my husband (who I know is frustrated) messed up a simple dinner that I couldn't make bc I'm still recovering from my d&c on Friday. he made me feel horrible for relying on him so much this weekend and it just made me feel incredibly frustrated. please tell me this gets easier.
My coworkers are having their babies and my best friends daughter just had hers this week. I have cred alot this week....just seems like a constant reminder. I will be glad when the last girl at work has her baby next month...I was a month behind her. Hopefully that will make it less painful.
Yesterday I cried because my sisters got me a beautiful necklace with my baby's would be birthstone and a little pair of angel wings. Today I cried because I am on a girls trip that was planned months ago, I mc on Monday night, decided to go to keep me distracted. But we are going on a few wine tours and I feel guilty for drinking even though I'm not pg anymore and I feel guilty for having fun and laughing. I know I shouldn't but it just feels wrong. I was supposed to be announcing my pg to my sisters on this trip not not my mc.
Today I cried. I cried because yesterday I lost my baby. And today my husband instead of staying with me left to go see his daughter from his first marriage. Maybe I'm being selfish but who leaves a wife the day after? I also can't stop crying, I'm heartbroken.
I cried today because I am 5 weeks pregnant and I am almost positive I am losing this one too. Have a horrible feeling that it is an ectopic pregnancy and I am scared to death. This would be my 3rd consecutive loss. My levels are not doubling and are only at 45...I should know tomorrow...
It is so unfair that we have to go through this. I am so sorry for your losses and wish none of us had to go through something so heartbreaking.
Me: 38 DH: 42. Married: 9/2008.
4/2010 - BFP (Natural)
12/2010 - DS born.
8/2014-TTC#2 10/2014 BFP
10/2014 Confirmed MC at 5 weeks 5/2015 BFP 8/2015 MMC & D&C at 13 weeks 11/2015 BFP then CP at 6 weeks. 3/2016 Started IVF+PGS 4/2016 ER, only 5 eggs but 3 Frozen embryos made it to freeze. Only 1 PGS normal embryo. DOR Hypothyroidism MTHFR DH Sperm with Chromosomal Issues (high % FISH) AMH .65 8/2016 FET #1 BFN 9/2016 IVF-ER #2 1 normal embryo. 11/2016 IVF-ER #3 0 Embryos 2/2017 FET #2 BFP CP at 6 weeks. 5/2017 BFP Natural. 3 Betas were ok. First US 5-31-2017. Hope it sticks and is healthy!!
I had my D&C Friday and my cousin congratulated me on my pregnancy Saturday. At a large family gathering. Someone forgot to spread the "news."
My mom calls DS her little angel but said she can't call him that anymore because he's here with us and I now have an angel in heaven.
My mom reminded my I had my D&C on the 2nd anniversary of my aunts death and that baby had a big welcome party and is being loved and cared for by her now.
TMI...!!!!
My sister and I took turns in the bathroom today... me to pass blood clots from the D&C - her to take a pregnancy test for an unplanned pregnancy. She is pregnant, due 4 weeks after I was. I didn't know how she was feeling emotionally and what to say so I just cried.
I thought emotionally I was doing well until this weekend.
and I'm crying right now because it's my first day back at work after my d&c and I'm scared of how I'm gonna handle this emotionally. so I cry now hopefully to get rid of the tears.
I'm crying because I'm scared to go back to work tomorrow. I work as a day school teacher and I know it will be hard being around all the kids after my miscarriage almost three weeks ago. I know parents are going to ask why I was gone for so long. I'm scared I won't be able to hold it together.
Because I'm ovulating for the first time since my MC, exactly a week after I stopped bleeding... I can't handle this yet. It's like my body is moving on before I can move on.
I cry often, but today I just broke down in my car during my lunch break. I cried because this time of year was supposed to be different for me. I got pregnant last holiday season, and found out it was ectopic in January, followed by surgery and a difficult year of fertility treatments. Now...still no pregnancy. This is my second loss, and I am not even sure I will have another chance at this. I love the holidays, and even though I have been wanting children for years, I have been patient and happy for others and waiting my turn. Then when my turn seemingly comes, I lose it. I lose it in a way that may affect me having children for ever. I feel pissed, sad, and exhausted all at the same time. I come to these chat rooms to show support and to remind myself that I am not alone. Sometimes I forget that, because every time I turn around, my friends are popping out babies like Jiffy Pop. Well, once again, maybe next year will be my time. I don't know.
Today I cried because I learned of a 2nd MMC this year, 2 days before our original due date. First at 16 weeks, this one at 10. Feeling like I'll never have a baby to hold in my arms, no matter how badly I want it to happen or how loved that child will be. Hoping the testing they will do will offer some sort of answers.
Today I cried because I somehow finally washed DS announcement onesie that says "no longer the only pumpkin in the patch." I don't know how it showed up in the wash must have been hidden somewhere, but I was quite surprised and caught off guard when I went to fold it.
Deer hunting starts tomorrow. I hunt with about 10-13 of my family members. I was supposed to be 13 weeks and announce to everyone. My cousin announced her pregnancy tonight. She is 8 weeks. I am happy for her, I know she wanted a 3rd but it hit me hard and I was sad.
Today I cried because I would be 12 weeks tomorrow but waiting to miscarry an empty sac. I cried because Im scared that this will continue on to 2016. This is my 3rd mc. No baby and im 34. Today someone announced their pregnancy. That wont be me. Praying for the best as this year crushed me with 2 mc
Today I cried as its been 2 weeks since I lost my beautiful baby and I found the bump sticks that I bought. I threw them out, I can't keep them it breaks my heart too much.
I'm new to this. I lost my baby girl in September at 20 weeks due to a deformed heart. I lost her on a Monday so now every Monday I cry at some point. Today I was putting up Christmas decorations and started to cry because I just remember when I was going to buy a stocking for her. And her due date is in January and I'm not sure how I'm going to be feeling. She was my first pregnancy. I miss her every day. She was my little Nora. I feel better knowing there are others who understand. It is difficult to describe this feeling of loss to someone who hasn't been through losing a child. Thanks for listening.
Today I cried because I took out Christmas decorations and saw a little sign I bought last year that says "As our family grows so do the memories" It just made me really upset, it's so hard to get into the holiday spirit this year.
I reset my pregnancy apps to having had a miscarriage so that they stop sending me notifications and stuff. They all come back with a automated nice "we're so sorry" message and gave links and articles for support. It's more than what most people do.
LFAF/Nov 16 challenge: Bad TV moms that shouldn't be celebrated
BFP #1 10/30/15 MMC found 11/30/15 D&C 12/11/15 EDD 7/9/16
healing comes in waves, and maybe today the wave hits the rocks and that’s ok, that’s ok, darling. you are still healing, you are still healing- Ijeoma Umebinyuo, be gentle with yourself BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Because I told my H that I wanted to name the baby we are losing and fell in to my arms sobbing at that idea and so then I cried too.
We have spent the last 2.5 days collapsing in to sobs in each others arms for various reasons. It's so strange how much closer this is bringing us. We've been together 3 yeas and we've never ever gone through anything that is close to this hard. It's only reaffirmed my faith that I am with the right person. And then I cried because I have found a silver lining in all of this.
Also because I just miss my baby and I thought I was doing better... I haven't even looked at the baby section at the store and just one glance had me bawling... I thought I was doing so much better but I feel alone.
DD had picked an angel tree kid before my MC, she insisted on buying for a baby girl. I had put off shopping for her until today. I sobbed in the diaper section of the store.
Today I cried because the "big sister" books I had ordered for my DD arrived. I opened the box and there they were stairing at me like a cruel reminder
Today I cried because I received a call that my insurance won't cover the surgery I need for endo to be able to TTC again. I haven't cried this hard since we found out we were having a MC and then three days later also found that I had an ectopic on top of it all. This surgery was the only thing keeping me positive through all this. I just can't stop thinking how unfair it all is. I should have been halfway through my pregnancy, not crying about having to wait until we have enough money to afford this surgery.
Today I cried because I got the results from my hcg and betas. If I were to take a pregnancy test right now it would technically still register as positive. I don't know why that was my first thought, or why I even thought I'd be almost at zero when my blood was taken 5 days post miscarriage. I feel like I can't really begin to move on until my levels are at zero.
Had presentations for our clinical groups today and someone that knew I was pregnant but didn't know I miscarried innocently asked how many weeks along I was and all I could do was stare at her. Then she figured it out and felt bad and I felt bad that she felt bad and I cried through the whole next presentation.
LFAF/Nov 16 challenge: Bad TV moms that shouldn't be celebrated
BFP #1 10/30/15 MMC found 11/30/15 D&C 12/11/15 EDD 7/9/16
healing comes in waves, and maybe today the wave hits the rocks and that’s ok, that’s ok, darling. you are still healing, you are still healing- Ijeoma Umebinyuo, be gentle with yourself BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Today I cried when I told my best friend what the OB had told my mom and husband following the D&C: "Everything couldn't have gone more smoothly. When we got in there, it was like the baby - knowing it wouldn't make it - simply wrapped himself almost into a blanket. He left the place spotless, like he knew it was time to leave."
Re: Today I Cried Because...
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019You do have a baby, you are a mommy to an angel. :x
BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks;
BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016
Me: 38 DH: 42.
Married: 9/2008.
10/2014 BFP
5/2015 BFP
8/2015 MMC & D&C at 13 weeks
11/2015 BFP then CP at 6 weeks.
3/2016 Started IVF+PGS
4/2016 ER, only 5 eggs but 3 Frozen embryos made it to freeze. Only 1 PGS normal embryo.
DOR
Hypothyroidism
MTHFR
DH Sperm with Chromosomal Issues (high % FISH)
AMH .65
8/2016 FET #1 BFN
9/2016 IVF-ER #2 1 normal embryo.
11/2016 IVF-ER #3 0 Embryos
2/2017 FET #2 BFP CP at 6 weeks.
5/2017 BFP Natural. 3 Betas were ok. First US 5-31-2017. Hope it sticks and is healthy!!
I had my D&C Friday and my cousin congratulated me on my pregnancy Saturday. At a large family gathering. Someone forgot to spread the "news."
My mom calls DS her little angel but said she can't call him that anymore because he's here with us and I now have an angel in heaven.
My mom reminded my I had my D&C on the 2nd anniversary of my aunts death and that baby had a big welcome party and is being loved and cared for by her now.
TMI...!!!!
My sister and I took turns in the bathroom today... me to pass blood clots from the D&C - her to take a pregnancy test for an unplanned pregnancy. She is pregnant, due 4 weeks after I was. I didn't know how she was feeling emotionally and what to say so I just cried.
I thought emotionally I was doing well until this weekend.
I appreciate this thread so much - it reminds me that I'm only human and it's okay to cry. Sending so much love to each and every one of you ladies.
BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks;
BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016
I cry often, but today I just broke down in my car during my lunch break. I cried because this time of year was supposed to be different for me. I got pregnant last holiday season, and found out it was ectopic in January, followed by surgery and a difficult year of fertility treatments. Now...still no pregnancy. This is my second loss, and I am not even sure I will have another chance at this. I love the holidays, and even though I have been wanting children for years, I have been patient and happy for others and waiting my turn. Then when my turn seemingly comes, I lose it. I lose it in a way that may affect me having children for ever. I feel pissed, sad, and exhausted all at the same time. I come to these chat rooms to show support and to remind myself that I am not alone. Sometimes I forget that, because every time I turn around, my friends are popping out babies like Jiffy Pop. Well, once again, maybe next year will be my time. I don't know.
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019Today I cried because I now fit back into my pre pregnancy bras. I didn't think my body would change so quickly.
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
Today I was putting up Christmas decorations and started to cry because I just remember when I was going to buy a stocking for her. And her due date is in January and I'm not sure how I'm going to be feeling. She was my first pregnancy. I miss her every day. She was my little Nora.
I feel better knowing there are others who understand. It is difficult to describe this feeling of loss to someone who hasn't been through losing a child.
Thanks for listening.
BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017