Anyone else freak out every time you feel a little discharge? I'm so scared that I'm to see blood again when I go to the bathroom that I work myself up every time. I need to calm down!!!
@soccsm13 I did the last three pregnancies. I don't really with this one because I have fully resigned myself to the fact that nothing I do will change it. The second that egg was fertilized my fate was sealed and now, I'm just hoping for the best and going one day at a time. Other people's losses scare me sometimes, but I read and respond to them all. For me, its just something I feel I need to do.
Update: had my first OB appt and u/s today. Everything went great!! Baby measured 8w2d, exactly where I thought I was with an EDD of 12/21. Strong HB at 148. I feel like a wave of relief washed over me, although I'm not out of the woods yet. I still made it farther than with my last pregnancy, in which I had a MMC at 8 weeks (baby stopped growing at 6). Just wanted to share some happy news with my fellow PGAL ladies!
Anyone else freak out every time you feel a little discharge? I'm so scared that I'm to see blood again when I go to the bathroom that I work myself up every time. I need to calm down!!!
Every time it happens I freak out! My brain goes back to my last two losses and when I felt them. Terrible.
Anyone else freak out every time you feel a little discharge? I'm so scared that I'm to see blood again when I go to the bathroom that I work myself up every time. I need to calm down!!!
Every time it happens I freak out! My brain goes back to my last two losses and when I felt them. Terrible.
Yup and it usually happens when I'm teaching yoga (moving a lot) and not wearing underwear. It totally distracts me from teaching bc I know I can't check. And my loss wasn't even a miscarriage last time.
I wasn't expecting an u/s when I had my appointment--but I got one! I don't remember the HB but it was good, and baby was measuring a couple of days ahead! 8w5d instead of 8w2d.
I'm still pretty paranoid after my previous MMC, but we've gotten further this time, so I'm daring to hope a little.
Is heartily apologizing to her child in advance for genes that predispose them to shitty vision and being Too Damn Tall.
Yep... I run to the bathroom to check every single time I feel something. Just knowing I will see blood... Even if I've JUST listened to the hb on the home doppler.
Hey ladies, just letting you know that I'll be MIA for a few days, maybe a week? DH and I are going out of town for our anniversary. Honestly, it's a good time for me to pull away and take a break. My anxiety really gets the better of me when I sign on and see more losses. Today I was having back pain and while I know that can be normal, I remembered that someone posted their first cue of a mmc was back pain and I panicked and cried all afternoon. Its so hard to distinguish what's normal or not for me is not the same as anyone else when it's all I see. Comparing is just not helping me right now and making me a crazy lady! Hopefully a few days away can bring me some peace of mind. In the mean time, stay classy and stay pregnant ladies! I'm praying for us all everyday.
Enjoy the time away! Sometimes you need to take a step back. Kudos to you for knowing it's time for a timeout. We will miss you! Have fun with the hubs!
@nik6499@sarahopkins1 and to anyone else I might have missed that had great ultrasounds today... Yay! So happy to hear that things went well!
@Embuzz247 I sent you a private message before reading this... Hopefully you and DH will have a relaxing and unwinding time during what will hopefully be an amazing anniversary week! We will miss you but will look forward to seeing you when you get back. Lots of love!
To all of those that are having a very difficult time reading about losses, I certainly understand! It is very difficult, I'm trying to do my best to focus on the baby that I have left and take one step at a time. I'm trying not to get too involved in the threads about nurseries… @CMDD so glad that your MIL is going to come out and help you set things up. Are you in San Fran? In any case, I lived in New York for over four years. Obviously I didn't have a baby but many of my friends did and I saw how they could make it work in a small apartment. I have a passion for interior design. I also know how to work on budget and on time :-) I'm happy to help in anyway possible. There is a great website that I use. I think we probably all feel that right now is far too early to start planning. Whenever your ready (touch wood) send me a private message or just let me know and I will be in touch and do whatever I can to help!
@kimb311 what happened at the doctors? FX everything went well
@Embuzz247 I didn't feel anything with my MMC, don't think that will be too comforting, but I have had a ton of back pain with this little one and am happy and healthily 11w2d. Go for my next scan Monday . with Mine I was only measuring 6w and had no heart beat probably from my first scan at 7w, but I was so young they probably thought dating was off, and had me come in for extra scans because I was "high risk" due to my age. They never told me anything, so I was never prepared, but I think they knew from my first sonogram.
@BostonBaby1 it went well! She didn't seem concerned about the spotting. Ultrasound was perfect. No sign of the SCH so that may be what I am seeing. Baby measured 9w4d, 2 ahead! And is really starting to look like a baby! Good strong heartbeat. When the dr came in after the US she was all smiles and so excited! All " the baby looks fabulous! I'm so happy for you!" It was maybe the first time I felt some weight of worry lift off my shoulders. I was a grinning fool the rest of the day.
Hi ladies, so I just posted another thread where some of us were saying that all of the losses are causing tremendous amounts of anxiety for some of us. I have no idea how to make a post sticky, but I think it might be a good idea if we requested the people put *loss* or *possible loss* in the title of their posts. If it is a follow up or an update… Perhaps people could add *loss* while updating us?
This would be beneficial for two reasons. First, it gives the poster the opportunity to let people know that they had had a loss and to garnish the support that they deserve. Secondarily, it gives those of us who feel tremendous amounts of anxiety the opportunity to skip the post (at least for the day or until they are feeling less anxious.)
What do you ladies think? How would we even do this?
Agreed!
First time posting on here. I'm so happy everything is going well at almost 11 weeks. Every day seems like a mini milestone. Going for my first dr appt and I'm so excited. More excited now because I had an emergency ultrasound yesterday because of a scare. To know baby is still doing fine has made me so happy. Haven't felt this way since before I lost my first.
Due 11.16.17 Baby Girl 12.9.15
MC 2.1.15 @ 5 W - Chemical MC 4.7.14 @ 21 W - Turners Syndrome
Hey everyone! Hoping to join this thread. My name is Keira and I am 11w 1d pregnant with my rainbow. We lost our baby at 17 weeks in July of last year. I am a nervous wreck all the time and terrified of the ultrasound machine it's nice to have the support of others.
BFP #1 April 14th, 2014 MMC at 17weeks with a baby boy D&E
BFP # 2 March 23rd, Rainbow Baby Boy Jayce Michael born 12/9/15
BFP#3 January 26th EDD October 9th! Hoping for my girl!
@BostonBaby1 it went well! She didn't seem concerned about the spotting. Ultrasound was perfect. No sign of the SCH so that may be what I am seeing. Baby measured 9w4d, 2 ahead! And is really starting to look like a baby! Good strong heartbeat. When the dr came in after the US she was all smiles and so excited! All " the baby looks fabulous! I'm so happy for you!" It was maybe the first time I felt some weight of worry lift off my shoulders. I was a grinning fool the rest of the day.
Hi girls. My eyes are about to shut as I am so tired after today's fiasco. I was beyond nervous when they couldn't find a heartbeat after so long of looking. I'm very glad that the attending finally came in and although she is 99% sure she sees a heartbeat, that makes me 100% nervous!
She was also extraordinarily confused as to the dates of my pregnancy. It was so hard to go through and give them the date of my last period. I finally figured out that it was in the end of January, so then they got really nervous that I had such a small fetus. I had to remind them that I miscarried on 3/2... I even had to give them the date that I went in that my beta was back to zero for them to understand.
I guess one positive note was that she was (The attending labor and delivery Dr.) almost amused by the fact that not only was I pregnant naturally so soon after my m/c, but that it had been twins! And not through IVF! Ha. I guess that is pretty incredible.
The other thing that I'm thinking is that I wish that somebody that could afford to would buy a good portable ultrasound machine for the labor and delivery unit at my hospital. After all, it is a level one trauma center and one of the top hospitals in the country. I'm sure I'm not the only person that has gotten extremely nervous from such a crappy ultrasound machine!
All in all I can't complain, well I can't and I just did… But I'm pregnant now so that's what I'm going to focus on.
@BostonBaby1 try and just get some sleep. You are still pregnant today hon
Thank you sweetheart! That's definitely what I'm going with because I refuse to except the alternative at this point! Also, I really do think that that ultrasound machine was total crap. There's no more bleeding and my cervix is closed so I'm going to try my best to keep the faith.
I especially wanted to thank you for posting that gif! It really brought my mood up and I appreciate it more than you know! You're very special and I appreciate you so much!
@BostonBaby1 I had a similar experience last week. The ultrasound machine was horrible and they didn't have a better one to find the baby. Then they said they were pretty sure they saw a heartbeat. Pretty sure?! Everything worked out okay for me now and I hope it will for you too.
@BostonBaby1 I had a similar experience last week. The ultrasound machine was horrible and they didn't have a better one to find the baby. Then they said they were pretty sure they saw a heartbeat. Pretty sure?! Everything worked out okay for me now and I hope it will for you too.
Me too!!! I'm still up because I've just had a lot of anxiety about today and everything with my mom. I'm pretty sure I'll go in to see the HB 100% but I'm hopeful that the machine was just rubbish. DH said it was crap (though he only does u/s on eyeballs! Lol) thank you so much for your support and I'm PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise!)
@BostonBaby1 I had a similar experience last week. The ultrasound machine was horrible and they didn't have a better one to find the baby. Then they said they were pretty sure they saw a heartbeat. Pretty sure?! Everything worked out okay for me now and I hope it will for you too.
Me too!!! I'm still up because I've just had a lot of anxiety about today and everything with my mom. I'm pretty sure I'll go in to see the HB 100% but I'm hopeful that the machine was just rubbish. DH said it was crap (though he only does u/s on eyeballs! Lol) thank you so much for your support and I'm PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise!)
Sorry they had such trouble finding the hb. I'm sure all will be well the next time and it was just hiding! Thinking of you! PUPO haha love it
@BostonBaby1 I was thinking about all of the posts about insufficient u/s machines that I have read after I was reading your update last night. It just seems absolutely crazy to me that hospitals don't have the equipment they need and some doctor's offices don't either. I agree that something needs to be done about this.
@BostonBaby1 try and just get some sleep. You are still pregnant today hon
Thank you sweetheart! That's definitely what I'm going with because I refuse to except the alternative at this point! Also, I really do think that that ultrasound machine was total crap. There's no more bleeding and my cervix is closed so I'm going to try my best to keep the faith.
I especially wanted to thank you for posting that gif! It really brought my mood up and I appreciate it more than you know! You're very special and I appreciate you so much!
No more bleeding is SUCH a good thing! Hoping your situation is similar to mine. Bled and fortunately was able to get confirmation of a hb and healthy baby. Crazy that your hospital's machines were shit. SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING.
Due 11.16.17 Baby Girl 12.9.15
MC 2.1.15 @ 5 W - Chemical MC 4.7.14 @ 21 W - Turners Syndrome
WTF is up with the crappy machines??? I've had 2 portable u/s machines used on me in the past, and never any issues with them. Well... both were with m/c's but it was completely clear that's what was happening, there was no question.
Okay, I'm kinda freaking out today. My first loss was almost exactly 5 years ago and ended in a d&c. Afterwich they deamed it a molar pregnancy. My due date was Dec 9 to 11 that time. I had very few symptoms except for feeling like my blood sugar was low all the time.
I have been so excited about this baby but I've had a hard time showing it because of last time and we haven't told many people at all. My due date is December 6. Kinda freeky since both were unplanned.
So, long story to say... I started spotting last night. Or maybe bleeding. Kinda in between flow of what I think I would call either. Sorry for TMI. Anyway. I wasn't going to see my doctor for the first time until June 5th but I called and they said they will see me at 1:45 this afternoon. So that has given me a little over 6 extra hours to freak out.
Sorry for laying that out there, I know that my problems are mild compared to what most of you have gone through. I know it's tottaly selfisch to ask but, please say a prayer for me today.
Okay, I'm kinda freaking out today. My first loss was almost exactly 5 years ago and ended in a d&c. Afterwich they deamed it a molar pregnancy. My due date was Dec 9 to 11 that time. I had very few symptoms except for feeling like my blood sugar was low all the time.
I have been so excited about this baby but I've had a hard time showing it because of last time and we haven't told many people at all. My due date is December 6. Kinda freeky since both were unplanned.
So, long story to say... I started spotting last night. Or maybe bleeding. Kinda in between flow of what I think I would call either. Sorry for TMI. Anyway. I wasn't going to see my doctor for the first time until June 5th but I called and they said they will see me at 1:45 this afternoon. So that has given me a little over 6 extra hours to freak out.
Sorry for laying that out there, I know that my problems are mild compared to what most of you have gone through. I know it's tottaly selfisch to ask but, please say a prayer for me today.
That you all so much!
Oh no that's not selfish at all! We will be thinking of you and hoping for the best outcome. I would be scared too, because not knowing is so hard. I'm glad you get to go in today and get checked out.
@AmandaT121386 not selfish at all! Wishing you the best!! Hopefully everything will be fine. I know it's hard but try to do something calming to keep yourself relaxed and distracted. Keep us updated.
@AmandaT121386 mine was 12 years ago. I'm still freaking out, family doesn't understand how much this pregnancy means to me. Miracle rainbow baby big deal. I was told 10-11 years ago 1 in a million shot. I hope it's a sticky pregnancy and I'm praying for you. Not selfish we all here for you
Re: PGAL weekly check-in
I'm still pretty paranoid after my previous MMC, but we've gotten further this time, so I'm daring to hope a little.
@Embuzz247 I sent you a private message before reading this... Hopefully you and DH will have a relaxing and unwinding time during what will hopefully be an amazing anniversary week! We will miss you but will look forward to seeing you when you get back. Lots of love!
To all of those that are having a very difficult time reading about losses, I certainly understand! It is very difficult, I'm trying to do my best to focus on the baby that I have left and take one step at a time. I'm trying not to get too involved in the threads about nurseries… @CMDD so glad that your MIL is going to come out and help you set things up. Are you in San Fran? In any case, I lived in New York for over four years. Obviously I didn't have a baby but many of my friends did and I saw how they could make it work in a small apartment. I have a passion for interior design. I also know how to work on budget and on time :-) I'm happy to help in anyway possible. There is a great website that I use. I think we probably all feel that right now is far too early to start planning. Whenever your ready (touch wood) send me a private message or just let me know and I will be in touch and do whatever I can to help!
@kimb311 what happened at the doctors? FX everything went well
Baby Girl 12.9.15
MC 4.7.14 @ 21 W - Turners Syndrome
BFP #1 April 14th, 2014 MMC at 17weeks with a baby boy D&E
BFP # 2 March 23rd, Rainbow Baby Boy Jayce Michael born 12/9/15
BFP#3 January 26th EDD October 9th! Hoping for my girl!
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She was also extraordinarily confused as to the dates of my pregnancy. It was so hard to go through and give them the date of my last period. I finally figured out that it was in the end of January, so then they got really nervous that I had such a small fetus. I had to remind them that I miscarried on 3/2... I even had to give them the date that I went in that my beta was back to zero for them to understand.
I guess one positive note was that she was (The attending labor and delivery Dr.) almost amused by the fact that not only was I pregnant naturally so soon after my m/c, but that it had been twins! And not through IVF! Ha. I guess that is pretty incredible.
The other thing that I'm thinking is that I wish that somebody that could afford to would buy a good portable ultrasound machine for the labor and delivery unit at my hospital. After all, it is a level one trauma center and one of the top hospitals in the country. I'm sure I'm not the only person that has gotten extremely nervous from such a crappy ultrasound machine!
All in all I can't complain, well I can't and I just did… But I'm pregnant now so that's what I'm going to focus on.
I especially wanted to thank you for posting that gif! It really brought my mood up and I appreciate it more than you know! You're very special and I appreciate you so much!
Baby Girl 12.9.15
MC 4.7.14 @ 21 W - Turners Syndrome
I have been so excited about this baby but I've had a hard time showing it because of last time and we haven't told many people at all. My due date is December 6. Kinda freeky since both were unplanned.
So, long story to say... I started spotting last night. Or maybe bleeding. Kinda in between flow of what I think I would call either. Sorry for TMI. Anyway. I wasn't going to see my doctor for the first time until June 5th but I called and they said they will see me at 1:45 this afternoon. So that has given me a little over 6 extra hours to freak out.
Sorry for laying that out there, I know that my problems are mild compared to what most of you have gone through. I know it's tottaly selfisch to ask but, please say a prayer for me today.
That you all so much!
Thank you!!!
Thank you!