who questioned me for that even though I haven't been on the dailies.
If anyone tried to question any of the ladies on this thread for posting on the grad thread, I would flame them something terrible and they would think they landed in hell! The ladies in this thread are some of the most amazing and supportive ladies I have ever had the pleasure of knowing/lurking and I would be over the moon for any and every one of you to get your BFP and post it in the grad thread! So please don't anyone be afraid of posting there because you know there's plenty of people that would back you up and flame any newbie who tried to question it!
Also @hartmich if this person was a recent grad that moved quietly on, I think you should PM them telling them that you would love to see them post in the grad thread and plenty of others on here would like to see it as well!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Me: 38 DH: 38 Married 6/11/16 TTC Since 6/2016 12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal 3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve 8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC 7/2018 Clomid+IUI 11/2018 Letrozole+TI 12/2018 Letrozole+IUI 2/2019 NTNP 5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@madspunk hugs. I'm so sorry you in the awful limbo where you could be doing something but in the end it is best not to be. Fx there are no residual cysts and you can get back on the horse next cycle. @laurad75 LOL damn right girl it will be a when not an if!
@lulu1180 you made me tear up at my desk! This really is the most amazing group of ladies. @hartmich I would love for all the ladies here to post in the big thread, but if they didn't feel like they could I would be OK with it here... in a daily thread no, but here where we struggle so much I would welcome such happiness.
*TW*
TTC 1/2012 Diagnosed : unexplained infertility 6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015 TTC #3 5/2016 Restarted Fertility tx IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
There is always the spoiler option if anyone wants to post cautiously.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@kiwi2628 So glad your RE appt went so well!!! But HUGE eyeroll to your mom. Just read your update and I'm happy the initial BW and SA were good!
@TravelingCouple so sorry lady. FWIW, we're coming to the end of taking a couple months "off" and it's been really nice. But, for now you get all the creepy internet hugs and wine.
@KristoKekerooni I just copy and pasted your #3 into a word document so that I can read it whenever I need a pep talk. I'm not very religious, but what you said resonated with me
I am personally extremely against any BFPs being posted in the IF thread - spoiler or not. This is not the place for that.
I think every single person who participates regularly in TTGP gets to post in the Grad thread and this IF thread is part of TTGP. It doesn't matter if you're in the TWW/WTO threads or not.
And if a single person were to talk shit about an IFer posting in the Grad thread I would actually reach through the screen and smack them. I haven't posted to TWW/WTO in months and months and you better believe if I ever got my BFP I would AW the bajeezus out of the grad thread.
Yeah, I'm with @antoto on this. Grad thread, yes. IF thread, no. Although I don't know if I'd personally mind, if someone here is having a bad day and the thread turns in to a congratulations explosion that may make them feel worse.
Like if the Grad thread didn't exist then I would be okay with it. But the Grad thread DOES exist. And with IF we just miss out on so many normal things so on principle it makes me angry to think an IF member wouldn't feel comfortable getting to at least post in the Grad thread when they get a BFP. IF peeps get cheated out of SO MUCH in the TTC world and it fucking sucks.
We deserve to post in the Grad thread. No matter what. So if ANY of you get a BFP go AW that miracle in the Grad thread and if anyone gives you any trouble I will track them down and give them the biggest flaming of their lives.
I also am not into the BFPs being posted in this thread. I will be so happy for anyone from this thread to graduate but I think this thread should be a safe harbor from BFPs. More so because I think sometimes when someone needs support or is having a bad day its near impossible to interrupt the inevitable slurry of congratulations to ask for support.
Me: 31 Husby: 36 Married May 2014 TTC # 2 Since December 2021 Baby girl W born 2/2021 Our journey so far... (tw loss & infertility)
Diagnosis: Poor Egg Quality Working with an RE since March 2016 2 failed TI cycles 3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017 23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17 BFP 4.21.17 MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey: 12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted! 5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house! 1.1.20 Homestudy process started 3.14.20 First social worker visit 5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test! Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
I think its fair that we discourage BFP posts in this thread.
As far as I know no one from the IF/ Testing thread has ever been flamed for announcing on the grad thread but I do have a messed up fantasy that it will happen to me and then all of you will come to my rescue and point to the months and months I did participate in the dailies.
I used to love the daily threads but I don't feel like I fit in anymore. I don't temp so there is no fun chart, my WAYDTGKU would be a 3 paragraph essay and while most of the others are posting CD 5; Cycle 3/ Month 4... I'm over hear like: It's been a year but I have no clue what cycle I am on and do I count the 16 days I was on bcp as a cycle and forget it, this is too exhausting.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
Can I make a secret FFFIFC (flame free infertile confession)? the dailies suck for me because there are some posters that mention their kids for literally every single gtky. Like I get it. You have a kid. What does that have to do with your favorite animal? Hashtag bitter.
Me: 31 Husby: 36 Married May 2014 TTC # 2 Since December 2021 Baby girl W born 2/2021 Our journey so far... (tw loss & infertility)
Diagnosis: Poor Egg Quality Working with an RE since March 2016 2 failed TI cycles 3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017 23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17 BFP 4.21.17 MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey: 12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted! 5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house! 1.1.20 Homestudy process started 3.14.20 First social worker visit 5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test! Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
Can I make a secret FFFIFC (flame free infertile confession)? the dailies suck for me because there are some posters that mention their kids for literally every single gtky. Like I get it. You have a kid. What does that have to do with your favorite animal? Hashtag bitter.
I had a similar FFFC a few (many?) weeks ago. If your R/R/GTKY reads like "what it's like to be a mom," you're doing it wrong. If something crazy/monumental is going on with your kids and it's affecting your day, go for it. But constant updates about whether your kid is sleeping through the night is annoying.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
@tamalahoops yes, I am right there with you, #bitter.
PLEASE PLEASE post in the grad thread when you get your BFP, we all deserve it!
@laurad75 I feel the same way. I just can't with the testing, and loving to POAS, and the 2/2ers, I don't belong. It's more frustrating than it's worth for me. I won't gain anything like I gain in this thread.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
There are also other threads to participate in besides the WTO/TWW, so not participating in the "dailies" isn't a dealbreaker for "not contributing." I can't with those anymore because reading about everyone's excitement each cycle makes me sad and bitter. I used to be like that, but now I'm a grouchy old lady. I'm also on the side of keeping the IF thread BFP-free, because it is a safe haven
ETA: Clarification for what I meant by "those".
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
I love you ladies so much. It breaks my heart if one of our IFers didn't feel comfortable announcing her BFP...not just because that sucks out loud but because while I'm happy for any participating TTGPer that gets one, I am especially over the moon when it's someone who has shared in this struggle. It also gives me hope to read that success story.
@antoto I honestly LOLd at the image of you reaching through your screen to smack someone.
@laurad75 You just nailed the way I feel about the dailies. I participated for a long time and loved it, but now that I've finally accepted being in the IF camp, I'm just not comfortable with it anymore...
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Speaking of the grad thread, the most recent poster appeared to be an IF warrior but never posted in this thread. I thought that was interesting, that's all.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@eggplantface You nailed it, too. Count me in the bitter old ladies club...
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
I would be happier if this thread was BFP free. I basically never look at the grad thread because my heart aches from it...not that I am unhappy for anyone else, but I am sad and jealous and I cant handle it. I know its selfish but its where I am at.
@LuND - I'm so glad to hear that, frankly, I should copy it and keep it because I suck at taking my own advice. But even without the religion talk, it's a good thinking to think about, I think. A good way to have a different outlook, I guess.
RE: Other threads: I'll be honest, @eggplantface , you mentioned there are other threads other than the dailies... and that's true.. but I also have seen the same dang thing over and over on UO Thursday, etc. Like, the cycle is astounding. the conversations always flow fairly regularly. Every so often there are some outliers that I do chuckle at or haven't seen before. Or there are the ones that rotate back in that I am passionate about so I have to say something about... but really, even the daily NBRs are no fun anymore when you always are hearing the same "leggings are/are not pants" and "I hate sweets" and "My body is the TW because my period hasn't started yet" (no offense to any of those who have said any of those, it's nothing against them, it's just that I've heard some version of it a lot. It's me not you ) I just really CAN'T with any of the threads except this one and OCCASIONALLY the others.
RE: BFPs here, no thanks. The ONLY reason I say this, is noone wants to be THAT person who interrupts thousands of "ohemgee congrats" to say "help, I'm sad, console me" and that would really suck. I don't want anyone to lose out on support if they need it, just like I don't want anyone to not feel loved if the "congrats" train was derailed too quickly, you know?
RE: Grad thread: Uhm, If I ever get a BFP Ya'll can be DAMN sure I am posting that ship on the grad thread. I DARE someone to say something to me. I've been on this stupid site since 2015, and I am seeing people for the SECOND time around now. I don't give a flying effffff how people grade my participation. Even if I don't post in other threads. No. No one, NO ONE will take that away from me. An ya'll can be CERTAIN that I (and everyone else) won't allow ANYONE to take that from anyone here either.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@kiwi2628 That is not selfish at all. You have to do what's best for you and if it's too difficult I'm sure the ladies posting there will not be offended (or notice) if you don't love their post.
Obviously I'm cool with the consensus, but then I will reiterate my request - PLEASE post in the grad thread! I made some assumptions about the person who moved on quietly and obviously I don't know her reasoning but I will be pissed if any of you ladies don't post in that grad thread!!
Re: IF/testing check in - week of 4/3
I have 2 other comments, first you may get AF on progesterone, I do. Secondly, TW*** for both of my BFP's I was 100% certain that I was out. I had all of my usual Pre-AF symptoms and nothing unusual. I was dumbstruck both times. What your feeling may be pre-AF or it might not. Hugs either way.
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@TravelingCouple hugs again
As for me, I got initial BW results- SA was normal as was TSH (1.3) and FSH (8.9)
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@leekat14 sorry about the BFN.
Someone from this thread better graduate soon, damnit!
I'll let you ladies hold the hope for me because all mine is gone.
@leekat14 so sorry for the BFN.
@leekat14 ugh so sorry girl for the bfn. In my opinion nothing stings more than a stark white test, not even AF. I hope you are both wrong!
@vflux33 preach girl!
@leekat14 Sorry for the BFN.
@kiwi2628 That's awesome things are moving forward well with your RE. And that he looks like Anderson Cooper. Ha! Keep us updated on the rest of your results!
AFM: I've been feeling pretty crappy today about the decision not to convert this cycle to IVF, even though I do think it was the right decision for us right now. I'm afraid I'm going to end up with cysts from this cancelled cycle and that I'll have to sit out next cycle. I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but it's hard not to. I just want to know for sure when we'll be able to start playing in the game again, instead of sitting on the sidelines with swollen ovaries.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@madspunk I have a similar brain where I get 10 steps ahead of myself with all the negative "what if's" and it's really tough not to do that, but I hope you can try. It's not worth the mental energy worrying before something has even happened. I wish I knew how to tell you how to do that...
@kiwi2628 I'm glad you're getting some answers. I'm never sure what's "better"... to find an issue or to NOT find an issue and still not know why you're KU, but either way, a step forward is a step forward!
I have a question for you all. I noticed someone who used to post here occasionally actually moved onto a BMB and I thought, oh I wonder why she didn't post her BFP here... but I realized from her posting history, she may not have felt comfortable because like many of us have discussed, our posting in the daily threads has really dropped off and we find ourselves mostly contained to this thread. Does anyone have any issues with IF ladies posting their BFPs in here (with the appropriate TW)? Of course if you do want to post in the larger grad thread that's also great, but I don't want anyone to feel like they can't share the news with this board because they don't regularly contribute to the other posts anymore. Thoughts?
@hartmich Personally, I would love for anyone who posted in this thread to post in the weekly grad thread. Just because someone doesn't post in the daily threads doesn't mean they shouldn't let us all know they go their BFP. Just my 2 cents for what it's worth.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@hartmich When (and I mean when, not if) I get my BFP I will definitely be posting in the grad thread and I would hate to be the jerk who questioned me for that even though I haven't been on the dailies.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
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Also @hartmich if this person was a recent grad that moved quietly on, I think you should PM them telling them that you would love to see them post in the grad thread and plenty of others on here would like to see it as well!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@laurad75 LOL
damn right girl it will be a when not an if!
@lulu1180 you made me tear up at my desk!
This really is the most amazing group of ladies.
@hartmich I would love for all the ladies here to post in the big thread, but if they didn't feel like they could I would be OK with it here... in a daily thread no, but here where we struggle so much I would welcome such happiness.
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@TravelingCouple so sorry lady. FWIW, we're coming to the end of taking a couple months "off" and it's been really nice. But, for now you get all the creepy internet hugs and wine.
@KristoKekerooni I just copy and pasted your #3 into a word document so that I can read it whenever I need a pep talk. I'm not very religious, but what you said resonated with me
Married: 2/1/2012
TTC #1 since August 2016
DH SA Dec 2016: Low count (11.7 mil total motile), 5% morphology, 73% motility
Blood work June 2017: AMH 1.1 (ugh), FSH 8.4, LH: 5.2, estradiol 28 pg/ML, progesterone 7.4
HSG July 2017: tubes clear
BFP 7/24/17 - EDD 4/5/2018
I think every single person who participates regularly in TTGP gets to post in the Grad thread and this IF thread is part of TTGP. It doesn't matter if you're in the TWW/WTO threads or not.
And if a single person were to talk shit about an IFer posting in the Grad thread I would actually reach through the screen and smack them. I haven't posted to TWW/WTO in months and months and you better believe if I ever got my BFP I would AW the bajeezus out of the grad thread.
Like if the Grad thread didn't exist then I would be okay with it. But the Grad thread DOES exist. And with IF we just miss out on so many normal things so on principle it makes me angry to think an IF member wouldn't feel comfortable getting to at least post in the Grad thread when they get a BFP. IF peeps get cheated out of SO MUCH in the TTC world and it fucking sucks.
We deserve to post in the Grad thread. No matter what. So if ANY of you get a BFP go AW that miracle in the Grad thread and if anyone gives you any trouble I will track them down and give them the biggest flaming of their lives.
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
As far as I know no one from the IF/ Testing thread has ever been flamed for announcing on the grad thread but I do have a messed up fantasy that it will happen to me and then all of you will come to my rescue and point to the months and months I did participate in the dailies.
I used to love the daily threads but I don't feel like I fit in anymore. I don't temp so there is no fun chart, my WAYDTGKU would be a 3 paragraph essay and while most of the others are posting CD 5; Cycle 3/ Month 4... I'm over hear like: It's been a year but I have no clue what cycle I am on and do I count the 16 days I was on bcp as a cycle and forget it, this is too exhausting.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
PLEASE PLEASE post in the grad thread when you get your BFP, we all deserve it!
@laurad75 I feel the same way. I just can't with the testing, and loving to POAS, and the 2/2ers, I don't belong. It's more frustrating than it's worth for me. I won't gain anything like I gain in this thread.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
ETA: Clarification for what I meant by "those".
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
@antoto I honestly LOLd at the image of you reaching through your screen to smack someone.
@laurad75 You just nailed the way I feel about the dailies. I participated for a long time and loved it, but now that I've finally accepted being in the IF camp, I'm just not comfortable with it anymore...
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
RE: Other threads: I'll be honest, @eggplantface , you mentioned there are other threads other than the dailies... and that's true.. but I also have seen the same dang thing over and over on UO Thursday, etc. Like, the cycle is astounding. the conversations always flow fairly regularly. Every so often there are some outliers that I do chuckle at or haven't seen before. Or there are the ones that rotate back in that I am passionate about so I have to say something about... but really, even the daily NBRs are no fun anymore when you always are hearing the same "leggings are/are not pants" and "I hate sweets" and "My body is the TW because my period hasn't started yet" (no offense to any of those who have said any of those, it's nothing against them, it's just that I've heard some version of it a lot. It's me not you
RE: BFPs here, no thanks. The ONLY reason I say this, is noone wants to be THAT person who interrupts thousands of "ohemgee congrats" to say "help, I'm sad, console me" and that would really suck. I don't want anyone to lose out on support if they need it, just like I don't want anyone to not feel loved if the "congrats" train was derailed too quickly, you know?
RE: Grad thread: Uhm, If I ever get a BFP Ya'll can be DAMN sure I am posting that ship on the grad thread. I DARE someone to say something to me. I've been on this stupid site since 2015, and I am seeing people for the SECOND time around now. I don't give a flying effffff how people grade my participation. Even if I don't post in other threads. No. No one, NO ONE will take that away from me. An ya'll can be CERTAIN that I (and everyone else) won't allow ANYONE to take that from anyone here either.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019