I got two new students today which is fine...But I burst into tears because now I have to write two IEPs tonight for them because their last district didn't do it and they start Monday. I was hoping to start on IEP's for the 11 kindergarteners I will be getting next fall that I need to prep for now since I won't be working then. And all I want to do is eat a fancy loaf of bread with butter and go to sleep.
IEP = Individual Education Plan = SPED paperwork that's super time consuming especially when you would rather watch Fixer Upper and Grey's.
@theshannondee Ugh, that sucks. Today's the last weekday of our spring break and I have to go in to school and finish 7 IEPs because I got so behind. I hate those things with all of my hate. At least it sounds like you're on top of if! You can do it!
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BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
@theshannondee Ha not really! I only have to do it because I didn't get them done on time to begin with, so it's my own fault! Unfortunately I got to the school today only to find that the internet was down. And my school is 40 minutes away. So that was all for nothing! Somehow I have to figure out how to finish these things on my tablet now...
Married 6/1/13
BFP #1 7/2013 MMC 9/17/13
BFP #2 5/2014 MC 6/15/14
BFP #3 11/13/14 (Found in ER with ruptured cyst) Diagnosed MC 11/15/14
BFP #4 4/2015 MC 7/1/15
BFP #5 10/21/15 EDD 7/3/16 Praying for our rainbow!
I was driving through town today and a bunch of protesters were holding up "Honk if you think NC's HB2 is bullshit" and they were getting SO MANY HONKS. It made me cry from happiness. We're not all bigoted idiots, apparently just the people who run our state.
I was at the Garth Brooks concert yesterday and he noticed someone's sign with a song request because it was the woman's birthday. It turns out she requested the song "Mom" because she had recently lost her 3 year old son. He sang it for her, and it's about a baby in the womb talking to god about how he just wants to stay in her belly and god telling him that it's time for him to meet his mom who will look after him and take care of him forever. I just lost it, looked at my mom beside me and she was losing it and so were half the women in our section. Listened to it again on my way home and was bawling in the car.
I can't stop crying. I just can't. The only thing I would change to this letter is that our family is obviously team BSB but other than that, just perfect.
I can't stop crying. I just can't. The only thing I would change to this letter is that our family is obviously team BSB but other than that, just perfect.
I got my frenchie this cheap little stuffed pig today at ikea, and I look over at her and she's all like All the tears because she is just the cutest precious little thing and will be a great big sister to our little girl!
@jlmartinez517 Mmg my frenchies suck. They would have ripped that pig to shreds... Not snuggled it in bed. Shit, they rip their beds to shreds...
I actually did have a pregnant and crying day though. My grandma passed away this morning. I found out via text message while in a staff meeting which is always lovely. She lives in Indiana and her funeral is at the end of the month. I desperately want to go but I would be flying at 31 weeks alone and that freaks me out. Keep in mind I haven't even googled if its allowed, much less talked to my doctor.
@theshannondee I'm sorry to hear about your grandma! Thinking of you and your family.
If it makes you feel any better, the ear you can't see on the pig was ripped to shreds and my husband had to cut it off. So it's only a matter of time before this pig is a goner!
@jlmartinez517 Mmg my frenchies suck. They would have ripped that pig to shreds... Not snuggled it in bed. Shit, they rip their beds to shreds...
I actually did have a pregnant and crying day though. My grandma passed away this morning. I found out via text message while in a staff meeting which is always lovely. She lives in Indiana and her funeral is at the end of the month. I desperately want to go but I would be flying at 31 weeks alone and that freaks me out. Keep in mind I haven't even googled if its allowed, much less talked to my doctor.
If your pregnancy has been relatively low risk, I would definitely go to the funeral. Make sure to discuss with your doctor at your next appointment, but I don't foresee any issues with the trip. I flew to Dallas at 37 weeks while pregnant with DD.
I think going would be good for you, not only to help you grieve, but also to spend time with family during this difficult time.
I just woke up to all of these kind words. Thanks so much everyone. I see my doctor on Tuesday so I can see what she says about flying. It's been a easy-normal pregnancy so far health wise so I am guessing I will be okay to travel. Thanks everyone I really appreciate it!
I'm crying about hubs issues again. I asked my DH if he wanted to go to the gym with me yesterday. He said yes. But apparently he didn't really want to go. This morning he claims that I "forced" him to go and he hates working out, and I'm just looking to control every aspect of his life. Now he won't even speak to me. In the past, we used to work out together frequently, but now he's on this whole "I have a full time job, I don't want to do any additional work when I get home" kick (this causes problems with him having to do house chores as well). Apparently I also forced him to eat ice cream last night, which ultimately made him sick. . . Although I distinctly remember him saying "I want ice cream!" Anyways, seems really petty for him to be holding a grudge against me over something that to me seems so trivial. What happened to the loving, helpful guy that enjoyed spending time with me no matter what we were doing? And how the heck do I get him back? Sucks.
@theshannondee So sorry for your loss! Hoping memories help during the worst days.
This Sunday will be 5 years since my Grandma became my angel. So many emotions right now. Crying over the past and the present. Put on a tshirt this morning that made me feel so uncomfortable and cried as I realized that basically my entire wardrobe is no longer going to fit for the next 3 months - even those "comfy" shirts I could always rely on. Walk into work feeling huge and all of my coworkers just look so cute for casual Friday it makes me sad.
@rnyland1 That man needs to grow the hell up. You want ice cream? Eat it. You got a tummy ache? Too freaking bad. You don't want to go to the gym? Don't go.
Sounds like he needs to take responsibility for his own choices. And if he's so opposed to doing anything after working all day, it worries me that soon he'll have a baby at home. He knows babies aren't a 9-5 job, right?
I'd have a discussion and squash this nonsense now. If you wait until July, you'll be exhausted and emotionally depleted and it'll only be a million times harder.
@DominiqueU yeah I totally agree. Seems like he's going through some kind of identity crisis and doesn't even know what the heck he wants half of the time. At least he's pretty helpful with our current DS (2.5 YO). I feel like going through the whole newborn phase again is going to be a complete shocker to him though.
@theshannondee I'm so sorry for your loss! creepy internet hugggggssss. Hope you get to spend some quality time with your family.
@rnyland1 It sounds like there is some underlying deeper seated issues/feelings going on for something as little as that to produce such strong reactions. If you're willing to hear input from random internet strangers who don't know your situation exactly --- My approach has always been to sit down and have a conversation and make sure there is literally no thought or feeling between either me or my husband that gets swept under the rug and not be dealt with. It's turned into blowout hours-long arguments, but I've always resolved to never walk away and let resentment linger.. but make sure everything is uncovered/discussed/and dealt with no matter how ugly it gets. Easier said than done, I know. But it's worked for us so far well in the long run.
@kellz14 always appreciate the input from random internet strangers about my relationship problems. Tends to be more objective than when coming from close family members/friends. Complaining to those folks in the past has seriously come around to bite me in the ass. . .so that leaves you guys! Thanks so much for your input. While I understand what you're saying, there's some things that aren't really worth it to me to have full on discussions/arguments over, and I feel perfectly comfortable "not sweating the small stuff" to a certain degree. That being said, I think he does have some deeper rooted issues (identity crisis?) that warrants some attention here. Not yet sure how to approach him about the issue without being attacking and putting him on the defensive. At minimum I'm going to wait until he seems to be in a lighthearted mood.
My dog spilt her soggy dog food everyyyywhere (she'll only eat it with water in there - that's why it's soggy). I just sat there and cried while I picked up gross food. I feel like an idiot, but I'm tooootally tired of being alone already. Come home husband.
On the way to work, the morning show DJ's were talking about how tomorrow is the last NBA basketball game for our home team at our old arena. A new arena is being built, and should be finished by fall 2016 for the new season. Then the DJ's started talking about all the awesome shows that have taken place there over the last 25 years....Yep, full on tears in the car, on the way to work. WHY?!? I had to change the station to recover!! Even typing this is bringing back all the feels, lol! TGIF!!
I just started randomly humming a hymn from my grandfather's funeral and the anniversary of his passing is in a few days. He died in 1992, why am I crying?!?
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IEP = Individual Education Plan = SPED paperwork that's super time consuming especially when you would rather watch Fixer Upper and Grey's.
https://www.popsugar.com/moms/Mom-Letter-Baby-During-Pregnancy-40814297
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BSB = Backstreet Boys
Obviously I'm a child of the 90's bc I can't for the life of me think of what BSB may stand for when it comes to pregnancy right now.
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@kgrgreen sending positive thoughts to you and your dad. I hope all goes well.
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All the tears because she is just the cutest precious little thing and will be a great big sister to our little girl!
I actually did have a pregnant and crying day though. My grandma passed away this morning. I found out via text message while in a staff meeting which is always lovely. She lives in Indiana and her funeral is at the end of the month. I desperately want to go but I would be flying at 31 weeks alone and that freaks me out. Keep in mind I haven't even googled if its allowed, much less talked to my doctor.
If it makes you feel any better, the ear you can't see on the pig was ripped to shreds and my husband had to cut it off. So it's only a matter of time before this pig is a goner!
If your pregnancy has been relatively low risk, I would definitely go to the funeral. Make sure to discuss with your doctor at your next appointment, but I don't foresee any issues with the trip. I flew to Dallas at 37 weeks while pregnant with DD.
I think going would be good for you, not only to help you grieve, but also to spend time with family during this difficult time.
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@theshannondee very sorry for your loss.
I'm crying about hubs issues again. I asked my DH if he wanted to go to the gym with me yesterday. He said yes. But apparently he didn't really want to go. This morning he claims that I "forced" him to go and he hates working out, and I'm just looking to control every aspect of his life. Now he won't even speak to me. In the past, we used to work out together frequently, but now he's on this whole "I have a full time job, I don't want to do any additional work when I get home" kick (this causes problems with him having to do house chores as well). Apparently I also forced him to eat ice cream last night, which ultimately made him sick. . . Although I distinctly remember him saying "I want ice cream!" Anyways, seems really petty for him to be holding a grudge against me over something that to me seems so trivial. What happened to the loving, helpful guy that enjoyed spending time with me no matter what we were doing? And how the heck do I get him back? Sucks.
This Sunday will be 5 years since my Grandma became my angel. So many emotions right now.
Crying over the past and the present. Put on a tshirt this morning that made me feel so uncomfortable and cried as I realized that basically my entire wardrobe is no longer going to fit for the next 3 months - even those "comfy" shirts I could always rely on. Walk into work feeling huge and all of my coworkers just look so cute for casual Friday it makes me sad.
Sounds like he needs to take responsibility for his own choices. And if he's so opposed to doing anything after working all day, it worries me that soon he'll have a baby at home. He knows babies aren't a 9-5 job, right?
I'd have a discussion and squash this nonsense now. If you wait until July, you'll be exhausted and emotionally depleted and it'll only be a million times harder.
@DominiqueU yeah I totally agree. Seems like he's going through some kind of identity crisis and doesn't even know what the heck he wants half of the time. At least he's pretty helpful with our current DS (2.5 YO). I feel like going through the whole newborn phase again is going to be a complete shocker to him though.
@rnyland1 It sounds like there is some underlying deeper seated issues/feelings going on for something as little as that to produce such strong reactions. If you're willing to hear input from random internet strangers who don't know your situation exactly --- My approach has always been to sit down and have a conversation and make sure there is literally no thought or feeling between either me or my husband that gets swept under the rug and not be dealt with. It's turned into blowout hours-long arguments, but I've always resolved to never walk away and let resentment linger.. but make sure everything is uncovered/discussed/and dealt with no matter how ugly it gets. Easier said than done, I know. But it's worked for us so far well in the long run.