Ladies...I'm here. I'm keeping up with you guys, reading everyone's news and clicking some "love its" while I've been trying to keep my head on straight. This past month has been CRAZY at work, I've traveled a ton with work and my state dietetic association. I was in Houston for days and I've just been exhausted. I've basically been "mobile bumping" for the most part in between flights and lectures and clinics. Just been on long enough to keep up to date with you friends, but not really long enough to respond to many things or post anything of my own. Things are calming down now, but October gutted me away.
Thinking of you all...congrats to all of you with great news and (((hugs))) to those that have gotten sad news. Whether good or bad, your words haven't gone unnoticed by me.
Here's my update:
I started Clomid yesterday (CD3) so our last DS IUI will be sometimes in 10-12 days or so. This is it for us. If we're supposed to have a child after this attempt, God will have to wake up DH's swimmers and let one do work! I have the greatest husband who I adore and am completely in love with. We even like each other, very much. He cracks me up and makes my heart smile. It's not fair to our marriage to keep wanting something that may not happen, so I'm prepared to move forward and enjoy life with him. We haven't really enjoyed life the past 4 years, as I'm sure you guys have struggled with too at times, it's filled with appts, research, temperatures, OPKs, medications, injections all on top of your every day responsibilities. So, we decided if this doesn't work (and I"m hoping like heck it does) then we'll move on. I'll likely need some counseling because I'll just be angry, I know. But, I'll be ready to stop watching for AF to show because I'll expect her to instead of hoping she doesn't, then crying when she does. We're older, I'll be 39 in February and he's 44. I realize it's still plenty young to have a child, that doesn't concern me, what does concern me is missing out on more life with my husband while grieving something not happening every month. Make sense?
So...here's where we are with this DS/IUI...I'll do Clomid and ultra sound monitoring, trigger injection and start progesterone the day of IUI. We'll see what happens.
I love you all and am honored you were thinking of me...
This is too long, and I'm not "proofing" it...please look over any typos
IVF prep September 2013 cancelled due to Ovarian Cyst IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze) ET delayed due to OHSS FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!) FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN
Thanks ladies..It definitely hasn't been easy, and I know when the time comes, it will be even harder. But, I also know I'm hard and I'll shut down the emotions and enjoy a life with the hubs!
You made me cry reading this. I am new here but I just wanted to wish you the best of luck, I really really hope this is your turn.
Me: 35 low AMH, normal FSH DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test Normal SA TTC: since March 2012
09-21-13 start IVF #1 10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen 10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone waiting for FET 10-18 started BCP 10-29 baseline appt scheduled 11-20 scheduled date of FET #1 12-2 BFN
3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
April 2014- IUI#1 BFN May 2014- IUI#2 BFN June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
Thank you, @Lm92599 Sorry you have to find yourself here...I'm sure if you're intro'd, I didn't give you a proper welcome because I haven't commented much lately. I hope your stay here is short and I wish you the best!
So many of us are pulling for you! This one is the one, it just has to be! You are so strong to take your life back from IF. I feel the same way about my DH and sometimes I miss the way it was before we found out. DL girlie! I will be excited to read your updates!
Thanks ladies, for everything. For the kind words and for keeping the faith for me when it's sometimes so hard to do for ourselves. That's one thing (among many) I love about this group of women...I know on days I'm feeling defeated, you guys have my back and are standing in the gap for me. I hope you feel the same way about me.
Re: I'm here...I'm here...
Me: 32 H: 31
IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
ET delayed due to OHSS
FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN
DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test Normal SA
TTC: since March 2012
09-21-13 start IVF #1
10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
waiting for FET
10-18 started BCP
10-29 baseline appt scheduled
11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
12-2 BFN
3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
April 2014- IUI#1 BFN
May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
10-15-14 first ultrasound
06-05-15 EDD
Me-39, HSG 2/13- clear. DS-IUI #1-3/13,300iu Menopur 12 days,3 days Cetrotide, Ovidrel Trigger-BFN. IUI #2 06/13, BFP EDD: 02/22/14 m/c (cp), IUI #3- BFP EDD: 5/17/14 m/c 09/13. Blood work/RPL panel- nk cell/MTHFR mutation- negative. Blood work all good. Unexplained reason for m/c. IUI #4 BFP m/c (cp) 10/13. IUI #5- 12/13 Cancelled. No response. (1)follicle. IUI #5.1- 2/14. IVF Bound
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ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN
Hope work calms down for you.
TTC Since 12/2008; DH: 32, Azoospermia me: 33, DX during IVF #4: Low AMH (Normal FSH) / SER due
to IVF Meds (causing failure to fertilize) Recent DX: Hashimoto's, Lupus Anticoagulant, White Blood Cell Disorder
High ANA, ATA, & APA, PAI-1 Heterozygous= blood clotting disorder; connective tissue disorder
IVF w/ ICSI #1 2/2011 IVF w/ ICSI #2 5/2011 IVF w/ ICSI #3 12/2012 *New RE* IVF w/ ICSI #4 5/2013
IVF w/ ICSI #5 8/2013 (Natural Cycle- No drugs)- One follicle->one blast. CCS normal. FET 9/10- 6BB blast. m/c @ 5w
IUI #1 12/23- BFN IUI #2 Cancelled (ovulated during AF) Prep:CoQ10 (300 mg); DHEA (25 mg); Melatonin (3 mg), Folgard 2.2, Metformin 500 2x, Levothyroxine 50mcg, Aspirin 81mg w/ calcium, B12, Vit. D 4000 & Prenate Elite Daily; Cabergoline 1/2 pill 2x week- Cycling: Estrace Priming; Prednisone 10mg, Lovenox 40mg 2x, Femera & Menopur
IUI #2.1 6/30 & 7/1. 1st Beta: 90 (7/15); 2nd Beta: 226 (7/17); 3rd Beta: 766 EDD: 3/23/2015