I know even before I post this I need not be this hard on myself but will post it anyway..
Im not on social media anymore and a friend from high school sent me a pic of her 100 lbs weight loss with a lot of muscle tone and while I'm happy for her, i feel like crap about myself.
I'm 10 weeks in about 15 minutes and while I am not sick or nauseous anymore, food is gross. I love vegetables and healthy food generally but it's so nasty. Major food aversions have been my nemesis.
I'm not my best self these last 5 years and have gained weight I have been struggling to lose 25-30 lbs. Now I'm pregnant and can only gain 20 lbs in total. I'm fine with that too, i dont want to "eat for two" but have been living off carbs trying to get through this first trimester.
When i got pregnant i was eating little carbs for about 7 weeks and was just starting to experience some weight loss. I know i cant lose weight and am willing to eat whole foods from all food groups as soon as I can desire them....i just dont want as much processed carbs like bread as i have been having but if not i have nothing to eat besides fruit and eggs, the only other thing I can tolerate.
Besides that, I want to take long daily walks with my dog but cant with 6-7 feet of snow outside. I have a gym membership but havent been going....want to get there but haven't made it there yet.
I start my new job next week and since i will start at noon, my plan is to go to gym to spend at least an hour there moving my body before work..i know i shouldn't beat myself up and not put so much pressure on myself but my friend sharing her success and my hormones are not making this easy for me....
Re: Feeling guilty and feeling bad
I'm sorry you're feeling down. Babies are such a blessing and the weight will come off... later. Don't compare yourself to a non-pregnant weight-lifting woman. Try not to compare yourself to anyone. Be the best you that you can be.
# try it out I got mines on aliexpress for 30 bucks I'm definitely putting to use after this baby lol