I'm pissed today. And my heart is heavy for our group. Seeing some of these amazing ladies get kicked when they're down makes me see red. So this edition of PMS Thursday is a rant edition. Feel free to let it allllllll out.
P- what made you want to face punch someone this week? (P is for punch)
M- what helps you calm your mind when you are seething? (M is for maybe I'll just lose my shit right now)
S- what would you like to say (without consequence naturally) to (insert offender here) when they do/say/act in their douchbaggery ways? (S is for STFU)
Fire away!!
(And if his post offends anyone I'm sorry, really. I dug deep and couldn't bring myself to come up with anything uplifting and motivational.)
Me: 36, DH: 36
DH's SA = normal
1 tube only wonder
AFC 3-5, AMH 0.30
BFP #1 3/29/11. EDD 12/4/11... Missed m/c 5/9/11. Cytotec fail. D&C 5/17/11.
BFP #2 7/5/11. EDD 3/14/12... Our rainbow Kellen born 3/14/12 via c/s.
BFP #3 5/30/13. EDD 2/8/14... 6wk u/s HB 126. 8wk u/s lost HB. D&C 7/12/13.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (
@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope all AL welcome. TTC #2 for 43 44 months.
Re: PMS Thursday - angry edition
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
M- what helps you calm your mind when you are seething? (M is for maybe I'll just lose my shit right now) Crocheting hats to donate to the hospitals for other stillborn preemies helps me.
S- what would you like to say (without consequence naturally) to (insert offender here) when they do/say/act in their douchbaggery ways? (S is for STFU)
M- deep breathing. And booze. Lots and lots of booze.
S- I would like to tell my coworker that she is a fucking twat waffle. She loves to remind me that "you can still do IVF!" When I confide in her that I'm feeling down and defeated.um yeah... Because I have 20K just lying around. And because there's a guarantee. idiot.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
We all have the same one... And there is no one to punch for that... So I did vigilante justice a gave the bird to a bus that nearly caused an accident in front of me ( he honked his horn at me, but I felt better bc he saw it and he knew)
M- what helps you calm your mind when you are seething? (M is for maybe I'll just lose my shit right now)
Passive aggressively effing w ppl in traffic... And pizza
S- what would you like to say (without consequence naturally) to (insert offender here) when they do/say/act in their douchbaggery ways? (S is for STFU)
Know your audience, don't ask people with a history of loss shit you can look up on google. Don't pretend to be stupid to get out of trouble.
Also, use your damn turn signals and don't get in an effing lane you have NO EFFING BUSINESS BEING IN!
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
All of the losses on this board this week really upset me. My heart goes out to you ladies.
M- what helps you calm your mind when you are seething? (M is for maybe I'll just lose my shit right now)
I like to just be alone. Have a little quiet time to myself to gather my thoughts.
S- what would you like to say (without consequence naturally) to (insert offender here) when they do/say/act in their douchbaggery ways? (S is for STFU)
This week, if IF were a person, along with losses, I would definately be throwing some face punches!
First off- not everything is about you, not is it about your need for attention.
Second my reference was actually toward MY friend who gets ku'd at a drop of the hat stupid shit like "how long does someone have to wait after an ectopic- oh wait- how long did you after yours?" And then a minute later how long did it take for my daughter's twin to no longer show up on ultrasound.
So, get over yourself. Oh, and ask anyone on here, I really don't check pm- mobile is a B and end of story- glad you recognize your bitchy actions when you hear stupidness.
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
I did tag you several times letting you know I had PMed you. If you didn't check them, you could still have responded in thread.
I'm not asking anyone to like me. I was asking for the passive aggressive comments to stop. There is a difference.
And seriously, no one has mentioned a problem but you.
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
I love Percocet....actually I hate it but it's better then being in excruciating pain, I guess.
I will say PO, STFU and GFTO to this week. Now I'll go to TO....
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
GET OVER YOURSELF!
Kthxbye....
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
Now I want cake, haha ;-)
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
aaaaan with that, no more angry edition hahahahahah
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
followed by a WTF face. Then I laughed and laughed, bc estrogen is being nice this cycle.
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
M- listening to Christmas music or taking a hot shower where no one can hear me crying, writing in my journal
S- "If you haven't lost a child/children or the ability to have them, do not tell me how I should mourn and grieve! It hasn't even been a month...I'm still adjusting to our new reality, it's raw, I'm mourning that I should be 9 weeks tomorrow, I'm hanging on by a thread and it takes every ounce of strength I have not to burst into tears every second. Me being devastated over our losses doesn't make me love my girls less!!!"