me 30; DH 35
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:










Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:



TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:










Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:



Re: How are you doing? Check-in week of 3/14
I'm doing better emotionally this week, but it really sucks to think that I'd be halfway through if I had stayed pregnant. We are TTC again and the first cycle was not successful - hello AF.
GTKY: I grew up in Western Massachusetts. I loved the hills and the seasons - fall especially was just amazing. Now I live in Minnesota in the Minneapolis- St Paul Metro. I love the Twin Cities - there are amazing arts, music and food scenes here, just as good as East Coast cities I'd argue, and we have lakes and so much green space right in the cities. It's a perfect balance.
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
I am doing so so. This weekend for whatever reason felt really draining, although we didn't do all that much. We were looking over wills/powers of attorney this weekend, and that was an obvious reason I was upset, but I feel like maybe there was something else. Physically, because my RE did not see any more retained material at Friday's ultrasound, I am not going to have my hcg tested unless AF doesn't come by the end of the month. Apparently some people can start their cycle even with elevated hcg, and my RE thinks that is what's happening. I have acupuncture this morning, so I will see how that goes and what she says about it.
GTKY: I grew up in CT and now live in the DC area. I really like New England and wouldn't mind getting back up there at some point. DC has great job opportunities for us, but it's not my favorite city.
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/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
I am doing fairly well this week, although I'm sure I'm doing a lot of compartmentalizing. I have past issues with depression and I just don't want to spiral down that rabbit hole. It's hard because my MIL knows about our loss (we had to cancel a big trip when we got pregnant so we told them at six weeks) and really wants to talk and cry about it so I just haven't spoken to her yet. I feel bad but I also can't support someone else's grief over this when I'm still working on containing mine.
We had a good weekend though. I helped with a benefit for my cousin, who has terminal cancer, and got to spend some time with her and my extended family and see all the outreach towards this very positive goals. And my husband built me two Ikea closets since our 1940's house has no closets and my clothes have been on temporary wracks in the basement for six months. He's been wonderful.
For those of you planning on TTA/NTNP for non medical reasons, why are you waiting, and how long are you planning on waiting to actively TTC again? I have my doctors appointment Thursday to make sure I'm not retaining everything and we'll probably be benched a cycle, but I haven't really been able to make any commitment on what to do after that. I want a baby obviously, and H would like to start trying right away, but I'm worried about the stress and anxiety getting to me.
DH is being wonderful and very supportive. I do wish my family would stop wanting to talk about it all the time - there must be other topics to talk about, right? Hopefully my constant changing subjects will get through.
@housewifehobbyist , we are going to wait 1 cycle, just so we are more sure of dating and so we can take a break from doing all the right stuff. Once we start TTC again, I'm planning on cutting out coffee and alcohol entirely, just for my own peace of mind later, but until then, I have been having both. I'm enjoying indulging myself with lattes and the occasional margarita right now, so I figure I'll give myself a bit of time to have fun.
GTKY: I grew up just around the Midwest, moving around a lot, and now we're in Wisconsin. I love how the middle and lower Midwest get really balanced seasonal changes, but I would not want to leave northern Wisconsin. I love small town life and how peaceful it is to live practically in the woods.
@AL_TwinCities , I completely agree about MSP/St Paul! That is a great area with so much cool stuff going on. We're close enough to go there sometimes to see friends and it is lots of fun.
This week I've been feeling better, emotionally. Phisically this week I had my first period after the D&C and it was horrid. Heavy bleeding and painful, awfully painful. I was in bed all day the first day and then I had to take a day to work from home, as I just couldn't bear it. After 8 days everything seems going back to normal.
GTKY: I was born in Lima, Perú, and lived there my whole life before I moved to my current city, Santiago de Chile. I came here to get a masters degree in architecture and stayed working afterwards. Here I met my "gringo" husband.
Things I love about Lima: the weather is very mild, it is right next to the ocean, great food at home and awesome restaurants, people are very warm and welcoming, my friends and family.
Things I love about Santiago: it is very close to snowy mountains and ski resorts, lots of cultural activities (opera and concerts), we do have Peruvian food in nice restaurants LOL, it is close enough to home to visit often, the city is clean and organized.
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
@AL_TwinCities those milestones are the pits. I dread the whole month of April knowing I would have been in the 2nd tri.
As for me, I DID pass the sac. The dr said my miscarriage is "almost complete". He's giving me 2 weeks to work the remaining tissue and clots out on my own. I follow up with another ultrasound then to see what remains before taking more cytotec or doing a d&c.
As for the GTKY - I've lived in KY since I was 5. We get all the seasons here so that's a plus. However, it is pretty darn rural here. For instance, the whole town exploded when we got a cheesecake factory and the place was booked for 6 months after opening with a 3 +hour wait. Lol.
KY has some beautiful farms, some of which are in the millions. The derby is coming up.
Really not a lot to do here. Lol. I mean, growing up here you learn to entertain yourself with the woods and river.
Oh and alot of kids drove their tractors to prom.
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/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
I am a little over a week past my D&C and I just have a little bit of brown spotting now when I go to the bathroom to wipe. Hopefully this will be gone soon. Kidney stone is out...hurray!! Things with DH are okay, I had a bad day yesterday where I was just really sad and had some crying spells. He is trying to be there for me as best as he can. I also just didn't really sleep well- in addition to it being daylight saving time messing everything up. He is out of town for work from today until Wednesday which might be good to give me some space.
I've started temping and temps are starting to go down which is a good sign that levels are dropping I think...I plan to take a pregnancy test before my next OB appointment just to make sure.
I feel like I got support in the beginning when everything happened but no one has really checked in to see how I am doing now. I was really upset at work earlier and had to leave lunch because my co-worker started talking about her baby shower. Later she texted me and made sure I was okay which I really appreciated. My mom has been really supportive but she lives 1 1/2 hours away so I can really only text/call at this point. I think she really wants me to just move on and be positive but some days its just so hard. I have yet to face my inlaws since the MC has happened. They live in Germany (where my husband is from) and we skype with them every weekend. I just feel like I will get upset if I talk to them and I know they are just really sad about the situation. It doesn't help that they don't speak English which makes communicating my feelings even more difficult!
Only thing cheering me up this week is that March Madness has started- the NCAA basketball tournament. I'm a big sports fan and my alma mater Michigan State University is #2 seed so hopefully they do well. Its a good distraction for sure right now.
I have lived in Michigan my whole life- I grew up in a smallish city (around 60,000 people) called Saginaw until I graduated high school and moved to East Lansing for college. After college I moved back to Saginaw for an internship and then got my first job in Detroit so I moved to the Detroit suburbs and have lived there ever since (almost 9 years now).
I miss my home town because my 2 best friends from high school still live there and of course my parents but its not the same as it used to be- there is more crime and a lot of people have moved away from there. It's kind of the place where if you don't move away, you never will. Detroit gets a bad rap too but I feel like its making a come back. I like the little suburb that we live in- close to work and its very safe and quiet. Lots of stuff to do around town especially restaurants- I consider myself kind of a foodie
Michigan is a great state, especially in the summer with the lakes and going up north and in the fall with all the leaves changing.
This week it will be one month post MMC and d&c. Last week was rough, this week is so far better. I'm still pretty up and down emotionally but am feeling more hopeful and optimistic and gearing up for procedures coming up in April. I started bleeding today full flow but now it seems to be tapering off, I have no clue what's going on with my body. It seemed to be all in synch last week and now it's all over the place. I think it's too early for AF as based on blood tests it seems that I ovulated last week, but I guess from what I've read your cycle after loss can be out of whack. I'm supposed to go on BCPs once I start AF because of my upcoming procedures so I'm working with the nurse at my RE office to figure out if this is AF or not. Going in for a blood test later today.
Since I am benched, I am also cleaning up my diet (I started a Whole 30) and I started acupuncture a few weeks ago. @BrightenMySky I know you do acupuncture; do you take any herbs? My acupuncturist started me on herbs this last week and was wondering if you take them or if anyone one else here takes them and how you like them. I'm a little nervous about the herbs messing my cycle up but that is purely based on my own paranoia.
I'm back to exercising and am just generally trying to get as healthy as possible for the next time. As @iceandsnowflakes29 said, desperate times call for desperate measure
@Spartanrd4- I'm sorry people have stopped checking in. I experienced the same thing and now only have my husband, a friend who really check in and understand the depths of my pain. I feel like others move on but you certainly haven't. Take care of yourself this week and enjoy a few days of solitude.
GTKY: I grew up in Northern CA in the SF Bay area. I currently live in San Jose. It's been raining non-stop and finally we have a break in the rain today which is great because people here cannot drive when it rains which makes my morning commute shitty. We certainly do not have the typical seasons here and hope to make it back east one of these days during fall to see a proper changing of leaves.
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
I'm still very much struggling and Pampers was nice enough to remind me on Saturday that I would be 32weeks along now. I Mmc at 8w4d no heartbeat on ultrasound with d&c the followng week oct 6th. I really want another baby still and my husband is adamant no more. I just can't get my heart to hear him out or understand it. He hasn't been good support since it all started and still isn't. With my due date approaching I'm scared how I'll make it thru. I know I have to but again my spouse will be working 7days a week 16-18hrs a day.
I've always lived in Illinois and still do. Spring looks like it's trying to arrive and I'm hoping that getting outside with my kids and gardening it will help me heal.
@roxgibbons no herbs for me. If my acupuncturist suggested it, I would be open but would probably run it by my RE first. I really trust both my RE and my acupuncturist, and they are both respectful of each other's work and practices, but since I am committed to my RE's treatment plan (hopefully starting again soon), I would want him to have the final say.
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
I still can't stop thinking about everything that has happened. It's just so crazy how you can go from being elated to being heartbroken so quickly. I cried yesterday - but that was the first time in like 5 days - so I take that as a win lol. I'm hoping to start trying again this week once I get the go ahead from my doctor tomorrow. I know they want us to wait until the first cycle - but I figure it can't hurt to start trying again.
GTKY - I grew up in Maryland and now live in Florida. I miss the seasons and the blue crabs in Maryland!! I do love how easygoing Florida is though. You can wear flip flops for any occasion down here. I just wish we had seasons!!
Married: 11.2.14
TTC: October 2015
BFP: 1.24.16
Confirmed MC: 2.25.16 at 8 weeks. Blighted Ovum.
Baby Due: 4.24.17
Confirmed M/C 10.27.16 at 14 weeks; D&C 10/28/16
One happy thing I forgot to mention happened this weekend...I received a card in the mail personally signed by everyone who took care of me during my D&C. I don't know if this is common practice but it was so thoughtful...it really did make my day. They were really a very caring team and this further proves that!
Married: 11.2.14
TTC: October 2015
BFP: 1.24.16
Confirmed MC: 2.25.16 at 8 weeks. Blighted Ovum.
Baby Due: 4.24.17
Confirmed M/C 10.27.16 at 14 weeks; D&C 10/28/16
I grew up in Apooka, it's a suburb of Orlando. Now I live about 45 mins north of palm beach. I loved Orlando because there was always something to do it going on, hated the traffic. I love where I live now, I just wish we had more stores for shopping! Small town life compared to Orlando!
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
(TMI /TW / Graphic )
At 3:00 my cramps ramped up and so did the bleeding. By 5:00 I was going through a pad every 30-45 mins. I was soaking underwear and just throwing it away. I was bleeding way more than with the cytotec. The cramps ramped up and my husband and I decided to give it til 8:00 to calm down.
Finally, around 8 (thank goodness ) I stood up and passed a large mass of god-knows-what. It was the size of a small apple.
I'm hoping that was the grand finale and everything is gone. Cramps instantly went away and the bleeding slowed down.
I really hope you are finally done! Hopefully it wasn't as painful as when you were on the cytotec!
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
Physicially l think I got really lucky. My d&c was two weeks ago tomorrow, I had almost no bleeding and minimal cramps. I have my post op appointment Thursday to get the green light for "fun time". Emotionally I am on a roller coaster that has bigger downs after each up. I know it's still early and am working on not forcing myself to feel better before I need to. Thankfully I had a shipment of 15 bottles of wine arrive last night.
My husband has been amazing. He listens when I need it and doesn't force me to talk. He can tell when I'm having a rough day. He has cooked every single night since everything and his support is amazing.
I I kind of grew up all over the place. I was born in Chicago and lived there until I was 5. I still consider that my true home and went back for grad school. I love the city and the seasons and everything about it. I am now in Phoenix for the last 5 years. We moved here for when my husband was still playing professional baseball. Honestly the only thing I like about here is my job. I am so lucky in my career and know I wouldn't be able to find the combination of exactly what I do anywhere else.
Married: 11.12.11
TTC: Nov 2015
BFP #1: 1.22.16 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
D&C: 3.2.16
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.2016
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending 8.15.16
Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid
half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
I have my 2 weeks follow up today post D&C - so I feel you on that one. I'm nervous to even start trying again - I feel like its going to hurt - is that weird?
My husband has been hinting that he is getting antsy cause we haven't had sex since the miscarriage (sorry if that is TMI). I know he is trying to be understanding - but I feel like I am in a funk cause of everything and have no sex drive. Anyone else feel that way after the M/C? I'd like to get my mojo back soon!
Married: 11.2.14
TTC: October 2015
BFP: 1.24.16
Confirmed MC: 2.25.16 at 8 weeks. Blighted Ovum.
Baby Due: 4.24.17
Confirmed M/C 10.27.16 at 14 weeks; D&C 10/28/16
Hey ladies,
I'm just over a month since my early miscarriage. Last week was difficult because I was supposed to have my first appointment that also fell on DH birthday. I think everything with DH is going ok. Until Friday I didn't think it really bothered him much anymore. Then I got a package from my oldest sister and my SIL and they wrote letters to my baby and sent a beautiful necklace. When he read the letters he started crying, we cried together.
Physically I'm doing well. Emotionally is a different story. I thought I was doing well coping with everything but these last few months have been one crazy thing after another. The last few things coming after my MC have been so ridiculous I never in my wildest dreams thought I'd ever have to deal with them, much less after already being devastated and emotional. I feel like I can't take anything else. I just want to hide from everything and everyone.
Married: 9/2013
Love my LEO!!
TTC #1: 9/2015
BFP: 2/1/16 MC 2/8/16 @ 5wks
BFP: 5/22/16 RAINBOW BABY
EDD: 1/30/2017 *IT'S A GIRL!!!!*
Kirsten Grace 1/20/17
Where in michigan are you from @becbec28? So sorry to see you here, I am sorry for your loss. I understand how your emotions sometimes have a hard time catching up with your body....that is how I feel anyways.
@rkroupa Not TMI....My husband and I haven't had sex since we found out we were pregnant so almost 8 weeks now. I definitely need my mojo back too! I feel so bad for him...I know he has been a trooper for sure.
My husband was really understanding and I think he was in a funk himself...one night, it just happened and honestly, we both knew we were ready.
Don't get discouraged and don't push yourself too hard.
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
Married: 9/2013
Love my LEO!!
TTC #1: 9/2015
BFP: 2/1/16 MC 2/8/16 @ 5wks
BFP: 5/22/16 RAINBOW BABY
EDD: 1/30/2017 *IT'S A GIRL!!!!*
Kirsten Grace 1/20/17
The appointment itself wasn't that bad, but then when I got into the car, my D/H was like well, don't you feel much better now that its over? And I was like, well, I wasn't that worried about the appt, I just wanted to make sure I was healing fine. Long story short - he thought I had been crying "so much" the past 2 weeks cause I was nervous about the appointment. He was like - Im just trying to understand why you were crying so much - if it wasn't the appointment. I was like - well how about the fact that I had a fucking miscarriage - is that not reason to cry? So then we fought and I cried more.
And the rest of the night was basically on and off of me crying. I'm so tired of my hormones and not knowing when its going to hit me. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks post M/C. Does it get better? I feel like I'm constantly exhausted with thinking about it all of the time.
Sorry for the long, crazy lady vent. I'd seriously be lost without this board and you all!!
Married: 11.2.14
TTC: October 2015
BFP: 1.24.16
Confirmed MC: 2.25.16 at 8 weeks. Blighted Ovum.
Baby Due: 4.24.17
Confirmed M/C 10.27.16 at 14 weeks; D&C 10/28/16
And my DH was very worried about my 2 week post-op appointment, he has been very nervous about infection for me. I am sorry your DH has not been more sensitive and understanding to the differences in what you're feeling versus what he's feeling.
Tomorrow will be 7 weeks since we found out about our loss. Last night I was just thinking about how surreal it all felt--that we actually made a baby together but that maybe was genetically flawed and died. I actually didn't cry, although plenty of crying at other times still. You're right that the hormone crashing doesn't help, but you're allowed to cry...as you say, you had a fucking miscarriage...and it's devastating.
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
So just really anxious about all the questions I will get and I have SOOOO many questions for the doctor about the next steps which I don't even know if they will be answered. I just hate that there is so many unknowns right now for the future!
I feel like I've kinda been withdrawing myself from people this week- especially at work. I just don't feel like sitting at lunch and chit chatting to people about meaningless crap when I have so much going on and things on my mind. I'm really not good at putting on a happy face and pretending everything is okay. I don't hide my feelings well at all and if everyone can pretend nothing happened and not talk to me anymore about it and move on, that is fine but I can not.
Tonight I'm going out tonight with my friend and telling her I'm not going to her baby shower. Hope it goes well...wish me luck.
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
I'm on day 6 of bleeding. I keep waiting for this to taper off or reduce to spotting but, I'm still in heavy flow pads.