I'm so, so sorry. Thoughts and prayers for you. Please take care of yourself and like others have said we are here for you. Hoping you get quick results!
Oh mama, thinking of you during such a crazy, jarring time. I've been in a similar boat (scary potential diagnosis, waiting for more answers, feeling like you're looking at the world with a completely different set of eyes, thinking about mortality way way too young). All I have are creepy internet hugs. I hope you have answers soon.
Thank you ladies so much for the support and encouragement. In particular, thank you @cleb24 for linking me to you friend's blog! Reading about other people who have gone through this is really really helpful. I really feel the love and appreciate it more than I can say. I spent the day playing with DS and cleaning and organizing my house which was oddly therapeutic. I'm planning to take things one day at a time.
I'm so sorry to hear that it might be cancer. Hoping and praying that it's a low stage/grade and they are able to treat it quickly. Hoping your pregnancy turns out well despite this as well. I can only imagine how scared you must feel right now with all this uncertainty and possible bad news. Sending you all the good vibes I can! We're rooting for you!
Married since 8.2.08 DS born 8.11.14 BFP #2: 9.14.16, EDD: 5.24.17
I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I'm glad you have your husband and son to stand by you while you wait for the diagnosis. I'll be praying for you.
Me: 29, DH: 31 Married: October 2014 Began TTC: April 2015 BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w) BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w) BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17 BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
I had the biopsy today. It went fine I guess - biopsies are no joke. Unfortunately there was a big snowstorm and DS's daycare was closed for the day (super last minute) so DH had to stay with him, but the doctor and two nurses were absolutely wonderful and let me cry and answered all my questions. I should find out the results tomorrow but everyone is operating under the assumption that it is cancer.
I had a rough day mentally. I find myself looking at DS and thinking about if I can't be there for him for much longer. I'm trying not to get bogged down in that kind of thinking but it's hard to avoid it sometimes.
Oh, so many hugs! I'm so sorry that your husband couldn't be there with you, but I am glad the the doctors and nurses were so supportive. I will be thinking of you/praying for you as you wait for the results.
Oh I wish you weren't dealing with that! I can't even imagine what you're going through. Hopefully getting definite answers will make things seem less scary - in the sense that there will be a plan and not so many unknowns. Thinking of you and sending up prayers - if that's your thing, just reach up and grab them.
So so sorry to hear all of this! It sounds like you have great doctors and nurses who helped today. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family! Sending positive vibes and hugs!
"A day without laughter is a day wasted." ~Charlie Chaplin
Thought of you a lot today. I'm so sorry that your husband could not be with you. I'm glad the dr and nurses were supportive. Thank you for updating us.
I will be thinking about you and your family. I had a friend who was diagnosed with breast cancer while pregnant and she was able to develop a treatment plan and is cancer free today. Her son is almost 3 and she always gives him credit for saving her life. If it hadn't been for the pregnancy she is not sure the cancer would of been caught so quickly. I am hoping for a good outcome for you!
If you do end up needing someone to talk to who has been through something similar she is a a wonderful person and I would be happy to pass along her info. ❤
Thank you ladies, I really appreciate all of your words of support. It means so much, especially because no one but the doctors and H know in real life right now. @ShadeofGreen816 I definitely thinking knowing what it is will help because the waiting is absolutely excruciating. We can't come up with a plan until we know where it is, what type it is, etc. I am terrified it will be very aggressive and will have spread to the lymph nodes or beyond but if that is the case I look forward to developing a treatment plan. @lnds32 I may take you up on that once I know for sure what I'm dealing with. I really really appreciate it - I have been seeking out stories of women in my situation who are doing fine now because it helps me feel much more positive.
The wonderful nurse at the breast center got me an appointment with a breast surgeon for Tuesday morning, a few hours before my anatomy scan. I am hoping that seeing the baby after meeting with someone to talk about chopping my boob off will be a good pick-me-up. It will also be a good opportunity to talk to my OB about next steps from her end and if I need to switch to a maternal-fetal health doctor.
Anyway, I will provide an update tomorrow when I hear for sure what's going on. In the meantime, I so so so appreciate all of your words of support. I started making a list of silver linings today and one (of the three) I thought of was that this experience has been a great way to see all the good in people which is always a wonderful thing to be reminded of.
Big, huge hugs. I was thinking a lot abour you and yoyr family tiday. I'm so glad you have a supportive medical team standing behind you to help guide you through whatever the outcome is.
@RainyDays86 , nothing but hugs and support from my corner of the world. I can't imagine how stressful this must be, but it's admirable that you are trying to find the positive in it all and I am so glad that you have a great medical team on your side.
@RainyDay86 I am so sorry to hear this! Wishing you lots of luck.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Well I got the call and as I suspected it is cancer. They didn't have the full pathology report yet, but they were able to tell me it is grade 3 (bad news, that's the most aggressive level) and that it is in the lymph node they sampled (also bad new, it means it has spread beyond the breast). I don't know what stage it is yet, but it has to be at least stage 2 since it has spread to at least one lymph node (breast cancer spreads first to the lymph nodes in your armpit and from there it can spread around your body). Given that my lymph nodes aren't swollen, I am hopeful that it is just in a few lymph nodes and hasn't been there long - my OB said she would take the lack of swelling as a good sign.
I'm digesting everything, drinking some nasty tumeric tea (tumeric is supposed to fight cancer and I'm pretty willing to try everything) and working up the nerve to call my mom. I am very, very nervous to tell my mom. She will be a wonderful support, but we lost my dad less than two years ago to cancer and I know this is going to be a devastating call for her. I absolutely hate that my family is walking around enjoying their day right now and I am about to give them this horrible news. I know I need to tell them and I know they would want to know, but it is an awful feeling.
My OB has already put in a call to an oncologist who specializes in young women with breast cancer and she told me they have another patient in their practice who is about the same gestation as me who has breast cancer and is seeing that same doctor. I should hear from the oncologist by Tuesday. She also sent my info to a MFM doc who should reach out by Tuesday as well. And I have an appointment with a breast surgeon on Tuesday as well (also my anatomy scan is that day). So, hopefully by Tuesday afternoon I'll have a good plan in place and will have a better idea of prognosis and what lies ahead. My OB did also tell me that she had a patient who started chemo at 12 weeks pregnant 15 years ago. The patient and her 15-year-old daughter are both doing great, so that gave me some hope.
Thanks again to everyone for reading and for your continued support, it has meant a lot.
So sorry you are having to experience this when you should be celebrating the miracle growing inside of you. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.
I'm so very sorry. I can't imagine making that phone call, but I'm sure your mom wouldn't want you shouldering the burden of this news a second longer than you had to. I'm keeping you and your baby in my thoughts. Sending you lots of love!
@RainyDays86 I am so sorry for your news. I was really hoping it would have gone the other way. At least your medical team is on top of it and is making sure you meet all the doctors you need to. I'm thinking of you and your family.
Wow I'm very sorry to hear and that this wasn't the relief you were hoping for. It sounds like there is a very able team of professionals ready to support you. And I can't imagine breaking this kind of news to family but you deserve to have all the love and support of your family right now so I hope you receive some comfort in informing them. As much as we are here for you they get to 'real'ly be there for you. Thanks for the update as difficult as it is.
Re: *TW* Diagnosis (updated again)
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On a related note, this is the blog of a friend who dealt with pregnancy and breast cancer. She was open and honest. It's a lot to read, but it may give you a glimpse of insight.
https://29withcancer.blogspot.com/2014/03/a-little-about-me.html?m=1
Thank you all again.
DS born 8.11.14
BFP #2: 9.14.16, EDD: 5.24.17
DS1 7/24/15
DS2 5/7/17
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
Me:31 DH:32 Married 11/06/10
DD: Born 8/23/13 (clomid+ovidrel+IUI)
BFP 9/9/16 EDD 5/19/17
I had the biopsy today. It went fine I guess - biopsies are no joke. Unfortunately there was a big snowstorm and DS's daycare was closed for the day (super last minute) so DH had to stay with him, but the doctor and two nurses were absolutely wonderful and let me cry and answered all my questions. I should find out the results tomorrow but everyone is operating under the assumption that it is cancer.
I had a rough day mentally. I find myself looking at DS and thinking about if I can't be there for him for much longer. I'm trying not to get bogged down in that kind of thinking but it's hard to avoid it sometimes.
1/7/2015 Twins born @ 34 weeks
Me:31 DH:32 Married 11/06/10
DD: Born 8/23/13 (clomid+ovidrel+IUI)
BFP 9/9/16 EDD 5/19/17
"A day without laughter is a day wasted." ~Charlie Chaplin
DS2 5/17
#3 Due 9/20
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It’s not that I don’t like you, it’s that I don’t know you. Stranger Danger.
If you do end up needing someone to talk to who has been through something similar she is a a wonderful person and I would be happy to pass along her info. ❤
The wonderful nurse at the breast center got me an appointment with a breast surgeon for Tuesday morning, a few hours before my anatomy scan. I am hoping that seeing the baby after meeting with someone to talk about chopping my boob off will be a good pick-me-up. It will also be a good opportunity to talk to my OB about next steps from her end and if I need to switch to a maternal-fetal health doctor.
Anyway, I will provide an update tomorrow when I hear for sure what's going on. In the meantime, I so so so appreciate all of your words of support. I started making a list of silver linings today and one (of the three) I thought of was that this experience has been a great way to see all the good in people which is always a wonderful thing to be reminded of.
Married 8/27/2011
BFP #1 9/28/2011 DS born 5/22/2012
BFP #2 4/24/2013 m/c 4/25/2013 at 4w
BFP #3 1/31/2014 DD born 10/14/2014
BFP #4 1/20/2016 m/c 2/12/2014 at 7w2d
BFP #5 8/19/2016 DS2 born 4/29/2017
BFP #6 3/7/2018 EDD 11/18/2018
DS1 7/24/15
DS2 5/7/17
May17 Siggy Challenge
Labor
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
Sweet Baby H 12.21.11
Sassy Baby P 03.26.14
Little Brother Due 05.22.17
#1 DD Aug 2014 @39weeks via CS
#2 Due May 2,2017 hopeful VBAC
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
I'm digesting everything, drinking some nasty tumeric tea (tumeric is supposed to fight cancer and I'm pretty willing to try everything) and working up the nerve to call my mom. I am very, very nervous to tell my mom. She will be a wonderful support, but we lost my dad less than two years ago to cancer and I know this is going to be a devastating call for her. I absolutely hate that my family is walking around enjoying their day right now and I am about to give them this horrible news. I know I need to tell them and I know they would want to know, but it is an awful feeling.
My OB has already put in a call to an oncologist who specializes in young women with breast cancer and she told me they have another patient in their practice who is about the same gestation as me who has breast cancer and is seeing that same doctor. I should hear from the oncologist by Tuesday. She also sent my info to a MFM doc who should reach out by Tuesday as well. And I have an appointment with a breast surgeon on Tuesday as well (also my anatomy scan is that day). So, hopefully by Tuesday afternoon I'll have a good plan in place and will have a better idea of prognosis and what lies ahead. My OB did also tell me that she had a patient who started chemo at 12 weeks pregnant 15 years ago. The patient and her 15-year-old daughter are both doing great, so that gave me some hope.
Thanks again to everyone for reading and for your continued support, it has meant a lot.
At least your medical team is on top of it and is making sure you meet all the doctors you need to. I'm thinking of you and your family.