May 2017 Moms

**TW** I'm out

tumbleweed-1tumbleweed-1 member
edited October 2016 in May 2017 Moms
Update - I'm out, thank you all for being so friendly and supportive while I was here. I hope you all have healthy pregnancies. 

There had been no fetal growth and still no heart beat. I started cramping and getting lower back pain yesterday too. Good bye for now.

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I don't even know what to say. I just came home from my first u/s. My baby was measuring at 6 wks 2 days. I should be 8 wks 4 days.
They couldn't find a heart beat. 

The u/s tech and CNM tried to reassure me by saying that it is possible I ovulated later than I thought and that I really am only 6 wks along, and that the heartbeat just isn't visible yet. They did a blood draw to check my HCG, blood type, and I think progesterone. (I wasn't really listening by the end). I'll have those lab results tomorrow. I get more bloodwork done on Friday to check the HCG. They are doing the bloodtype because I don't know mine and they said that could be a factor (would that be the Rh +/- ?). I have a follow up u/s on Monday to see if there are any visible changes in position/size or a heartbeat. 

If the pregnancy isn't viable, they will give me another week to try to miscarry naturally. 

I don't ever skip periods and they are fairly regular (cycle length between 25-33 days with 29 being my average). I've been tracking that on paper for nearly 5 years, so I know how long my cycles are, but I don't track ovulation. IF I did ovulate late, I don't see how I could have gotten my BFPs on 9/9 and 9/10 like I did. One of them was in the afternoon and all 3 were strong lines. If I'm really 6 wks 2 days now, backtracking to 9/9 would make me 2 wks 4 days, and that doesn't even make sense to me. 

I'm just waiting. My parents should all be receiving the announcement letters today (in fact my sister just texted me), and I just can't talk to them right now. I don't know how to pretend nothing is wrong, but I don't want to involve them in my follow up appointments because I don't want to answer their questions.
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  • I'm so sorry you're going through this. Thinking of you.
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  • I'm so very sorry.  I hope you get some answers soon.

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  • Omg that is so scary for you. I am truly hoping all will work out
  • Oh no I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you get the results back asap so you can move on, whatever the outcome is. Big hugs


  • I'm so sorry you're going through this @tumbleweed
  • Sorry you are going through this T&P
  • I'm very sorry to hear that you're going through this. I understand not wanting to talk with your family right now, and that's 100 percent okay, and we all are here for you online. Be well.
  • I am so sorry. I hope you get your results soon so that you can begin to find peace. 
  • I'm so sorry to hear this...sending big, creepy, internet hugs. I hope you get some answers soon. 
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  • I'm so sorry to hear this and will be thinking about you.  The waiting is the worst.  I understand not wanting to talk to family during that time.  

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  • Big hugs. I hope you get answers soon.
  • I'm so sorry. This is my fear exactly for my appt Fri. I just can't imagine and will be thinking about you. Hanging on to any hope for you and your family.
  • I am so very sorry to hear this!  My thoughts and prayers are with you!  Hugs! I hope you get answers quickly. 
  • So sorry you are going through this.
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  • I'm so sorry you're going through this, the waiting is terrible. You'll be in my thoughts and I hope you receive answers soon. I think it's completely natural to want to avoid your family, it's hard to be asked questions you don't have the answers to and don't want to think about. Hang in there.
  • Sorry that you are experiencing all of this. Monday seems so far away. Take care of your self. Hugs and thoughts with you.
  • ((Hugs)) so sorry you're going through this
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  • I am so sorry you have to go through this. T&P
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  • tumbleweed-1tumbleweed-1 member
    edited October 2016
    Thanks everyone. Monday does feel far away. I ended up telling my sister because she was so excited and she asked if I had an appointment yet (she is the only one of us with kids so far). So I told her and said I didn't want to talk about it. My mom lives with her, so then my mom called me anyway. It wasn't too bad. She seems more optimistic than I am. I told her I was also worried because I haven't had any m/s. According to my mom that just means I'm having a boy though.  :/ At least my cat is on the mend and my SO got us free tickets for a pre season Blazer (basketball) game on Friday. That's nice. I don't know what sort of reactions are normal for this situation, but my immediate thoughts when I found out were that if my baby died two weeks ago, I just want it out of me.
  • tumbleweed , waiting until Monday sounds like torture. Try to keep yourself busy (easier said than done) and distracted. I'm sorry you're going through this. 
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  • So sorry. The waiting is so hard. Please try to rest and take care of yourself. 

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  • So sorry to hear this... :(
  • I'm so sorry. The waiting is one of the hardest parts.
  • I'm so sorry :(
  • I am so sorry! :disappointed:
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  • I'm so sorry for you, also with the timing of the announcement letters. But I'm sure your family will be there to support you if it is in fact bad news.

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  • I'm so sorry. 
  • So sorry for what you are going through! With my first I went to my dating ultrasound thinking I was 7 weeks and there was only a sac visible so prob measuring about 5 weeks...I had to return to see if it was viable (hate that phrase!!!!). She is now 2 years old! Our bodies are all so different and docs don't know everything about pregnancy! Keeping my fingers crossed for you!!!
  • I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hoping for positive news 
  • So sorry to hear that news tumbleweed... big hugs at such a scary time
     
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this. Waiting on those results is very difficult. I hope you get the answers you're looking for and I'm glad to hear that you have a very optimistic family that I'm sure will give you all of their support no matter the outcome. Keeping you in my thoughts. 
  • I'm so sorry you're going through this. ::Hugs::
  • @tumbleweed. I understand the reaction to knowing your baby could have died 2 weeks ago.  That is what happened to me, but I was spotting when they sent me for my u/s, so I didn't have the waiting quite like you. Hugs and prayers for you as you go through this time. 
  • I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Take care of yourself. 
  • I'm so sorry you have to go through this! I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you!
  • Idk if I'm not trying hard enough, or if this wait is just excruciating. I keep analyzing every little ache in my body now, wondering if my symptoms are getting stronger or weaker. For anyone who has been in a similar situation, how did you get through this and not dwell on it? 
    I know I should focus on my class readings, but my mind keeps wandering. I called the clinic and left a message for them to please let me know when my lab results are in. One of my friends is going to come up and keep me company this weekend (I told her about everything). That doesn't help me right now though. 
    I'll update here when I find out more and what the final verdict is on Monday. 
  • I am so very sorry. 
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