Also, @SPurp13 , switching to 85% formula feeding has made all of us in my house my happier. You are not a failure. My milk supply sucks and now that my baby can be satisfied life us much easier. I will give him formula and then let him nurse for comfort. Hopefully you find what works for you.
Like pp have said. You care way to my to be considered a bad mom. You are a super awesome mom because you care so much. Big creepy Internet hugs.
@Syllessa still keeping you and Alex in my thoughts. I can't even imagine how awful this must be for you guys.
I am so confused. I got something from Blue Cross saying I owe $3500 somewhere....but my hospital actually billed the correct insurance for my C-section and everything...so I don't know what BC got charged for... (this is what I get for my insurance switching on 10/1 and delivering on 10/2...).
You probably got an explanation of benefits if they might have billed BCBS in error initially..you could call them to double check
It officially snowed at my house in mid Michigan today. I messaged my mom (across town) so she could watch out for it and she told me to stop it. I'm clearly no Elsa.
I got home from the eye doctor (no retinal tear but we have to watch it and go back in December), and fed her. Well, she sucked on my boob. I'm not convinced she ate. But she didn't scream. She's so perfect and this is all so hard.
I have a few more tricks I want to try over the weekend (pumping more often, power pumping, etc.). In the middle of the day, I tend to have a clear head about this. It's at night and early morning that I feel full of despair. If I see no real improvement and am not pumping at least half of what she needs, we are done Sunday night. It's what our goal originally was. I can make it that long.
We are going to pick up dinner and I'm returning things to target (breast milk bags actually--I'll buy them again if there is some miracle). Just riding in the car out of the house makes me feel so much better.
Spent $57 in target. Went for pacifiers. Fuck target.
Got coldstone and dinner to go from Bob Evans. The girl had to put my ice cream in a larger bowl to fit the whipped cream. Another girl piped up and said "if you have to put it in a larger bowl you gave her too much." I said, "I have a 2-week-old baby in the car. I deserve that ice cream. Mind your own business." The original girl gave me extra punches on my punch card. She knows what's up.
5 cycles of "TTC" - 3 intentional, 2 not so intentional. 5 BFPs. My rainbow arrived 10/15/14. TFMC 08.02.13 at 19+ weeks. Everyday I grieve for my little Olive.
@SPurp13 I hope you take the time each day to go out a little. You can tell you are in a better place after going out. No matter what decision Sunday brings know that you did everything in your power to make it work and that is the only thing that is important. I hope tonight has a better outcome. ((hugs))
My husband said the same thing. Tomorrow, we go to the grocery store.
I'm really excited about going to Sam's Club to activate memberships on Monday.
Just tried dangle feeding to work out what is likely a plugged duct. That was a workout and my mom was laughing at me so much she had to leave the room.
Dh just left to take Layla trick or treating. I decided not to go because it's pouring rain and cold/windy outside and I just don't think it's smart to bring our 5 day old newborn out in it. The guilt and sadness of missing it though is killing me.
Sorry- have to vent for a sec. After all the shit my DH said to me last night while LO struggled and fought going to sleep, I have spent the whole day questioning my worth as a mother. I know we are dealing with 3 week growth spurt and apparently colic, but the ahole really has me upset. I should be putting him in his place instead of thinking i am worthless. The lack of sleep and day full of LO crying has messed with my mind. My mom came over tonight which was great. Wish she didn't work 6 days a week so I had some help. Babies are not easy, esp with ahole DH.
I am so ready for bed, and LO is wide awake! I knew I was in trouble when he slept pretty much all day long. #-o
Same here! Although I was just reading on the September board that moms are worried about their breastfed babies sleeping too long (6-8 hour stretches) and this gave me great hope!
Long sleep stretches come and go, in my experience. The great thing about infant sleep is that if you don't like it, it will change soon. The bad thing about infant sleep is that If you like it, it will change soon.
I am so ready for bed, and LO is wide awake! I knew I was in trouble when he slept pretty much all day long. #-o
Same here! Although I was just reading on the September board that moms are worried about their breastfed babies sleeping too long (6-8 hour stretches) and this gave me great hope!
Long sleep stretches come and go, in my experience. The great thing about infant sleep is that if you don't like it, it will change soon. The bad thing about infant sleep is that If you like it, it will change soon.
Yeah mine will typically sleep 6-7 hours. Not last night! Go figure.
@pnwlover12 sorry you didn't get to go trick or treating
We got a break in the rain, so I decided to bundle up little brother and walk our block with her. Then her and dad drove to a development by us and really racked up the candy!
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Like pp have said. You care way to my to be considered a bad mom. You are a super awesome mom because you care so much. Big creepy Internet hugs.
@Syllessa still keeping you and Alex in my thoughts. I can't even imagine how awful this must be for you guys.
@Syllessa hugs for you and adorable baby Alex. Praying for you guys! I hope they fix him and he's back to his normal baby self soon,
Take him out? Like, take him somewhere without me or out in the 40 degree weather? Either way, answer is no.
I have a few more tricks I want to try over the weekend (pumping more often, power pumping, etc.). In the middle of the day, I tend to have a clear head about this. It's at night and early morning that I feel full of despair. If I see no real improvement and am not pumping at least half of what she needs, we are done Sunday night. It's what our goal originally was. I can make it that long.
We are going to pick up dinner and I'm returning things to target (breast milk bags actually--I'll buy them again if there is some miracle). Just riding in the car out of the house makes me feel so much better.
Got coldstone and dinner to go from Bob Evans. The girl had to put my ice cream in a larger bowl to fit the whipped cream. Another girl piped up and said "if you have to put it in a larger bowl you gave her too much." I said, "I have a 2-week-old baby in the car. I deserve that ice cream. Mind your own business." The original girl gave me extra punches on my punch card. She knows what's up.
TFMC 08.02.13 at 19+ weeks. Everyday I grieve for my little Olive.
Seeing as though it peaks at 6 weeks and tapers off by 3-4 months...
I feel this way too. Right when they stop being so slug-like, I have to go back to work.
Dh just left to take Layla trick or treating. I decided not to go because it's pouring rain and cold/windy outside and I just don't think it's smart to bring our 5 day old newborn out in it. The guilt and sadness of missing it though is killing me.
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Yeah mine will typically sleep 6-7 hours. Not last night! Go figure.