So, where to even begin.
I apologize to anyone that is going to feel personally mislead or wronged by this, not my intention. I had slowly started telling people who I am when I came to trust them, they know who they are.
@lindsrockies @nellybluth you were next, sorry I didn't get that far. I have much love and respect for you two.
@byegurlbye hates my ass (for understandable reasons) and will stay on the bump until she's 99 years old if it means keeping me off this site.
I mean, fair enough REDACTED, fair enough. I pissed you, Kiki, Banks, GM, (insert all regs and newbs at the time here that thought I was legit saying I didn't like Grads posting on TTGP) off because of something I said and it hurt you. Got it. (I mean I still kind of don't get why you'd jump on that bandwagon seeing as how you knew I lurved you guys and knew your situations when it came to NTTGP. I guess it was my bad because I worded my post pretty ignorantly.)
The Librarian AE. Super dumb, I admit it. I've talked to
@scrappylika on Facebook about how I wish I would never have done that because I was trying too hard to impress regs such as
@byegurlbye and
@thekikimonster. I mean, obviously, it was based off of something that you two showed me. I thought you two were the fucking bees knees and thought it was awesome we got along. You're two bad ass chicks with a similar sense of humor to me. The Librarian, aka my stupid ass, hurt some people, and I really didn't mean for it to be that way.
@Rocknroll64 I never meant anything by the alien ticker comment. I was just making shit up to "read". Your DD is freaking gorgeous, so many congrats!
@SnakeFisherBub , I said something fucked up. Although it was something that was discussed in chat between me and two other regs, I shouldn't have said it. Ever. Not fucking cool. If you want I can show you some super fugly selfies of myself, because I'm not hot shit and had no place to say anything at all. Even if I were a model, no excuse for what I said to you. I was a bitch, absolutely. You are such a sweetheart, and did not deserve it. Again, I was trying to please the "cool kids" and failed. I had never been a part of an online community before, and figured since it seemed like High School, I should have acted like I did in HS and do stuff to please the popular crowd. (It didn't work out for me then either and caused more trouble than what it was worth. I should have realized acting that way again wasn't going to get me anywhere different.)
I would like to address that also, immediately after me being banned, someone or multiple someones were using Lovely and TheLibrarian as a sn and logging into chat harassing people. I never did any of that,
@scrappylika was one of the people to tell me that happened way after the fact and although I unfortunately can't prove it wasn't me, I would hope that most of you would realize that people would do shit like that.
Calling
@whocanitbenow the C-bomb. Yeah, numerous people have done so. That was the icing on the cake for
@byegurlbye ,rightfully so. I did violate the TOU. Blatantly. I was acting like a cunt myself, and got what was coming to me. I just lost all sense of right and wrong because I was being a douche and thought that's why the cool kids were cool with me. (I also never, ever went back in to re-add "c*nt" into any of my posts, which is why Beej let me back after she researched it (it took her like two freaking months....it was super sucky. Then when I came back it pissed
@byegurlbye as well as numerous others off and they went and called Beej out on it. Which, okay whatever. I get that too.)
I was stupid, hurt people, pissed people off. Unlike what
@tealowl (it was really nice meeting you BTW! congrats again on being KU) said, I wasn't really using TB as my punching bag, I was legit just trying to fit in with the right crowd. Knowing I was going to be TTGP for awhile, awaiting IF testing and treatment, I figured I should get in with the regs. I find much of what those ladies say to be hilarious, and agree with most of their opinions on things. So it wasn't like I was just fangirling with no regard to what they ever said, I respected them and what they stood for.
I learned a hard lesson, and now have a huge target placed on my back because (as well as others, I keep referencing REDACTED because I know she's the captain behind my call out, based on a snap chat I received from her yesterday taunting me) will be damned if I set foot here, as well as will never accept an apology from me. No matter what I do.
Now to address some shit that others said in those threads,
@pintobean Never did I ever claim to be pregnant. I would never fake a pregnancy, ever. So I'm sorry if someone played me and claimed otherwise. That's really fucked up whoever did that shit. Faking being KU'd is not my style.
These two didn't say anything in that other thread because Kiki is probs working and
@bankerbsn is busy being KU'd but I want to say that I never intended to upset either one of you. I truly like you both. You're hilarious, wise, and genuinely good people. Kiki reached out to me one UO or FFFC about a personal issue I was having in my relationship and I felt so welcomed and gracious to have someone reach out to me like that. Banker, you're awesome and I am IRL stupid happy for you and your H for adding a LO to your family. You deserve it so very much.
There is so much I want to say, but I really don't know how else to say it. Opinions have been formed, and I know that Darcy and Slapps have jobs to do. I figured I'd make this enjoyable as what I'm sure will be my last post. I don't have any other ways to make a screenname on the bump, so I'm out of options. Unless I finally buy that Mac I've been wanting......JK we're about to be broke as a joke with IF treatments starting in a couple weeks.
So I guess that's all I have to say guys. I'm sorry I "hid" behind this screenname. TBH, I'm fucking scared shitless to be starting treatment. Like, no one I know has any clue about any of this and have no help or support. My in law's think I'm Godless for seeking medical help...and my mom thinks I can't get pregnant because I'm fat. So TB was my place for information and support. I fucked it up, not looking for sympathy, just giving you the answers you deserve. That's why I came back. Not to hurt or fuck with anyone, not to lie about being a surrogate and try to fuck someone I didn't like over (good job crazy pants that I will leave nameless because I still want to obey TOU while I'm here).
I will answer any questions via PM while I'm still unbanned, snap chat, or on Facebook. If I get banned before you have time to talk to me, I give
@batmacy permission to give you my info via PM.
I think that's everything.
Now to finish my papa johns sweet chili chicken pizza.
(insert gif of papa john and peyton manning tossing pizza crust)
Re: Who ever thought ice cream would be a tell all? #coldstoneftw
TTC #1 8/2012~Chronic Pelvic Pain Condition began 10/2012~Told I was crazy by many doctors until a good specialist DXed a labral tear and bone impingement in left hip 4/2013~Surgery on left hip: 5/31/13 SUCCESS!!! Pain flares to continue indefinitely (but mostly gone).
Resumed TTC 6/2013~Chronic stomach pain and distension: 8/2013~TTA 1/2014 Until Resolved ~7/2014: Trip to the Mayo Clinic--SUCCESS!! Finally on the road to getting better.
Resumed TTC 7/2014! Third time's the charm....8/2014 Visited the RE~DX: MFI/low morph~Straight to IVF with ICSI! 9/2014~Transferred 1 perfect beautiful 6AA blast with 10 to freeze!!!~10/8/2014: BFP!!!! EDD: 6/17/15 STICK LITTLE BEAN!!! IT'S A BOY!!!!!
DS born Oct. '11
TTC #2 with PCOS since Nov. '13
Dx: Low Progesterone (3.3) on 8/12/14
Waiting for RE appointment on 10/28/14
Surprise BFP on cycle 12 -- 10/19/14!
EDD July 1, 2015
That's fucked up. And yet not the most fucked up thing you've done/said on TB.
S/O Leave @batmacy out of this ladies, please. Just because she's my best friend does not mean she is responsible or at fault for any of this. (I'm not saying anyone feels that way, but I wanted to put it out there.)
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BFP#1 7/13/11 EDD 3/16/12 DS born 3/16/12
BFP#2 5/16/14 EDD 1/23/15 CP 5/21/14
BFP#3 6/25/14 EDD 3/2/15
If it wasn't you then you would not have continued that conversation on hangouts and pms via Macy with me. So go ahead and keep lying, but this ones not debatable.
DS born Oct. '11
TTC #2 with PCOS since Nov. '13
Dx: Low Progesterone (3.3) on 8/12/14
Waiting for RE appointment on 10/28/14
Surprise BFP on cycle 12 -- 10/19/14!
EDD July 1, 2015
DS born Oct. '11
TTC #2 with PCOS since Nov. '13
Dx: Low Progesterone (3.3) on 8/12/14
Waiting for RE appointment on 10/28/14
Surprise BFP on cycle 12 -- 10/19/14!
EDD July 1, 2015
I'm just confused!!!
Formerly Aaren91011
I do have to say I'm stragely satisfied that there was at least some resolution here.
Team Purple!!!!
shit.
crazy.
TTC#1 since May 2012. Low AMH, High FSH.
Factor II (Prothrombin) Mutation
TTGP Award Best PIP 2013 & 2014
My Chart
TTC#1 since May 2012. Low AMH, High FSH.
Factor II (Prothrombin) Mutation
TTGP Award Best PIP 2013 & 2014
My Chart
Formerly Aaren91011
Now I feel kinda stupid about my story about the chocolate ice cream, peanut butter, Choc syrup, and Reese pb cups that they have there.