It took me half of the day to realize that both Owen and I were wearing the same clothes as yesterday. I'm pretty sure my shirt has dried puke and pee on it. It's been 8 hours since I made the realization and I still haven't changed.
Hubster came home and had an anxiety attack because I had been napping hard and he couldn't get ahold of me. I can't do this. I have nobody to help me. I feel so freaking alone. I can't have any needs because they're just a burden so they go on the back burner. Merri needs me and that's all I can focus on. I'm starting to take all of this stress out on myself with negative, self defeating thoughts. I want to run away but I can't and know that won't accomplish anything. Crap in a hand basket this is rough. Sorry for the all-over-the-place rant.
Oh @PoppySeedWindsor that is rough. Has your DH sought professional help yet? It sounds like he may need some. In no way should you be dealing with him like that. And your needs shouldn't be on the back burner. You need to take care of yourself just as much as you need to take care of Merri.
@Emily041285 he was getting professional help when we lived in Portland and has said he will start again. He makes me feel like the bad guy because I suggest...and now demand...that he gets help. I can support him but I can't be his therapist.
@Emily041285 he was getting professional help when we lived in Portland and has said he will start again. He makes me feel like the bad guy because I suggest...and now demand...that he gets help. I can support him but I can't be his therapist.
You're right you can't. He's wrong to make you feel like the bad guy but if that's what it takes to get him to seek help then so be it. He needs it not only for himself but for the ladies in his life.
@Emily041285 he was getting professional help when we lived in Portland and has said he will start again. He makes me feel like the bad guy because I suggest...and now demand...that he gets help. I can support him but I can't be his therapist.
You're right you can't. He's wrong to make you feel like the bad guy but if that's what it takes to get him to seek help then so be it. He needs it not only for himself but for the ladies in his life.
This is very true. Thank you for chatting so late at night. I think I finally got the LO asleep. She's on my chest right now. If I didn't have freaking heat rash id let her stay on me, but I should put her in her bassinet. I should also go to our bed but I'm having a hard time wanting to. I want to use her as an excuse to stay out on the sofa. So you know, that's good...already putting my daughter in the middle of our shit. Bleh.
Fingers crossed, but we may have had the most seamless night feeding yet. It appears that DS fell right back to sleep after!! Ask me in the morning if he stayed asleep or if it was too good to be true....
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Not bad baby girl! Almost 5am and only 2nd wake up of the night! One at 1:45 and now just waiting for her to finish eating so I can change her. We are getting the hang of this nighttime thing!
Aiden finally just passed out after his 4:30 feeding... On me... I just can't figure this kid out - his sleep "schedule" is so screwed up I have no idea how to help him get back to good!
This is the picture of a happy mom that slept 8 hours and a tired baby that kept daddy up all night... And then threw up on him this morning for good measure. Bahaha, sweet redemption...
So much pain when LO initially latches on. Keeps getting worse. I know it's supposed to get better at some point. I need that to be now...
Oh, and it was too good to be true- DS was a faker and would NOT go back to sleep. Ended up having to ask DH to help, then he couldn't fall back to sleep. When he finally felt tired enough to come back to bed (4:45), DS needed to get up again. DH offered to feed him, but I reminded him that if he did he wouldn't get any more sleep before work. Ughhhhhh.
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
So much pain when LO initially latches on. Keeps getting worse. I know it's supposed to get better at some point. I need that to be now...
Singing my song...and now I think I have mastitis. Pure. Fucking. Misery. Like to the point I was sobbing and cursing a blue streak at 230am.
My only advice? Get with a lactation consultant ASAP if you continue to feel a lot of pain. I was waiting until our regular appointment Friday and after last night had to come in this morning at 730 and just beg someone to look at me. I was having noticeably more pain on the left than the right...and that's where I think I have mastitis now. Don't let yourself get to this point!!
So the other morning I told my bf that I'm the happiest girl in the world because I have the two most handsome men in my bed. His response: girl you a freak. How can I not be happy when I have this going on pretty much every morning?
Only took 13 days for DS to try and "help", and subsequently drop DD despite my yelling "NO!" Repeatedly as I ran around the couch to stop him. Thankfully she was in her bouncer and didn't fall very fall. Oy.
Oh gosh. Glad everything is ok. At least it was a fall because her big brother wanted to help and not because he was a jealous toddler lol
Its not even 10 am and I'm already done with today. My house smells like dog crap, dog had diarrhea while I was gone this morning, and I have appointments this afternoon so I wont even be home long enough to get everything cleaned up. Pretty much feeding Logan right now then have to get DD from school....then I wont be home until 5pm. I'll be lucky if I even eat today.
~Missed MC at 8 weeks. D&C at 12 weeks on 4/17/13~
WWRTT do?
My DS likes to sleep with the blanket up to his mouth. Mostly he likes to bring his hand to his face. When I move the blanket he wakes up. I only let him do this in the daytime when I'm around and always check that he's breathing. Would you leave it or just wrap his legs so he doesn't do this?
DD likes to do that, too. It makes me very nervous so I swaddle her under her arms (keeping them free) so the blanket stays away from her face.
Last night SO had LO while I was pumping and she was screaming away. So of course he lays in bed with her cramming a pacifier in her mouth, which didn't work. So as soon as I'm done pumping I ask what's wrong with her "idk she's just fussy" so I pick her up snd start soothing her, get a burp and then sweet silence within a minute. Is it bad I get joy out of proving he's doing things wrong? Oh well. I'm sure in 16 years she'll love him more than me, I'm soaking this in.
Why do my boobs look so good? Then I peed on a stick...
Only took 13 days for DS to try and "help", and subsequently drop DD despite my yelling "NO!" Repeatedly as I ran around the couch to stop him. Thankfully she was in her bouncer and didn't fall very fall. Oy.
Won't be long till she is rolling down the stairs! Good work.
Only took 13 days for DS to try and "help", and subsequently drop DD despite my yelling "NO!" Repeatedly as I ran around the couch to stop him. Thankfully she was in her bouncer and didn't fall very fall. Oy.
Won't be long till she is rolling down the stairs! Good work.
Get out of here, snail. No one wants you here with your stupid ass comments. Get a life.
Wife to A; Mama to C (2009), N (2011), H (2014) & baby F due 09/16/16
Only took 13 days for DS to try and "help", and subsequently drop DD despite my yelling "NO!" Repeatedly as I ran around the couch to stop him. Thankfully she was in her bouncer and didn't fall very fall. Oy.
Won't be long till she is rolling down the stairs! Good work.
I'm so confused how you went from being irrelevant to kinda funny, to trying to start drama and then just being an asshole. Is this another group thing? Because it makes no sense to me.
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Me: "ummm ok, I don't think that'll help"
(an hour and 45 minutes later still awake)
Nothing puts a kid to sleep like comfort sucking on the boob and I just wasted an hour and 45 minutes of my life.
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We have emails for both kids as well. Several of my friends have seperate FB pages for their kids.
A14 Siggy Challenge (November): Favorite Fall Smell
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
Oh, and it was too good to be true- DS was a faker and would NOT go back to sleep. Ended up having to ask DH to help, then he couldn't fall back to sleep. When he finally felt tired enough to come back to bed (4:45), DS needed to get up again. DH offered to feed him, but I reminded him that if he did he wouldn't get any more sleep before work.
Ughhhhhh.
BFP #1 May 20, 2013 MC June 27, 2013 BFP #2 August 2, 2013 Baby Boy born 4/25/14 (3 weeks overdue!)
April 14 August Siggy Challenge- "This time last year.."
My only advice? Get with a lactation consultant ASAP if you continue to feel a lot of pain. I was waiting until our regular appointment Friday and after last night had to come in this morning at 730 and just beg someone to look at me. I was having noticeably more pain on the left than the right...and that's where I think I have mastitis now. Don't let yourself get to this point!!
@thomas930 - good luck with cleaning and make a sandwich to take for later
Then I peed on a stick...
I'm so confused how you went from being irrelevant to kinda funny, to trying to start drama and then just being an asshole. Is this another group thing? Because it makes no sense to me.
It also makes me feel like a momma dog with her little puppy. It's all so strange