I've been off caffeine and anything processed or any sugar to help make the healthiest eggs possible. Well since those eggs are now free, I went and got a decaf pumpkin coffee from dunkin. And had cream put in it.
Prettty sure its way better than this morning's sex.
BFP #1: 1.22.16 MMC: 2.29.16 (
tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX) D&C: 3.2.16 BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16 BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.16 RE appt: 6.27.2016-
saline sono all clear Progenity: + carrier
Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin PCOS, hypothyroid,
MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006 Clomid +
TI Cycle #1: 50mg Trigger 8.24.2016- BFN Clomid
75mg + IUI#1 9.25.2016-
BFP #4 10/6 Beta #1 15 Beta #2 38 Beta #3- 71
beta #4 171 Beta # 5- 21 Natural MC 10/21 HSG- clear IVF Jan 2017 Egg Retrieval 1.22.17: 32 eggs retrieved,29 mature, 24 fertilized, 14 to blastocyst for biopsy PGS results: 4 PGS normal 2 XX, 2 XY FET: 3.13.2017 for 2 PGS embryos Beta#1: 3.24.2017......... 78; Beta # 2 241; Beta #3 4198 Baby BOY due 11.29.2017
I despise the band Nickelback. Like, would rather jab myself in the eye with a spoon than have to listen to their "music." And, I totally judge people who like them
I only make a real effort to seduce DH during the FW.
We do have sex regularly, and it's good...but I really don't go out of my way to get him hot and bothered unless I'm in need of a deposit in the baby bank.
The newly pregnant girl at work is still driving me bonkers. She keeps asking me things that I would CLEARLY have no idea about since I have not yet had a child myself. She also keep talking about all this wedding planning they are still doing. Apparently her and her fiancée have not actually talked about anything. Meanwhile during all of these talks I am over here like....
Because I just don't want to hear it. I understand that not everyone is super prepared, but she really needs to educate herself on things.
Ladies I think I connect with almost all of these. Wow, revelations about myself.
Someone at work ate half my lunch out of my container -- gross! So rude and so unhygienic! Now I just want to go home. At the very least I am going to take my anger out by doing the minimum possible the rest of the afternoon.
I confess that I hate air conditioning and cold in general. I refuse to go in the cold aisles of the grocery store during summer. I don't want ice in my drinks most of the time. I'd rather be naked and sweaty than have cold feet and hands!
@antoto I hate looking at her! She is so fake and would be pretty if it wasn't for stupid stuff like cupcake boobs! I can handle most of her music, but I heard her on Sirius and it was bad. She wouldn't shut up with dumb details and was talking about how religious she is. Does this look religious to you?
DH likes her because she's "crazy" - he also likes Miley Cyrus and Rihanna (girls he would never want to date in real life) because they're nuts.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Sometimes I cheat when I play Words With Friends. I have a cheat app that tells you higher scoring words. I'm trying to quit so that I'm not horrible. I don't use the app when I play against friends. Only strangers.
@swanbrooner I can relate! Now that I know when BD "counts" and when it doesn't I often find myself feeling like "why bother" when I'm not in my FW. Had a pretty stressful last week, though. SO I'm hoping that's part of it!
I've been lurking posts from 2013 and 2014 using the search function to find all the drama because work is slooooooowwwww today. And man, there was drama.
I'll also add, I used to be very sexually active with many anonymous partners before I was married (obviously). Since I've been monogamous I've had a massive decline in my sex drive and probably wouldn't care if I ever had sex again. Orgasms I can do on my own. At first I thought it was because of the monotony of one partner, but I think it may be just getting older and being freaking tired all the time.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@antoto I totally agree. I think it sounds like she's whining all the time
Mine is that after I go to the grocery store, if I get something I really like and I know H will eat it before I get to, I hide it in the pantry! Usually once I eat about half, I start to feel guilty and make sure he can find it.
Sometimes I cheat when I play Words With Friends. I have a cheat app that tells you higher scoring words. I'm trying to quit so that I'm not horrible. I don't use the app when I play against friends. Only strangers.
I used to play against a woman who would just destroy me and she didn't have a particularly large vocabulary so I started thinking she was cheating, so I quit playing. I didn't find it fun when it wasn't an even match.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
Part of the reason I want to get pregnant is the paid 12 weeks off work.
I should add that the paid 12 weeks off is the only reason I haven't looked for another job, because this place sucks and I completely plan on leaving as soon as we are done reproducing.
@eel0824 I'm sorry! This is one of the only places around that has any kind of maternity leave. Convenient that I started here one month after our wedding......
I had to take a work field trip to the next town over to prepare a shipment for a show. Instead of going straight back to work, I went to Jack in the Box for 9:30 am chicken strips. It was excellent .
Part of the reason I want to get pregnant is the paid 12 weeks off work.
LOL I need you to screenshot this and then show it to yourself someday when you have an infant.
But this is sort of similar to me - another confession: H and I started TTC when it would line up with the school year in a way to maximize leave. Obviously that didn't happen since we are on cycle 5... but hey we tried.
DH and I went to Disney World this year. I don't get the hype. The rides are kind of lame, the whole place seems pretty dated (the ride in the Epcot ball ends with something like "can you imagine when everyone will have a personal computer in their home?"), for the cost you could probably go to Europe for a few days and most of the rides seem like they have nothing to do with the Disney movies.
Oh yes, @antoto, that was our plan too. Until Zika. Now I'll be lucky to have one next summer or next fall. No teacher wants to be out at the beginning of the year and go back to someone else's mess... cause you know it's always a mess when you return. #thanksalotzika
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
DH and I went to Disney World this year. I don't get the hype. The rides are kind of lame, the whole place seems pretty dated (the ride in the Epcot ball ends with something like "can you imagine when everyone will have a personal computer in their home?"), for the cost you could probably go to Europe for a few days and most of the rides seem like they have nothing to do with the Disney movies.
@adirat Search for sueann911 going back to 2013/14, she holds nothing back. Then fall into the rabbit hole. I forget how I found her name, but one thread leads to another, then another, until your entire life is consumed. If she's still around, hai gurl!
I think reading all the blunt honesty has bled into my actual life because I'm finding myself being snarkier than ever in e-mails to friends/acquaintances. I'm enjoying not giving a damn.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
I'm getting pre-AF cramps and I really hope it starts tonight because then I have an excuse to skip HIO and go to bed early. I thought about just pretending it started tonight but just on the off-chance I end up pregnant I don't want to have to explain.
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
@tripledaggerWed95976 - maybe it's because of my age, but I'm pretty much on board with ya. Plus I'm sure it has everything to do with zero spontaneity during TTC. I've never O'd during sex...with anyone...so yeah, it only gets so exciting and then you're like... .
@swimsister - the only time I'd be excited to go to Disney if I were taking kids so I could see their excitement. I've gone three times in my life when I was younger. I have no desire to go as an adult for the cost. I'm sure if I become a mother it will suddenly become my dream vacation, but until then, no thanks. I did enjoy eating foods at the countries at Epcot...those were my fondest memories. But, I could just hit up all of the ethnic food joints in my city and that would probably be more fun.
@NYTino24 - admittedly, I do love air conditioning vs. no a/c, but I am cold everywhere I go, so I definitely relate. I take a sweater with me to all restaurants all year round like a little old lady. And I absolutely cannot fall asleep if my feet are cold, so wearing socks to bed is typical for me in the winter.
As for my own confession...I just applied for a management job mainly for the fact that my manager thinks I'd be great at it and not really because I actually want the job (lots of meetings/local travel). I'm secretly relieved that HR rejected me because I didn't have the required 5 years of management...only 3. I told my manager I was rejected and it's possible he may think he needs to intervene so that I am still considered. I also don't want it because If I do have a kid, my current job has the least amount of responsibility and I work from home two days a week and it is just a great job to have if you need to take time off, etc.
I'm getting pre-AF cramps and I really hope it starts tonight because then I have an excuse to skip HIO and go to bed early. I thought about just pretending it started tonight but just on the off-chance I end up pregnant I don't want to have to explain.
Why do you need an excuse? I have no problem telling H "Don't feel like it, maybe tomorrow."
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
I'm getting pre-AF cramps and I really hope it starts tonight because then I have an excuse to skip HIO and go to bed early. I thought about just pretending it started tonight but just on the off-chance I end up pregnant I don't want to have to explain.
Why do you need an excuse? I have no problem telling H "Don't feel like it, maybe tomorrow."
I have a hard time telling him no if it's just because of laziness on my part. Sex is a source of intimacy for him that I don't like to deny unless I really don't want to.
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
@eggplantface@bornmommy@EEL0824 I'm the opposite and I try to initiate more often feel like DH is sometimes that one that's like "meh." He has used the "I'm tired" excuse quite a bit; although in his defense, he does work hard and the excuse was only ever used on a work day.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Me: 38 DH: 38 Married 6/11/16 TTC Since 6/2016 12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal 3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve 8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC 7/2018 Clomid+IUI 11/2018 Letrozole+TI 12/2018 Letrozole+IUI 2/2019 NTNP 5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
My confession is that I'm kind of giving up at work. I mentioned the other day that I'm nervous that I'm on the chopping block but instead of upping my game I'm just getting more lazy. I have already applied for two different jobs elsewhere. I spend all day bumping, looking for new jobs and watching my dog on the webcam.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@laurad75 - sorry to hear you're on the chopping block...that cannot be fun to endure. I definitely get why you'd want to give up. Good luck in your job search!
Even though the office is supposed to be open, I am the only one here with no one expected until 4pm. Naturally, I have locked the front door and am currently laying on the hydrotherapy bed, getting a massage and it's awesome.
@laurad75 I've been there before... I was constantly getting in trouble when I worked at a bank, and it was all micro-management. One day I called up and said "I quit. I'm not coming in anymore," ...which is not typical me (I'm usually mrs. 2 weeks notice). I was so sick of feeling depressed about sucking at work, I hated the job, and I felt like I was on the brink of being fired anyways. It was the biggest weight off my shoulders, and I would do it again given the chance. Just maybe a bit sooner! I hope there's some silver lining there and you find a new job that you really enjoy!
My fffc is my dh is recovering from surgery, so he can't go running, and we used to always go together... but I am super enjoying the alone time and just hitting the road and listening to music and not having to chat or try to go at his pace (he's actually slower than me at races... but would run faster on easy runs) it's like I run out any of my grumpiness when I'm by myself... but I don't get to when I'm with someone that wants to gush about how great of a time they're having and how much they love running with me. .. I don't know if that makes any sense? I remember somebody on here posting about their dh drinking pre-workout right before their run together and it would end up ruining their long run... so I'm sure some ladies on here can relate!
DH and I have been together for nearly a decade, married for 3+ years, so our sex life at this point is like......"we haven't done it in a month, better do it." I thought TTC might spice things up, but nope. It's just so hard to be interested in sex when our jobs are so draining! I just want to catch up on my favorite TV shows. Is that so much to ask?? The worst part is that DH is also so exhausted that literally neither of us are motivated to initiate outside of TTC. We were on vacation for 10 days and sex did not occur once because what's the point if I'm not ovulating? We're extremely affectionate - like, constant snuggling and peck kissing, but it's just soooo much effort to kick things into sexy drive.
Also, I'm super checked out in many aspects of my life at this point. Part of me worries that one of the reasons I want to have a baby is just to blow my life up.
Re: Flame Free (or not) Friday Confession
Married: 04/05/15
TTC since: 02/16/16
Prettty sure its way better than this morning's sex.
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.16
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: 50mg Trigger 8.24.2016- BFN
Clomid 75mg + IUI#1 9.25.2016- BFP #4 10/6
Beta #1 15 Beta #2 38 Beta #3- 71 beta #4 171 Beta # 5- 21 Natural MC 10/21
HSG- clear
IVF Jan 2017
Egg Retrieval 1.22.17: 32 eggs retrieved,29 mature, 24 fertilized, 14 to blastocyst for biopsy
PGS results: 4 PGS normal 2 XX, 2 XY
FET: 3.13.2017 for 2 PGS embryos
Beta#1: 3.24.2017......... 78; Beta # 2 241; Beta #3 4198
Baby BOY due 11.29.2017
I despise the band Nickelback. Like, would rather jab myself in the eye with a spoon than have to listen to their "music." And, I totally judge people who like them
Married: 2/1/2012
TTC #1 since August 2016
DH SA Dec 2016: Low count (11.7 mil total motile), 5% morphology, 73% motility
Blood work June 2017: AMH 1.1 (ugh), FSH 8.4, LH: 5.2, estradiol 28 pg/ML, progesterone 7.4
HSG July 2017: tubes clear
BFP 7/24/17 - EDD 4/5/2018
We do have sex regularly, and it's good...but I really don't go out of my way to get him hot and bothered unless I'm in need of a deposit in the baby bank.
Just typing that makes me feel guilty!
The newly pregnant girl at work is still driving me bonkers. She keeps asking me things that I would CLEARLY have no idea about since I have not yet had a child myself. She also keep talking about all this wedding planning they are still doing. Apparently her and her fiancée have not actually talked about anything. Meanwhile during all of these talks I am over here like....
Because I just don't want to hear it. I understand that not everyone is super prepared, but she really needs to educate herself on things.
Ladies I think I connect with almost all of these. Wow, revelations about myself.
Someone at work ate half my lunch out of my container -- gross! So rude and so unhygienic! Now I just want to go home. At the very least I am going to take my anger out by doing the minimum possible the rest of the afternoon.
@antoto I hate looking at her! She is so fake and would be pretty if it wasn't for stupid stuff like cupcake boobs! I can handle most of her music, but I heard her on Sirius and it was bad. She wouldn't shut up with dumb details and was talking about how religious she is. Does this look religious to you?
DH likes her because she's "crazy" - he also likes Miley Cyrus and Rihanna (girls he would never want to date in real life) because they're nuts.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Married: 2/1/2012
TTC #1 since August 2016
DH SA Dec 2016: Low count (11.7 mil total motile), 5% morphology, 73% motility
Blood work June 2017: AMH 1.1 (ugh), FSH 8.4, LH: 5.2, estradiol 28 pg/ML, progesterone 7.4
HSG July 2017: tubes clear
BFP 7/24/17 - EDD 4/5/2018
I've been lurking posts from 2013 and 2014 using the search function to find all the drama because work is slooooooowwwww today. And man, there was drama.
I'll also add, I used to be very sexually active with many anonymous partners before I was married (obviously). Since I've been monogamous I've had a massive decline in my sex drive and probably wouldn't care if I ever had sex again. Orgasms I can do on my own. At first I thought it was because of the monotony of one partner, but I think it may be just getting older and being freaking tired all the time.
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Jealous. In order to get 12 weeks paid off at my job (Columbus, OH) I would have to work 182 weeks straight missing no time...ew.
Mine is that after I go to the grocery store, if I get something I really like and I know H will eat it before I get to, I hide it in the pantry! Usually once I eat about half, I start to feel guilty and make sure he can find it.
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
I'm also jealous of good maternity leave. At my company, they make you use all your vacation time then go on short-term disability. It is BULLSHIT.
I should add that the paid 12 weeks off is the only reason I haven't looked for another job, because this place sucks and I completely plan on leaving as soon as we are done reproducing.
@eel0824 I'm sorry! This is one of the only places around that has any kind of maternity leave. Convenient that I started here one month after our wedding......
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
But this is sort of similar to me - another confession: H and I started TTC when it would line up with the school year in a way to maximize leave. Obviously that didn't happen since we are on cycle 5... but hey we tried.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
BLASPHEMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO how can you not like Disney!!!' It's a magical heaven full of unicorns and sunshine!! And churros!!!
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.16
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: 50mg Trigger 8.24.2016- BFN
Clomid 75mg + IUI#1 9.25.2016- BFP #4 10/6
Beta #1 15 Beta #2 38 Beta #3- 71 beta #4 171 Beta # 5- 21 Natural MC 10/21
HSG- clear
IVF Jan 2017
Egg Retrieval 1.22.17: 32 eggs retrieved,29 mature, 24 fertilized, 14 to blastocyst for biopsy
PGS results: 4 PGS normal 2 XX, 2 XY
FET: 3.13.2017 for 2 PGS embryos
Beta#1: 3.24.2017......... 78; Beta # 2 241; Beta #3 4198
Baby BOY due 11.29.2017
I think reading all the blunt honesty has bled into my actual life because I'm finding myself being snarkier than ever in e-mails to friends/acquaintances. I'm enjoying not giving a damn.
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
DS #1 born 05/25/2012
BFP#2: 06/12/2013 ---- loss
DS #2 born 4/08/2014
BPF#4: 2/1/2016 --- 2/23/2016 suspected molar pregnancy--- 3/15/2016 D&E - diagnosis MM
BFP#5 - 9/22/2016
* formally bornmommy
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@swimsister - the only time I'd be excited to go to Disney if I were taking kids so I could see their excitement. I've gone three times in my life when I was younger. I have no desire to go as an adult for the cost. I'm sure if I become a mother it will suddenly become my dream vacation, but until then, no thanks. I did enjoy eating foods at the countries at Epcot...those were my fondest memories. But, I could just hit up all of the ethnic food joints in my city and that would probably be more fun.
@NYTino24 - admittedly, I do love air conditioning vs. no a/c, but I am cold everywhere I go, so I definitely relate. I take a sweater with me to all restaurants all year round like a little old lady. And I absolutely cannot fall asleep if my feet are cold, so wearing socks to bed is typical for me in the winter.
As for my own confession...I just applied for a management job mainly for the fact that my manager thinks I'd be great at it and not really because I actually want the job (lots of meetings/local travel). I'm secretly relieved that HR rejected me because I didn't have the required 5 years of management...only 3. I told my manager I was rejected and it's possible he may think he needs to intervene so that I am still considered. I also don't want it because If I do have a kid, my current job has the least amount of responsibility and I work from home two days a week and it is just a great job to have if you need to take time off, etc.
Husband: 40
TTC#1 since 9/2014
Unexplained Infertility - Trying naturally
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
DS #1 born 05/25/2012
BFP#2: 06/12/2013 ---- loss
DS #2 born 4/08/2014
BPF#4: 2/1/2016 --- 2/23/2016 suspected molar pregnancy--- 3/15/2016 D&E - diagnosis MM
BFP#5 - 9/22/2016
* formally bornmommy
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Husband: 40
TTC#1 since 9/2014
Unexplained Infertility - Trying naturally
Me: 42 | DH: 45
TTC since Dec. 2014
BFP #1 Oct. 2015 | MC Nov. 2015
Sept. 2016: FSH, AMH, E2, TSH, etc. all normal. | Oct. 2016: HSG all clear! | Nov. 2016: Hysteroscopy & H's SA both great results
Dec. 2016 - Follistim + TI
BFP #2 12/25/16 | Natural MC 2/13/17 | False BFP leads to D&C 4/20/17 | Emergency D&C + hysteroscopy 5/16/17
The road probably ends here
My fffc is my dh is recovering from surgery, so he can't go running, and we used to always go together... but I am super enjoying the alone time and just hitting the road and listening to music and not having to chat or try to go at his pace (he's actually slower than me at races... but would run faster on easy runs) it's like I run out any of my grumpiness when I'm by myself... but I don't get to when I'm with someone that wants to gush about how great of a time they're having and how much they love running with me. .. I don't know if that makes any sense? I remember somebody on here posting about their dh drinking pre-workout right before their run together and it would end up ruining their long run... so I'm sure some ladies on here can relate!
Also, I'm super checked out in many aspects of my life at this point. Part of me worries that one of the reasons I want to have a baby is just to blow my life up.