@KimmySchmidt DH's family lives in NJ about 18 miles outside of NYC. Still takes nearly an hour to get there with the traffic but worth it!
@MrsVoorhees@camichael84 I haven't had the not-feeding-baby dream with this LO but when my SIL had her first son I had a dream that I was in charge of feeding him and I didn't for 3 days and instead (this is the worst part) had accidentally left him in an outside refrigerator. In the dream the baby was VERY hungry but completely fine, just cranky. I was traumatized for days.
Glad to know after all these years that I'm not the only one who's ever had dreams like that.
@bibliobebe I live about 25 miles north. It takes 45-60 minutes to get to grand central. I bet your husbands family and I are within an hour's drive of each other.
I shaved my legs this morning and that somehow seems worth reporting.
I have a weird numbness tingling sensation in the upper left corner of my belly. This isn't new, but it's more frequent and I want to know whats up! It's really uncomfy!!!
I have a sudden, unbearable craving for mashed potatoes. Where can I get the mashies?!
My SIL had a numb spot too! It was completely normal!
I have had the SAME dream about not ever feeding baby and then being worried about my supply lol. There's got to be an underlying explanation for why we all have that dream....
I had a weird dream last night as well. The baby burst though my belly ala Alien, except the baby wasn't Alien like, or weird and apparently that was just a normal way to give birth. It was a girl! Then I was all worried about how I was going to take care of my baby while in outer space and decided, that duh, I can just let my newborn float around the air craft like NBD.
Except when I was delivering, I was definitely NOT in outer space, so not sure how I got there.
My OB is about 40 minutes away. My MIL was supposed to come to my house to watch LO1 for my 12:00 appointment yesterday. I saw her over the weekend and she was all "see you on Tuesday!"
11:15 rolls around and I texted her to ask if she was almost here. She calls me and tells me she forgot. She tried to apologize, but I basically had to hang up on her because now I need to prepare to bring a toddler to a doctors office during lunch/nap time like 10 minutes ago. Kid ate a cheese stick, popcorn, and crackers for lunch because I'd already set out things like a fruit cup and yogurt and other non-travel-safe-foods.
Had to wait 45 minutes in the office to be seen. Saw SIX people go in AND COME OUT before I was seen. For an appointment were they took my weight, pee, and blood pressure, and asked if I had any questions.
Wouldn't have been a big deal if I'd planned on bringing her, but it was such a disaster to get her ready and throw her in the car in less than 5 minutes only to wait for so long once we got there.
I've only had one dream about baby boy this entire pregnancy!! What the....
In the dream he came out as a two year old, had super blonde hair (note I am Hispanic and there is no way this is happening if I'm the mother), and refused to breastfeed because he said he didn't want to get fat!!!
Joining team nightmare. I just cut my anxiety med dosage in half two days ago (last night was my second on the reduced dosage) and it's already hitting me.
I had a horrible nightmare about DH leaving me (a common theme in my nightmares in spite of there being no reason for me to be concerned about it when I'm awake, but this one was way worse than usual). It was one of those that feels so, so real and you can't wake up. I woke DH up crying because I was so upset and then I couldn't fall back asleep.
I'm also dealing with the physical side effects of drastically cutting my anxiety meds, so that's fun. And I just feel sick and uncomfortable in general on top of it.
Today's just been bad all around (even more stuff happened but I'm so stressed out I don't even want to get into all of it). I want a do-over.
@MojieJo sorry you're feeling so anxious I hope your day either improves, or tomorrow is a better day
i I had a super weird dream last night too... It's almost too disturbing to describe, but I woke up feeling pretty shaken. I think ive been watching "stranger things" too much on Netflix. Lol.
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Bless the janitor at work. Today when he came around to collect the garbage, I just handed him a bag because I had turned the trash can over and was using it as a foot stool for my swollen feet. An hour later he came back with a second trash bin so that I can still have a foot stool and a trash can. It's the little things
I just need to get my feet under me again and I know I can tough this out until my boys are born. The first few days after cutting my dosage of meds are always the hardest.
@MojieJo I'm sorry you are feeling that way. You aren't alone! I started cutting mine in half two weeks ago. Probably wasn't a great idea knowing i would be far away from home. Are you planning on just cutting them in half or trying to get off them completely? Just curious.
I am more nervous how I am going to be post partum
@mamadomino@sbrowns721 YES. I was in a supervisory meeting yesterday and was basically yawning every five minutes. Thankfully they know it's just because of the pregnancy, but still. And then I decided to take a 15 min nap before my Target trip during my lunch break which turned into me passing out for an hour.
@seitzy3 Thank you! I'm sorry you're dealing with this, too. It sucks. ::Sad fist bump::
I'm only cutting mine in half. My psychiatrist doesn't think it would be a good idea for me to go off them completely and I'm already at a third of my original dose.
My OB wants me off them completely, but with so little time left to taper off, the severity of my anxiety and my history of panicking when I'm hospitalized, reducing my dosage is the best compromise in my and my psychiatrist's opinion.
Joining team nightmare. I just cut my anxiety med dosage in half two days ago (last night was my second on the reduced dosage) and it's already hitting me.
I had a horrible nightmare about DH leaving me (a common theme in my nightmares in spite of there being no reason for me to be concerned about it when I'm awake, but this one was way worse than usual). It was one of those that feels so, so real and you can't wake up. I woke DH up crying because I was so upset and then I couldn't fall back asleep.
I'm also dealing with the physical side effects of drastically cutting my anxiety meds, so that's fun. And I just feel sick and uncomfortable in general on top of it.
Today's just been bad all around (even more stuff happened but I'm so stressed out I don't even want to get into all of it). I want a do-over.
@MojieJo that surprises me that your OB wants you off them completely, especially if she/he knows your history. My midwife encouraged me to stay on my full dosage and stay on it until a few months postpartum and then try to reduce. I decided on my own to cut my meds down by half to see how I would feel. And you're right, the first few days are not fun. no wonder they tell you not to quit cold turkey!
@asht Trying to prevent withdrawal symptoms in my babies as much as possible. We don't anticipate withdrawal being a big issue, but obviously I'd prefer that they not have to suffer any more than they have to, even if it's short term and comparatively mild.
I could have reduced it sooner, but the goal was to give me as much time as possible on a more therapeutic dosage before having to reduce it.
@seitzy3 One of my OB's (I see a team of three rotating doctors) is very stubborn and has been dead set against me being on my psych meds from the beginning. He's been using scare tactics to try to force me off of them (I'm not particularly fond of him for reasons other than that, but right now it's the main reason I dread having to see him). The other two think I should reduce my dose of just my anxiety med for the babies' sake (withdrawal symptoms), while acknowledging that I need to take care of myself in order to take care of them, too.
I've quit cold turkey before (although I quit all my meds at once) and it was a living nightmare. I ended up on Zofran for unrelenting nausea, couldn't control my body temperature, had headaches, horrendous anxiety and depression and didn't feel human until I was back on a correctly tapered dose for a couple of weeks. It was a horrible decision on my part to try it, although I did it out of desperation (long story). Never again.
I find that interesting. I went off mine prior to pregnancy but my nurse wanted me to start them again at 36 weeks to help reduce potential after issue. I declined being I went this long but very limited risk.
@Thscary that made me smile. It really can make all the difference when people do something extra that is beyond the call of duty.
To top off my awesome day (see picture of screaming toddler above) she decided today should be the second time ever that she poops in the tub. Then she started crying of course, so we just cut it all short. I put the poop in the toilet, but I'm leaving the cleaning up to DH. I'm going to sit here and pretend that my water is rum while I wait for my pizza to be delivered. I'm done with today.
@MojieJo I decreased mine for that same reason. Although there is only a super low risk I just felt the need to cut back. I forget if you mentioned it but are your boys identical?
@MojieJo@seitzy3 I'm so sorry you guys are having to deal with that! I had really bad anxiety in college combined with depression and it was awful. Such an awful feeling to live with. I attribute mine to birth control, I stopped it my senior year of college and have been off it since, only going back on it one time and the anxiety returned. I had pretty bad anxiety as a kid too, but only recently realized that's what it was all along. I hate knowing others deal with it long term without a simple solution like mine. I hope weaning goes well for both of you!
@asht It seems like there are very different opinions out there about the use of anxiety meds during pregnancy, but most of my doctors have agreed that I should stay on them but take as little as I can without sacrificing my sanity in the process. That's just my experience, though. I know some doctors/midwives are completely against their use while others advocate for continuing pre-pregnancy dosages as a safety net for the mom.
Personally, I understand the reasons for advocating the non-use of them (withdrawal and birth defects like cleft palates), but I think that it's a very personal decision that really needs to heavily factor in the mom's history and mental state. I would have stayed on my original dose for my own sake but decided that I wanted to compromise and cut down because I was concerned about the issue of withdrawal in my babies (the very small potential for birth defects didn't concern me much because of the low likelihood of it happening and the non-life-threatening nature of the potential defects). My main reason for that is that I've gone through withdrawal myself and it's not something I want my children to experience any more than they have to.
I think I made the right decision for me (though time will tell), but I certainly don't judge other moms who stay on their full dose or who come off their medication completely. I'm not in their shoes, I'm not a doctor (let alone their doctor) and I'm not carrying their children.
I'm the same way. I had terrible anxiety as a kid, but only figured out that that's what it was when I was in my late teens/early twenties. I thought I was homesick all the time, even though it happened at home, too. It took me forever to figure out that I was having anxiety attacks when I was away from home (at camp, sleepovers, etc.). I just heard of homesickness and assumed that that was the name for what I was feeling, regardless of where I was when it happened.
My mom says I was anxious from birth. I don't doubt it. It seems to be hard wired for me. Luckily, it's better than it was even a few years ago.
@MojieJo I only recently realized it was anxiety. I went to camp every summer and the whole way there, I just knew my whole family was going to die because I left. God, it was awful. And then when I was home, I always felt like someone was going to die or someone would break into the house or just something awful would happen. Any time routine was messed up was the worst. My mom was a SAHM and if she ever did anything with friends and left us with Dad for the evening, I would freak out because I thought she was going to die. Now I worry my kids wkll have to deal with it
@mrsvoorhees I know that fear. My husband is the least anxious person I've ever met, so I'm hoping our kids take after him. Having chronic anxiety isn't something I want to pass on.
@MojieJo sorry you're feeling so anxious I hope your day either improves, or tomorrow is a better day
i I had a super weird dream last night too... It's almost too disturbing to describe, but I woke up feeling pretty shaken. I think ive been watching "stranger things" too much on Netflix. Lol.
who is stoked for Bachelors in paradise?! Love love love it!
My love it was for 'stranger things' not your disturbing dream. H and I are 4 episodes in. Tonight I said "I can't believe I haven't had nightmares from this yet" lol!
@MrsVoorhees ugh that's awful. Glad you don't have to deal with those feelings anymore
I fear my 3yo has anxiety. I've mentioned it to her pediatrician a few times but her doctor doesn't seem as concerned as I am. I thought I was just crazy thinking it but then DH mentioned it to me too. I hope it's just a phase for her. Her anxiety, or what I think is, is mostly attributed to loud noises and strangers/crowds. I guess it could be confused for normal toddler behavior however, my instinct says it's a little more than that.
@MojieJo my husband too. He is the most laid back individual! Damn those chemically balanced individuals
@MrsVoorhees@MojieJo I've struggled with anxiety and that impending doom feeling as well. It's not easy to overcome so it's really nice to hear when others have gotten better, gives me hope and makes me feel less alone.
@seitzy3 I also hope it's just a phase. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, let alone a child!
Well it happened. I shat myself In bed It was only a tiny bit and I woke up right away, but some got on my sheets. I baby wiped it but won't be sleeping there tonight. I don't have the heart to wake H to tell him I pooped in the bed.
I'm unbanned!!!! I'm back for realsies! I'm not sure when this happened or how but i'm back back!! so excited!
ETA: for some strange reason, i'm unbanned on the desktop but still banned on the mobile site... this makes no sense considering i am NEVER on my computer... grumble grumble
ETA 2: turns out all I had to do was log into the community page...it is late and I should go to bed...
Impressed by all of you taking charge of your mental health now.. whether that's staying on meds, changing doses or coming off of them. I had post partum anxiety last time and it really shook my entire world... I try not to think about it too much as we near the post partum time but am hopeful that I can go back on meds if need be.
After not being on here much since Tuesday afternoon I'm behind in a lot of threads (completely missed WTF Wednesday and TMI Tuesday) and just have zero interest this morning in catching up. I'm sure that tune will change as the day goes on and I get bored, but just feeling really uninterested this morning... except for here. Love my Randoms.
I feel for everyone struggling with anxiety. I was finally diagnosed with social anxiety when I went away to college after years of struggling with it hardcore. Somehow over the years because of lots of different factors I was able to stop taking medicine, and it just manifests itself in different ways now. I can't imagine trying to cut down on dosage while pregnant, you ladies are so strong!
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@MrsVoorhees @camichael84 I haven't had the not-feeding-baby dream with this LO but when my SIL had her first son I had a dream that I was in charge of feeding him and I didn't for 3 days and instead (this is the worst part) had accidentally left him in an outside refrigerator. In the dream the baby was VERY hungry but completely fine, just cranky. I was traumatized for days.
Glad to know after all these years that I'm not the only one who's ever had dreams like that.
This is is how we feel about a day full of appointments.
Except when I was delivering, I was definitely NOT in outer space, so not sure how I got there.
My OB is about 40 minutes away. My MIL was supposed to come to my house to watch LO1 for my 12:00 appointment yesterday. I saw her over the weekend and she was all "see you on Tuesday!"
11:15 rolls around and I texted her to ask if she was almost here. She calls me and tells me she forgot. She tried to apologize, but I basically had to hang up on her because now I need to prepare to bring a toddler to a doctors office during lunch/nap time like 10 minutes ago. Kid ate a cheese stick, popcorn, and crackers for lunch because I'd already set out things like a fruit cup and yogurt and other non-travel-safe-foods.
Had to wait 45 minutes in the office to be seen. Saw SIX people go in AND COME OUT before I was seen. For an appointment were they took my weight, pee, and blood pressure, and asked if I had any questions.
Wouldn't have been a big deal if I'd planned on bringing her, but it was such a disaster to get her ready and throw her in the car in less than 5 minutes only to wait for so long once we got there.
Never. Again.
In the dream he came out as a two year old, had super blonde hair (note I am Hispanic and there is no way this is happening if I'm the mother), and refused to breastfeed because he said he didn't want to get fat!!!
I had a horrible nightmare about DH leaving me (a common theme in my nightmares in spite of there being no reason for me to be concerned about it when I'm awake, but this one was way worse than usual). It was one of those that feels so, so real and you can't wake up. I woke DH up crying because I was so upset and then I couldn't fall back asleep.
I'm also dealing with the physical side effects of drastically cutting my anxiety meds, so that's fun. And I just feel sick and uncomfortable in general on top of it.
Today's just been bad all around (even more stuff happened but I'm so stressed out I don't even want to get into all of it). I want a do-over.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
i I had a super weird dream last night too... It's almost too disturbing to describe, but I woke up feeling pretty shaken. I think
ive been watching "stranger things" too much on Netflix. Lol.
who is stoked for Bachelors in paradise?! Love love love it!
I just need to get my feet under me again and I know I can tough this out until my boys are born. The first few days after cutting my dosage of meds are always the hardest.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
I am more nervous how I am going to be post partum
DD #1 3/26/13
Mo/Mo twins MMC 3/31/14
DD #2 3/31/15
DD #3 8/25/16
I'm only cutting mine in half. My psychiatrist doesn't think it would be a good idea for me to go off them completely and I'm already at a third of my original dose.
My OB wants me off them completely, but with so little time left to taper off, the severity of my anxiety and my history of panicking when I'm hospitalized, reducing my dosage is the best compromise in my and my psychiatrist's opinion.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
DD #1 3/26/13
Mo/Mo twins MMC 3/31/14
DD #2 3/31/15
DD #3 8/25/16
I could have reduced it sooner, but the goal was to give me as much time as possible on a more therapeutic dosage before having to reduce it.
@seitzy3 One of my OB's (I see a team of three rotating doctors) is very stubborn and has been dead set against me being on my psych meds from the beginning. He's been using scare tactics to try to force me off of them (I'm not particularly fond of him for reasons other than that, but right now it's the main reason I dread having to see him). The other two think I should reduce my dose of just my anxiety med for the babies' sake (withdrawal symptoms), while acknowledging that I need to take care of myself in order to take care of them, too.
I've quit cold turkey before (although I quit all my meds at once) and it was a living nightmare. I ended up on Zofran for unrelenting nausea, couldn't control my body temperature, had headaches, horrendous anxiety and depression and didn't feel human until I was back on a correctly tapered dose for a couple of weeks. It was a horrible decision on my part to try it, although I did it out of desperation (long story). Never again.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
To top off my awesome day (see picture of screaming toddler above) she decided today should be the second time ever that she poops in the tub. Then she started crying of course, so we just cut it all short. I put the poop in the toilet, but I'm leaving the cleaning up to DH. I'm going to sit here and pretend that my water is rum while I wait for my pizza to be delivered. I'm done with today.
DS1 -- 9/30/2016
DD #1 3/26/13
Mo/Mo twins MMC 3/31/14
DD #2 3/31/15
DD #3 8/25/16
Personally, I understand the reasons for advocating the non-use of them (withdrawal and birth defects like cleft palates), but I think that it's a very personal decision that really needs to heavily factor in the mom's history and mental state. I would have stayed on my original dose for my own sake but decided that I wanted to compromise and cut down because I was concerned about the issue of withdrawal in my babies (the very small potential for birth defects didn't concern me much because of the low likelihood of it happening and the non-life-threatening nature of the potential defects). My main reason for that is that I've gone through withdrawal myself and it's not something I want my children to experience any more than they have to.
I think I made the right decision for me (though time will tell), but I certainly don't judge other moms who stay on their full dose or who come off their medication completely. I'm not in their shoes, I'm not a doctor (let alone their doctor) and I'm not carrying their children.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
@mrsvoorhees Thank you!
I'm the same way. I had terrible anxiety as a kid, but only figured out that that's what it was when I was in my late teens/early twenties. I thought I was homesick all the time, even though it happened at home, too. It took me forever to figure out that I was having anxiety attacks when I was away from home (at camp, sleepovers, etc.). I just heard of homesickness and assumed that that was the name for what I was feeling, regardless of where I was when it happened.
My mom says I was anxious from birth. I don't doubt it. It seems to be hard wired for me. Luckily, it's better than it was even a few years ago.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
just something awful would happen. Any time routine was messed up was the worst. My mom was a SAHM and if she ever did anything with friends and left us with Dad for the evening, I would freak out because I thought she was going to die. Now I worry my kids
wkll have to deal with it
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
I fear my 3yo has anxiety. I've mentioned it to her pediatrician a few times but her doctor doesn't seem as concerned as I am. I thought I was just crazy thinking it but then DH mentioned it to me too. I hope it's just a phase for her. Her anxiety, or what I think is, is mostly attributed to loud noises and strangers/crowds. I guess it could be confused for normal toddler behavior however, my instinct says it's a little more than that.
@MojieJo my husband too. He is the most laid back individual! Damn those chemically balanced individuals
DD #1 3/26/13
Mo/Mo twins MMC 3/31/14
DD #2 3/31/15
DD #3 8/25/16
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
@seitzy3 I also hope it's just a phase. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, let alone a child!
Hugs to everyone feeling crappy today. I am also feeling the exhaustion. Yawn.
First time mom to a human but have been a puppy mamma for over 12 years
I shat myself
In bed
It was only a tiny bit and I woke up right away, but some got on my sheets. I baby wiped it but won't be sleeping there tonight. I don't have the heart to wake H to tell him I pooped in the bed.
ETA: for some strange reason, i'm unbanned on the desktop but still banned on the mobile site... this makes no sense considering i am NEVER on my computer... grumble grumble
ETA 2: turns out all I had to do was log into the community page...it is late and I should go to bed...
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