Hi ladies.
I hesitated to post this in its own thread but I didn't want to clog up the randoms post. I had my ultrasound this morning for the breast lump that has been giving me trouble. They found two masses which they said could be a lot of things but they followed up with a mammogram to get a better look and based on what they saw the radiologist is almost 100% certain it's cancer. I have a biopsy tomorrow morning and should know with absolute certainty. But the radiaologist was pretty sure - she even went so far as to say that if the biopsy came back negative she would question whether or not it was correct.
So, I guess I'm just trying to process what this means for me, my pregnancy, my son, etc. It's frustrating and scary not to know what stage it is - that will be determined by the biopsy and whether or not it has spread to the lymph nodes - or what the prognosis will be. I'm trying not to think about the worst case but it keeps creeping back into my mind. I have today off and already told my boss I won't be in tomorrow so I can rest after my biopsy. Right now, I'm coping by shopping at target and making my very sweet husband look at nursery art with me. I'm alternating between scared shitless and oddly serene and accepting of the whole thing (some form of denial maybe?).
Anyway I'm not going to feel comfortable sharing this with anyone IRL besides H until we have a definitive diagnosis (Friday evening or Monday morning, FX for Friday so I don't have to spend the weekend in limbo) so I appreciate you all reading. It really is comforting to have a place to share all this while I sit in my car in the Target parking lot and cry.
Re: *TW* Diagnosis (updated again)
Sweet Baby H 12.21.11
Sassy Baby P 03.26.14
Little Brother Due 05.22.17
Human sons: 11/2015 & 05/2017
*formerly kayemjay*
11.2011 - DS1
02.2013 - loss at 6 wks
06.2014 - DS2
10.2015 - loss at 12 wks
03.2017 - DD
1/7/2015 Twins born @ 34 weeks
#1 DD Aug 2014 @39weeks via CS
#2 Due May 2,2017 hopeful VBAC
SO sorry to hear that... I cant imagine how your feeling. Hang in there...
DS2 5/17
#3 Due 9/20
Me:31 DH:32 Married 11/06/10
DD: Born 8/23/13 (clomid+ovidrel+IUI)
BFP 9/9/16 EDD 5/19/17
May17 Siggy Challenge
Labor
Married 8/27/2011
BFP #1 9/28/2011 DS born 5/22/2012
BFP #2 4/24/2013 m/c 4/25/2013 at 4w
BFP #3 1/31/2014 DD born 10/14/2014
BFP #4 1/20/2016 m/c 2/12/2014 at 7w2d
BFP #5 8/19/2016 DS2 born 4/29/2017
BFP #6 3/7/2018 EDD 11/18/2018
1st Baby 5/12/17, Henry
BFP #1 10/8/13, EDD 6/4/14, DS #1 6/9/14
BFP #2 5/1/16, EDD 12/16/16, MMC 5/27/16
BFP #3 8/29/16, EDD 5/5/17, DS #2 5/11/17
BFP #4 2/28/21, EDD 11/9/21
Edited for typo.
12/15 - taking a break to finish grad school
8/24/16 - Surprise BFP! EDD 5/6/2017
It's a girl!